"My sister and I are twins, and we look very similar.

Since childhood, parents can't tell each other apart.

They always buy double portions, one for my sister and one for me.

Before I was three years old, it was the best and happiest life I ever had.

When I started kindergarten at the age of three, the difference between me and my sister became apparent.

My sister will learn whatever she learns.

And I always learn over and over again, and even then, I don't necessarily learn.

......”

Obviously, Xu Xiaojuan was talking about herself, but her tone was very flat, as if she was talking about an irrelevant outsider.

But the eyes staring ahead, there is no focus.

Xu Xiaojuan continues her story.

"At that time, I heard the most.

Look at your sister, look at you again......

Look at your sister, look at you again......

......”

Xu Xiaojuan repeated it several times in a row, and this sentence was like a spell to her.

"As I grew older, the difference between me and my sister became more obvious, in addition to my appearance.

My sister studies and gets the first place every year.

She won prizes in painting competitions every year.

Singing, dancing, calligraphy......

As long as she wants to do it, there is nothing she can't do.

I was very envious of her and jealous of her, and I tried to catch up with her.

It's really hard.

Even so, it was ridiculed.

Oh, yes!

There are many things in the world that cannot be succeeded by hard work.

At school, the teacher compared me to my sister.

At home, my parents compared me to my sister.

In the mouth of a relative......

Even in the mouth of an unfamiliar person......

Everyone compares me to my sister.

During that time, I really felt like the world was dark.

I even thought about suicide, but unfortunately I didn't have the courage.

Am I useless?"

Xu Xiaojuan's eyes suddenly shrank and refocused on Song Jingxing.

Song Jingxing shook his head, other people's children, he has also experienced it.

Xu Xiaojuan laughed.

"During that time, my favorite was the winter and summer vacations because I could go to my grandmother's house.

My grandmother was very kind to me, and she never compared me to my sister.

She always told me that you are the only one in the world.

Let me not envy others, and don't be jealous of my sister.

Because I'm good myself.

I went to the mountains with my grandmother to sketch.

She never thought my paintings were ugly, and always praised my paintings for being full of spirituality.

When I sing, she never thinks my singing voice is out of tune, and always praises my voice for being like a natural sound.

......

Everything I did, in my grandmother's eyes, was the best.

And because of my grandmother, I completely let go. ”

When Xu Xiaojuan talked about getting along with her grandmother, she had a smile on the corner of her mouth, looking very happy and sweet.

Gradually, I realized the reality, no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't compare to my sister, so I gave up.

But I didn't want others to compare me to my sister, so I tried to hide myself so that everyone's eyes didn't fall on me.

Slowly.

I became a little transparent in the eyes of the teacher.

It has become a little transparent in the eyes of his classmates.

It has become a small transparency in the eyes of passers-by.

It has become a little transparent in the eyes of Mom and Dad.

......

They never buy two more copies, they always buy the best for their sister.

Buy a beautiful dress for my sister.

Buy beautiful clothes.

And nice gifts.

Throw a big birthday party for her

......

Always give her the best.

And I'm always forgotten, with what my sister left or what she didn't want......"

Xu Xiaojuan said this.

The right hand rubbed the ring finger of the left hand with some anxiety.

And began a long silence.

"Are you alright?" Song Jingxing didn't know how to comfort her.

Xu Xiaojuan didn't answer, picked up the water on the table, drank it in one go, and then let out a long sigh of relief.

"But it doesn't matter, because my grandmother always gives me the best.

She will never ignore my presence.

I really enjoyed my time with my grandmother.

But......

She's old. ”

Speaking of this, Xu Xiaojuan's tears finally flowed.

But there was no sound.

landed on the table in front of it, making a "click, click......" sound.

In this silent house, it is particularly harsh.

Song Jingxing silently pushed the paper on the table to her.

Xu Xiaojuan stopped crying for a while.

Then the look changed again to the appearance that everything didn't matter.

"My grandmother passed away when I was in high school.

When I heard the news, I felt as if my heart had gone with my grandmother.

My grandmother is the only person in this world who cares about me.

Without my grandmother, the meaning of my life in this world is gone.

I have completely become a transparent person, because there is no one in this world who cares about me anymore.

No, it should be forgotten, forgotten, forgotten by the world.

The teacher was completely when I didn't exist.

Classmates when I don't exist.

Parents also when I don't exist.

To be honest, for a while, I thought it was good.

Gradually, I found myself disappearing from this world. ”

Xu Xiaojuan paused when she said this, took out a tissue, and carefully wiped the tears on the table.

Song Jingxing didn't say anything, because she knew that Xu Xiaojuan was just using this to hide her emotions.

Sure enough, after a while, Xu Xiaojuan continued to talk again.

"My parents began to completely forget about me, and often only prepared one breakfast.

I won't have anyone to wash my clothes for me.

Not to mention giving me living expenses.

At school, I don't hand in my homework, and I'll never have a classmate to collect it.

The teacher never called me by name to answer a question in class.

Even when I was yelling in class, everyone turned a blind eye.

All the photos on me are gone.

The me, on the household register, is gone.

The ID card is gone.

I disappeared in the mirror.

I disappear from the camera.

All the people who have memories about me, the memories are gone.

......

I completely disappeared from this world. ”

Listening to Xu Xiaojuan say with a flat face, Song Jingxing's heart was full of pity.

Loneliness is one of the greatest human fears, let alone a teenage girl who bears it all alone.

"Do you think I'm pitiful?" Xu Xiaojuan suddenly laughed, staring at Song Jingxing and asked.

Song Jingxing shook his head and nodded again.

"Actually, sometimes I think it's really good.

I can go to the mall at will and wear what I want.

I can go and eat whatever I want.

I can go and take whatever I want.

......

It's as if the whole world belongs to me.

Of course, there are also bad ones.

No one can see me.

No one could hear me.

I don't think I can even talk to myself because I don't have me in the mirror.

I almost got aphasia because of this.

Then I found a tree in the park and spoke into the hollow.

There is no mirror, my sister is my mirror, I wear whatever she wears, and I put on makeup how she makes. ”

Speaking of this, Xu Xiaojuan showed a rare cunning.

"Until I met you. ”

"No, I should say until I meet the two of you.

And that little girl, you're the only two people in the world who have seen me. ”

"Are you so sure?" Song Jingxing asked.

"Of course, I've been to many places in the world, I've seen a lot of people, even some weird, and none of them can see me. ”

"Hey, you know it's weird?" Song Jingxing asked in surprise.

"Of course, there are no secrets in this world for me, because I can go anywhere I want. ”

Speaking of this, Xu Xiaojuan was very proud, sweeping away the haze that had been locked on her forehead.

This is what a young girl should look like.

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