When I was a child, I have been living in my grandmother's house, where the mountains and rivers are beautiful, I and my friends go up the mountain and down the water all day long, carefree for some time, to the age of going to school, playmates have gone to school, I naturally have to go, but I have encountered a setback, the school teacher said that although I am tall but the age is much younger than the children who usually play together, according to the regulations can not go to school, so I suddenly became lonely, bored and did not know how to face a person's life, there was a period of resentment against the school, I think it's this place that has taken my pleasure. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Once I was not far from the school to the mule and horse nail palm shop, see the lame man of the nail palm knife down very familiar with the mule this behemoth of the four iron palms nailed, and this person called Yang Shi in the face of everyone's praise is very indifferent, I think he should be a very capable person, so the next place as a stronghold of mine, a few days later, I and the lame Yang Shi familiar, he usually rarely talks to people, but likes to ask me some questions that I think are difficult to understand at the time, and then I understand, because I am a child, For children, ordinary people don't need to take too much precautions in their hearts.

Yang Cripple was about 40 years old at the time, and I didn't get confirmation from my grandmother about how old he was, and my grandmother said that Yang Cripple had been in prison, so as to scare me into not letting me run around without cover, I ignored this, and even thought that I could go to prison for a while to experience what it was like to be in prison.

Yang Cripple is not married, he likes to drink, especially like to squeak at the kerosene lamp, the only audience is me, except for the time when the mule and horse nails and even the delivery, he is not cared for here, I sit on his threshold full of reverence for him, behind him is the dark night, but I do not feel afraid, I think he is indeed a versatile man, dealing with tall livestock, and making musical instruments that others do not understand for three days.

One night Yang Cripple (I called him Yang Shi in person, I definitely didn't dare and couldn't say that he was Yang Cripple) finished playing the erhu as usual, and said to me Do you know the Taiping Heavenly Kingdom, I said that I had read the villain book, the Taiping Heavenly Kingdom are all peasant uprising heroes, all of them are big shots, Yang Cripple said nonsense sullenly, what the book said is true, do you know that Hong Xiuquan is because he was on the list of three times in the scientific examination is nameless, so he pretends to distort God to rebel, Hong Xiuquan has more than a dozen wives after the Jintian Uprising, and he will be the capital in the future, In the past ten years, there have been countless women who have been harmed, and his subordinates have done even more evil, what a hero, it's all bullshit.

I asked if what was said in the book was not true, so why should it be said in the book? What you say is true, where did you learn that? Who told you that?

Yang Cripple was silent, I felt that I had won in front of him, Yang Cripple said No matter where I knew, there is always something, a person with hundreds of thousands of women, can have the energy to do other things well? Then his original intention of rebellion is questionable. I said then you mean that the imperial court at that time was good, and Hong Xiuquan should not rebel?

Yang lame asked me if I knew what the theory of relativity was, I naturally didn't know at the time, he asked me if I knew Shi Dakai, I said I knew very much, he said that Shi Dakai was defeated and arrested, and he should be executed with 3,000 knives according to the crime, but Shi Dakai's son was about the same as you at that time, and he couldn't withstand the humiliation of 3,000 knives little by little, so the Qing government raised Shi Dakai's child until his body could withstand 3,000 knives, and then slowly and brutally killed him one by one.

I shuddered, and I felt horrified that all the wind and grass behind me had been ghosted.

Yang Cripple said that the Qing court represented justice and the people of the country at that time, so in the name of the emperor and in the name of all the people, it is just to raise a child and cut it with a thousand cuts?

I'm a little confused, I don't know which one Yang Cripple said is true and which one is false, Yang Cripple said that you are confused, just be right, treat all problems critically, so that you can at least make fewer mistakes. Aren't you disappointed because you couldn't go to school, I defended myself and said that I didn't, and Yang Cripple asked me what do you think is the purpose of going to school? I said that I should be as capable as my grandfather (maternal grandfather) when I read and read. My maternal grandfather studied in Sulian, and I heard him speak Русскийязык (Russian) fluently, and he could cross his hands, but he would have done nothing but bask in the sun every day at the base of the south wall in his black cotton clothes and pants, which were unchanged all year round.

Yang lame paused for a while, as if asking me, and as if muttering to himself, saying that you can live well if you have culture? I think Yang Cripple's sentence is very reasonable, because he, who deals with livestock all day long, has meat to eat and drink wine every day, while my grandfather, who has stayed abroad and gone abroad, can only eat steamed buns and pickles.

Yang Cripple then asked me a question that I still don't understand: What is education for?

What is education for?

I don't know.

What is the purpose of going to school?

This is not something that I can understand and understand at my age at that time, I will feel that everyone else is in school, and I will naturally have to go, and when I get to school, there will be someone to play with me, as for what education is for, what should education do, what does it have to do with me? Yang lame asked me, didn't your father tell you? I asked what all this was for, and what was the use?

Yang lame said, you must at least know why you do something, right? I said that's right, Yang Cripple said You remember, education is to cultivate three elements of students, first, independent thinkers; second, lifelong readers; Third, active participants in public affairs. And independent thinking is the first step.

I didn't understand what he said at the time, I just memorized it by rote, and after I repeated it, I asked if I had an independent mind, so should I go to school? Yang lame laughed.

After I got home, I found an opportunity to ask my grandfather Yang Cripple what he said to me, but at that time my father was no longer good, I said that my father said the east, and I was discouraged, and asked others that others said that my little chicken ba, all I thought about all day long, and said that I was stunned. Later, my mother remarried, I left my grandmother's house, and then went to my grandmother's house during the Chinese New Year, but Yang Cripple had already left, and it is said that he was a door-to-door son-in-law who went to a distant place, and then later, I never saw him again.

A few years ago, my cousin got married, I went to my uncle's house, in my spare time, I found that Yang Cripple took care of livestock in the house although the wall was broken but still standing, so I asked my uncle about Yang Cripple, my uncle was the militia company commander, he said that Yang Cripple would be delegated to the village, and there were several with Yang Cripple at that time, those young people were empty at the time and everything was not pleasing to the eye, but the rural work would not do anything, they had nothing to do all day long, there was a young woman who had a Shanghai watch, This will be very remarkable at that time, and now who has a luxury car of several millions, the young woman teased Yang Cripple and said that you eat the on the side of the road, I will give you the Shanghai watch, Yang Cripple didn't say a word, just ate the on the side of the road, at this time, the woman repented, she definitely didn't expect that Yang Cripple would really eat the, and he didn't give the watch, Yang Cripple was furious, according to the later confession, Yang Cripple wanted to bribe the watch to go back to the city, and the young woman had to say, then I will also eat a piece of, just pay it back to you, the watch is forgotten. So the young woman also ate another piece of on the side of the road. Unfortunately, Yang Cripple ate freshly pulled out feces, while the young woman ate old, which was poisonous, and it didn't work at that time, and when she was sent to the hospital, she was already dead. In the event of a death, Yang ran lame and broke his leg, but he was still sent to the public security organ. He was convicted of gambling and eating feces and causing death, and was sentenced to 15 years in prison.

The image of Yang Cripple collapsed in my heart in an instant, and I felt a kind of fatigue in my heart that had been deceived for a long time.

After my stepfather died, for a long time I was very tired of the ugliness of people treating each other, I was tired of my suffering and hearing everything about the world every day, I gave up on myself, I was dissolute, I was aimless, I was independent, there was a person who said to me, you can actually do better, but I am afraid that you will do nothing all your life, and boast that you are ordinary and precious, what you do, what you have, what you have experienced, people hate you, admire you, sympathize with you, but I hope I will never meet someone like you.

I have disappointed many people, I really don't care about the system, what truth is drowned, what unfair evaluation is made. I was most concerned about my academic performance, I thought the rest was boring, I was asking for hardship, I didn't want to live in the truth in pain, I was willing to follow the crowd, I was willing to live a life of ignorance and happiness.

But life always backfires.

So, there is this "Pass".

It is not my task to write a fictional character into a story and a story into a philosophical work, what I want to tell you is a real person, this person is flesh and blood, he will be angry and happy, he will be happy because he gets, he will be distressed because he loses, he will definitely be greedy for a small gain, he will be complacent because he gets the affection of a beautiful woman, he will be arrogant because he has risen step by step through hard work, and he will repay the person who caused his suffering, so I don't want to and dare not pretend in the book, I tried to talk about the truth of life in layman's terms, and I definitely didn't want to glorify Feng Zhe as a moral model and a hero in behavior, which was far from my intention.

For many years, once the organization was reformed, the number of personnel in the organs increased dramatically, and everyone wanted to come in and join the circle. Since you don't worry about hunger and satiety, in addition to the relationship between you and each other in your work, pondering people, pondering interpersonal relationships, pondering how to make yourself to the next level, is an inevitable thing to think about, no position and no power in the organ is insignificant, no position has no right to speak, there is a leadership of the youth is the premise that you have a position, but all this is easy to say, all want to rise, all want to get ahead, how difficult it is for people to live, everyone will be numb after a long time, they will idle others to ridicule themselves, and then continue to live, Continue with the oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea.

I envy those writers who have written and written, I know that my thinking has limitations, and I am not good at writing heroes and supermen, I am in contact with ordinary people in life, I have never seen who is a real hero in the world, the heroes I know are some people according to special needs to condense many things that happen in one person, or simply fictional spiritual sustenance, so for the heroes to make a book and a biography for the heroes has lost the foundation of my life, Therefore, no matter how high a person has a position or high social status, to me he is just a successful person in the workplace, but he is still a person who needs to eat and sleep first.

To be close to life and different from life, this is my intention to write the pass, the plan is to write three volumes, now more than a year of stumbling to complete the first volume, I responsibly told the readers that I don't know if I can continue to "pass", not to write is not my intention, but to write out whether you can meet with everyone, to meet the reader in what way, is not something I can control.

I would be glad if people could feel that some things are happening around you in this book, and that you have different reading experiences at different ages. Many readers have put forward different opinions on the content of the book, thank you very much for your criticism and advice, the jokes made by people in the workplace are often super jokes, some people say that they sit like a Buddha on the stage, like a monk in the office, like a thief in private, and become a bandit when they see interests, if they see a beautiful woman, it will become four dislikes, I hope my work will not make everyone feel that it is four dislikes.

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