"I heard you want to see me?" Xiao Qian pulled a chair and sat in front of him. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info

"Yes, I wanted to say sorry to you personally, I should have told you this sentence before I went to the mountains, but I didn't have the courage then, and now I-"

Li Zhen looked at his unconscious leg and said bitterly.

"I've been punished, I think I should be like a man, I should be responsible for what I did wrong, I owe you a word of sorry. ”

"Why?" asked Xiao Qian.

"Because I once loved missing someone, he caused you a lot of trouble, and I still blame you, what makes me even more helpless is that my mother has done so many wrong things to you and several of my cousins for me, if you say that one wrong step is wrong, then you should start with me, the person who took the wrong first step, and apologize to you seriously. ”

His tone was very sincere.

"Chen Xiaoqian I'm sorry, forgive me for not being able to stand up now, bow to you like a man, everything started because of me, and now I have also suffered retribution, I hope you and my uncle's family can reconcile with my mother, she has done a lot of wrong things, but she is really not a bad person, she just loves me too much, but I let her down. ”

Xiaoqian could tell that Li Zhen's apology was from the bottom of her heart, and she immediately made a judgment and absolutely could not agree.

Because he agreed, Li Zhen would lose his belief in living.

"Li Zhen, if you really want to be like a man, why don't you live bravely? Do you think that if you apologize to me, your mother will get better? No, her psychological imbalance will be more serious, maybe she will go crazy, especially when you are gone, she has no way to live at all, I admit that I don't like it very much-sorry, I hate your mother very much, but she doesn't seem to be to the point where she should apologize with death. ”

Yu Minglang once said that Xiaoqian has a balance in her heart, she judges everything in the world by her own unique standards, she will not let go of anyone who has bullied her, but she will not lose the bottom line and retaliate against others indiscriminately, she knows how far she should go.

Even if the sister-in-law is disgusting, she will not die, her son Li Zhen, Xiaoqian can't talk about liking or hating, just treat him as a stranger who has no friendship, he shouldn't die.

"You know... I want to commit suicide?" Li Zhen was surprised, what his parents didn't know, Chen Xiaoqian could see it at a glance?

"Don't forget what I do, I'm a psychiatrist, and although we have equipment in our business, it's far less equipped than a hospital for treating physical ailments, and we make judgments more often than here, here, and here. ”

Xiao Qian pointed to her eyes, brain, and heart respectively.

"Okay, psychiatrist, you are right, I do have this idea, don't tell my parents, you are a psychiatrist, then you should understand how painful I am at the moment, if the rest of my life, even the most basic physical needs have to be handled by nurses, I live a day is a day of despair, let me leave with dignity, this is the best choice for me. ”

Li Zhen is now desperate for death.

The conditions at his home are very good, he can hire a nurse for him for a lifetime, and there will be people who let him live for the rest of his life, but he is just alive, without dignity, his head is sober but his body can't move, he can only watch himself like a baby, peeing on the bed, which is terrible.

He will be in bed for the rest of his life, maybe his father will buy him a high-end wheelchair, someone will push him out, and then see the strange stares cast by everyone, and when his wheelchair is gone, someone will whisper about it.

Do you know that the children of the old Li family are abolished, I heard that it is not possible to pee, a big man tsk...

He had been discriminated against a lot because of his sexual orientation before, he was fed up with such behind-the-scenes discussions, his father, who was proud of being strong and honest, had been humiliated because of his sexual orientation, how could he let his parents face outside criticism because of his paralyzed self?

Xiaoqian understands Li Zhen's mood very well, because in her previous life, she received several similar patients, some of whom needed Xiaoqian's treatment after suffering a major physical disability to help them accept reality and accept their imperfect selves.

But there are a few that are not the case.

Li Zhen belongs to the latter group.

Looking at Li Zhensheng's loveless expression, Xiao Qian did not make any comforting words, but echoed his point of view.

"Although there is no euthanasia in my country, my attitude towards euthanasia is neutral, I do not approve or oppose, the specific matter is analyzed on a case-by-case basis, and no one can make a right or wrong judgment for others at that point. As a man, if you are paralyzed, it is indeed a very heavy blow, and it is normal for you to have suicidal thoughts. I come into contact with cases occasionally, but when I treat them, my own heart hurts. ”

"Why?" Li Zhen became interested in Xiao Qian's words, this was the first time since his accident that he had the urge to talk to others, Xiao Qian had a special magic power, no one could guess her thoughts, but she seemed to know how to make people listen to her words.

Li Zhen didn't realize that he had become Xiaoqian's patient.

"Because it is more painful to live than to die, really, I have seen a high paraplegic athlete, in order to make his family feel at ease, he worked hard to cooperate with my treatment, and struggled with depression again and again, I treated him once, and he had to drink half a catty of liquor. ”

"You drink?" I really can't see it, Xiaoqian looks very well-behaved.

"I can't tell Yu Minglang about this, this is our secret, I'm not an alcoholic, but everyone has to have a place to vent their emotions, if I was with Yu Minglang at that time, I didn't need to relieve my hangovers and vent, we were exposed to negative news every day, although we did the work of calming people's hearts, but sometimes we encountered things that could not be solved, I was also aggrieved, drink some wine to appease myself. ”

If she was with Yu Minglang in her previous life, drinking woolen and stuffy wine, and directly stripped Xiaoqiang of her naked, Kaka's would be straightened up, and she would sweat a little when she rolled a few laps, at least she could ensure a comfortable mood for a week.

This is also the method that Xiaoqian realized after breaking the festival membrane, and suddenly felt that Yu Xiaoqiang was too useful.

"If I don't have an accident, maybe we still have a chance to be friends, but unfortunately..."Li Zhen only found out at this time that Xiaoqian was not the unattainable and arrogant person he imagined, and she still retained her innocence when she treated her work.

It's too late, he won't have any friends, and he's leaving this cruel world.