"What the hell am I supposed to do?" I was overwhelmed by the sudden change. In this case, the most important thing is not to add to the chaos. So I stepped aside, for fear that I would interfere with Senior Sister Bai and Senior Sister Bai.

Senior Sister Bai's skills are better than Senior Sister Bai, but the wear and tear of presiding over the big array is even worse. On the contrary, Senior Sister Bai was a little more relaxed.

Although my sister is also trying to help, she still has the energy to talk to me. "The dragon fairy is your calamity, and it is also your treasure ship, you should know this. In fact, for her, you are the same. With the cultivation of the dragon fairy, coupled with the mysteriousness of the spell, there are few people in the world who can stop her. But because of you, she can't leave easily, so she was injured because of you, and it was also because of you who forced the injury and used her supernatural powers—you were her calamity. Childe said that the dragon fairy can not experience the catastrophe of heaven and earth, and her catastrophe should all be on you. To solve the bell, you must tie the bell, and it is all up to you to eliminate disasters and solve problems. ”

"What the hell am I supposed to do?" Senior Sister Bai said so much, but I still don't know anything.

"As I said, it depends on fate, and it may not work if you say it. Maybe it's a sentence, maybe it's an action, maybe even a thought. Who can say clearly what is going on in the dark? Maybe you just call her and she'll wake up. Senior Sister Bai said with difficulty.

"But what am I supposed to do?" The third time I asked this question, I was already anxious.

Senior Sister Bai didn't respond for a long time, and the two of them had no time to take care of anything else.

The clouds are shrouded, and they all look like fairies. I was like a flutter in the wind, and I couldn't help myself after it. In fact, human life is often involuntary, and what is visible or invisible makes a person round and straight. It is neither sad nor pitiful that people have to live as others think they are.

I'm always feeling sorry for myself because I'm always thinking about things that are beyond my ability. But since you are in such a world, you have to do something, is there some kind of foreshadowing or guidance in the dark?

The dragon girl's body was in a thick fog, and I couldn't see it clearly. The mist obscured my eyes, and at the same time my heart. Does being anxious to the point mean calm? I've calmed down anyway. I felt like I had never been so still, not even when I was meditating. Peaceful, but the thoughts in my heart are very strong - my heart is full of her! The thought was completely different from being immersed in her countenance, and I was more sober than I had ever been. Is this also a state of some kind?

"If I could, I would like to share my life with you; If not, I don't want to live alone. I whispered.

As if muttering to myself, my almost sworn decision seemed a little too light. Shouldn't it be shouted? Shouldn't the whole world know about it? Shouldn't you be hysterical like a mad dog?

That's it, plain, including the so-called love, including the impenetrable life and death. For everything that you can't grasp, it's good to face it calmly. Now that you've made your decision, why use the disguise of emotions to hide your fears?

I have escaped fear, the seven emotions and six desires are almost absurd, and the only real thing is peace. For no reason, I remembered the eastward flow. Dongliu always wanted to stand by and stay out of the matter, but I didn't think that I would learn all his tricks without realizing it. The world is so unpredictable.

"Senior sister!" Senior Sister Bai shouted in a panic.

"Don't worry, it's fine." Senior Sister Bai comforted. "You just have to fix your mind and preside over the formation, and everything is with me."

Senior Sister Bai is very calm and can deal with all kinds of emergencies easily. I already understand that the dragon girl's condition has deteriorated, but with the current situation, can it be worse? So my heart, which was as calm as a lake, became a dry well.

"Look, it's all you who broke the matter. If you don't come, nothing happens, and as soon as you come, something happens. Senior Sister Bai said to me.

She said this deliberately, as if she wanted to tell it as a joke. But I can't laugh now, and the embarrassment that is covered by the smile is far away from me. This is probably the realm of no joy and no sorrow.

Seeing me like this, Senior Sister Bai no longer concealed it. "The Dragon Fairy's injuries have worsened."

"Hmm." I replied. She doesn't have to say anything about the worsening of the injury, I can already see it clearly.

Senior Sister Bai: "The formation can protect the physical body and fix the primordial spirit. But there is nothing that can be done about the damage to the soul. As I have already said, there is a fate in the dark. The dragon fairy has not healed from her injuries and cannot wake up, as soon as you come, she will feel that there will inevitably be problems if she loses her concentration. ”

"I understand, my sister said, let me not come to visit. I now understand my sister's intentions. ”

"You're only halfway there. I ask you, if the dragon fairy had an accident, would you shed tears. ”

"Yes!" I replied without even thinking about it. It's a bit like me anymore. But after thinking about it for a while, I had to overturn my words and say gloomily, "No." ”

Senior Sister Bai seemed very surprised and asked, "Why?" ”

"I thought I might not be as good as an ordinary person for this kind of thing. Lamenting and crying is the most direct response, and at the same time the most reasonable, not to mention that she is already equivalent to the ordinary world for me. But because of that, I didn't have any tears.

When Zhuangzi's wife died, Zhuangzi sang with a drum. I don't know where life comes from, so why should I weep over where it wants to go? Maybe that's the real destination. The transience of life is too insignificant compared to the eternity of death. Maybe I should be happy for her. ”

"Is this what you really think?"

"Yes!" My attitude is still very resolute. But the next moment, he changed his words again. I felt very tired, as if a mountain was holding me down and I couldn't spare a moment. "It's not. There is no greater mourning than death. If she's gone, I have no reason to cry at all. ”

Senior Sister Bai shook her head and sighed, and said, "You still have relatives and friends, and you still have dreams to pursue. Why is it so short-sighted? ”

I stared into my sister's eyes and said, "Is this what you really think?" Senior sister, you should understand what I mean. ”

"But you still don't understand what I mean. Zhuangzi is a sage, and you are not. Others cry when they encounter sad things, why don't you cry? Unconventional, or sensational? Cultivators are no different from ordinary people, and the premise of great freedom is that there are great restrictions. Cry for her, the dragon fairy shed blood and tears for you, have you ever shed a tear for her? If you can't repay the debt, pay it back with tears! ”

"But I have no tears, and I am surprisingly calm now. Even have looked down on life and death. If something happens to her, I can go with her very calmly. But my heart doesn't feel bad about all this. ”