Or rather...... It should be that there are some problems in life......

At least for now, it seems to me that this question is enough to be discussed together with the word life......

It's serious, it's important, and it's going to be relevant for the rest of my life......

So now, whether it is at work or off work, whether it is eating, or doing other things, almost all the time, every minute, I am in a state of thinking and entanglement......

The whole person is faced with extremely fierce contradictions and conflicts between reason and emotion, I clearly know what kind of decision I should make on certain things, what kind of action should be made, should ignore or calmly face some things that have happened that I am powerless to change and I am not qualified to care, but the reality is that I can't maintain such a rational state, I don't have such an open mind, and I don't think I have a free and easy state of mind that is beyond the world, I am blocked in front of the mountain, I know that I should firmly step forward, even if I really can't move through, I must act immediately, even if I die halfway up the mountain, I must not be defeated without a fight, I have long understood that life is a battle, the appearance is a battle with everything in the outside world, the essence is actually a battle with myself, and now this battle has reached the most intense moment, and it is also the fiercest battle I have encountered for so many years, I have always had the belief that Xu things will win, or an extraordinary calm mentality, but now I have encountered this matter, I have lost confidence in myself, and my heart has been fluctuating, my current head from the inside out, from the brain to the scalp, is like a taut string, I feel that I will collapse at any time, but I must be strongly controlled。 Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

I was in a state of excruciating pain, I was ashamed to cry for help, and I knew full well that no one could save me but myself.

I never imagined that I would suddenly encounter such a difficult threshold to cross......

The most important thing is that the person who puts myself in the current situation is myself, and if I give up, it will not only be a complete denial of myself, but also hurt the people I don't want to hurt.

And now, I'm in a state of hurt myself.

But it's not anyone's fault, it's all my own problem.

I am now trying to find a solution to this problem, but there is no definite progress at this time. Often one moment you get out of the predicament, and the next moment you are trapped again.

I've never cared about worldly opinions, but how do I seek liberation when I become worldly?

My current obsessive-compulsive disorder is so severe that something I know I shouldn't care about repeatedly and irresistibly invades my head, disturbs my state of mind, denies my way of thinking and thinking logic all along, my self-consistent life is forced to change, and the original regular life becomes disorderly and chaotic.

I don't have the time, I don't have the mood, I don't have the ability to read books, code words, or think about something that I find meaningful.

I didn't do anything excessive, but I was so exhausted that I just wanted to collapse on the ground and not move.

I hope I can fix this soon.

I hope I don't end up with a bad thing that shouldn't be bad for the worst.

I wish I could overcome myself.

Heartfelt hope.