Life is always full of illusions and contradictions, this is an eternal truth.

Although I was ashamed to express my desire to have a child to Yinzhen in front of Lan Si, after saying it, I realized that this sentence was a bit too much of Chiguoguo. Although my skin was still a little thick, at least stronger than the ancient women here, it was still very awkward to be stared at by two people so bluntly, so I threw Shushen back into Lan Si's arms, and fled back to my own room in a hurry.

I knew that I was destined to have only one son in my current capacity, and that he had only lived for eight years. I was depressed and wanted to roll on the floor, but I still helplessly lay on the bed and continued to be delusional. Contrary to the concept of inheritance here, I really just want a beautiful daughter, it is enough to dress her up and show off everywhere every day, I really have no interest in a bald boy.

No matter how fanciful my ideas were, they always turned out to be the opposite.

After more than a month of fuss and still no movement, I finally believed that there are times in life that need to be there, and there is no time in life to force it. Maybe this is God's revenge on me, crusading against me for giving up that child in vain, so I haven't conceived another one and a half for so many years.

I watched Shushen become more and more cute, and I repeatedly recited the vulgar old saying that people are worse than people, and goods are better thrown away.

Now I seem to have become such an incompetent woman who is not as competitive as Lan Si's stomach.

I lay helplessly in the yard, enjoying the crisp late summer afternoon, and decided to put this annoying plan on hold for the time being. Although Yin Zhen didn't say it, I could feel that he was also a little disappointed, so I didn't even dare to express my disappointment anymore, so I could only hide this matter in my heart and rot in my stomach.

"You're so laid-back. ”

I opened my eyes slightly to look at the dark shadow in the sun, and when I was about to raise my hand to cover my eyes, Yinxiang had already moved a few steps to block the sun behind him.

I smiled and said to him: "Thank you, it's just that you are also quite leisurely, what are you doing here so early, what about your kissing fourth brother?"

"As soon as I entered the door, I was stopped by someone, and I will arrive in a while. Yinxiang didn't mind my ridicule, only grinned helplessly.

I looked at the quiet courtyard and listened to the movement, and then asked Yinxiang: "Do you say that I broke it last time, why haven't I had a baby?"

Yinxiang frowned and faced me with an unreasonable expression, "If the imperial doctor didn't say it, it's not, don't think about it." ”

"Then why hasn't there been!, you know, don't lie to me......," I sat up, grabbed him by the sleeve, and asked.

"Something hasn't been right about you lately. Yinxiang squatted on the edge of the chair and looked at me carefully for a while, before he spoke again: "I haven't seen you find a temper in the past few days, but I am very worried...... You ...... Isn't it ......"

My face warmed up, and although my brother was the closest person to me, it was still embarrassing to talk about such a topic. I withdrew my hand and pulled the hem of my clothes, only to remember that since I came back from Yinzhen, I really haven't been to menstruation.

"Is it already there, don't you know?" Yinxiang couldn't help but ask out loud when he saw me blushing for a while, blushing for a while, suddenly realizing for a while, and suddenly excited.

"I don't know...... But if there is, why don't you feel dizzy or nauseous? I stared at my lower abdomen and finished speaking, and then I raised my head to look at Yinxiang, but I saw Yinzhen standing behind him, and the expression on his face actually changed several times, I guess there was a fight with what I looked like just now.

Yinzhen stepped in front of me in two steps, stared at my face and lower abdomen for a long time, and then reached out and gently picked me up, and said to Yinxiang as he walked into the room: "Yinxiang, please doctor." ”

I finally got my wish and became pregnant with Yinzhen's flesh and blood, and when I heard the imperial doctor congratulate him, I couldn't help but pull up the quilt and cover my head, laughing happily.

"As for being happy like this, it's really enough to start. ”

I lifted the quilt suddenly, only to find that Yinzhen had led the imperial doctor to stand outside to speak, so he whispered to Yinxiang: "I'm just very happy, just let you think of it when you say it, it's nothing funny, ten out of ten is a boy, not what I love, I was born to send you." ”

Yinxiang pursed his lips and hated iron and steel, and whispered to me: "Just say it, keep your mouth shut, let him hear it for a while, and when you are born, you will really have a son to die." ”

I covered my mouth and lay back on the bed, pulling the quilt back to my head in a sullen manner. I still willingly want to give birth to a child for Yinzhen even though I know the history, and it has finally become a reality, how can this elder who is both an uncle and an uncle not be able to say two auspicious words.

When I was hugged by someone on the ground, I pressed the resentment in my heart, and pulled down the corner of the quilt but saw Yinzhen actually closing his eyes and holding me on the bed.

The last time I knew I was pregnant, the boy who was so excited had completely disappeared, and the picture was so clear that it seemed like it had happened yesterday, and I tried to reconcile the figure in my mind with the quiet face in front of me, only to find that he had matured so much in the past five years that it was impossible for me to go back to the past before I knew it.

I know that he is looking forward to this child as much as I do, and even more afraid of it than I am, even though time has changed a lot of things for us, but that shadow has always existed because I have it in my heart. I put my face on his chest, took his hand and put it on my flat lower abdomen, and promised softly: "Yinzhen, this is our child, the child I really look forward to, I promise that he will be born healthy, and there will be no accidents." ”

Yin Zhen pressed against my head and nodded vigorously, the temperature in my hand passed through the clothes to me, and I even felt that the fetus in my lower abdomen, which was only one month old, was warmed by him.

~~~

Approaching September, the capital was already in the air of autumn, and I heard that Lao Kang began to prepare to tour Beisai to take care of military affairs, and specially brought the eldest brother, the third elder brother and the eighth brother to accompany him, but only Yinzhen and Yinqi, who had been injured before the war, were missing.

Since the day I was told by the imperial doctor that I was pregnant, I started a new inhuman life, all the food I could eat every day was what I didn't like to eat, and all the food I loved was guarded and not allowed to eat, and I couldn't move here or there, and I was going to suffocate people to death. At the beginning, I was still trying to have some fun, but I lost interest after being stopped by Yinzhen again and again, after all, people are not moths, and it is impossible to continue to put out the fire without a long memory.

So I began to look forward to Lao Kang going out every day, so that he could take away the fourth prince who he always brought with him. Now it's finally September and I'm about to leave, but this Kangxi Emperor is also considerate, and he doesn't even take Yinzhen to play this year! Although this time it's not for fun, but the manager of military affairs is such an important national event, how can he easily let go of Yinzhen, who is dedicated to the country and the people, his injuries have healed.

If you don't go, I will admit it, but Lao Kang took away all the older brothers, except for the prince, Yinzhen is the largest, and he should be so busy that he faints to death, but he can actually see the sky and the earth in the courtyard, sitting at the table with a book, and posing like a student who reads hard.

"Would you like to go out for a walk?" I leaned against the head of the bed and pleaded uncontrollably, hoping that he would disappear quickly and leave me alone for a while.

Yinzhen put down the book and walked to the bed, shook his head and sat beside me, but I was so angry that I pushed him hard, opened my mouth and choked and said: "If you don't go out, let me go out, lie here all day, and I will suffocate to death." ”

Yinzhen was pushed and shook by me, sat down on the edge of the bed before turning back to look at me, and persuaded comfortingly: "Don't run around, stay still." ”

"It's hard to run now, I just can't take one more step now. Call the doctor and ask me if you want me to lie down like this until the baby is born. I need a moderate amount of activity now to have the strength to have a baby in the future, do you understand?"

Yinzhen was a little stunned by what I said, I was busy and used a trick of affection, my eyes blinked and two tears flowed wet, I took his hand and leaned over, and said in a dumb voice: "Yinzhen, let's go out for a walk together, okay? If you are always lying in the house, you will be in a bad mood, and if you are in a bad mood, your body will be bad, and if your body is poor, it will be bad for your children......"

The corners of Yinzhen's mouth actually rose a little when he heard this, revealing a rare smile. This guy actually dared to laugh, could he be happy to hold me back like this!

Happily, I finally rushed out of the house and walked out of the courtyard.

This seems to be the first time I have walked hand in hand with Yinzhen in the palace, and I suddenly feel that this month's hardship is worth it.

Not long after walking out of the courtyard gate, I saw Yinxiang and Yinzhen coming towards me, how did these two people get together?

Before Yinxiang could speak, Yinzhen had already hugged his fists and said aloud to us: "Fourth brother, my younger brother was about to go over with the thirteenth brother to visit the fourth sister-in-law, but I didn't expect to meet here." ”

"Dismissed?" Yin Zhen asked the two younger brothers with a stern expression.

"It was just gone, and the fourteenth brother said that he wanted to come and see, so he came together. Yinxiang replied to Yinzhen's words with a smile, obviously accustomed to his indifference to Yan Sù.

Yinzhen called out to the fourth sister-in-law, and her hand was already stretched out to me, so frightened that I stepped back sharply, and Yinzhen quickly grabbed me to turn around and avoid it.

Yinzhen only smiled, and said disapprerovingly to me and Yinzhen: "Fourth sister-in-law, what are you afraid of, Eniang said that you are going to give birth to a little brother for the fourth brother, I just want to see where your baby is hidden, it doesn't look any different." ”

"Fourteen, your fourth sister-in-law is different from the past now, don't get too close, it's dangerous. This sounds quite familiar, my mind turned hard, and I remembered that Xiaobawang, who was only three or four years old, pulled me to silk flowers, and it seemed that Yinzhen had told me so at that time, but I didn't expect that time had changed, and now I have become the object of his protection.

Yinzhen glanced at his fourth brother, and said seriously like a little adult: "Fourth brother, you are too careful, Eniang said that it is good to be careful, but if you look at it like this, I am afraid that the fourth sister-in-law will also be sick, so I specially asked me to come and have a look." ”

You are really my reborn parents!

I suddenly felt that Concubine De's image was tall and full all of a sudden, and I turned to Yinzhen and said happily: "Look, you don't believe what I said, you always have to listen to what Eniang said." ”

"If Concubine De knew that the fourth sister-in-law was so difficult, she would definitely not have asked Xiao Fourteen to spread this word, and it is estimated that she would have to lock up your sister-in-law like the fourth brother. ”

Before Yinzhen could answer my words, there was a familiar tune from Lao Jiu not far away. The four of us turned our eyes to the place where the sound came from, and only then did we see Yinyu and Yinzhen leaning against a tree and looking at us and laughing.

"Yo, who should I be, it turned out to be Brother Jiu. What's the matter? The eighth brother has just left Beijing, and you have nothing to do, so you hide in front of a tree and eavesdrop on people's conversations. "If this dead old nine dares to ruin the good deeds of my arbitrary actions, I really have to show him in a hurry.

"Fourth sister-in-law, if people eavesdrop, they must hide behind a tree, how can it be in front of a tree? Brother Jiu and I didn't eavesdrop, we are standing here openly, and we have been standing here for a while. Lao Shi maintained the glorious image of his ninth brother without distinguishing between eyes.

"Yinyi, don't argue, my sister-in-law said that it must be us who eavesdropped, don't make my sister-in-law angry, our brothers can't afford it. Yin Yu said and opened the folding fan in his hand, shook a few times and walked in front of us, this look is really more feminine and handsome than in previous years, people say that the female college has changed eighteen, but I didn't expect the male college to become more and more beautiful, but his unobtrusive appearance is really angry.

I looked at Yin Yu, who was still shaking the fan in front of me, and said, "Don't fan, it's been a few months and I'm still shaking here, don't let me freeze my body, you can't afford it." ”

Lao Shi and Fourteen were laughing, and Yinxiang had already spoken: "The fourth sister-in-law is afraid that she will freeze her body, so let's go back with the fourth brother earlier, and then come out for a spin in Ming'er." Since the ninth and tenth brothers are free today, they will go up to me with the fourteenth brother to sit down, and our brothers can have a chat. ”

Seeing the four brothers turn around and leave, and were pulled back by Yinzhen, I realized that today's joy of going out ended too early. I THOUGHT THAT WITH THE 'MESSAGE' OF CONCUBINE DE, MY LIFE WOULD BE HAPPIER, BUT WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT THAT HEAVEN WOULD SEND THESE TWO BROTHERS TO DISRUPT MY SITUATION.

I pulled Yinzhen's cuffs, stopped and said to him seriously: "You have to talk." ”

Seeing that he raised his eyebrows and looked over, I continued: "You answered me to come out, and you are going back before a pillar of incense, I won't worry about you first." It's just that now with Eniang's experience, you are a person of love and filial piety, and you should know how to do it. ”

Yinzhen actually said to me, "Confucius is right, only women and villains are difficult to raise." ”

I was so angry that I really wanted to tell him that it was because of the evil wife of Confucius's second family that he made such wild remarks, and he couldn't afford to support his wife and son to resent women so much, but I remembered that this guy seemed to be very aggressive to Confucius after he came to power, so I suppressed what I thought in my heart, and only smiled and said to him: "The fourth master is right, but what does this sentence mean? The little woman did not delve into this, but I heard that this woman and the villain seemed to be talking about the maid and the subordinate. Some people also say that the word "woman" should have been split into a broken sentence, which should refer to the king's wife, concubine and son, and the villain refers to the king's favorite ministers, ministers, eunuchs, and the like. The last kind refers to the woman's heart and the villain's heart, but it should also refer to those who are not inferior when they are near, and they are resentful when they are far away. I don't know which one I committed today, but let the fourth master move out of Confucius to press me......" I sighed and stroked my hand on my lower abdomen and complained to him: "Even if it's like this, now I'm a woman, and here is a villain, just two into one, if you regret it, it's too late." ”

Yin Zhen shook his head and walked me back to the room without saying a word, and looked at me lying on the bed obediently, before he spoke: "I just said it casually and let you say such a thing, but now I really believe that the words of Old Master Kong are indeed true." ”

I just closed my eyes and replied casually, "It's true...... If Master Confucius knew about it, he would be angry and let you insult his original meaning. ”

~~~

The stubbornness of some people is not comparable to ordinary people, no matter what Concubine De said, how the imperial doctor instructed, no matter how much I played tricks, at most I could only hang around in the courtyard, and it was difficult to step out of the threshold of the small courtyard again.

It wasn't until Layue that Lao Kang seemed to suddenly open his mind, and finally assigned Yinzhen to Zunhua to sacrifice, and I had the opportunity to sigh 'I am at ease'.

In fact, at this time, it is impossible for me to do any activities out of the circle, and there is only one reason why I am willing to watch Yinzhen leave the capital - my belly has swelled like a small ball, it is really ugly, and I wish he would stay in Zunhua until I give birth and not come back.