In the evening, Mie and I set up a barbecue grill on the lawn outside the cabin, lit a fire, and prepared to start the barbecue. Pen % fun % Pavilion www.biquge.info

Erin and Hannah came back with a lot of barbecue ingredients and beer, and we drank happily... While eating, I walked to the center of the park with a can of beer, raised my head to the stars in the infinite night sky and sighed, "How many years have I not been as relaxed and enjoyable as now, I don't have to think about anything, I don't need to think about anything."

"Naruto..."I heard my name called, and I looked back to see that it was Erin standing behind me.

"It's you, what's wrong, why don't you eat with everyone over there and come here?"

Erin looked at me with a serious expression on her face, "I have something to say to you".

I sighed deeply because I knew what she was going to say to me, "Hannah already told you, didn't she?".

"Hmm...," Erin nodded slightly, "Looks like you've known that for a long time."

"Yes...".

"Tell me... What do you think in your heart?".

I lowered my head and pondered... Seriously, in fact, I myself am also very entangled, I don't know how to answer, after all, we have always been together since childhood, no matter what we do, it has always been two people, although we often quarrel, but for each other, we never thought that there would be a day when we would leave each other, not once, I also understand what Hannah said, Erin is the heir to this church after all, she has a position that she can't help but fulfill her duties, I have no way to interfere, and I don't have this right... I know that, I know it, but even a few days away from me can make me feel lonely, even though Hannah says I can go back to church every weekend... Meet Erin, but... I also felt like something was missing: "I... I don't know, after all, it's Hannah's arrangement, you know, as long as it's what she decides, no matter what we do, we can't change it."

Hearing my answer, Irene's expression was clearly starting to lower a little.

In fact, I didn't finish what I said just now, I threw the beer in my hand on the grass, stepped forward and hugged her into my arms, "Irene, although I can't change Hannah's decision, but in my heart, I am reluctant to leave you alone... Although I don't know if I love you or not, I still don't want you to be by my side suddenly, because I'm used to arguing with you, I'm used to the daily life with you, since I came to this island when I was a child, I have you every day, and now it's only a few days a week, but I don't know why, when I think of not seeing you when I get up in the future, I feel so lonely "This is my true words, not I made it up."

Erin raised her hands and hugged me tightly, her head resting gently on my chest, "yes... It turns out that you will be lonely too, it's okay Mingcheng, you can go, I have your words enough."

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After that, the two of us didn't say a word, just hugged each other until Mie walked up to us with a smile on her face and gently patted us on the shoulder, "Hey~Hey~ Hey, okay, it's almost okay, if you don't eat the baked food, it's cold...".

Erin and I didn't separate because of Mie's arrival, but I shook my body and said to her (Mie) in a weird way: "Mie~You play Kai (go away)~, I haven't hugged enough... I won't be able to hold Erin tomorrow, so I'll hold her a little longer now to save her temperature."

Mie shook her head speechlessly, covered her face with her hands, and smiled quietly, "Okay~Okay, you guys continue to hug, I'll continue to eat" said Perfect Hui turned around and walked back, but not long after leaving, he turned around and said, "I don't have to leave it to you, I don't look like you're hungry."

Hearing Mie say this, Erin let go of the hands that were hugging me and slowly left my embrace, "Okay, let's go, let's go eat too, if you don't eat, you will really be eaten by Mie."

"Oh...".

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After the pleasant barbecue, we each went back to our own resting place... Late at night, I lay in bed, unable to fall asleep for a long time, looking at Mie and Erin on the left and right as if they had fallen asleep, I couldn't help but sigh softly: the rotten city pollutes everyone who touches it... I... It's one of them, so that I really qualify to be a soldier?

"It's a decaying city, but it can't corrode the soil underground."

This sentence suddenly rang in my ears, and I turned my head to look at it and found Mie looking at me with a smile, "I woke you up?".

"No~" Mie sat up and leaned back against the head of the bed, "I can't sleep either."

"Why?" I was afraid that she would catch a cold, so I got up and sat on the head of the bed with my back and put my arms around her.

"Before the barbecue started in the evening, Hannah gave me a strength test."

"Well, I know, I saw it, although you were suppressed by Hannah, but don't be too reassured, after all, she is the strongest war maniac in the Marine Corps" I comforted Mie, after all, even I was not confident that I could win Hannah in a fair fight" And besides, Hannah still has a high opinion of you, didn't she say, with your current skills, you are also a first-class master after entering the army."

"I know, but when I fought her, I found out that she was a person I couldn't overcome, and at that time I had a strong emotion in my heart, I want to win, I want to win, and at that moment, I could feel that I had become a different person, a person who only had killing in his eyes in order to pursue victory" Mie said as her body trembled slightly, she was afraid "Narukoto, why am I like this?".

I didn't answer Mie right away, but reached for a hand next to the bed, picked up a cigarette and lit it and smoked, "Mie, that's your desire to survive."

"What does it mean, I don't understand."

"Didn't you tell me that your unpleasant past, born in the slums... Dark childhood... "Actually, I don't want to bring up Mie's sadness again, but if she doesn't do it, she won't understand why she suddenly became so cold in battle."

"Hmm..."Although Mie didn't pay much attention to it, she could still see a little sadness on her face, "Does it have anything to do with this?".

"There's... As I said earlier, Hannah is a war maniac, and even if she stands still, she will unconsciously give her opponents an oppressive fear, which can make people nervous without fear, and make people feel as if they are going to lose their lives in front of her, especially if you are... With a tragic past... For people who are hungry to survive, this fear can overwhelm you, causing you to forcibly trigger another mental state in your mind."

"You mean that in my subconscious, I will kill in order to survive?".

"That's pretty much what it means," I didn't deny it to comfort her, "but you don't have to take it too seriously, it's normal, not to mention you, I'm the same."

"You too?".

"Hmm... When I was younger, Hannah gave me and Irene a brutal training in which I fought each other and only one of them was allowed to survive, and if anyone didn't want to do it, she would kill us on the spot."

"How old were you then, wouldn't this training be too inhumane?" Mie was surprised when she heard it, "how did you survive then?"

Faced with Mie's question, I couldn't help but sigh deeply, "At that time, Erin and I didn't know each other, we only met for the first time that day, we didn't even know each other's names, but in order to survive, we tried everything to kill each other, without any skills and skills, some just wanted to survive, I kept telling myself in my heart, I want to survive... I'm going to survive... I have to survive.... In the last moments, I could have killed Irene, but when my knife was about to be plunged into her (Irene's) chest, at that moment, I saw Erin's eyes full of fear, pleading, as if to tell me that she wanted to live, she didn't want to die..... Thereupon... I came to my senses and deliberately showed the flaw so that Erin had a chance to fight back, but when Erin put the knife on my neck, she (Erin) also stopped and didn't cut it... After that, the victory was stopped by Hannah, and later we learned that even if we really wanted to kill each other, Hannah would come out to stop us before we could do it, and her (Hannah's) purpose was just to test whether Erin and I would sacrifice innocent people in order to survive without a choice."

"I see..."After listening to the story of me and Irene, Mie regained her smile, "Narukoto, if one day, you encounter a special situation and you don't have a choice, then will you kill me in order to survive?".

"What do you think? will?" I didn't answer Mie's question directly, because it wasn't necessary between us.

Mie smiled, apparently knowing the answer in her heart.

The two of us looked at each other and smiled.

At this time, Erin suddenly came up with a sentence, "Mie, you were deceived by him, don't believe what he said, he lost to me in that training... It's me who didn't kill him, what did he deliberately show flaws to me, it was all fake" It turned out that Erin had been woken up by our conversation a long time ago, but she still pretended to be asleep, not wanting to spoil the atmosphere between me and Mie.

After hearing Erin say this, Mie and I didn't say anything, just laughed happily, and then we leaned on the top of our heads and kissed.

Erin looked at us and shook her head speechlessly, "Hey~ I'll sleep when I've kissed enough, don't wake me up by chatting again."

After speaking, when Erin was about to turn around and cover the quilt, I turned around and pulled her into my arms, "What to sleep, get up~".

"Oops~ Did you eat too much roast lamb and oysters?" Erin struggled reluctantly, she was really sleepy, "You guys go to the side by yourself~ I still have to sleep."

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