159. Joy in suffering
Don't they all say that the rainy season ends in early July? Even if we go back to ancient times now, counting the days by the lunar calendar, June is over, and it should have passed a long time ago, because it still rained all the time.
This is the longest time I've been in Hangzhou, and I've never stayed so long, no matter what era I'm in.
The ship is always docked in the harbor, and it is not known when it will be able to depart.
Everyone seems to have gotten used to the days when boats are their home like fishermen. During the day, I hardly caught anyone, I didn't know where to go to play, and at night I went back to my house to find my own bed, and no one cared about me.
Depressed...... I hate the days of being a pregnant woman the most, but every time I learn that there is joy, I am the happiest one. Looking at the rippling sea that was haloed by the rain, I lamented, my life of tangled contradictions and constant repetition.
The sense of storage behind him is very strong, and he stood for a long time, but he never came over. That being the case, I continued to look at the scenery, even though I knew that I had become the scenery in the eyes of others.
"Won't you get bored if you keep watching?"
Finally willing to talk to me, isn't he afraid of Honghui's sudden appearance? It's just strange that he speaks Chinese better than Yi'an, why should he speak English at this time. Such a simple conversation, I believe Honghui can understand it as well. It's just that where Honghui is, I don't know, I haven't seen him before the sun goes down for many days.
I still look at the sea in front of me and imagine if it's really different, "Someone once said that the sun is new every day, and one cannot step into the same river twice. β
The person behind him was silent for a long time before he whispered again, "What about you?" Nor did I see it the other day? Xiao He said with a strange sullen laugh, "Indeed, your belly is a little bigger." β
I touched my semi-round belly, it seemed that it was really, only a few days, and I didn't see a few more bites, but I would be dizzy and want to vomit, and it turned out to be longer. I was pregnant three times, every time I was like this, and other women didn't have as much trouble as me, what kind of physique did I have to react so uncomfortably and lastingly.
There was still a low laugh behind me, and I turned around to look at the person in front of me, the smile was still on the corner of my mouth, and my thin lips were slightly pursed, looking very relaxed. "Funny?"
Xiao He shook his head and smiled, and walked up to me and stood outside my umbrella.
Although the rain is very thin, I seem to have fallen in love with the feeling of holding an oil-paper umbrella in the rain. It seems that the man I miss all the time will suddenly appear and walk slowly towards me.
I tried to look at the face in front of me, there was no change, it was still the handsome foreign man, not him.
Don't foreigners wear umbrellas? It seems that yes, I remember where I heard that the British only began to use umbrellas in the 18th century, and they were exclusively for women, and different umbrella holding postures expressed their various attitudes towards love, as for men, they did not start to use them until the 19th century. Other countries, I really don't know.
His hand slowly reached over and gently covered my stomach, causing me to clutch the handle of the umbrella and fall silently.
At the beginning, I knew that I was pregnant again, and Yinzhen would always hold my love and caress me, and later Kangxi rewarded the bowl of medicine, and he was also distressed and unbearable to cover his palm on it. But after parting, except for Honghui, he became the second man to touch it, and even Su Changqing, who was diagnosing my pulse, didn't dare to do this.
Doesn't he know how to count? Even if this is allowed in his country, but now that he is in China, he doesn't know whether men and women are allowed to kiss or not? The foreign man in front of him is also ...... I always thought he was a gentleman, except that night I had to approach to protect me.
Men are born like this? No matter how honest you seem on the surface, you actually have pirate qualities in your bones?
"You should smile more, it's always ......like this," Xiao He said, his hand was raised, his fingers slid over the hair that was blown on my face by the sea breeze and went behind his ears, his fingertips fell on my frowning brow and swept to the end of his eyebrows, his voice was still low, "It's not good for children, it's also good for you." β
Still frowning, I bit my lower lip and took a step back, my heel hitting the bottom of the boat behind me before I stumbled to his shoulder.
"Be careful." Xiao He helped me to stand firm, let go and walked to my side, facing the sea. His long silver hair was tied back with a silk as blue as the sea, and it swept up in the wind and swept across my face.
Raising his feet to leave, I heard his faint voice, as if from a distant memory, "There was once a woman who loved the sea as much as you, and she always followed me, no matter where I went to fight or fight, she always followed me. β
Is this his love? Where has that woman gone?
I looked at his serious reminiscences of the side face, thin lips under the high bridge of his nose pursed, and his blue pupils gradually turned into a deep blue.
He was silent for a while before continuing: "A soldier like me, the fleet is home, the blue sky and the sea are home, I have no choice, but she still follows me. Do you know what's the scariest thing at sea? It's not the brave enemy, it's the weather. When the fleet reaches the sea, apart from the enemy, what we have to fight is the uncontrollable weather. Torrential rain not only destroys a ship, but also takes many lives. I'm the captain of the ship, and I can do my best to protect my men, but I can't protect my own woman and her belly, our child. β
"I don't know what I can say, and I know that he doesn't need any consolation, just a man like this, and what kind of pain he must have felt when he protected me that night."......
He was still standing beside me, no longer speaking, his hands on the ship's pole and looking out into the distance. The fine rain still drips into it, melting into an ocean.
"Trust me, they went to heaven and they still love you."
The corners of Hedram's lips relaxed slightly, he turned his face to look at me, raised his eyebrows and asked in a low voice, "Do you know heaven?" Faith in God? β
"No, I don't believe it." I smiled and shook my head, turned around, stood side by side with him, and asked curiously, "What religion do you Swedes follow?" Lutheranism? β
He looked at me and shook his head, puzzled by my sudden Chinese, "What is that, I haven't heard of it." We believe in Lutheranism, have you heard? β
"Lutheran?" I tried to recall the information I had checked, about Sweden, about their religious beliefs, wasn't it Lutheranism? That's Sweden's state religion, and people who don't believe in it don't even have the qualifications to be prime minister.
I tried to think under his gaze, and finally I patted my head with a sudden realization and replied with a smile: "Yes, LutheranβMartin Luther." He must not have known that in the future of China, people will call it Lutheran Buddhism, and there are many people who believe in it.
Hedram laughed along with me, and looked back at the northwest with a smile on his face.
Actually, he is not very similar to Yinzhen, because he is very real when he laughs, there is no deliberate forbearance, but he rarely laughs.
"Hedlam, believe me, yours she is still waiting for you, and one day, you will meet in heaven. God will keep you together, and your children. β
"Thank you, I believe it too." Xiao He's eyes were full of seriousness when he looked at me, but his voice was a little lower, "You deserve better, instead of wandering around like now." A woman should have her own home, living in a house with her man and children, not a boat. Do you want to be like me, and make your home at sea? And the rest of us all the way? Honghui can, should the child in your belly be like this? Where's yours? Is he waiting for you? A man shouldn't wait, let alone let his woman wait, he should protect you, not like me who lost it to know the mistake, it's too late. β
I sighed and lowered my head, looking at the rain-soaked thick raft and my fingertips caressing the wooden lines on it. "He's not like that...... You don't understand him, and you don't understand our helplessness, we are different from you. I believe in him, and I'm willing to wait for him, because I know that one day we will be together. β
"Really?" Xiao He tilted his head and looked at me very seriously, as if he wanted to see my heart through his eyes.
I nodded earnestly and replied firmly, "Yes." β
"That's good." He whispered back, turned to face me, his palms reaching the back of my neck, and before I could react, he pulled me in front of him, his thin lips falling gently on my eyebrows.
The umbrella fell from behind me, the rain falling on my raised face, and the silver hair that hung down from the corner of his forehead swept wetly across my cheeks.
In the face of my horror, the corners of his lips were slightly raised, his pupils turned that deep blue again, and he whispered, "Even if you don't believe it, I hope God can bless you." β
At this time, he was not smiling lightly, but seductive and evil, like a bad angel with a very handsome face, but it made my back chill immediately.
The lips in front of me moved slightly, and when I spoke, I was already familiar with Chinese, and I spoke slowly and clearly, "If you look at me like this, I will kiss you." β
"Let her go."
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I could clearly hear the gurgling of my knuckles, like the gnashing of my teeth that had just sounded behind me, angry and forbearing.
The blue eyes in front of me flashed suddenly, but my mind went blank for a moment.