Where is this, I muttered in my heart this strange place, the white walls, the white floor, the white ceiling, it seems that everything is white here, the long corridor from time to time blows a faint smell of disinfectant water to me, the long benches are embedded in this white corridor, it seems very lonely. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

I walked quietly alone, there was a burst of noise, that is, the friction of my slippers against the ground, and soon I came to the end of the corridor, here is a corner, where there is a door with the sign of the operating room, just when I wondered why I came here, from the place I just came, suddenly appeared a few people, two nurses in nurse clothes, trying their best to comfort a pregnant woman on the operating car, the pregnant woman is very beautiful, giving people a fresh and refined feeling, even if she is pregnant with a big belly, it can't hide the beautiful figure before, and there is a tall man who hurried to the operating room, the man is about thirty years old, handsome appearance, tall appearance, gave me an indescribable warm sense of security, I think this must be the pregnant woman's husband, such a match of two people, not together is a little difficult.

But somehow, how do I see how familiar this man is, I try to recall the crowd I contacted, and there seems to be no figure of this man, I don't know when they have bypassed me to the operating room, the nurse blocked the man who was about to enter the operating room, and the nurse hurriedly said "Family, please wait outside the door" I entered the operating room with the doctor, and after a while, the light in front of the operating room turned on, and the man looked at the light and walked anxiously outside the door, and kept muttering something in his mouth, and it took me a long time to hear what he said was "Don't be a girl, never be a girl"

I was even more puzzled, very puzzled, what era do you say it is now, why parents still have this kind of patriarchal thinking, fortunately my father didn't, Dad, hey, suddenly seemed to understand all of a sudden, this man is not my father, but a lot younger, I quickly stepped forward to take a look, and actually confirmed my thoughts, sure enough, the man in front of me is my father, but I feel as if he can't see me, I dangled in front of him for so long, he didn't notice at all.

Could it be that I really went back to eighteen years ago, with infinite conjectures and fantasies, if I really went back to eighteen years ago, then the pregnant woman who just pushed into the operating room, could it be my mother, thinking of this, my heart began to stir, with the pace of my father, I also began to walk around, saying that newborn babies are the loveliest, the purest, I want to know, how lovely I used to be.

After a while, a baby's crying broke through my eardrums, I smiled happily, I could see the scene of my birth, what a joyful thing, when I was thinking, the lights in the operating room went out, the nurse walked out with a baby in her arms, the father saw it and immediately pounced, the strange thing was that the first thing he did was not to care for the weak mother inside, but quickly grabbed the nurse's hand, and asked anxiously, "Is it a boy or a girl" I wondered why, I always felt like my dad was paying special attention to boys and girls, and whether boys and girls were really that important to him.

When the nurse happily said congratulations to a very healthy girl, my father seemed to have lost some kind of support, and fell to his knees with a bang, and couldn't stop wailing, I wanted to hold him up, and asked him why he was like this, why he disliked me like that, did my birth bring disaster to him, and why did he give birth to me, since my birth brought you so much displeasure, then I would rather never come, I reached out to hold him, but my hand passed through my father's body.

I looked at my hands and gently touched my right hand with my left hand, and I really landed in the palm of my hand, but why...... I know, because I don't belong to this world, I can't touch them.

After I understood, I didn't want to help my father, because in this space, in fact, I didn't exist at all, the nurse saw my father kneeling on the ground, and I didn't know what to do, and comforted him vigorously, and suddenly a nurse ran out of the operating room in a hurry, shouting excitedly and loudly, "Hurry up, there is another one, and there is another"?????

Hearing the news, the three of us were shocked, the nurse hurriedly took the baby girl to the father who was still on the ground, and entered the operating room, the father also hurriedly stood up, and watched intently as the lights in the operating room turned on again, regardless of the crying of the baby in his arms, I watched all this happen, but I couldn't do anything, I stayed, it turned out that my father didn't want me to come to this world, I stayed, it turned out that I had a sister, I stayed, how else could I face everything that happened.

There was a dazzling white light from the operating room, which made me feel lost, and instantly entered the right track, I unconsciously blocked it, and suddenly the flash disappeared, followed by a sweet laugh of the baby, the laughter is the sweetest sound I have ever heard, the sound is refreshing, so innocent and holy, it feels like a budding plant, fresh, pure, innocent, but how can a newborn baby laugh, I am happy that I have a sister.

The dad next to me also heard the laughter, and the sad face on his face instantly became the normal joy when he should have been a father, but even if he was happy, how could the baby in his arms fall down, I watched my young self in contact with the ground at which moment, that kind of heart-rending crying, I leaned against the wall on the side, trying to comfort myself, this is just a dream, just a dream, my dad loves me very much, but is this really just a dream. Dad he also seemed to find out, quickly picked up the crying baby at his feet, regardless of the operation in progress and broke in, in the operating room, a nurse is really trying to beat the newborn baby's buttocks, trying to make the baby cry, but no matter how to beat, the baby has always smiled sweetly, never cried, of course, I know why, because if the newborn baby does not cry, it means that she is not healthy, she can't.

Dad saw the nurse's behavior, immediately unhappy, went up and stopped the nurse's hand, put me aside, snatched the baby in the nurse's hand, hurriedly ran to the mother's side on the operating table, I don't know whether the father is laughing or crying, to the mother is a sentence "Miao Lin, it's a girl, why is it a girl, what can I do" Mom silently listened to Dad's cry, gently touched Dad's cheek with a weak hand, shook his head with a smile, Dad gently grabbed Mom's hand and said to her, "Fortunately, with her, there is finally hope in the Six Realms, but when the baby girl is born, there will be great difficulties, and now she is still young, how can she bear all this" The mother on the hospital bed did not make a sound, looked at the baby, they seemed to have forgotten, there was a me behind her.

I glanced at the neglected me in front of me with pity, and I found that I was actually covered in black gas, and there was unspeakable hatred in my eyes, how could I have such eyes, I looked at me in frustration, looked at my parents, and his sister beside him, I felt that I was really the most redundant in the world, but why I was by my father's side, and my sister was gone, I had too many questions in my heart, too many puzzles, who I wanted to ask, but who made it clear to me.