Outside the desert, snowy plateaus, continuous mountain ranges, cold winters and cold springs. The change of seasons finally dissolves in the scenery along the way, leaving no good memories, striving for a dream.

After going through all kinds of journeys, what I feel is these vast worlds that are different from the prosperity of the capital, or the powerlessness and loneliness that I have to face behind time. In the end, we return to the original point, to the beginning, which is difficult to find.

Swords, guns, swords, halberds, light armor, thousands of troops and horses galloping and roaring. What a hero, a man. However, the righteousness of the family and the country is always sacrificed, blood, sweat and tears.

Is it a dream, or is it reality?

Maybe this qiē is really a dream of mine, I struggled, laughed and cried, and woke up to find myself still in the deep courtyard of Prince Yong's mansion. Inside and outside the high walls, the hustle and bustle of the courtyard is like a city, and the cascading backyard is a pair of beautiful eyes that are looking forward to being lonely...... Growing old, everyone.

Pain, all kinds of pain, is not unbearable, but you need to endure it with all your might, so as not to scream, not to scold or cry.

Every familiar and unfamiliar face flashed in a staggered manner. The fierce and resolute swear to defend to the death, as well as Yinxiang's pain and filial piety's tears, as well as ...... Nian Qianyao.

The pain in the lower abdomen suddenly began, not the sharp pain in the heart before losing consciousness that day, but still painful into the bones and blood. It seems to be wrapped in something from the inside out, hot to the wet sticky, but a cold sweat is as cold as ice.

That long sword, wrapped in the setting sun into a silver cold weapon with a red tongue of fire, I felt for the first time what it was like to pierce my body, and at the same time penetrated Yinxiang's legs, and it was so sharp that it could not be stopped.

I'm not afraid of death, but I didn't expect him to be even more afraid than me.

I don't know, I just know that I hit him in the shoulder, and the bleeding didn't make him give up his sword. I wanted him to retreat from the difficulties, but when his life was hanging by a thread, he regretted that he was not at the beginning, it turned out that there really cannot be a woman's kindness in this world.

Maybe in this world, there is no sure death for either you or mine, but there is a real defeat for both sides. hurt myself, hurt my brother, and maybe hurt my and Yinzhen's children.

The red of the mountains and valleys has become a color that cannot be faded away, whether you open or close your eyes, the only color is intense and dazzling.

I thought I was going to die, but every time I hurt the truth, I always reminded myself to continue to live, to live in this era, to have him and ours.

But where is he, and can I still see him? How can I see him......

I don't know how long I lay down, how long I slept, no matter where they took me, what they fed me, what I did, I just remembered that I endured the pain I had never experienced before, and I could clearly feel the blood flowing, from my lower abdomen to between my legs, and I didn't even have the strength to cry, I just tried desperately to give birth to the baby. I heard Yinxiang and them call my name all the time, but I didn't hear the loud cry of the newborn baby, and I didn't hear a word.

The belly, which had been heavy for several months, gradually flattened out to its original appearance, and even sunken because it was lying flat.

When the warm hand covered the cold, I couldn't help crying, but I couldn't say anything, not a word. Crying hard, no matter who laughs, I just want to cry out all the qiē that is stuffed in my heart, but I can't cry the purity of the new life.

Is it my brother or filial piety? Why don't they ignore me? Do they also hate me, hate me for causing my brother to be injured, and the fake injury to his right leg has finally become real.

Yinzhen?

Did you hear me call you?

Actually, I really don't want to call out your name at that time, I always think about it in my head, and my heart hurts when I think of you, but I don't dare to call it out. But at that time, I was very afraid, afraid that if I didn't call again, I wouldn't have a chance in the future. Did you hear that?

Do you hate me too? Why do you have an expression like Yinxiang on your face? So disappointed, so painful, as if they didn't know me.

My eyes hurt so much that I couldn't wipe away the tears that kept pouring out, so I couldn't see clearly.

It's snowing again?

This year has never passed faster, my feet have not even touched the ground, and in the blink of an eye, another year?

How long have we not seen each other? You've changed, and it's different every time I imagine you see me.

Trying to pull the black hair in front of him, his hand slid down without strength and was gently held and pressed against his face. The little snowflake that fell on my ears couldn't be waved away, and I couldn't dust it off.

"Not true. ”

"What's wrong?"

The voice was dry and hoarse, much like him, but it wasn't.

I closed my eyes and turned my face away, tears streaming down my cheeks and wet my neck.

"No, Yinzhen is not like this, he will not come, and he should not come. I don't want him to come, I don't want him to see, I don't think about him. Don't ......"

You sighed and turned a thousand times.

I heard Yinxiang's voice, and I still sighed. He sat on the pillow with his face close to him, his beard cleaned and fresh.

"It's good to dream and forget. ”

Looking at the vague smile in his eyes, like going back to my childhood, I was awkwardly lying on the bed, he always looked at me like this, and the smile was clear but not broken.

"Brother......" I hugged his leg and pressed my face to it, and suddenly froze, so panicked that I hurriedly let go and didn't dare to touch it again.

I couldn't see the gauze that was in my sight, and there was no blood leaking out again, it just hurt, and it hurt me and he hurt.

"Are you still sleeping? If you don't sleep, you'll be on the road. ”

Holding his arm and barely sitting up, he saw Xiaoyan who pushed the door in, and his face was also a familiar smile, no resentment just a smile. A little bit of the awkwardness that is not too obvious, I can relate to it. They and I are still relatives, the closest family members, no matter how time changes, how time and space change, there is no choice and will not change.

Xiaoyan and I were not left somewhere in Shaanxi as originally planned, and followed Yinxiang all the way to the east, and the carriage was replaced by two, which was faster and more comfortable, and the road was getting wider and wider, and we could always see different scenery. The insects and birds in the mountains are lush, and the roads are flat, and there are traces of pedestrians in the same hurry, and it is no longer the desolation of the west.

The five accompanying people who were also injured had already recovered from their injuries, and Yi An and Xingjiu were no longer in front, and they were driving my carriage in disguise as when they came.

The carriage was very comfortable, with soft blankets and cushions and thin quilts, which often made me forget about time. Xiaoyan always stayed aside when I woke up, and Yinxiang sometimes came over, and we rarely spoke and just sat quietly, and the journey was not long.

Whenever I want to sleep, I will let her go back, but she always stays warm with me when she sleeps, and she can't see anyone when she wakes up. I was embarrassed to tell her that Yinxiang's leg needed to be taken care of, and she nodded and said that she knew not to worry. We didn't want him to walk bumping around like that, even though he still had his back straight and still stood as tall as we remembered.

This time it really became a hurry, and occasionally I would stay in an inn when I encountered a big town, and a few comfortable rooms were different from the mountain forest roads, so that I could rest for a long time and walk faster on the road.

When I wanted to get out of the car, Yinxiang always stood outside the car and reached out to hug me, never letting me take two more steps. I leaned on his shoulder and felt myself sway with his footsteps, and my heart that was very close would ache without warning. Every time I take a step, it is like stepping on the past in my heart, not deliberately forgetting, nor thinking lightly, but really existing.

Pedestrians come and go on the street, with the noise of hawking, and the unique atmosphere of life in a small town. The sun is about to set, and the afterglow is cast on those small objects and the faces of passers-by, vivid and lovely.

I breathed in the stuffy heat of the air, buried my face in his shoulder, and whispered, "Brother, there are fans for sale, I'll buy two for you and your sister-in-law." ”

Yinxiang suddenly laughed, tilted his head and looked at me not very seriously, "It's never a good thing to give me something, what do you want this time?jewelry?shoes?Or what do you want to eat?"

His eyes turned to look at the stalls in the market, and his smile remained unchanged. I looked at the back of my head dangling all over the place, shook my head and smiled and retracted my gaze, and saw that the few people who were leading the carriage were walking towards the side alley, and Yi An patted Xingjiu on the shoulder and said something.

"Brother, Yinzhen is still waiting for you, leave me here. ”

I already knew that those people were all masters, and I heard the name of the master in my whispered words, except for the three people who were guarding us, the other two people all stopped, and Yi An and Xingjiu also stood there and did not continue walking.

Yinxiang shook his head and smiled and ignored me, and walked towards the door of the inn. After carrying me to the bed in the room, he patted his leg and sat on the side staring at me, but he didn't speak.

"I'm serious, you must have something to do, and it's a very urgent matter to let you go back to the capital, and you can't delay any longer. It's good here, leave me here, you go and do your business, Yinzhen must be waiting for your news. I can rest well here, I don't have to suffer from traveling all day, I'm really tired, I'm scared, just let me keep it here. Wait until one day you will win...... Look at me again. ”

There was a sound outside the door, Yinxiang stood up from the side of the bed and stood in front of him, rubbed the top of my head and pulled Xiaoyan over to let her sit down, "Rest for a while, I'll take a look, and then let them find a doctor for you." ”

I knew that he would not mention this matter again, and he didn't even refuse, all of them should be, and there was no possibility without discussion.

Pushing Xiaoyan to go out with him, I lay down in the bed and heard her chuckle and persuade, "He always knows like this, for your good." Rest for a while, the bed is better than the carriage, and I will be here with you, lest you be thirsty and hungry and find no one. ”

I can't say anything more, I know what they look like, and I know it for my good, but I don't want to drag it down, but I can't do it.

Maybe it's really nice to live here, at least cozy, and you can see it. It's like real life, simple and easy.