"Yinzhen ......"

A thousand words seemed to rush out, choked in the throat and I don't know where to start, only tears are the most real, even if I bite the blood on my lip, I still can't stop crackling and falling.

He pulled the pen from my clenched hand and rewrapped my clenched fist.

It's like every time I wrap my arms around myself, it's still the same, but there's one more him. Behind you, in your ears, in every place, in front and back, left and right.

I was hugged tightly by him and leaned back in the chair, so hard that my bones hurt and reached the back of my heart. It seems that when it hurts there, everything else is ignored.

I didn't hear him say anything, and I didn't want to say any more, so I leaned on his shoulder and cried, no longer hoarse, only tears, and no more sound could be heard in my ears. The beams of the house swayed and swirled, flashing red and black, and finally fell into a dead silence of black, unable to see anything, and unable to think about the past that he did not want to revisit.

I can see him again, he can still hug me so tightly and let me cry happily, like a dream, and it is more real than those dreamlike encounters, I can't help but believe it.

"Yinzhen, I'm tired. "My voice is like every time I wake up from a dream, I am hoarse and dry, and my face is wet and cold.

There was a hum in my ear, very soft and close, but I couldn't catch it.

"Are you tired?"

I waited with bated breath for a long time, but there was no response, nothing.

I turned my head in a hurry to look, but I couldn't see it. The touch on my lips reminded me that he was there, close at hand, so close that there was no longer any distance.

The head was propped up, and he was still in the breath, and the whole room seemed to be the only one and only him, filling the whole sensory world of my senses. It's just that after retreating to the square inch, it is no longer close.

"When you're tired, just rest and get some sleep. His voice was equally hoarse, so withheld that I couldn't repair my heart.

How do you rest when your heart is tired, and how long does it take to get better after sleeping...... Is it enough in a lifetime.

The intertwined fingers had no strength to rely on, and only the Buddha beads remained in the palm of the hand.

In the darkness I lifted myself from my chair and leaned lightly against him. It's no longer the unbearable pressure of Fang Cai, it's like a sudden change of person, firm but lightly cautious. The breath on my face became faint and came and went.

His shoulders tightened under my hands, every muscle responding to my touch. A pair of eyes stared at me in the darkness with a strange light, and I was so startled that I pushed him away and shook his legs.

The arm below the knee socket was easily folded, and the muscles in the arm jumped abruptly, but the voice was so soft that the contradiction stopped my struggle.

"I'll carry you over, it's time for you to sleep. Nothing else. ”

His heart suffocated, and he didn't know whether he was relieved or what, he couldn't respond when he exhaled, so he walked slowly and steadily step by step and stood by the bed.

He laid me flat on the bed, took off my shoes, propped my palms up to my ears, leaned over the bed and pulled the quilt over me, as if he had suddenly disappeared and lost his sense of existence.

I propped myself up to grab it, and with a slip of my palm, I touched a piece of warm jade and held it in my hand. The bumps on it are still there, our names are there, and the surface has long been so rounded that we can't feel the hard edges and corners, only to know that the years have passed.

I heard him sigh, and it never went away, so that the night was all the more real.

"You're going back?"

His voice

"You want me to stay, don't you?"

"I ...... I mean...... Are you going back to Beijing?

The breath in front of him was broken for a moment, and it became lighter and slightly farther away. "Huang Ama will stay for a little longer, I came to say goodbye, I should have left a long time ago. ”

His heart was shrouded in darkness and I knew it best, and I didn't have to get close to it. I found his hand along my waist, gently held it, no longer stiff and cold, and quietly stuck to the side of the bed.

"Yinzhen, take me away, take me home. I miss you and want to go home. ”

He seemed to freeze and motionless, the back of his hand wet under my palm.

Without waiting for him to respond, I raised my head and whispered, hearing my own voice trembling, "Can you arrange it?"

"Yes. ”

With just one word, I closed my eyes with peace of mind, and drowsiness suddenly hit me and I couldn't support it. It turned out that I copied the Buddhist scriptures and copied them devoutly for more than a month, and all I wanted was such a simple word as him.

After a night of wind and early morning rain and dew, I looked at the empty bedside outside the veil and the desk in front of the rain window, and a page of rice paper with most of it written raised a corner. Halfway.

The support sat up, and the hand under the pillow groped back and forth, empty. Only a string of Buddhist beads at hand.

He always knew me, but I never defended him, but this time...... It's better not to look at it. Such a lost and frustrated heart, find it back and lose it, why take it away.

A smiling little face flashed out from behind the curtain, and walked quickly to Laifu in front of the bed, not saying a word just laughing, and when he saw me laughing, he got up and picked up the veil to let me see the light outside.

The rain was light and dripping, and it couldn't stop the sunlight from shining into the house.

Changing out of the dress that was sleeping heavily, she chose a bright red, just freshened up and stood at the table to watch him hold the words of the Buddhist scriptures written by my hand last night, and a figure holding an umbrella stood in front of the window.

Even though it was sunny and rainy, it would still splash wet, but he was dressed in white, and the clouds formed by silver silk threads flashed in the sun, which was very refreshing to look at.

No one opened the door, and he didn't move, just stood outside and looked at me, his thin lips slightly opened and spit out two words, "Come out." ”

Under the umbrella, Xu was because the rain was too light, I didn't feel cold or wet, and so did he. We walked beside each other and looked ahead, between the mountains and rivers, between the water and the clouds, still connected, the water surface shone with a little golden wave slowly pushed away, quiet and open.

The summer resort is indeed beautiful, at least the angle from which he took me is better than the previous one.

I leaned against the pillars and curled my legs, and he sat at my feet and looked into the distance, and the deep features of his side face were in full view. A fine line is now lighter than last year at the end of the eye, I stretched out my finger and tapped it, about to touch it to see it more obvious, even the tips of the eyebrows became softer with a slight curvature of the lips, but they never looked back at me.

He held the withdrawn hand, his thumb rubbing against the lines of my palm. The rain that drifted into the pavilion fell under his fingers, kneaded and pushed away, and the jade wrench fingers were soft and greasy.

The sun was raining down on the other side of the mountain, and as it was getting darker, he got up and stood in front of me and pulled me to my feet, his knees curled up and stiff with pain. I held his chest and stomped his feet, his head lowered to my face and looked at me with an unbearable expression, and whispered in his ear, "Carry you back?"

The heat blew into my ears, and I craned my neck to push him back, turning and stepping down the steps. The landscape in front of me became dim, just like last night.

I heard him come up and walk beside him, his hands empty.

The umbrella had brought us here, and we remained in the pavilion at this time.

When I returned to the room, I had changed, several boxes were gone, and even the scriptures on the table had disappeared, empty and quiet.

The girl just laughed, blessed the fourth master behind me, and watched it disappear.

"This morning I returned to the Emperor Amma, and we went home. ”

"Now?"

It's getting dark, where are you sleeping? Do you want to rush like this?

Puzzled, I turned to look at him, my hand was already nudging on my back, and I lifted the curtain and walked out.

The carriage was not in a hurry, and it was very slow, and the slight shaking made me sleepy when I sat down, but fortunately it was very cool in the evening after the rain and I did not have to endure the suffering of the sun, but fortunately he ordered people to prepare food and did not have to starve.

The crunch of the click startled me as I sat up straight and clutched the curtain, so dark that I couldn't even see where I was. A crack in the curtain was revealed, and the sky was full of stars.

"It's fine, just set up the board and let you sleep comfortably. ”

In the regular sound of the horseshoe wheels, there was no sudden danger, only a low and hoarse male voice was heard.

"Yinzhen?"

"Yes, Yinzhen. ”

Starlight was blocked out of the curtain, and I looked at the hand he held in my hand in the dimness, blew down the curtain and saw the light again, "The star is bright." ”

"July 7. ”

I sighed, lifted the corner of the curtain and looked out, "The clouds and the moon and the earth have passed, don't hate too much before the menstrual year." Every year there is a 7th of July...... At least once a year. ”

Cool hands slapped on my face, stroked me twice, moved behind me, carried me away from the window and sat in his place, familiar with the dull black, I watched him bend over and stand in the small space, neatly placed the several huge cushions I had been leaning on on the wooden planks that took up most of the space, opened the corner of the baggage, and turned it into a futon to spread on it.

I was carried up by him and put into the quilt, so soft that I immediately sank in.

He sat in his same position, staring at me intently, his fingers running through the hair hanging from my ear and the back of his fingers sliding down his cheek.

"There's no need to be so troublesome, if we are sleepy, we can stay overnight, no need to rush...... Are you in a hurry to go back?"

A low smile escaped from his lips, clearly echoing in the small darkness, "Where to find this area, you will be wronged." If they don't think it works, I'll tell them to stop. ”

I looked at his unchanged expression, and my inexplicable heart was put back, "How can you be so squeamish." ”

His face lowered as his breath drew closer, and his eyes fixed on me, "I'm afraid that you will find it hard, and I am afraid that you will not be able to stand it and want to go back." ”

As he spoke, his hand moved through the quilt to my waist, caressing him almost without feeling the weight, and his fingertips on his lower abdomen, swiping over to press the warmth and softness of the thin quilt against it.

Biting her lip and looking away, she was supported by the hot palm next to her face and looked at him.

This kind of silence makes me not know what to do, I can't hide, I can't retreat.

The hand on his waist was rubbed and rubbed harder, and the quilt was stretched behind his back, and only the clothes on his body were separated repeatedly, and his hand could be really felt.

"I've grown some flesh and I'm not so thin. ”

His voice was so hoarse that he needed to make out it, and his breath blew my hair on my forehead, and my lips fell on it, refusing to leave, from light to heavy.

Isn't it true that the person who used to think I was thin would say such a thing, and that I was thinner than when I left home?

I tried to ignore the hot marks he left on me, but I had to face it.

"Yinzhen ......" grabbed his more and more unbridled wrist, and couldn't pull it away, and the thin quilt and hands tightly wrapped around his body kept heating up, but he broke out in a cold sweat.

The straight bridge of my nose rubbed against my gentle touch, my lips fell on my eyes, I closed my eyes and wanted to turn my head, the whole person was already wrapped around his waist and hugged on his lap, half of the quilt rolled under the waist and couldn't break free.

"I was wrong, I know, I went too late. You blame me, I hate me, you don't want to see me, I won't appear in front of you. Yinxiang: They are your family, what about me? I look at you every day, I see you lying there without anger, I see you being taken care of by them, I see you being held in his arms, and I see you want to stay in that town that is difficult for me to go...... I hate myself. ”

I pillowed on his shoulder and listened to the words full of affection sink into my ears, and I grabbed the placket of his chest and couldn't stop trembling.

"I knew I had to hold back, I tried, tried to stay away from you, not to disturb your life, and let you choose the life you wanted. But no, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that you'll leave again when you're well, I'm afraid that you won't come back to me, even if you say I'm going home now, I can't believe my ears, I'm afraid I heard it wrong, I'm afraid you didn't think it through...... Smile, when we go home, I dream of this day but I dare not sleep, because only when you sleep can I be closer to you, and dare to stay by your side and look at you without scruples. But I'm afraid, I'm afraid you'll wake up, I'm even more afraid that you'll cry when you're asleep, and I can't do anything. ”

There was a long silence, and there was no whispering in the ear like a complaint. The arms behind me were so tightly clasped that I felt like I was about to pierce a qiē into his bones, feeling the beating heart inside.

It turned out that he had been all along.

This realization is heavier than one qiē, and I can't think of anything else.

Those dreams are all reality, and he is all the way by my side, and I have already cried to him in tears, and I have already let him see his thoughts clearly.

He jerked his hand up to his forehead and touched the edge of the silver-embroidered hat, his hand already scratching his face. The hot lips kissed in the palm of his hand, and the beard rubbed against it with a slight pain.

Close in front of your eyes, real to touch.

The nose, the eyes, the still tightly clenched brow, and the thin cheeks. Only those lips, as before.

When I kissed for real, I realized that it had changed. It was no longer the one who sucked and kissed without scruples, and he had never trembled so carefully, as if a temptation had fallen on the corner of my lips very lightly, softer than the snow in winter.

"Yinzhen, I'm back. Holding his cheek to look at the dark eyes that glowed with a ghostly light, he froze when he took a breath. "I know that I am willful, I will leave without saying a word, and all my mistakes and regrets cannot be recovered, but I promise that I will not leave you again. It's true, I thought it clear, you heard it right. ”

The heat on my lips seemed to respond, and the soft lips grinded against mine, and the palms of the hands held on the back of my head pressed closer to each other.

The fire burning on my lips seemed to awaken the memory in an instant, and the tip of my tongue licked and gently opened my unclosed mouth and went straight to the deepest part, not letting go of the slightest bit, and finally entangled my powerless tongue into his territory and sucked wantonly.

He was the man I used to be, and I always loved and thought of the man who was distressed.

The quilt on his legs was torn apart, and his hand reached in from under the hem of his shirt and directly into his underwear and belly pocket to touch his heart. In my grip, my heart pounded, and my lower abdomen suddenly twitched, as if in pain.

"Yinzhen!"

I pushed him by the neck but couldn't shake it off, and I heard him snort and leaned back, pressed into the soft cushion.

The carriage shook so frightened that I didn't dare to move anymore, my face was so hot that I didn't dare to make a sound, and I shook my head as if I was about to burst into flames.

The teeth grinding on the lips gnawed gently, and the suppressed heavy gasping melted between our lips and teeth.

His hands no longer moved around, and he pressed me to his side and leaned against his chest, the edges and corners that he could feel heaved violently. The fingers that were propped up to my heart reached along the line of my chest, hooking the hard ring hanging between my collarbones, rubbing it repeatedly.

"Don't be afraid, I know. I just miss you, I've wanted to do this for a long time, but I'm afraid that you will refuse, and I'm afraid of scaring you. Sleep, I'll hold you, hold you in my arms. ”