In the Western Chapel at 4617 South Las Vegas Avenue, Qu Shulei and Fu Yuanshan are looking at each other. The priest routinely asked the questions about the marriage of the newlyweds, and the two exchanged rings and did it hastily. They are now husband and wife, but according to Chinese tradition, they have not yet entertained guests, and this is after returning to China.

A different thought rolled in Shulei's heart, and she began to doubt and deny this marriage, which was approved by her mother for another thing.

Although she is not like her sister, who will listen to her parents in everything, this is not the result she wants. What she wants is to maintain, prove, and convince her parents that the man in front of her is the right person, and that this marriage is not a gorgeous shackle because of any additional conditions, but a blessing in freedom.

From childhood to adulthood, people are looking for something: dreams, talents, treasures, desires, The opposite sex or those memories of the past, it is still waiting for you in the distance, or it is right next to you but you turn a deaf ear and turn a blind eye, sometimes they suddenly disappear and do not know where they go, sometimes they suddenly appear at a time when you did not expect it, no matter what you are looking for, these things are driven by desire to what human beings want to get, or they must find what they want to destroy later, or, what human beings must get and need.

No matter what you are looking for, you will find it one day, but you can't predict the outcome of finding it, whether it will be good or bad, no one can say.

She didn't know whether her love with Fu Yuanshan was right or wrong.

"You are still young, what you need to experience is something you have not thought about, don't think that this is heaven because of the illusion of the moment, maybe it is just a mirage in the desert that cannot be connected. Her mother had told her before.

They held hands and walked through the manor in the church, and she wore a simple wedding dress, which her mother had brought from China to Yuanshan, from the hand of an old tailor in SH, and the pearls embroidered on it, one by one, like those memories she could not count with Yuanshan. When happiness becomes room temperature, you don't feel hot and you don't feel cold. Shulei looked into the distance, recalling the experience of that night.

Just last month, before her mom came to the United States, she went with her friend Natasha to a friend's birthday party. Friends' party was held in an apartment building near Brownsville, Brooklyn.

Several young people had a good time together, except for Shulei, there were two girls and five boys, all locals, and one of the boys was a Chinese man. Of these people, Shulei only knew Natasha. They indulged in music, a few boys were smoking marijuana, and Shulei was no longer surprised by such a thing, so she didn't care.

It was almost one o'clock in the morning, and a new boy brought a bottle of wine, and one of the boys became excited when he saw the wine, opened the wine and divided a total of ten glasses, and each of them drank one by one.

Thinking of this, Shulei no longer wanted to think about it, so she turned to leave. Yuanshan said, "What's the matter, don't you walk for a while?"

"It's too hot and a little uncomfortable, let's go back to the hotel. ”

"It doesn't feel like you're too happy. ”

"I'm too happy, and it's so hot, no matter how happy I am, it's evaporated by this temperature. Shulei spoke a little limply, "I don't like the desert. ”

"Then you still came here to get married?" said Toyama with a smile.

"I don't like New York either, I actually want to go back early......"

"Don't like it and rush back?"

"I'm talking about Shanghai, and I want to go back to Shanghai early. ”

The more Shulei thought about New York, the more she didn't want to stay, and she felt that New York had brought her indelible wounds, like a heavy cloud, weighing her down.

"But," Yuan Shan paused, "but your studies are not yet finished, and if you go back early, you won't be able to get your degree certificate." ”

"I can take a leave of absence and then I can continue to take credits if I want to go back to campus, and now I don't want to stay in New York. ”

"What's the matter? Unhappy or lonely there?"

"Yes, on the one hand, I don't like that place anymore, and on the other hand, I want to be with you. You see, we're both married, and we're going to be separated, which feels ironic and cruel. Shulei said as she walked, and they walked to the car after a while, and Shulei sat in the co-pilot, turned on the air conditioner, and felt much better.

"If you don't like New York, you can transfer to Los Angeles or Ferdo. Toyama started the throttle and said while reversing.

"I still like Parsons, but I don't like New York, it's not as good as I thought it would be. Moreover, our marriage this time is just two people swearing to God in the church, we are not Christians, God cannot escort our marriage, what we need is the red book of the Chinese marriage certificate. ”

Shulei really didn't know what to do with this kind of church marriage.

If people spend their whole lives thinking and preparing for happiness, then happiness will always slip away in such careful preparation and management. She didn't want to prepare, she didn't want to run, she didn't want to wait.

She just wanted to do it all at once.

Prove that the love he gave her is real and textured, like a comet crashing into the earth, not caring about your life or death, just for a head-on encounter.

"The marriage certificate is only a matter of time for us, it is just a piece of paper. We've been in love for seven years, and that's not enough for a piece of paper?"

"Yuanshan, I don't doubt our love, it's just that without the testimony of relatives and friends, I can't really be your wife. In the eyes of others, we are just a couple of lovers who talk about love, and I have enjoyed the title of lover for seven years, and I want to be your wife now. ”

Yuanshan was driving, but he was speechless about what she said. He turned to ask, "What are you going to do when you go back?"

He is afraid in his heart, this kind of family disparity, if Shulei finds a better job than himself because of family relations, the result will be that the control of the male animal in his heart will be unbalanced, if Shulei is willing to be a housewife, then his own pressure will increase, and he has no confidence in his heart to let Shulei live such a carefree life. Besides, even if the Qu family can help, as a man, he can't raise his head in such a family. He wanted to wait another year, his career would be more stable, and it would be too late to get married and live again.

"I want to open a wedding company, but I need contacts and experience in this area, so I plan to find a job in this area first, work for a year, and then open my own shop. ”

Yuan Shan thought, Shulei has already decided, so there is nothing to say, but there are still some things in the country that he needs to deal with, and when he thinks of this, he can't be at peace in his heart.

He took a breath and said, "Okay, are you coming back?"

"I'll go back with you, just next week. ”

Yuan Shan looked at her in astonishment: "There is no need to hand over the affairs in the school?"

"Just go back and register the day after tomorrow. ”

"Does your mother know about this?" asked Yuanshan after a moment's hesitation.

"If she knows, she will mess around for a long time, I will cut it first and then play, and she will not be able to do anything about me!"

The night sky of Las Vegas is so charming, but the outside is intoxicating. Shu Lei walked on the bed and wanted to call Shu Tao, but she dispelled this idea, after all, she was also the one who was about to go back, and sooner or later she would have to explain everything to her sister, but at this moment, she didn't want to trouble anyone in vain.

She turned off the bedside lamp, curled up under the covers, and turned around to cast herself into the broad, warm chest of the distant mountains.