In such a place on the brink of war, there is really nowhere to go.

Maybe Yinxiang doesn't worry about letting us float outside, maybe Yinzhen is very angry but has no time to take care of it, and maybe ...... In short, there may be too many for me to guess and unable to distinguish, and finally arrived in Xining, which I had been thinking about for a long time, a month after abandoning my "home" for the second time.

There is no beautiful Qinghai Lake, but the legendary army of hundreds of thousands is seen.

Where there are so many, it is not credible to spread falsehood. There are tens of thousands.

Yinzhen didn't say anything after listening to Yinxiang's words, but just slammed the cup in his hand out of the big curtain, rolled down into the snow with a ding, and disappeared silently.

No one mentioned the letter to Kyori anymore, no one mentioned anyone's fourth brother, just lived here and didn't think about anything. Live in peace and take care of your baby.

I rarely see Yinzhen, even Yinxiang rarely appears in front of me, Xiaoyan lives with me. In addition to opening the camp, he almost guarded his own small tent, and he did not leave the "house".

Occasionally, the sound of soldiers training in the distance could be heard, and the whistling wind would always blow snow into the curtain, and a small square of soft and fluffy blanket under the thick curtain of white cloth would be heard. Even the fifty-ninth year of Kangxi has been blowing so strongly, and the wind and snow are unhindered.

My belly was finally so flat that I couldn't see what it should be, and it gradually bulged into a small hemispherical shape when I was still young. There began to be movement inside, moving gently, making me feel the beauty and weakness of life.

There are no fireworks here, only deafening artillery, there is no prosperity in the capital, but there is the most pious yearning for life. Everyone wants to live, no one says it, they are worshipping with their own flesh and blood, in exchange for a peaceful and prosperous world. Those soldiers charged into battle, and the same voice always came out of their throats, louder than the sound of cannons, shaking the sky and the earth, and the mountains and rivers were dull.

At this time, there is always a strange silence in the lower abdomen, as if listening with me. Listening to those distant tears of blood and life about war, when they are quiet, they are always silent, and they need to be experienced with their hearts.

Nian Qianyao didn't appear again, just like he never appeared in front of me, and there was no such thing as delaying military rations, but life in the army was still hard.

Xiaoyan would always persuade me to eat more, and would smile and say that your food is the best in the whole army, don't spoil it. I understood what she meant, and tried to eat it all under her gaze, and then vomited it all out, and there were tears.

I can't control this repetition, and I even hate my own incompetence.

I'm grateful to Yinzhen for what I did, but my body can't bear it. I don't have to be clothed and fed, and it's not that I can't pick and choose, but my body doesn't allow it. It seems that the child in my belly is good at everything, and it tortures my stomach.

I never felt that I was wrong when I was alone, but occasionally I looked into their eyes, and I would find that except for the increasing bulge of the lower abdomen, the rest of the place was getting thinner and thinner, and the belly that was not protruding was surprisingly large and heavy. Rao is like this, but his hands and feet have become swollen, and even it has become difficult to breathe due to the terrain, and he always lies in the tent, except for eating and vomiting, and wakes up and continues to live like this. There is also a bowl of herbs that I don't know where they found them to be boiled into black and brown, I don't ask, I just take it and drink it forcibly, everyone is at ease.

Endured the pain, pulled the ring off, and twisted a thin red rope around his neck. I can't see it if I don't take it off, but I often have a very painful collarbone when I am half asleep and half awake, and I feel pain when I gasp for breath, and I suddenly wake up and can't sleep again.

My presence did not seem to have caused any trouble to the army, and they were still practicing and fighting. Fight and advance, advance and retreat.

There are always victories and defeats in wars, and there are many factors, all of which are the right time, place, and people. Although I don't appear in front of everyone to see the weather of victory and defeat, I can also sense from the morale that is always high that this more mature old fourteen has already been more than comparable in the past more than a year of training. All of them seemed to be within his grasp, and this war was already a foregone conclusion in his heart.

Every year in the first month of the year, there is always something new, and even in the far west of the capital, the army is ready to make a long journey to Murus Usu. I can't remember what this place was, it seems that memory has long stopped somewhere, cutting off time and even space.

Yinxiang explained that it was the junction of Qinghai and Tibet, and asked me if I knew about Tongtian River, and I was confused and said that I knew that Sun Wukong fought Tongtian River. He smiled and patted me on the head and told me to go back to sleep, like he was coaxing his child.

Sleeping day and night scared me so much that I almost fell down when I heard the long roar.

Everyone was gathered in the training ground, and the roar was like thunder from the distant sky.

I can't see it clearly from a distance, I don't know what they are doing, and I heard Xiaoyan say that Yinzhen wants to cut a fine work to set an example.

This kind of thing is not uncommon anywhere, nothing unusual, but Yinxiang is not

I don't know where safety is, and my heart is full of Yinxiang's legs. Layers of veil were wrapped around my right knee, white as if it were covered with snow, and my eyes were glazed.

"Fake. Xiaoyan whispered in my ear: "Otherwise, where to go back to Beijing, you must always make a show." ”

I couldn't tell which was true and which was false, and I just felt a pain in my head.

Yinzhen smiled and kicked hard at the white mass, Yinxiang quickly retreated to dodge, and the two big men kicked each other in the tent as if they were young, and they jumped and moved to make my home that had been quiet for a long time lively.

The good white yarn was dyed a little gray and black, and it was foggy and couldn't be seen clearly.

The two big men laughing and making trouble like this made my heart relax, but as soon as I saw him walk out of the tent and walk bumpy, my heart began to throb again.

On the way back we were crammed into the carriage and it was slow. Stop-and-go, delayed for more than a month before entering Gansu. I was afraid that I would miss their big event, and I was afraid that Yinxiang would not be at ease, so I had to endure it.

Yinxiang's right knee was always wrapped in those white yarns, and every time he changed his outfit it looked like the real thing. No matter how much he coaxes me to say that it is fake, I don't dare to beat it easily like Yinzhen. Xiaoyan grabbed my hand and touched it, and both of them looked at me and laughed, so I gently touched it with my fingertips and laughed too.

A lot of things suddenly rushed up, rushing into the head full but unable to grasp the clue, inextricably rushed around, and the heart panicked inexplicably. I lifted the curtain and looked out, it was already dark, and I could clearly hear the sound of the wheels turning and the horse's hooves kicking, but I couldn't see the road ahead, and even the scenery on both sides was shrouded in a dim moonlight.

The road is long, and its repair is far away. The road is always under your feet, and where is the end?

Once upon a time, the dream of the ends of the earth was a dream after all, or there was no need to think about it anymore, and it had already become a home everywhere that we have to face now.

Xiaoyan and I have gone so far, maybe we already knew that the result would be like this, but we still have to try our best to run to the farthest point of this plane. Because there are our relatives there, because only in such a distant place can we leave the prosperous world of the capital behind, don't want to, don't think about it.

Yi'an and Xingjiu ran ahead of us, taking care of the needs of the road, and they had already been arranged when they arrived at each place. The few people who accompanied me were the ones I had seen in the small courtyard in Lanzhou, and they were very fast, I don't know if they were Yinzhen's cronies or Yinxiang's, they never spoke much, they did whatever they were told, and they were full of soldiers.

We did not enter the city when we passed through Lanzhou again, and the carriage trotted forward slowly, which was not the same as when we left that day, but our mood had changed.

All the way to the mountain, winding up, zigzag down, day and night. From the cold winter to the spring breeze, the scenery along the road has not changed much, the melting ice and snow are only under the wheels, and the familiar white is still hanging at the end of the distant mountain, as if it cannot be touched. It's just that the clothes are thinner and no longer too heavy to bear, and the cold at night is no longer so unbearable.

I slept in a daze by relying on filial piety, and woke up with a movement in my hand. The two of them pointed to the short gun I was clutching tightly in my hand, and as if they were laughing, they reached out for me to pass it over.

The empty hand was pressed against the stomach, and I felt the movement inside, and my heart strangely calmed down.

Yinxiang stretched out his arm and lightly rested his hand on the back of my hand, warm. I watched him smile, and he smiled back at me.

"When you get to Shaanxi, you two will stay first, and I will arrange it. You just have to live and give birth to the child to take care of your body. I'll come back and see you again, soon. ”

Xiaoyan seemed to know that he lowered his head and didn't speak, so I answered and looked at him and couldn't say anything else. He was stunned for a while before replying, "You take care of yourself, be careful on the road, don't worry about us." ”

The voice floated in the carriage before it could disperse, Yinxiang squinted his eyes and didn't respond to my carriage, and slowly stopped with a cry.