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She dreamed that when she was in college in her previous life, the little monkey chased after her ass and asked her why she wanted to study medicine. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

"Guess. She grinned and tugged at the little monkey's face to both sides.

The little monkey frowned and rubbed his cheeks, "In order to put on a white coat and be a white-clothed angel who heals diseases and saves people?"

She gave him two big white eyes, "How noble are you to be an old lady? Unless Lao Tzu's soul is sublimated to the point of hopelessness, you can grow up with such pure and immaculate noble sentiments." ”

The little monkey pouted, "Then why did you choose to study medicine......? Aren't you afraid?"

"Why are you so cowardly? When people are gone, they are a mass of dead flesh that has lost their power to support them, and you really think they will cheat corpses?"

"Oh, you don't look like a woman. ”

"Nonsense! Lao Tzu is still a pure girl!"

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Quan Yan thought about it, and he probably didn't tell the little monkey why she studied medicine at that time.

In fact, after the college entrance examination, Quan Yan had the same dream almost every night.

I dreamed that my mom and dad were missing the little monkey, and someone told her that they were dead. Quan Yan was awakened every time, and she felt particularly terrible. In her dream, she had no family, so she went to report to a university thousands of miles away. And the 'dead' they have been telling her in the form of 'dreams' that she must take care of herself. In an ethereal form, accompany her to the end of her life.

Special desolation, special loneliness, special dead silence.

She couldn't accept being alone.

So she wanted to learn something useful to ensure the health of her family, and hoped that her parents and little monkeys could accompany her to her old age.

As a result, when you entered this industry, you learned that you studied medicine, but you may not be able to save the lives of your relatives.

Do you remember the question she gave her students in class?

If your loved one has an accident with a stranger at the same time, and you and another colleague in your department are empty, who do you choose to save?

No matter how many times he was seriously injured, Quan Yan would choose to stand on the stranger's surgery.

Because when that happens, you can't save anyone.

Most people don't stay calm and clear in the face of a seriously injured loved one. You'll panic, your hands will shake, your head will go blank, and all your expertise will turn into bullshit.

In the same way, you can't save strangers. At that time, your mind is full of the safety of your loved ones, you will lose your mind, you will be anxious, you will not pay attention, and you will have a fresh life in your hands.

Therefore, at that time, the hospital departments will make appropriate arrangements, and doctors in the hospital who have family accidents will generally be 'rested' in the name of avoiding suspicion.

The reason for this is to appease the doctor's emotions and to take responsibility for the patient's life.

The only convenience that studying medicine can bring to your family is that after you have saved the lives of many people, others will respect you and save their lives when your family is in emergency.

Others, nothing.

In contemporary times, there are new three unfilial pieties -- studying medicine, taking graduate school entrance examinations, and becoming a policeman.

Influenced by the progress of modern education, if you want to observe surgery and learn techniques, you must have a graduate degree. Sanunxiao took advantage of both, so when Quan Yan was studying medicine, her mother gave her all her eyes.

The little monkey was very young at that time, and because he was busy, he didn't have a few days of time to get along with each other in a year. Every time the little monkey called her, the first thing he said was to ask, "Sister, when are you coming to see me?"

Quan Yan was speechless on the other end of the phone, her roommate saw that her eyes were red, and she choked up when she heard her voice, and they all patted her shoulder silently.

It's the same for everyone.

I have to get up at five or six o'clock in the morning to check the ward, except for lunch time, there is basically no time to leave the ground in a day. At night, I either work night shifts or go back to the dormitory to do odd jobs for my boss to earn credits. Basically, if you can have five hours of rest every day, it can be regarded as God's blessing. A group of people have to burn incense and worship the Buddha, five and six bows.

Her parents came to see her with a rice bucket as soon as they were free, and her mother was also glad: "Thanks to your college here, you didn't go out for internships." If you really run away, we really can't go with these old bones. ”

Whenever that happens, Quan Yan will lower his head and silently stuff tasteless rice into his mouth.

Before her dad left, he told her, "Baby, we don't have to do this if we don't learn this business." These doctors in your hospital, there are really not many girls who perform surgery. I've heard that, especially in surgery, there are very few female doctors on the operating table. It's too tiring to do this, so it's better to leave it to the boys with good physical strength to do it. ”

Her mother also said: "Your brother was not at home before, but with you, I have a better relationship with your father." Why is it that the older the child gets, the more you all go away? ”

But her mother struggled for a while, and said, "But baby, when you grow up, your parents will not interfere with your decision." You always have your own reasons for choosing this path. Didn't the ancients say that since you are a doctor, you have to uphold the ambition of 'saving the suffering of the world with souls', and you have to be able to bear the responsibility of treating diseases and saving people from illness. ”

Quan Yan's view of the profession of doctor may be different from ordinary people, she puts her own selfishness in front, and only when the safety of her family's lives is guaranteed, can she take care of the physical and mental health of patients.

I don't want them to feel that the heavy topic is passed by the power banquet.

He was not busy at night, and when he was resting in the dormitory, Quan Yan also thought carefully about the question of his inner faith.

She was neither materialistic nor idealistic in her life. The only thing that is obsessed with is the safety of his family. It is not impossible for her to really put the patient at the top of the balance in her heart, but the premise must be established under the condition that the family is safe and sound.

went around and around, but Quan Yan still didn't get himself out of this tormented circle.