105. Understanding in the Heart III.
I bounced up from the chair almost immediately, this Su Changqing was drunk and teased me in the middle of the night. Although it is very likely, because it is impossible for Yinzhen to come back in the middle of the night, it is ......
The skirt was scraped by the branches and leaves, and before Yan Yu squatted down to untie me, he had already pulled it open, not caring that the corner of the skirt was scraped out of a long hole, and he grabbed it casually and ran towards the courtyard gate.
Where is the shadow of Su Changqing...... I stood in two small wooden doors that were slightly open, and through the gap I could see only a long black shadow. Only his face was frighteningly white, and his inky black eyes were brightened by the moonlight, like a few stars in another black night.
Like me in the door, Yinzhen stood there quietly, no one moving.
It wasn't until his right hand, which was behind his back, slowly stretched out and held flat in the air, that I leaned sideways against the wooden door and flashed out, walked up to him and put my hand on his palm.
Standing closer, he smelled the smell of earth, which was really familiar, and every time he came back from such a beautiful place outside the plug, he would inevitably be covered in dust. It made me feel distressed and happy - he was in a hurry to go home.
It's just that this time it's different, and I rushed back with stars and moons, well, moved.
Led back to the backyard by him, Gao Wuyong and Meiyu stood in front of the door in a regular manner, saluting and calling in unison, "Fourth master." ”
Yinzhen hummed through his nose and pulled me into the house and closed the door casually.
The candlelight in the room was bright, and I saw that the original dark robe had turned dirty gray, and my face was really very white, and my black braids were stained with soil, and I was afraid that it was all spent on the road in the first half of the night.
Grabbed his sleeve and endured the distress and whispered: "You sit down and rest for a while, I will ask them to prepare hot water for you, and it will be more comfortable for people to fall asleep after soaking for a while, or...... Rest first?"
Yinzhen let go of my hand and blew out most of the candles in the room one by one, and silently walked while unbuttoning the buckle by himself. I followed him to the innermost bathroom, only to see the steaming tub.
Turned to him and took the unfinished buckle, and couldn't help but sigh that this Xiao Gao was really caring, no wonder he was standing at the door of my room, but it was probably ordered by the fourth master of his family.
Yinzhen closed her eyes and leaned her head back on the wooden pillow by the bathtub, and I sat on the stool behind me to untie the dusty braid, and gently rubbed it in the small wooden basin. Seeing that he hadn't moved for a long time, I leaned over and whispered in his ear, "Will you fall asleep?" ”
"No, it won't. ”
Helplessly, she pursed the corners of her mouth and continued her work as a shampoo girl.
I don't know how Su Changqing flashed, and I don't know when he came back and listened outside the door for a long time, anyway, we didn't talk about anything that people couldn't hear. This look is probably tired, anyway, he usually doesn't talk much, so I'll assume he's in a good mood.
"Drunk?"
My hand that was trying to dry my hair stopped, and when I saw that he was still in his original position, as expressionless as before, I nodded and whispered, "A little." ”
"Hmm. The corners of Yinzhen's mouth moved slightly, and her voice was very low, "Can't sleep?"
Standing up and putting his hair on the stool with a dry towel, I leaned over and propped my head in his ear, looking at his face with his eyes closed, I don't know what to say, could it be that your little son is crying Baylor House, so I can't sleep quietly?
looked at him quietly and thought for a long time, before he whispered a little sourly: "Congratulations to the fourth master, I have another son, and the mother and son are safe." ”
Yin Zhen opened his eyes, and before I could see what was in his eyes, he had already raised his dripping arm and pressed it on the back of my head, so frightened that I hurriedly put my hand on his half-exposed shoulder.
The water slid down his fingers into my casually pulled up bun, and I felt a little clammy and a hot forehead. My eyelashes swept over his slightly moving nose, and when I looked at the straight bridge of his nose in front of me, I closed my eyes and my heart jumped wildly.
The warmth slid down his forehead over the tip of his nose and finally landed on his lips, and as the tip of his soft tongue swept across the corners of his lips, I felt his forehead rub against my throat gently, and I couldn't help but let out a low moan like a sigh.
The autumn night was extremely cool, but my body was damp and hot, and my brain was buzzing to open my eyes, and the black pupils were close in front of me, constantly expanding and gradually contracting. I sat on his lap with my back to the tub, two bare arms on my shoulders, wet with water, pressing the rim of the bucket behind me.
No wonder there was a dizziness, who could tell me how I fell in? How did he do it?
If you don't count the two voices of his um, this man who doesn't speak more than three sentences when he meets, no more than three words per sentence, and doesn't add up to ten words, still has the strength and interest?
I thought the man was no longer interested in intimacy between men and women, it seemed ...... No.
A sigh spilled from the corner of my lips, and he grabbed the tightness of his shoulder, most of his body against him to lean back into his original position.
Still in that position, his head still resting on the wooden pillow, except for the Adam's apple rolling up and down.
I could clearly feel his change through my clothes, the heat on my lap was hotter than the water in the bucket, but the man just held me and didn't move, his arms still wrapped tightly around my waist, making my body more close to him, but there was no intention of continuing.
With his arms around the back of his neck, he saw that his hair, which had been dried with difficulty, was wet again, and he reluctantly put his face to his ear, "You...... Said to be back in a month. ”
"Exactly one month. ”
"A day late. ”
Yin Zhen turned his head slightly to look at me, his voice was hoarse, "It's not dawn yet." ”
This young man with a wet face, his serious expression at this time is really different from when he is sitting in a precarious position, and he is more like a child who is eager to fulfill his promise than Honghui, who learns calligraphy on time every day. Unconsciously took out the tone of coaxing his son, patted his cheek and said with a smile: "If you go out again next time, don't rush back, don't be afraid of a day or two late, I can wait." ”
Yin Zhen grabbed my presumptuous hand on his face and put it on his chest, looked at me and whispered, "I will do what I promised you, and I won't let you wait." ”
"I know...... But if you rush back like this, I will be distressed, and I would rather wait two more days. ”
It seemed that he was satisfied, and the corners of his mouth that had been pursed for a long time finally began to relax, locking me as he slowly bent up.
With a soft thud, my slightly damp hair fell and soaked into the water, sticking to my face and his shoulders.
The slender fingers that slowly swam in the water took away the clothes that stood between us, and the hot feeling of clinging to each other made me realize that it was not only the heart that I missed, but also the body.
In the small space, the limbs were awkward but willfully entangled, because of the closeness that he hadn't seen for a long time, because of his emaciation, it became a little strange, but more enthusiastic.
The red candle tears are gone, the water is getting cooler, and the body and mind are heating up.
All action ended with a long sigh.
Lying on the bed, I was still gasping, and for the first time, I was almost angry because of what happened in the room, and I was on the verge of going berserk, and I even felt that he was deliberately manipulating me.
How can anyone create such a good mood that he can temporarily brake when I am so dizzy that he can do whatever he wants! Then don't carry me to the bed and throw me back into the bucket of cold water.
Maybe he was too tired, and I stared at him in the darkness as he looked into my sparkling eyes, which instantly covered a layer of darkness.
I heard him ask softly, "Are you feeling better?"
Obviously, he also thought, how many years have I looked at that look, how could it be wrong. But if there is such a question that he asked dryly, should I be moved by his compassion or just knock him to death, or tell him to "try it and know"?
"It's fine. The voice was so low that I didn't know if he could hear it clearly, so I turned away in shame and stopped looking at him, and pulled the quilt to bury my face.
Yinzhen lifted the corner of the quilt and got into it, sticking it to my equally naked back, wrapping his arms around my waist, but his hand reached out to my mouth and caressed it with his thumb.
grabbed his hand but couldn't pull it away, and whispered helplessly: "You rushed all the way back, it's hard, go to bed early, Ming'er is still ......"
"Ming'er is not going anywhere. Yin Zhen interrupted me and whispered in my ear, "Huang Ama will not arrive in Beijing in two or three days." ”
"Oh, that's good, you can rest in the house too. I craned my neck and whispered.
In the darkness, they could hear each other's breathing, but there was no conversation. Yinzhen lay quietly behind me, her warm palm pressed against my lower abdomen, which was still a little round and not yet fully recovered.
I complained, is this a legendary life disorder? It's been four months...... I don't care where this man usually goes, he should always have a place to go. Sleeping with me at night doesn't mean that there is nowhere to toss during the day, although there are not many women in the yard, but it is not so that he can't be exhausted.
I, who had never experienced postpartum depression, felt that I was about to be depressed, and I was striding towards that black hole.
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Su Changqing's routine consultation was changed to the study, Yinzhen sat on the edge of the couch and listened to Xiao Su and my questions and answers, and then left with him as usual. I looked at the two people standing opposite the window and felt uncomfortable, and I wanted to talk to Xiao Su a few more words, and ask him how to solve the depression in my heart, but he was an ancient man and not a modern professional psychiatrist, plus the source of my depression was guarded by the side, so I couldn't ask.
Yinzhen really stayed in the house for three days, reading and writing and reciting scriptures every day, and was pestered by Honghui to teach a few simple poems, which was very regular.
It wasn't until Lao Kang came back with his wife and son that he entered the palace to start his normal court career, and I inevitably followed him to greet my mother-in-law, and tried to put on a gesture of filial piety to my daughter-in-law.
Concubine De, as always, asked about the situation in the house, whether the children were good, and whether the women were well, but there was a question that made me blush and didn't know how to reply.
"This time he went to Saiwai, his brothers all brought Fujin maidservants, why didn't the Song family in your mansion follow her? ”
My face is not blushing, but holding my breath. I thought to myself that maybe I should have a woman waiting for him, and let me see who was wrong.
When a mother feels sorry for her son, the world can be expressed, but what should I do as a daughter-in-law? Knock out my teeth and swallow blood, and I have to make a special understanding in place," E-niang said that this matter is up to E-niang, and the daughter-in-law first thanked E-niang for the fourth master. As for Song Gege, it's not that the fourth master doesn't like it, but the daughter-in-law and Lan Si were inconvenient a while ago, so the fourth master specially kept her in the house to help her daughter-in-law take care of the affairs of the house. didn't arrange for someone to follow the fourth master to serve outside, it's really ......"
Concubine De raised her eyebrows and looked at me, nodded and patted my hand, and said with a smile: "It's good that you are born in peace, I heard that Lan Si also gave birth to a little brother a few days ago, but I am overjoyed, it is better to take advantage of this festive momentum, the palace and the emperor will talk about it, and add another room to the fourth child." Remember, many children and grandchildren are blessed with longevity. ”
"Yes, daughter-in-law understands. ”
I Caifu replied in front of Concubine De's couch, and heard the palace maid outside the curtain sing: "The fourth master, the thirteenth master, and the fourteenth master have arrived." ”
Concubine De waved her hand to signal me to get up, and a smiling face turned to the curtain.
Fourteen handsomely lifted the curtain and strode forward, walked straight to Concubine De with a smile, lifted his robe and sat down, called my fourth sister-in-law and said with a smile: "E-niang, is this chatting with the fourth sister-in-law?"
"No, there are days when I don't think strangely, it's just about some parents. Concubine De stroked Fourteen's palm and smiled lovingly, turned to me and continued: "Next time I enter the palace, remember to bring Hui'er, this palace really misses him." ”
When I agreed, Yinzhen and Yinxiang greeted Concubine De in a formal manner, sat down separately to take the teacup handed by the palace maid, and chatted.
Concubine De did not shy away from it, and directly told her fourth son what she had just said, and I sat down on the chair next to her couch and tried to smile gently.
"E-niang. ”
I didn't know what Yinzhen wanted to say, but I heard him shout and left his seat and walked to the front of the couch, and bowed respectfully before looking at Concubine De and continuing: "My son will talk to you for a while." ”
A fourth master who took the initiative to chat with his mother...... Not only do I not understand, but I don't think his mother understands either. However, Concubine De's reaction was very fast, she was only slightly stunned and then smiled again, and politely invited me out with Yinxiang and Fourteen.
Fourteen ran away with no rejoicing, and I stood in the yard with my head down, rubbing the ground with the bottom of the pot resentful.
"Feeling bad?"
"It's fine. I bit my lip and reluctantly replied, suddenly raised my head to look at the quiet courtyard, there was no one in the empty space, and then I pulled the handkerchief and whispered to Yinxiang: "You men...... How long can I go without looking for a woman?"
Yinxiang stared at me with wide eyes, like a monster, and his eyes rolled to Concubine De's room, as if he could pass through the walls. It took a long time before he pulled the corners of his mouth without smiling and replied, "It can be as long as he doesn't want to." ”
I felt that my face must be red and dripping blood, but I still endured it and continued to ask brazenly, "But, what if...... If you think about it, don't ......"
"Your man?" Yinxiang smiled clearly, his hand half-bent into a fist to cover his mouth to block the smile that made me angry, and suddenly looked at me with a stern face, "His self-control is better than that of ordinary men, so I believe what you say." ”
"I believe it too. Nodding helplessly, some words are really unspeakable, but if I don't say it, Yinxiang will definitely not understand what I want to ask, but in this era, I can only talk to him. In the entanglement, I didn't realize that I had already muttered, "Will it be ...... What's the problem?"
"If it's for you, there might be a reason......"
I just want to ask this, say it!
Yinxiang ignored my Chiguoguo's gaze, half-turned to look at the courtyard wall and whispered, "Have you heard, nine out of ten men will faint when they enter the delivery room, and the other may even lead directly to zhìED." He didn't faint or ...... For the rest, you can think for yourself, I'll go back first. ”
Seeing Yinxiang striding out of Yonghe Palace without looking back, silently.
It seems that I was really wrong, very wrong! How could I let an ancient man deliver me......
He couldn't have been depressed before me, would he?