Chapter 5: Youth, Lost Years
The rational personality says: "The pain caused by this incident can only merge with one personality, and from then on he is you, you are him, and there is no longer any distinction between them." Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 infoAfter the fusion is complete, you ...... Or you, you have to make your mind strong as soon as possible! Otherwise, after a long time, we may continue to grow and split, causing each individual to take turns controlling the body, so that everyone will be finished!"
Song Baojun hesitated: "Okay, then who will I fuse with first?"
The rational personality said: "The current mind is too weak, and a tough personality like Ruthless and I will only make you confused in the real world and unable to develop better." ”
"Let's do it, I'll let him be like a fish in water in the real world, see girls pick up girls, see people cut people, and mix more freely than anyone else. "The lewd personality jumped out to speak, full of confidence.
The bloody personality said coldly: "Don't fight with me! Lao Tzu wants to go out to take revenge on the pair of dog men and women! The man picks off the tendons and tendons! The woman rapes first and then disfigures!"
"Don't be impatient!" the cold personality seemed to be the boss here, and said: "Let the obscenity go, the current state is the most suitable for him." The next one is bloody. ”
The lewd personality laughed happily: "Of course, I promise to make the mind become Van Gogh within half a year." ”
The artistic personality snorted: "If I had a hand, I would just shoot you to death!" Van Gogh is a madman in thought, do you want to kill everyone?"
The lewd personality said, "Just kidding, what are you anxious about?" Okay, let's get started, I can't wait to get out." ”
Song Baojun asked again: "You are talking nonsense, will there be sequelae after I fuse with so many personalities?"
The rational personality said, "Very well, being able to ask this question shows that you still have some ideas." Then I will answer that the fusion of personalities can lead to irreversible and irreversible consequences. All your youthful psychology, youthful feelings, and innocent love will never be there. ”
Song Baojun was stunned: "What's this?"
The artistic personality said in a very serious tone: "I don't think you understand it at all! Youth is the most magnificent time of human youth! Youth is the most beautiful picture in the course of life, a moving poem, and a pleasant and loud sonata! When we are young, we can be rampant, we can be proud, we can unscrupulously sway our youth, and let our love fly! Why do people always like to reminisce about youth when they are old? Because those are the most memorable years! A childish, confused, and dashing time! How can people not have youth?
Song Baojun was stupid again this time, and muttered: "Hearing you say that, I feel quite serious." So may I ask, if the youth psychology and juvenile feelings are gone, what will become of me?"
Rational personality said: "Then you will have the appearance of a twenty-one-year-old young man, but you have the vicissitudes of a forty-year-old middle-aged person, you can see through the world at a glance, and smile at the changes in the situation." You no longer have innocence, you will no longer be enthusiastic about some boring things, you will not become red because of a beautiful girl's words, and you will not be nostalgic about the ugly and ridiculous past. ”
Song Baojun gritted his teeth and said, "Okay, I understand when I hear you say this, innocence is really useless, hurry up and fuse." ”
"Are you ready?"
Song Baojun felt his mind nodding and said, "I'm ready." By the way, how can we talk like this in the future?"
"After merging with obscenity, his knowledge and experience will be directly reflected in your thoughts. Move quickly, your pain will slowly subside, and your body will soon wake up. ”
Suddenly, the light in his mind was magnificent, bright as blazing, like ten thousand needles and thorns, Song Baojun groaned in pain, and then he opened his eyes.
Fortunately, I slept on the bed decently, but the sheets seemed to be wet with sweat several times and dried again, emitting a pungent and rancid smell.
His body was weak and weak, his stomach was empty, and he cooed.
"How long have I slept ******? What a damn sheet!" Song Baojun rolled over and propped himself up, blurting out an inexplicable expletive.
First of all, I turned on my phone, and there were seven or eight missed calls in it, plus four or five debt collection text messages.
"Song Baojun, when will you pay back?"
"Song Baojun, you won't run away with the money, right? Count you ruthless, don't let Lao Tzu touch you next time. ”
"Song Baojun, if you don't come to school again, I'm really going to take your computer private!"
Song Baojun held his forehead and groaned dissatisfiedly, and said secretly: "Isn't it just a foreign debt of 1,000 yuan, as if you are guilty of such a life-urging ghost." ”
Looking at the time as usual, he couldn't help but be surprised, and the numbers displayed on the screen made him wonder if his brain had been turned into a mental illness.
It was noon on September 22 when I came home from the maple grove in a daze, and now it has become one o'clock in the afternoon of September 25th, which is exactly three days!
It's hard to imagine that I've spent so much time in a painful nightmare. No wonder the stomach is hungry like a dried corpse, and the sheets stink like a shroud.
It's a good thing that my parents and sister didn't come home, otherwise they would have to be sent directly to the incinerator when they saw themselves lying in bed in a deep coma.
Climb up and go to the kitchen to find food first.
His home is in Shetou Lane, Rose Street, Mingyang District, a small building in the early 80s, with two floors and a construction area of 80 square meters. The wooden window lattices are decayed and aging, the walls are mottled and peeling, the white lime has long turned gray and yellow, and there are naughty graffiti on the outer walls, writing childish fonts such as so-and-so I love you. The four sides reveal the atmosphere of the old times. He lives on the second floor with his sister and his parents live on the first floor.
The refrigerator was empty, and only two hangs of bacon were left in the refrigerator, so I had to wash two taels of white rice to cook porridge. While waiting, I went to take a cold shower.
Wiping off the water droplets on his body, Song Baojun stared blankly at the mirror on the wall.
The reflection in the mirror, as if it is no longer itself, but as if it is still itself, feels really contradictory.
You must know that this frustrated man's former image was pale, pitiful, inferior, and weak, and his face was always full of labels of "Come and bully me!", but now it has completely changed.
smiled slightly at the mirror, his eyebrows were extremely upright, his expression was bright and straightforward, and his eyes were frank and selfless, almost three points brighter than Li Xiangyang with thick eyebrows and big eyes in "Tunnel War". This temperament does not necessarily fall behind when it is pulled into the supporting role of "Red Lantern".
Song Baojun was almost stunned, what kind of plane was he engaged in? Why is it not obscene at all?
Stroking his face back and forth, the outline is still the same outline, the foundation has not changed at all, and I can't figure it out for a while: Doesn't it mean that I have fused with obscene personalities?
Temperament is really a mysterious thing that is difficult to explain.
As if sensing his heavy doubts, a lazy voice sounded in his head: "Do you feel that you are different?"
"Of course, it's pretty good, at least it's nice to look at. But if it could be the Tom Cruise model, I'd be grateful to you. Song Baojun hesitated slightly, and replied with thoughts.
The voice laughed and said, "It's not plastic surgery, it's just a slight change in temperament." Isn't it strange why it didn't get lewd?"
Song Baojun nodded hurriedly: "Could it be that merging with me is not obscene but an upright personality?"
"Actually, I'm a lewd, but my personality is the highest and greatest lewd personality. The voice said, "Why is this so? The real obscenity is never superficial, it is hidden deep in the heart, melts into the blood, and is disguised with 'frankness', 'sincerity', and 'sincerity', and only plays a role at the most critical moment." The kind of obscenity that can be seen at a glance is low-level. It can be said that as long as I don't take the initiative to tell others, no one will think I'm obscene. It can be said that as long as the person in front of me likes what temperament, I can change into whatever temperament. ”
Song Baojun thought: "Sure enough, it's the essence of obscenity, I understand a little." Didn't you say we're fused, so how can you still talk in my head?"
"The process of integration is very slow, it can be a few days, it can be a few years, depending on how strong your mind is. Before you are fully integrated, we can have a short exchange of ideas and mentor you. ”
Song Baojun looked at himself in the mirror, the more he looked at it, the more satisfied he became, and said casually: "Guidance, then tell me how I deal with the situation in front of me?"
The lewd personality seemed to have skimmed through his memories and said, "Let's go back to school first, I always have a way." ”
Song Baojun rubbed his chin unhappily and said, "I see that you are good at boasting." "I didn't feel that my words and deeds had changed a lot from before.
After eating two bowls of steaming white porridge, I felt that my strength had recovered a little, and I was about to go out of the house, when I suddenly saw a pack of "Heshui brand cigarettes" and a gas lighter on the table in the living room.
His father was an authentic smoker, and he started by consuming at least two cigarettes a month, and because of his family's living conditions, he smoked a box of Heshui cigarettes for six yuan. The cigarette was supposed to have been thrown by my father there.
Song Baojun never smoked, and at this time there was an inexplicable throbbing in his heart - yes, a sudden commotion - and he put the cigarette in his trouser pocket.
The sky outside was clear, the clouds were fluttering, and the branches of the camphor tree in front of the door were swaying in the autumn wind.
Unexpectedly, he was stopped by three young people, two men and one woman, at the entrance of the alley.
They are all young people in their twenties, and the first boy has a Lady Liberty crown hairstyle on his head, dyed in red, yellow and green, with bangs hanging down in front to cover half of his face, a nose ring hanging on the left side of his nose, and jet-black eyeshadow that can be distinguished from that of a panda. The pendants of the unknown brand on the body are layered on top of each other, shiny, and the brushes sound when they walk. In addition, his small foot crotch pants are also very eye-catching, the trousers are tight, and the crotch hangs all the way to the knees, and the overall look is very simple and elegant of the Indians.
The other two men and women have equally colorful hair and strange hairstyles and costumes. The three of them stood at the entrance of the alley, like a little red in the green bushes, and like mouse feces in the pearl eight treasure soup, making it impossible to ignore their existence.
Song Baojun was worried for a while, that was the famous "Kill Matt? Crazy Tyrant Family" in this alley, he had seen it a few times, but they didn't have much intersection with each other, only the year before last by the leading "crazy young man" who blackmailed fifty yuan and said that he was going to buy cigarettes, at that time Song Baojun rammed a car, and he didn't dare to say anything.
"Hey, that idiot boy in front, come here!" the mad boy raised his chin slightly with a half-cigarette butt in his mouth, and shouted at him with a haughty look.
Song Baojun hurriedly trotted over, thinking to himself as he ran: "Why do I feel a little nervous and scared?
A voice in his head shouted: "You haven't fused yet, you're excited, dare to doubt Lao Tzu's strength, look at how I clean up those three rat!"
Suddenly, Song Baojun only felt a white light flash in his mind, like a thunderbolt on the ground, illuminating the white expanse all around. By the time he reached the Kill Matt family, he had slowly regained his composure.
"Isn't this the most high-profile, high-end and high-grade Killing Matt family in our Chazhou?" Song Baojun didn't wait for the young man in front of him to speak, and then shouted first: "Yo yo, this style is really luxurious, the hairstyle is beautiful and dazzling, and it highlights the personality of the post-90s generation who does not yield to society in the weirdness, especially the yellow hair on his forehead, which is too sexy and stylish." ”
The three young men who killed Matt didn't expect him to shout such words, and they were all stunned.
In such a short period of time, Song Baojun saw the fragments of the three killing Matt in his mind before, and heard only a few words in his mind, which were originally just forgotten by his ears, but now they are all reflected in his mind. The broken information is concatenated one by one to form an intuitive representation and then a conclusion is drawn.
The self-named "Crazy Youth" in the middle, who runs a garment factory at home, has parents who talk about business outside all the year round, and he doesn't study after graduating from high school, and has been fooling around. On the left is "Brother Drag", a security guard in the mad factory, who heard that he came from the nearby countryside to work. On the right is "Sister Ba", a junior high school classmate of the crazy boy, whose family sells clothes in the night market, and often takes goods from the crazy factory.
Song Baojun couldn't help but be amazed at his sudden intelligence analysis ability, but now he didn't have the heart to be complacent, and continued to observe the madness.
Crazy Shao can be said to be the leader of the trio, I saw that the child's expression was frivolous, his eyes were wandering, his nostrils were facing the sky, and the "Aiqili" third-line clothing brand label on the cuffs was not torn off, but deliberately pulled out and exposed. I think I have a strong sense of vanity and a desire to fully express my personality, but I have a little inferiority complex and am eager to be affirmed by others. The makeup is biased towards black, and it seems that the pursuit of gothic style is pursued.
Song Baojun's nervousness was gone, and a sincere smile had been squeezed out of his face, and he said: "Crazy Shao, your dress is really outstanding, completely dark heavy metal, with a little bit of wildness, but the necklace around the neck has a little more vicissitudes." The smoky makeup on the eyes is simply the finishing touch, uninhibited, domineering, and the melancholy of confused youth is revealed...... Tsk tsk!"
Madness reacted, seeing that his praise seemed to come from the bottom of his heart, he said proudly: "You can see it too?"
Song Baojun gradually mastered the rhythm of speaking, and replied: "Yes, such a maverick, so sad and bright, so elegant and vulgar, it is difficult not to see it." I guess there is no one who can stop you, you are the trend of the city, the beacon of society, the spokesperson of fashion, and the forerunner of visual kei rock......"
His eloquent gesture with an honest and selfless expression, a thoughtful speech and an extremely honest look in his eyes, even more than Tom Hanks playing Forrest Gump, all tell the truth: his words are correct, there is no doubt about it!