The roses are fragrant all over the courtyard, and the flowers are fragrant. Even if no one takes care of it, it is still full of vitality, regardless of the sun and rain.

Nian's daughter finally went, and no one could keep it.

At the same time, the little fetus that had just formed in my womb also died.

On that day, the drizzle was scattered, the sun was full of sunshine, and an illusory rainbow hung on the horizon.

I didn't expect to be pregnant again at this age, but I didn't have such a strong physical reaction as before, and it was gone without me noticing.

The three of them didn't dare to express their distress or pity in front of me, and sighed in a low voice behind my back. I lay in the room and listened to it so well that I wanted to laugh but couldn't.

Whether it was an accident or something, I don't want to think about it anymore, it's gone. In this eventful season, he didn't come at the right time, and there was no need to let the entanglement and trouble be more.

It's rainy summer again, and whether it's happy or sad, time never stops or goes backwards. People who have been tossing and turning in the meantime have become passers-by in the torrent of history, interpreting their own stories or writing chapters. Some of them are known to future generations and become the talk of the conversation after dinner, and some are buried deep in the bottom of their hearts and turned into permanent secrets, sweet or sour, only they can taste the taste.

I've lived here for so many years, and it's ridiculous if I can't break it.

A drizzly afternoon

Xie Yu ran over and squatted next to the collapse in a few steps, took the spoon and kept laughing while picking it up, "The year is safe, auspicious." ”

"There's always what you say. He replied indiscriminately, moved his body to the ground, walked to the half-covered door and pushed it open, looked at the haze outside, leaned on the Meiyu who came over and pushed me back, and smiled casually: "How can there be so many unsafe and unlucky, I have nothing to do to drop a dish to curse and swear that I am doing well." It's just that she came to respond to the situation indiscriminately, as if it was a real thing. ”

Ruyi held up an umbrella to block in front of him, and a few white lotus flowers on the turquoise umbrella covered most of the darkness, embellished with some summer colors. "Fu Jin is right, ignore her, if you don't talk to someone for a few days, it seems that you have lost your soul, and the older you get, the more you don't know the rules. Wait for the fourth master to come back and punish her to kneel, and see if she laughs or not. ”

A smile came from the room and with small steps, he grabbed my arm and was about to drag me into the room, and the smiling face of Xie Yu was reflected in front of me.

"You just toss it by Fujin, if the fourth master really comes back and sees this situation, I'm afraid that if one of the girls in our house is counted as one, no one will be able to escape. ”

My heart is still in turmoil, like raindrops on the ground knocking into my heart, and I can't even find a source. Casually pushed the three of them away, took the umbrella, and walked towards the courtyard gate.

Since the day of Jingshu's funeral, I have never been out of this courtyard, and I have never been so flustered. God is very cooperative, let this weather be sad for others, and there is no need to mourn or mourn for the death yourself. But what do I have to worry about, I'm just a child, I didn't expect it, no matter who I am.

Sitting on the chair on the second floor of the attic, the outside world is nothing more than this, the same sky, the same rain, the same lightning and thunder, the same desolate. I didn't see the common people walking on the sunny day without worry, and they returned home in pairs and contented, and I, the so-called noble lady who was used to it, was very happy. It seems that I have been corrupted by this era, very thoroughly.

Behind the cloister, there was a low sigh, long and long, which was endlessly evocative.

It seems that I am not the only one who is interested in the scenery. I just don't know if it's the same or not.

Listening carefully, I am still so delicate and helpless, and I still need someone to care and comfort me at any time after many years. With such a little daughter's feelings, I'm afraid I will never be able to find it again.

Her face lowered to look at me silently, and she shook her head and smiled and leaned against the cloister pillar to look at the street outside the house. A gust of wind blew, and the rain drifted out of direction, and those who were hurrying away were clutching the handles of their umbrellas that had been scraped behind them, and they were all wet.

Why do you want to run? If the rain falls at the same speed, the faster you go, the more polluted. Why don't you slow down and feel the rain and see what it's trying to wash away.

People who walk in the meantime, when they return home, how can they understand these truths, even if they understand that they are afraid, they can't take care of it. Xu is a person who waits hard for his family.

It should be a beautiful and happy thing for someone to wait.

Mingxiang held up a pure white oil paper umbrella, and there was a faint painting of some deeper white on it, I don't know what kind of flowers it was. I looked curiously, but I ignored the little woman who was walking towards me.

"Embroider to Fujin to say goodbye, I don't know that Fujin is here, I'm afraid I'm disturbed, and I ask Fujin to ......"

"No. "She always leaves half a sentence at the end of her words, which can be regarded as our tacit understanding for more than a year.

Nian swayed slightly and stood beside him, Mingxiang held an umbrella in one hand and supported her in the other, which made me feel a little hypocritical to sit outside without holding an umbrella.

raised his hand to stop the two girls from saluting, and his gaze stopped at the slender figure of the plain white. No wonder I often hear people say that if you want to be pretty and filial, this white is more suitable for her than the green that used to be, lined with those beautiful eyes full of water, delicate and beautiful more and more lovable.

"It's raining heavily, go back and rest, and let the people take care of it." In the past few days, the fourth master thinks that he is going back, and it is the right thing to take care of his body. ”

Nian lowered his eyes in response, and a rare look flashed in the shadows under the umbrella, and after taking two steps back and carefully turning to the corridor, the shadow disappeared.

Pulling her eyebrows, she sat aside and curled her legs in front of her. Counting the strings of rain on the eaves, he leaned over to look at the ground outside the corridor. I don't know where my mind jumped, but I hummed, leaned back against the red lacquered pillar and closed my eyes.

“…… When the bell rang, the crow quacked. Take a break, take a break. ”

I came back to my senses when I heard the sound of Mei's laughter, and I cried for no reason when she laughed.

took the handkerchief and wiped it twice, heard a sound of eyebrows, and looked at it along the line of sight. The people walking slowly in the alleyway seem out of place with the occasional passers-by next to them, and even if it rains, they are still not in a hurry.

Yinxiang is coming in or not?

Yinzhen is back, no one understands?

The two princes didn't even bring a little servant, and they didn't hold an umbrella, so where would they go if they didn't enter the mansion? Even if they didn't put out the score of being a master in the palace on weekdays, they wouldn't be close to the people like this.

The two long figures walked into the empty courtyard one after another, and there was nothing but rain.

I always knew that I could see the courtyard from this direction, and I used to sit here and see it from afar. At that time, I hadn't been to live yet, but I only looked at it occasionally, thinking about the past, and guessing the future. Today, it was a coincidence that I was able to see these two masters.

Yinxiang knows that the courtyard has never been there, and he doesn't know what he and Yinzhen are going to do. When he gets there, will he feel it? If he thinks of his youth, if he is sad, that's not good.

Yinzhen ...... Didn't you say that there were only two of us in this courtyard? Take Yinxiang there? That would really be different for him.

The rain slowed down with the sudden wind, and the sky cleared up in an instant, and the rain continued to flow back to noon.

I leaned over the fence and watched, not for voyeurism but just curious.

The fingers that grabbed the wet wood were shivering coldly, and Mei Fu helped me to lean on my body and whispered, "Go back, it's been a while since I came out, and I'm afraid I won't be able to stand it anymore." It's time for Xie Yu and Ruyi to come over to find someone. ”

Her voice was soft and soft, but it became another low tone in my ears.

......I heard my voices trembling in the rain, teeth clattering against each other uncontrollably. grabbed the umbrella from her hand and ran downstairs, ran all the way to the side door of the mansion with a sigh of relief, and rushed out.

Meiyu whispered behind me, and I suddenly retracted my steps and turned back to look at her, "Go back." ”

There are some things that she doesn't need to say, she understands. Nodding his head, he came over and helped me to the door of the small courtyard, straightened the wet and wrinkled skirt at his calves, looked silently full of worry, and turned around and ran into the rain.

The wooden door was close in front of me, like water dripping from the drizzling sky. The wet texture appears thicker and more dizzy.

I can't even open this door, from childhood to adulthood, from now to ancient times, two lives have been the first to be encountered, and I dare not touch my door.

I don't know what they're talking about, and I don't understand what makes the two people, who are usually like brothers, fist and kick each other. My brother never fights, and I've never seen him take the initiative to provoke anyone, and neither does Yinzhen.

I couldn't hear what they were saying, and I couldn't see it so really, but I knew it and did it. The two people who were originally standing opposite each other did not go into the house to hide from the rain......

How so? Why is this happening?

Take a step back. Nothing is right.

I don't know where I'm standing, just like I can't tell if I should go in or out at this moment. If these two men who are most important to me do it, who will I help?

There is no if, right in this courtyard gate, it happens.

What can you do?

The door creaked open, and I stood on the stone steps in a daze, looking at the hand that was pushing against the courtyard door, and smiled bitterly.

The sound of footsteps treading water sounded in the courtyard, and only two or three steps later, I saw a tall dark figure, reddish and hidden in the black. Behind him was Yinxiang, who was wearing a blue robe, which was also darker and wet.

I struggled to pick the corners of my mouth and step into the threshold, clutching the handle of the umbrella so that the tremor would not be so noticeable.

Except for being drenched in the rain, the two of them didn't seem to have lost their identities too much. There was no injury on his face, and there was no abnormality on his body to stand upright, except for the belt that was a little loose and crooked, the silk of the jade pendant was a little messy, and there were more folds on the robe.

"It's ...... The courtyard is spacious, but the weather is not very good. Huang Ama confessed, I want you to come back to test Yinxiang's kung fu?"

The two brothers looked at each other quickly, and with their surprise and chagrin when they saw me, they replied in unison with a very short sentence, surprisingly unanimous.

"Sparring. ”

"Oh. I nodded as if I understood, and took a step back, "Then you go on, I'll go back first." Remember to come back and change your clothes in a while, so as not to catch a cold. I asked them to prepare ginger soup and hot water. ”

As if I didn't see the two people walking towards me, I turned around and helped up the courtyard door, and just stepped on the steps of the wet stone bricks, and my legs that were about to freeze leaned to the side with my body.

His arms were held left and right almost at the same time, and when he looked up, Yinxiang had already glanced at Yinzhen quickly, let go and picked up the umbrella that fell down the stone steps and held it above his head.

Leaning on Yinzhen's wet and cold chest, his arms around the back of his neck, Yinxiang walked awkwardly to the side, but the umbrella was always covered by me, silently looking at the palace of Prince Yong, which was getting closer and closer, with a solemn face and a steady footsteps.

Yin Zhen also had a cold face and thin lips pursed into a straight line, the rain kept dripping from his forehead and flowing into the collar, and there was no temperature in his eyes when he looked at me, as if he was angry and not like it, but like he was competing with himself.

Imperial Doctor Su came to the house in the rain, and was dragged to the bed by Yinzhen and almost fell to the ground in fright. I carefully took my pulse and prescribed prescriptions, repeatedly promised that it would be fine, but I was still detained and not allowed to go home.

I smiled apologetically, but Imperial Doctor Su didn't care, and his face was even more bluffing than Yinzhen. "Although Su is not talented, he is a doctor, disrespectful, I still have to say a word, Fujin has just come out of Xiaoyue, and you have to cherish yourself. ”

My head was getting lower and lower like a chicken pecking rice, and I heard a muffled hum before I looked up to see that there was only one figure left in the room that had been crowded with people, standing far away by the window.

After the rain, he turned around in the light and shadow of the first glow, and he couldn't see his face clearly, and there was a lot of water at his feet.

"What about Yinxiang?" struggled for a long time, but still asked.

"Say you're going to be fine, go back. ”

He stood there, motionless, with his back to the light and unable to see where his eyes fell, his hands hanging from his legs gradually clenched into fists.

Holding the quilt on his chest, he tilted his head to look over, and when he spoke again, he squinted and laughed, "What about you?"

I don't know what I'm asking or what I'm trying to ask, but it's already out of my mouth. Look at him steadily, until the face is getting closer and clearer.

I sat on the bed and looked up, and he leaned over to get close.

The injury is hidden in the silence, as if it can suppress all the pain in the heart.

The black eyes were closed under the thick eyelashes, and Yinzhen pulled me to lean on my shoulder. The wet and cold still makes me feel warm, and through the beating heart inside, all my panicked hearts are calm.

His breathing could be heard in the quiet room, a little hurried, but gradually calming down. The palm of my hand rested on the arm that I was hugging his back, and I whispered again - you'll be fine.