I can only stand behind Huang Ama, and I can only do that.

You're gone, on that huge ship, to places I don't know, to places I haven't been.

You have stood beside me, participated in my life, gave birth to children for me, held a qiē in the house for me, and even shared the worries of raising money for me. But I never knew that there was such a world in your eyes. Like I never knew, you don't belong here, you don't belong to our time. But I know that you belong to me.

Even at this time, we have to separate, you are still mine, I am alone, and I am the woman who loves Xinjueluo Yinzhen. It doesn't matter who you are, where you're from, and where you're going. I always believe that one day, you will come back and stand by my side again, as if you were never far away.

The long, soft hair that once wrapped around my fingertips clinged to my chest like satin, touching every nerve in me. Now it's like this, neat, only to the ear. Fluttering in the wind, I can't touch it. Like at this point, the distance between us, I know you're looking for me, but you can't get close.

Who would cut their hair like this since ancient times? The parents who have suffered from the hair and skin of the body dare not destroy it, not to mention the green silk of a woman, shouldn't it be for the king to stay for the king? It's just that we have lived together for nearly twenty years, and I haven't even tied it up for you, and you have cut it off ruthlessly......

The words you shouted while standing on the mast were a little ethereal, but I still tried to tell whether to laugh or mourn. Watching you and Yinxiang wear the same black clothes and pull the sail hand in hand, the black sail slowly rose up, and the red color was like blood flowing in my heart.

That's your ship, and everyone on board has a different relationship with you. And I, I can only stand here and watch from afar.

This is the real you, alive.

No matter how far away I am, I can feel your happiness, real happiness. The freedom you want has finally been obtained, and from now on, the sky is high and far away, and no one will control you and restrain you. And you, I wanted, but left from my side.

I've tried and I'd rather give up a qiē and go wherever you want. I can give up everything I have worked so hard for, even what I have already obtained, such as the weight of the Emperor, such as my princely title, such as what my brothers want, all of them. Later, I realized how wrong this was. Huang Ama will let Yinxiang go, just because he is not the real Yinxiang, and I, how can it be.

If it weren't for my insistence, Huang Ama would not have been so ruthless. In order to cut off all my persistence, it will hurt you and our children in the end. I didn't even have the last chance to send you. I can only stand here, standing behind Huang Ama, watching from afar, watching you go farther and farther.

Actually, I'm afraid, I'm afraid that you will leave like this and never look back.

Everyone knows the beauty of freedom, and I'm no exception. It's just that we were born in the royal family, we are destined to have honor and wealth, but we don't have the right to freedom, and the more we grow up, the more disdainful we become, just to let ourselves have more. When you have more power, you naturally have more freedom, including the freedom to control others, just like Huang Amma.

On the top of the main hall, when you stabbed the golden hairpin into the heart of Huang Ama for Yinxiang's determination, he never dodged. Because he is the Son of Heaven and the king who rules the world, he cannot retreat at any time. And he knew that I would stand in his way.

Yue'er ...... What should I do with you?

At that time, you heard the cry of my heart, why did you refuse to answer me?

Watching you leave with Yinxiang without looking back, leaving me in that empty palace. The golden hairpin that gave you was once stuck in your hair with a smile and dangled in front of my eyes, but now it is held in the palm of my hand. The blood kept dripping at my feet, clear, but I didn't care about it, I was afraid that you would just leave like this, and ignore me again.

Smile...... What should I do with you!

I just stood in the courtyard of Yinxiang's house, not afraid of the wind and snow and cold, not afraid of people peeking, just waiting for you. Why don't you answer me?

No matter who you are, we have been husband and wife for nearly 20 years, you never give up on Yinxiang, why are you so cruel to me.

Yinxiang still treats me like before, even if we are both a little awkward, at least like brothers. He will still believe in me, and he will still keep you with me, even if it is short. But you can't......

Between us, things have changed. You don't cry or laugh, you huddle in the corner of the bed, hide from me.

A sentence of the fourth master, not a joke, reminds me of the winding mountain road in the rain, Lao Jiu's trance and tears mixed with the rain, I instantly experienced. You have told me about your happy birthday twenty times, and it always makes my heart flutter and imprint it in my heart. This sentence actually made my heart hurt, like the wound in my palm, dripping blood, but I didn't even have the courage to touch it.

Between us, there is always embarrassment. I don't want to lock up the woman I want, but I can't find any other way. I'm afraid you'll disappear when I'm gone, so much so, even if you hate me.

I know you're there for me, and I know that you take care of me without eating or sleeping, as I once did to you. It's just that how long can we stay together like this? If I don't wake up, won't you leave?

Forgive me, I really don't have the courage to open my eyes to face you again, let alone watch you go. I can only numb myself with deep sleep, but I can still clearly hear every word you say to me, as well as Yinxiang's.

He will take you away, and I will never find you...... Forever......

I don't know what it means forever, between us, or what?

It's like your ship, which has sailed out of the harbor and is getting farther and farther away from me. When we reach the edge of the sky, can we become our eternity?

I hid my heart under the pillow and disappeared, and the fourteenth brother said that he sent it out for me. For the first time, I thought this brother understood me, but, do you understand?

I think, you know. Because I was on your bed under my pillow, and I saw your long hair cut off. I sleep on it every day, and I can still feel your breath, as if I never left.

But the men standing next to you are no longer me, and I see that they are standing there as a matter of course, taking my place.

The women standing next to me are no longer you, and I know that no matter how they are in their place, they will not take your place.

I believe what you say, you love me, you will miss me, and you will not forget me.

Me too......

In the summer, the roses in the garden are blooming well, and the baby seems to have grown up, and no longer pesters me to laugh. She looks more and more like you, and often squatts in the garden to take care of the flowers, and I just stand there and look at her, often mistaking it for you, just like I did when I first saw you. She said that when you come back, the flowers will still bloom as well as they are now, and you will want to see them with your own eyes.

There is also Hongwan, you often say that Honghui looks like my personality follows you, and Hongwan is just the opposite. Now, two of them, one has been taken away by you, and the other has remained with me. I want to know if when you see Honghui every day, will you be in the same mood as I see Hongwan.

Are you still comfortable on board? Where have you been? Do you miss me? Will you dream of me as I often dream of you?

In my dream, you stand at the bow of the boat, leaning on Honghui's shoulder and pointing in a certain direction. Later, I tried to think back and try to discern that the end of your fingertips was our home. Even now, there is no you in this home.

I often hear people singing in a low voice, but I don't dare to look for it, for fear that I will be disappointed. It's just that the voice has been lingering in my ears, lingering:

Because love will not be light and sad

So a qiē is the appearance of happiness

Because of love, simple growth

Still ready to go crazy for you

Because of love, how can there be vicissitudes

So we're still young

Because of love, in that place

There are still people wandering around, people coming and going

Sometimes I suddenly forget that I am still in love with you

Regarding love, no one has ever taught us princes as a schoolwork, some are just martial arts, and even intrigues. But I want to tell you that you are wrong, and even though I still can't describe her in words, I believe that I will not forget, not for a moment. Even if I tired myself to sleep, you will still appear in my dreams, never far away.

Between us - there is love, even if I never say it. But I know where you are, she is, no one comes and goes, only my heart wanders around with you.

I haven't heard the story you told, the pair of Yang Zheng and Wen Hui, who are still in love for 13 years, and the pair of Yang Guo and Xiaolongnu, who are still in love for 16 years...... I can understand what you mean, but I'm not them, and I'm not surnamed Yang, I'm Aixin Jueluo Yinzhen, and our love won't be like this.

When I received Yinxiang's letter, I firmly believed that it would never be like this.

Whether you're Yue'er or smiling, it's all mine.

This time, you'll wait for me.