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Seeing the comment area, really, quite moved...

To be honest, this is the first time I've written about shares, and I've always written buyouts before.

(Sharing is based on only your tip results and subscription results.) A buyout is a book that doesn't give you these shares, but a thousand words give you how much money. ）

Speaking of which, my education is not high, and some people may say that my writing is really poor.

Yes, my writing is really poor, because I only graduated from junior high school, and when I was in my third year of junior high school, I dropped out.

However, I personally prefer online articles, and even dropped out of school because I always read novels in class, and I didn't change after repeated teachings, and I notified my parents to dismiss.

Thinking about it now, it's kind of ridiculous.

At that time, when I was in class, because mobile phone e-books were not popular, they were all physical books that I bought, torn into pages one by one, sandwiched in the textbook, and fought with the teacher every day... It's just that, in the eyes of parents, this should be considered a bad job.

After dropping out of school, a child with no academic qualifications really has no way out, he has worked as a waiter, a network administrator, a barman, went to a billiard hall to set a ball, went to a real estate agency to run a house, and went to some companies to do the effect, and unconsciously, he has been mixed up for a few years.

In the past few years, I have been a little confused, I always feel that I am alive, I don't seem to have any goals, I don't know the meaning of my existence.

But in the past few years, I haven't done much work, and I read a lot of books.

Finally, one day, I forgot what I was thinking, and suddenly I thought... Why don't I write a novel too?

I'm the kind of person who is anxious, and if you want to do something, you must do it immediately, or you will always have a pimple in your heart...

I remember that at that time, I was working in other places and couldn't afford to buy any computers, so I used the most broken and broken smartphone at that time, (that is, the total card screen, the driver's kind) After getting off work, I fell into the bunk apartment, and stayed up late to write it down little by little.

Now that I think about the writing at that time, and then I think about it now, I feel... It's a world of difference.

It's not good now, but it's much stronger than before.

The first novel was that I used my mobile phone to pick out word by word, and often because the phone crashed, I didn't even save it.

(At that time, I sent it with an information editor, and I sent it to 10086 after writing it...) ）

I wrote about 20,000 words, and when I read it carefully, I found that it was miserable. The main thing is that I don't even know how to upload the novel and where to upload it.

So I desperately checked Baidu, desperately read any posts about novels, and then read what others wrote, how to transition, how to describe actions, and then wrote them down with a learning attitude.

For about half a year, I haven't written a word...

It wasn't until I felt that I had learned a little bit about it, and in an Internet café, I wrote the first chapter of my real first novel...

I won't say what kind of book it is and where it was posted...

At that time, I found an editor's QQ and submitted a manuscript to the past...

Luckily, that editor said... This book, which can be bought out... But the price, really low, very low...

But for me at that time, this was a very fortunate thing, I would go to the Internet café every day after work and write down every word.

Then, I got my first manuscript payment.

I don't know what kind of mood it was, anyway, I didn't touch the money...

After saving for a few months, I bought a second-hand computer...

Finally got rid of the fate of going to an Internet café...

The first book, the end...

That book, looking back now, still has a lot of immaturity, and I feel really lucky to be able to buy out.

The second book, which I wrote for a longer time, is also a buyout, and the price is higher than the previous one, probably the same as my salary at work...

When the second book was written and the contract for the third book was ushered in, I was lost again.

Because as the time of writing deepened, I slowly found that when you don't have any expectations for the reader's reward, or your own achievements (because I don't divide the reward and subscription money), you will slowly chase your dreams and become just a simple manuscript fee... That's all.

I think back to the original intention of my own writing, and remember that the crazy energy I had at the beginning has slowly disappeared...

I didn't know what I was thinking, so I turned down the third contract and came here, intending to write a book seriously and regain the way I had stayed up all night until the wee hours of the morning for my dream.

It's tiring, but... I feel that I am really happy in this way.

The third book, just like that, opens here unconsciously.

Every time I write any sentence or any plot, I have to think about it for a long time before I dare to write it.

Every day, I will be nervous and expectant, constantly refreshing my book reviews, looking at every reader's review....

It's a really good feeling. Although my writing is still not good, although I may still write young, but.... I'm really already doing my best to show you a great story.

Maybe in everyone's eyes, my story may not be good enough, but I can pat my chest and say that I did my best! I'm not lazy!

There is an old saying that is called putting death to the place and then being born.

I have a job now, and I have my own basic living expenses.

But I feel that as long as there is a way out, I will have a little bit of inertia...

It doesn't matter if I pull, I can't write well, I have the same job, I can't starve to death ...

Even with a slight thought, my book... None of them will be as perfect as I am at my current level...

It's two o'clock in the morning, and I'm done... I thought about it for two hours... There was silence for two hours.

On the 1st of next month, I will officially resign...

I don't have any savings, quit my job, this book, if it's not written well, no one subscribes, no one tips, I'll starve! Starving to death is, but steamed bread instant noodles are indispensable for every meal...

Only in this way can I burst out my full potential and write this book better.

In fact, when you are depressed, when you are entangled, when you are nervous, you can say what is in your heart, really... Very good.

My heart is panicking now, I don't know if I am doing this waywardly, but...

Since you have decided to do something, don't hesitate and don't look back.

I hope that in addition to reading the book, you will comment on every deficiency of this book in the book review area... I will write it down carefully and strive to write this book better and better...

Also, I hope you can click on the collection, recommend the ticket....

For new books, it's important.

At last... Tip...

I like a brother who is quite rich, and occasionally when I am in a good mood, I will give a reward or two....

More money and less money is not a problem, after all, when everyone gets together, they are brothers .... In the future, the money that may be spent on food will depend on everyone's support...

Book friend group: 127936727, everyone can join the group, chat together, and blow together.

Don't ask me about studying, I won't.

The work is not too high-end, and I, an N-year worker, still have a little experience.

The group is home...

As long as you come, you are brothers...

If there is anything, say it, as long as I can do it, I will never hesitate.

At last.....

The fathers of the country can tolerate me and not make the world make evil money. Artist flower self-clearing... I bowed to all the food and clothing parents.