I wanted to ask why, but I lost my strength and sat here, unable to speak, and no one would answer.

She left, without leaving a word, and left my Prince Yong's mansion.

There was no small courtyard in the past, and there was no Honghui there, not in every place. This time, she left without caring about anyone, not even her home, our home.

It was still raining in the middle of the night, and there was no light inside or outside the house. It was as if she had disappeared into thin air, and I couldn't find her. This small dark courtyard seems to have been forgotten in a corner of time and space, and I am alone, with nowhere to put it.

What did we do yesterday?

She snuggled up to me as usual, didn't say a word, just smiled, and didn't even move when she hugged me. There is no difference, the only difference is that she lost her temper with Nian's in the morning, and screamed to pull her to bury her, and even Su Peisheng outside the hospital could hear it.

For those women in the backyard, she never paid attention to it, but it was all pressed in the bottom of her heart, I know. Occasionally, it's up to her to play tricks on me, because I know that her heart hurts, and so do I, and I have really experienced this kind of distress, I understand. It's just that this time for Nian's ...... This reaction is really the first time, and I actually think that she is doing a good job, as long as she is happy.

Now that she's gone, is her heart really happy? Why is my heart still hurting?

What did we do last night?

My head still hurts, and I feel like I'm going to explode drunk. Everyone knows that I won't let myself get drunk, and I've rarely been drunk in so many years, and last night I just had a drink with her, and I didn't even know she was gone. How could it be......

She...... I had been planning to run for a long time!

Yue'er, have I finally failed you?

Smile, am I no longer able to protect you, make your heart so sad that you can no longer rely on it wholeheartedly?

Huang Ama, Eniang, you all know my heart, but you have given me such an identity and status, I can no longer choose, I have worked hard to do a good job, and she is too, why do you still force us. Do you not know that the suffering of your son has not been spoken?

Whoever is to blame, who can be blamed, this qiē is my own choice. I never regret the road I have traveled, and this time, it is too late to regret it. We can't go back to the past, let alone the beauty of our dreams.

I can't tell which place is real and which is illusory, and I can't choose.

All I know is that my life has changed back to years ago, and the days when she left are not even as good as they were then. Because I don't know if she will come back or if she wants to come back, and I don't even have a life to expect, so I can only wait.

Spread out the letter paper in her hand, like the only light in the dark night, she gave it. Just like this, a page of blank paper without a single word has been crumpled and smoothed out by me many times.

There is nothing more to say to each other, and you don't know what to say to me in the face of such separation. If you leave like this, you don't want your home, your children and grandchildren, and even me. What else can I say, I can't even imagine what year and month it will be when I say goodbye, and how I can wait until that day.

Such a mansion, such a palace, did it hurt you so much, even if I have it, I can't save the footsteps you want to leave, and you still have the heart.

Yours, mine, is no match for reality. Three hundred years away, there is only one heart left that can tie us together, you don't want it, or you took it away?

Smile, didn't I tie you up and stay away? this time, did you finally get rid of everything, like I saw for the first time in my dream, without worry.

When I think about it, I am afraid.

It's also this rainy night, it's also this room, you cry and lean into my arms and talk about heaven, you say you want to go there, and you don't have me in your eyes.

Smile, I don't know if there is such a place in this world as you said, just beg you, don't go. What would I do without you? What would I do if you went? People like me who hurt you again and again are destined not to go there. At that time, I was afraid that I would not find you again, just like at this time.

Rao is like this, I still go to the palace in the morning, because as you said, I have my responsibility, and I am afraid that I will not be able to break free from this life. And you also have your responsibility, whether you want to let go and stand with me again, shoulder to shoulder.

I was afraid, but I didn't complain......

The palace has not been altered by your absence, and the red bricks and golden tiles still stand tall after the storm, behind me where we once walked hand in hand. It was 300 years ago, and it still is 300 years later. What has changed is only the generations of emperors and generals, the rebels and loyal ministers of the dynasty, and they have never been ordinary couples in the world, let alone you or me.

Huang Ama didn't say anything when he saw me, and looked at the letter you left in silence. I didn't open it, I don't know what was written in it, and my heart was beating almost unbearably, hoping that there was some message in the letter so that I could find you.

"Is the old thirteen still there?"

Such a sentence shocked me to wake up instantly. I think I'm really messed up, I forgot about Yinxiang. In this world, you can't let go of anyone, no matter which life there will always be someone in your heart who can't let go, not me.

Seeing the page of the letter turn to ashes in the hands of Emperor Ama, I could not laugh or cry when I saw the words on it—this man was dead, and he had something to burn.

There is nothing else besides this sentence, which makes me want to cry without tears and laugh without a sound.

"Your family's late Fujin, it's a pity. ”

Huang Ama said and raised the silver ticket in his hand, I didn't have time to distinguish the pain in my heart and knelt back on the ground, "Erchen begs Huang Ama to allow some more time......"

A sigh interrupted my unfinished plea, "If she hadn't come back by herself, where would you have found it?" ”

Where can I find it...... I was speechless.

I think this time it was different from a few years ago, she really wanted to leave me, so she didn't leave a word, so I couldn't find her.

The ends of the earth can be found in the end, why not pay for a lifetime, but who will allow me. Today, still. Even if I could guess where she would go, who would allow me to leave a qiē behind and chase after her.

Qinghai? Smile, that day in your memory once mentioned the beautiful Qinghai Lake, mentioned us, I don't know who it is you and who, all the vividness in my life will not be forgotten. It's just that this time, we in your mouth still don't have me.

In such a life, my promise has become hurt again and again, and the more I talk about it, the more it hurts.

The last time you came back was because of the eight-year covenant, four years have passed, do you want me to wait another four years? And will you remember our agreement, will you ever come back?

I still remember at that time, I was so angry that I said that I was not afraid to wait another four years for you who refused to come back to me. Thankfully, you still want me.

This time, do you want to.

And how many more four years do we have to wait, and how many more four years do we have...... I don't want to lose a minute or a second, I can't afford it.

I hate, I resent, but I am like a bird with wings and feet tied to the palace and palace every day. I once wondered what a cage-like house is, what is a life in a cage, no wonder that daughter like you wants to leave, no wonder you finally leave.

I think the best thing I did was to promise her marriage, and the man gave her the only thing she wanted in life. If she stays here, I'm afraid she'll become like you, or like you...... I can't imagine.

The Li family, the Song family, the Niu Hulu family, the Geng family, the Nian family, and the Wu family, in the past thirty years, there have been so many women in my house, surrounding us, and full of the married life of the two people.

How many brothers would never think about this question, or the three wives and four concubines that men in this era take for granted, and the same was true for me in the past. It was you who let me know that there is a kind of emotion called love, and there is no room for a second person in this love, whether it is a man or a woman. My heart has long been moved, and my love has long been promised, but I am powerless to change this qiē. It's like a heart that moves love, how can I let it stop, unless I die.

Thou hast departed, and left them to dwell with me every day in this palace, and my heart was empty. Only by making myself busier and busier every day and sitting down and looking at the place where you used to live, and staying in the place we call home, can I become more like myself.

You don't talk much about love, and it seems that we have forgotten the simple pleasures of our youth in our daily lives. But I still remember when you said you loved me, even the ignorant you hugged me tightly and lay under me with a trembling voice and said timidly that you like me, will there be such a day?

Because you and I understand love, and now we are at a loss. What is love? Could it be that the heart is always full, whether we are separated or staying? No matter how far apart we are, no matter how many years we stay together......

That being the case, why does my heart always feel empty, even if my mind is full of you, it is still empty and only hurts.

But I know that you are still in my heart, full of you.

You cry and you laugh, you leave you away, you are full because of you, and you are empty because of you.

After you left, the prosperity of this capital was still just a drop of rain, as if all the tears had already flowed in the darkness of that night. But I hid here and didn't look at the sun or the shadows, I just sat here quietly, with an empty chaise longue by my side, doing nothing.

The grapes in the yard bear fruit, and every day they change and grow into a way that makes you smile when you see them, purple like a crystal pendant you gave me. A drop of water, but in my eyes it turned into tears, your tears. Nearly burned me.

I miss the days I sat here with you, three hundred years apart, but the easiest time of my forty years of life. Because of you, because it's only you.

I saw the box you had buried, with our names on it, lying there motionless, waiting for you to open it.

I buried my heart in it, with your silent farewell, buried in the side of the original heart of your love that has long been delivered, happy and sad to stay together, together across three hundred years of wind, frost, snow and rain.

Smile, can you see the days after I'm gone?

I really never wanted to hurt you, but this qiē seems to be really predestined.

On the day I came back from Saiwai, it was also raining here, and Yinxiang made a move on me for the first time, and I saw his anger, not only in his eyes but also in his heart. I know how much it hurts him because I am too.

I want to know what you are like after I leave, how you live like you have forgotten me, this matter has been on my heart for too long to talk to you. I'm afraid that when I face you, who seems to have only known me for more than 20 years, I will forget that there was a time when I stayed in your life for a short time.

But he told me that you don't remember me at all, and you shouldn't remember me again...... But in the end, I couldn't escape the entanglement of fate, and I still came back to me.

Is it fate? It is destined to give me hope after hope, so that I can easily get all your love and trust, and take you away from my side, without a trace.

At this time, at that time, there is no power to change the ......

Smile, do you still believe in fate? You used to be disdainful to convinced, but I don't believe it anymore. Even if it spans 300 years and brings you into my world and then withdraws from it, I will always believe in you, only in you, and in our love.

Even if there are thousands of mountains and rivers, time and space, any corner of the world, I will eventually find you. There is no doubt in this life.

At that point, nothing will separate us.

This time I will no longer promise you, only for you to see, to see me, no matter how far apart.

I, Aixin Jueluo-Yinzhen, have nothing to do with my surname and reputation, I am just your man at this time. I will no longer wait for hard work, and I will no longer let my women go over the mountains and seas for me, this time I will do it for you.

This life is inseparable.