Chapter 106: Death is also a pursuit
"Really, I didn't lie to you, this business is really dangerous, demons and monsters are not fun at all, they are enemies who will not hesitate to take our lives. If you just want to know what Lin Xiaofeng is doing and what kind of life she is living, it may not be difficult, but if you want to do something else and try to get closer to her world, it is quite dangerous. β
Xu Xingkong's tone made Lin Xiaotong serious, and she was silent for a while before looking up at Xu Xingkong: "You guessed right, in fact, I have always been very unwilling." β
Xu Xingwu thought about it and said with a wry smile: "Some things really can't be done with hard work. β
Lin Xiaotong twisted her hands together, and said with a confused look: "I, I just want to know, what took away my sister, when I was a child, she liked me so much, followed me all day long, like a little tail, how cute she was at that time, and she loved to laugh, but suddenly this qiΔ changed I was really unwilling." β
Xu Xingkong frowned, of course he couldn't answer this question, although he would have some guesses in his heart, but these irresponsible guesses were meaningless, and even had a counterproductive effect, not to mention, Xu Xingkong vaguely felt that what Lin Xiaotong said might just be superficial.
"Then you can try other methods, in short, don't use such a dangerous way, in fact, I think Lin Xiaofeng still cares about you very much, it's just that she is not good at expressing it. β
Lin Xiaotong didn't seem to hear Xu Xingkong's Jian yì, which was far away from the point, and looked at Xu Xingkong with a leisurely look:
"Are you people so paranoid? Are you people so paranoid that you don't take your life seriously because you are constantly facing death? Is it because you can leave at any time, so you no longer care about the relatives you are destined to lose?
Xu Xingkong was stared at by Lin Xiaotong, and he pondered for a while before sighing and saying:
"Maybe it's the opposite, it's because I care too much about it, so I don't know what to do. β
After getting into the car, Lin Xiaotong became very silent, Xu Xingkong glanced at the corner of his eyes from time to time while driving, he wanted to break this dull situation, but he didn't know what to do, speaking of which, Xu Xingkong is not an eight-sided and exquisite character, on the contrary, he is actually more dull.
"I'm not going!"
Lin Xiaotong suddenly burst out with a sentence, Xu Xingkong actually heard it very clearly, but he still subconsciously asked rhetorically:
"What? What did you say?"
Lin Xiaotong turned his head to look at Xu Xingkong, and said word by word:
"I said no!"
"Don't you go to a business meeting? But didn't you say that you have an appointment? It's an important business contact."
"I said no. β
Lin Xiaotong stubbornly repeated the same sentence, not even a word changed.
Xu Xingkong compromised in front of this kind of power: "Okay, if you don't go, you won't go, then I'll call the other party first." β
Lin Xiaotong didn't say anything, Xu Xingkong couldn't help but smile bitterly, okay, I was her assistant, and I should have helped her solve these bullshit troubles.
Xu Xingkong took out his mobile phone and pressed it, completely ignoring the law that you can't make phone calls while driving, in fact, Xu Xingkong felt that making calls while driving while driving would not affect normal driving movements at all, and he had gradually become accustomed to the dual use of his brain running at a higher speed, as well as some kind of distraction on Cheng DΓΉ.
Lin Xiaotong's sudden failure made the other party very unhappy, but what can this be? Anyway, Xu Xingkong has said it, and his posture is correct, if the other party is a real businessman, he will naturally not give up the opportunity to make money for this matter. Moreover, this meeting was only a tentative contact, neither side had a predetermined idea, and the hope was not high, and the disappointment was naturally not great.
Hanging up the phone, Xu Xingkong exhaled, looked sideways at Lin Xiaotong, Lin Xiaotong had no expression on her face, Xu Xingkong had never seen her like this, even when she first saw Lin Xiaotong, her cold demeanor was not like this, her current appearance was like an eggplant beaten by frost, completely wilted.
"Xiaotong, where do you want to go?"
Lin Xiaotong leaned on the saddle, the whole person seemed to be cramped, as if she was completely spread out on the chair, her eyes looked at the lights outside the car window, and the light of the street lamps brushed her face, but it couldn't wash away the tiredness on her face.
Xu Xingkong tried hard to guess Lin Xiaotong's feelings, and if he understood it according to normal logic, Xu Xingkong could barely understand why Lin Xiaotong became so decadent, but judging from values, Xu Xingkong couldn't understand Lin Xiaotong's behavior.
Lin Xiaotong seems so listless, in fact, because of disappointment!
That's right, it's disappointment, but the object of her disappointment is neither her sister Lin Xiaofeng, nor her parents or anyone else, it is she who really disappoints her, because she hesitated and was afraid just now.
It can be seen from Lin Xiaotong's self-report that Lin Xiaotong's life has been very happy from the moment she was born, loving and kind parents, a worry-free living environment, a high social status, a good educational foundation, and her own excellent qualifications. But in her happy life, there happens to be such a flaw, a flaw that has been deeply rooted in her heart since she was a child, and that is Lin Xiaofeng.
If you put aside all the high-sounding reasons and look at it with the harshest and darkest eyes, what Lin Xiaotong is pursuing is actually a complete life, at least, she wants to make up for that defect, she has been pursuing this matter all along, and it has even become an obsession.
But when she tried her best to get closer to her sister Lin Xiaofeng's world step by step, she suddenly found that all her previous plans were just taken for granted, completely ignoring what price she was pursuing.
To put it simply, Lin Xiaotong suddenly understood that she was not as strong and brave as she imagined, and she might not care about her sister as much as she imagined, and at this time, her heart collapsed.
Of course, Xu Xingkong is not a roundworm in Lin Xiaotong's stomach, he can't know what Lin Xiaotong is thinking in his heart, he just feels Lin Xiaotong's fear and confusion. In fact, Xu Xingkong didn't look down on Lin Xiaotong at all because of this, to be honest, Lin Xiaotong just hesitated instead of running away directly, Xu Xingkong already admired her very much.
There is a great terror between death, this is by no means a light and clever sentence, but a reality that everyone has to face sooner or later, Xu Xingkong already has a deep understanding of this, Lin Xiaotong, as a girl born with a golden key and growing up in a warm and peaceful environment, may never seriously examine what death means, so she can not flee in the face of death, that is victory, it is courage!
Changing places, Xu Xingkong felt that he might not be able to do better than Lin Xiaotong, although Xu Xingkong now dared to face death, dare to dance on the tip of the knife, and fight for his life on the death line, but it was completely forced out, let Xu Xingkong choose by himself, he may not choose the current life again.
Purely from this aspect, Xu Xingkong still admires Lin Xiaotong.
But from another perspective, it is difficult for Xu Xingkong to deeply understand Lin Xiaotong's motivation and changes in doing so.
Objectively speaking, Lin Xiaotong's current life and life are actually very correct, completely in line with the mainstream values, and it can also be said that she is very lively, she has her own career and pursuit, she can be like any strong woman in the business world, use her own wisdom and courage to fight for a world of her own.
However, Lin Xiaotong is not satisfied with her seemingly bright life path, she has to be willing to degenerate and cling to her sister's affairs, can't she let her sister live her life, and she lives her own life?
The only explanation Xu Xingkong can think of is that Lin Xiaotong is full and has nothing to do!
Perhaps, a person who has lacked everything since birth cannot understand the thoughts of a person who lacks nothing.
For Xu Xingkong, what he has always needed to consider is to be full and clothed first, and then he can think about other things, not long ago, he even felt extravagant about the idea of finding a girlfriend, even now, Xu Xingkong has become completely different, but his embarrassing situation has not improved, not only has the problem of food and clothing not been completely solved, but also worries about the safety of his life, is this a kind of regression?
However, it was this helpless situation that made Xu Xingkong have no time or qualification to think about other things, so he could only passively cope with and adapt to this qiΔ change.
But Lin Xiaotong is different, she has lacked nothing since she was born, she can control her own life, she pursues self-realization, which is known as the highest level of pursuit in life, but unfortunately, her self-realization method is to find her good sister, and this way is extremely dangerous.
Xu Xingkong feels that from a certain point of view, Lin Xiaotong is very similar to those second generations who die all day long, Xu Xingkong even has a hunch, don't look at Lin Xiaotong's very decadent appearance now, but maybe tomorrow, maybe the day after tomorrow, she will most likely be determined to continue to die, this is the disease of wealth.
Of course, her behavior can also be beautified as Lin Xiaotong's victory over her fear for family affection.
Thinking of this, Xu Xingkong felt an inexplicable sense of joy, and couldn't help but curl the corners of his mouth, and when he looked at Lin Xiaotong again, he didn't feel that this girl was very pitiful, but he had some wonderful expectations in his heart, and wanted to know her choice quickly.
Under the guidance of Lin Xiaotong, the two came to a bar, this bar is located very remotely, deep into a certain building, and what is even stranger is that there is not even a water sign downstairs, if it is not an acquaintance, you will definitely not find a bar hidden in this dark place.
The area of the bar is not small, the environment is quite elegant, the feminine color is very strict, Xu Xingkong was scanned by several women with strange eyes when he came in, fortunately there was a super beauty by his side, otherwise Xu Xingkong would have wanted to turn around and escape.
Xu Xingkong thought that Lin Xiaotong was here to buy drunk, but he was wrong, Lin Xiaotong drank very modestly, she just tasted a glass of brightly colored and cute cocktail, and every time she touched her lips and put it down, but Xu Xingkong was gulping down beer, and he felt very thirsty.
Xu Xingkong could feel that Lin Xiaotong's state was slowly recovering, Xu Xingkong guessed that she might be rebuilding herself quickly, this is a very rational and intelligent woman, and a very resolute character, it can also be said that she is a very scary woman.
"Am I ridiculous?"
Lin Xiaofeng smiled self-deprecatingly and looked up at Xu Xingkong, but her eyes were not eager, and she didn't seem to want Xu Xingkong's answer very much, which also showed that she didn't really need the comfort of others, and she didn't need to prove herself from others.
Although Lin Xiaotong was dispensable with the answer, Xu Xingkong still replied very seriously: "No." β
[First of all, I want to apologize to everyone, I didn't change it yesterday, and it's so late today, for many reasons, such as festivals, such as some changes in energy at home, etc., but it's not interesting to say that. Recently, I've been taking the time to read more books and other works, and I know that this book is a bit messy and superficial, and there should be some changes in the next step, in terms of writing style. Actually, I don't care if the work can make money, because I really can't make a fortune with this, I just want to write a good book for those readers who like me, so I will definitely not disappoint everyone, I will continue to write, everyone please continue to read, as for the rest, thank you!]