Mom is calling to you, do you hear me?

Tie'er, the ruthless years have urged you to be cold and hot, and in the blink of an eye, you have been dead for three years! Every day, every moment, every minute, every second, in these three years, my mother is thinking about you! I think that my mother's heart is broken, and my intestines are broken, it is really indescribably sad!

Tie'er, my mother will never see you again! But your voice and smile are always imprinted in my mother's mind, my mother looks forward to you appearing in front of my eyes every day, but I don't even have a trace of your image in front of my eyes, my mother has to put your photos on the bookshelf, look at your photos every day, miss you every day, and reminisce about the past every day.

Tie'er, April 20, 2008, it was a Sunday, and it was raining. Your wife buys your dad a dress for his birthday, you cook a few dishes yourself, and the five of us happily have dinner, and then you board the bus and go out. I still vividly remember that you walked out the door with your bag and suitcase, and who knew that this time would become a permanent secret!

Tie'er, at 2:28 p.m. on May 12, your father and I were sitting on the bed, and we accidentally saw the water in the fish tank swaying up and down, and we subconsciously thought of the earthquake! Later, I heard about the SC earthquake, but where would I have thought that at the moment of the earthquake, you were already killed! I didn't have any telepathy at all, but I didn't know how many people who thought of SC were suffering!

Tie'er, after four or five days, your wife called and said that you went to SC on May 4th, and I couldn't help but worry about you all of a sudden, but I didn't realize that the problem would be so serious, and there were still illusions in my heart. But then, day by day, day by day you did not come back, day by day there was no news, and my heart became more and more worried and irritable. I called your phone, and it turned out to be turned off. Actually, you were already buried deep in the earth and rocks at that time, and where was the signal? Not to mention that you had stopped breathing? Later, your father called the hotline again, but there was still no news. Later, your wife called and said that your unit, Sunshine Zhidian Company, had sent someone to SC, and the news came that you were safe, but you were trapped in a certain mountain, and you didn't have to worry about eating and drinking, but you couldn't get out. I was skeptical. On May 20th, your wife sent your daughter Yeon-yeon and brought some clothes, saying that she was going to pick you up at SC, when in fact she already knew that you were missing, but she lied about picking you up for fear that we would be worried. Your wife has been gone for a few days without news. Suddenly, one day she called, and Yanyan asked, "Did Dad find it?" Your wife let go of the phone, and I felt bad, worried, I thought that you would die, but I was unwilling that you would die.

Tie'er, May 31, is Yeonyan's eighth birthday. Your wife has returned, and she has brought back bad news, and my heart is completely hopeless, so I have broken my liver and intestines, and I have shed tears.

Tie'er, as soon as you are killed, you will leave forever, Mom, I am very sad! I cry every day, no matter where I go, on the street, in the corridor, no matter what I do, mopping the floor, going to the bathroom, I can't stop crying. I'm calling, Tiezi, Tie'er, you died so pitiful and miserable!

Tie'er, according to the news, at about two o'clock in the afternoon of May 12, after you had lunch after the giant panda donation celebration, you took the car back to Chengdu to take the train home, and when you took a car of 17 people to the mountain road not far from Gengda, an earthquake happened, and the sky collapsed and cracked, and your car was buried by the soil and rocks from the landslide, and you were all buried alive in it. The scene of the sky cracking and the earth cracking is known only to you, and no one else can know. But you mother, I can clearly feel the terrible scene of your death at that time. All of a sudden, it was pitch black before your eyes, and when you realized that there was an earthquake and that you were buried alive, you can imagine how frightened, desperate, and sad your hearts were. Cry, you will. You will not die immediately, you are facing darkness, fear, suffocation, death, and suffering the most cruel and painful torture in the world! I don't know which day, which moment, which minute, which second, you swallowed the last breath of the world! Tie'er, when I think of this, my mother's heart is really painful!

Tie'er, after you were killed, people were very sorry, but also very sympathetic and pity us, your original unit Shifang Yongtai came to condolences and gave 10,000 yuan, your classmate Yao Chunhai also came to visit and gave 1,000 yuan, relatives and friends are even more so, your aunt, brother-in-law, aunt, fourth uncle, cousin Qian'er have come to BJ from thousands of miles away to visit us and inquire about your news. Your brother-in-law and your second cousin Dai Wei also went to the SC scene. Your brother-in-law gave up his job and stayed for three and a half months to help his wife with the funeral, and Dai Wei also gave us 5,000 yuan and bought a ticket to SC. Your second uncle came to BJ to accompany us for half a year, and your aunt and his wife often called to express condolences...... Colleagues, relatives and friends from my hometown have called to express condolences, in short, relatives and friends are saddened by your death and do everything possible to take care of and comfort me and your father, an elderly couple who have lost their children.

Tie'er, you unfortunately died in an earthquake, and you have left the world forever. You are just 35 years old, what a pity, it is just when you are in the prime of life, young and promising, but you died young! Mom, I know that you are ambitious, you are talented, especially wise, shrewd, and eloquent, I think you will make a difference, but what is hateful is that the heavens do not bless, but the tragedy that you have not encountered in a hundred years has made you stand up, and your ideals, future, career, and family have all come to naught. Your untimely death and the hopelessness of your future are truly heartbreaking and regrettable!

Tie'er, you are the only child of your parents, if you go, your parents will have no children, your father and I have reached the end of our lives but have no children, the biggest tragedy in life - the loss of a son in old age, how can it not make people feel sad and heartbroken?

Tie'er, for the past three years, Mom and I have been looking forward to seeing you, but where will I see you again? You were buried in the mountains of SC, it is said that you were buried in a col dozens of meters deep, and there were people who searched for and rescued you at that time, but after all, they did not succeed. Not to mention that I can't see your fresh life, I can't even see your remains! You are already a body and a mountain, you will never be left behind and will not be able to return home! Your death has caused your parents to lose their children in old age, your death has caused your wife to lose her husband in middle age, and your death has caused your daughter to lose her father at a young age, and all five of us have suffered the greatest misfortune in our lives!

Tie'er, I miss you so much! I can't see you, I can only meet you in my dreams. I have dreamed of you many times, when you were a child, when you were an adult. Every time I dream of you, you are so lively, strong, talented, and smiling, and I feel very relieved and very happy!

Tie'er, every time I think of your short life, the infinite sorrow in my heart is of course mixed with relief.

Tie'er, when you were three years old, you recited aloud "Kunpeng spreads its wings for 90,000 miles...... beside your aunt's kerosene lamp, attracting neighbors to come and watch; when you were seven years old, the rice cooker at home broke down, and you couldn't find your uncle, so you asked your uncle's apprentice to repair the rice cooker; when you were eighteen years old, you studied diligently and were admitted to an undergraduate university; when you were twenty-two years old, you graduated from college and came to BJ to work; when you were thirty-four years old, you were hired as a vice president of the company and strategized.

Tie'er, your life is short, but your life is hard work and self-improvement. You have no regrets in your life!

Tie'er, although you are gone, there is still your daughter, she is innocent and lively, smart and clever, she is the continuation of your life, she is also our only heir, we will cherish her even more!

Tie'er, farewell, if there is an afterlife, let's be mother and son again!

Tie'er, rest in peace!

(May 2011)