After Shen Mu bowed and retreated, Yan Shunhua concentrated on trying to contact Shen Jingyuan, but he still returned in vain.

The girl didn't know what kind of problem she had encountered, and she refused to let her contact her, nor did she take the initiative to find her, if she didn't know who he was, she still thought that this person was going to do this trick by retreating.

She let out a breath, and had no intention of practicing calligraphy or stretching her muscles, so she got out of bed and turned off the lights before returning to the bed and lying down.

There was suddenly a little child with a warm body beside her, and she was really not used to it, even if the little guy's breathing sound was very regular, and the sleeping position seemed to be extremely regular for the time being, but she still felt a little strange to be so tightly clinging.

Well, when Shen Jingyuan spent the night by her side before, she also felt weirdly tight at first, and she couldn't protest later, and it didn't take long for her to get used to it.

Once it becomes a habit, it seems that it will be at ease, and it will no longer refuse or even dislike approaching because of rejection in the heart, and many times, it will be inexplicably at ease because of his existence.

Yan Shunhua frowned in the dark, does this mean that in fact, Shen Jingyuan has unconsciously given her a great sense of security?

She didn't rely on him completely, but I have to say that because of his relationship, she actually enjoyed a lot of convenience, although this convenience was also formed because of his situation.

It is often unclear who is the cause and who is the effect, after all, there are many things that cause and effect each other, and they are not bad.

It's just that. What proportion of this is the role of habit?

He was so tolerant of her that the desire for exclusivity was terrifyingly strong, and she was. Many times she can actually tear her face or understand things quietly, but she has no way to do it, whether it is above board or silently leaving in an indifferent posture when he is discouraged.

If she said that there was no emotion at all, she felt that even if she was good at self-deception at some times, there was no way to ignore some of the throbbing in her heart.

She tugged at her hair and sighed in the darkness.

"Shen Jingyuan, if you don't show up again. When I went back to the village, I asked my parents to start seeing someone for me. You must know that the eldest sister has given birth to children, and the second sister has already married. I'm fifteen years old, and I'm really ready to get married.

I used to take it for granted, even if my father promised to let me marry at the age of eighteen, he wouldn't watch me have no clear whereabouts. Names or something. It's better to set early. When they get it, they have a headache and a heartache, but my ears hurt. ”

Remembering that in modern times, because of her age, she didn't know anyone she knew, and after chatting a few words, she began to talk about marriage, and she had to introduce her to someone in life and death, and she didn't give up without branding her with a man's exclusive name, she felt a deep toothache.

Throughout the ages, this land of China has had endless matchmakers. Waiting to match single men and women. If she wanted to be quiet, ignoring or avoiding it wouldn't be the best solution.

After all, it is a lonely force. There are some people she can ignore completely, but she can't turn a blind eye to all the old and young in Yanjia Village, right?

The villagers said that although she would not lose a piece of meat in two sentences, she talked every day, not one or two people, but dozens of people, she could ignore it once or twice, endure ten times and hundreds of times, and never be able to maintain a good mood all the time.

Buzzing around her like a swarm of bees, she'd be annoyed.

Yan Shunhua suddenly felt that it seemed that in this time and space, if she didn't want to go through the previous experience of being invisibly forced to marry, it was indeed necessary to immediately settle the marriage with Shen Jingyuan, and it was best to marry herself before the age of eighteen.

In modern times, she can be a leftover girl again, anyway, seriously, both parents can't control her, she earns the house and car tickets herself, they didn't take it seriously when they could be her master, and when she didn't need it, they couldn't open their mouths.

As for the others, the few friends are basically the same as her, hesitant about the so-called love and marriage, some believe in celibacy and feed the whole family without worry, and some people do not reject marriage but are not very active and have to go into the besieged city to walk around.

Although she herself has considerable doubts about marriage because of her parents' relationship, she still believes that there is such a thing as love, but it is just unavoidable. So, in fact, she is essentially a marriage indifference. It doesn't matter if you get married or not, it's even more important whether you have feelings or not.

But of course, if it's a true relationship, she thinks it's better to get that certificate if they're together.

It's not that you can feel more secure or anything if you have a certificate, but I think that if two people who are together don't even have a relationship, then the marriage certificate is just a decoration.

The inside is gone, and she still wants to die to save face, she doesn't think that she is willing to be a stupid fool, and she pits herself like a corpse.

Of course, this can only be thought about by her, nine times out of ten things in life are unsatisfactory, and many people struggle all their lives, just to be able to have a little dignity in the eyes of others.

Face or something, sometimes worthless, whether willing or full of resentment, you can tear it off and fall to the ground by yourself, let others step on it and step on it, go down to the dust, humble to live, like a small reptile, flies and dogs.

But more often than not, whether there are good thoughts in the heart or full of malice, there is no way to endure it. For the sake of his own face, he knew that if he didn't bow his head, he would suffer huge losses, and even possibly a threat of death, but he would rather be crushed than lose his reputation.

People want to have a face, and the tree needs bark, and the tree is often weakened and dies without its bark, and people have no face, and sometimes, they really can't live.

People fight for a breath of Buddha for a stick of incense, the skin can be light or heavy, it's really hard to say. But marriage, like drinking water, knows its own warmth and coldness.

If the **** is cold and bone-chilling, it's hard to even lower your mouth, then it's not worth a fart or something......

Yan Shunhua's thoughts drifted a little far, so that when Shen Jingyuan's hoarse voice sounded, she didn't react at all. (To be continued.) )