cpa300_4(); I looked out the door with some amazement, the small figure.

The little pink face like a snow ball, the chin is fleshy, a pair of eyes are round and big, like two black pearls inlaid in the snow, it looks so clever, the small mouth is red, because it is frightened and slightly opened, revealing the teeth as neat as millet, and the body is wearing a small jacket with crimson silk satin Baifu characters, which looks snow jade cute, like the golden boy in front of the Bodhisattva.

This turned out to be a child who was only three or four years old, looking at me in a daze.

I also looked at him, the two of them looked at each other for a long time like stupidity, I don't know why, as soon as I saw him, my heart suddenly gave birth to a trace of warm love, but when I thought of my scary appearance, for fear of frightening the child, I hurriedly raised my hand and covered my face with my sleeve.

To my surprise, the child was not frightened by me, but stepped forward, looked inside with the wooden fence, and said curiously, "Huh, who are you?"

He's not afraid of me......

Thinking of this, I gently lowered my sleeves, only to see him looking at me with wide dark eyes: "Why are you here? Why are the doors and windows here nailed?"

Looking at his innocent appearance, I was a little stunned for a while, and after a while I got up, slowly walked to the door, and stopped a little distance from the door, so as not to really frighten him, and said softly: "You, not afraid of me?"

He looked at me again and shook his head, "Grandma, how did you end up here?"

Mother-in-law......

I was stunned for a moment, remembering how I described the withered tree in the mirror, and smiled bitterly, and when he saw that I didn't answer him, he asked again, "Did you do something wrong and get locked up?"

“……”

The kid rolled his eyes again: "I know, did you offend the concubine and be locked up!"

Offended the concubine?

I frowned slightly, thinking of the conversation between the two grandmothers I overheard during this period of time, and the matter of the girl yesterday, it seems that Shen Rou has disturbed the harem very unpeacefully, and Empress Changqing has no suppression of her at all, making this concubine a little domineering now, even such a child knows how powerful she is.

Seeing that I didn't speak, he thought I had acquiesced, and sighed: "Hey, the people around the queen mother often say that many of the palace maids who were punished by the concubine were innocently affected. ”

“……”

"You're pathetic. ”

I...... How pathetic?

Looking at the clear eyes of this little child, Qing Lingling's eyes were full of sympathy and pity, I don't know why I only feel ridiculous, I am ridiculous, I have never encountered anything in this life, and even I think the most difficult days have survived, but I am sympathized with by such a young child.

I, really pathetic.

The boy looked down at the ground, and it was the grandmother who had knocked over the food when they beat me yesterday, and he said, "Are you hungry because you have eaten all this?

"......" I looked at him, but didn't speak.

"You wait, I'll get you something to eat, okay? The golden silk cake made in the imperial dining room is delicious. ”

As he spoke, he heard someone shouting from afar, and as soon as he heard it, his snow-white little face immediately froze, and he said to himself, "Oh no, they have found it, if it is known to ...... father."

I glanced up at him.

He was like a frightened rabbit, his ears were broken, and he ran down the steps in a hurry, and when he ran to the gate of the courtyard, he turned back to me and said, "Grandma, you wait, I will bring you food tomorrow." After saying that, he gently closed the courtyard door and ran away.

I still knelt at the door, looking at the closed courtyard door, and a ripple rippled in my heart that was originally as waveless as stagnant water.

This child is Pei Yuanhao's child?

Judging by his age, he should be about four years old, that is, the child who was born before I left the palace and went south, and at that time, the person who gave birth to Pei Yuanhao was only one .......

That night, I had a dream.

It's been a long time since I've dreamed, and I always hope to see my child in my dreams, even if it's just an illusory shadow, and find a little comfort, but for so many years, she has never been in my dreams, I don't know if it's because she's been too far away, too long, and can't even come back in her dreams, or because of ......

But tonight, I had a dream about that weak and gentle woman.

Her smile is faint, like the most inconspicuous little wildflower in this group of beautiful harems, but who would have thought that her departure was so tragic, that thick smell of blood, as if I could smell it even in a dream.

Just as I was frowning and struggling in my dream, suddenly, a tender voice came-

"Grandma, Grandma, are you there?"

“……”

I opened my eyes and looked at the yellowing curtains above my head, and I was still a little unable to come back to my senses, and the familiar child's voice came from the door: "Grandma, are you there? I'm here to bring you food." ”

I hurriedly rolled over from the bed, only to find that the hour was not early, the sun shone through the fence, and the shadow of a child was reflected on the ground, I walked to the door, and sure enough, I saw the child standing at the door, holding half a piece of pastry in his hand, and there was still some dust on his body, and when he saw me, he grinned: "Grandma, you are here!"

I'm still a little stunned: "You-"

"I'll bring you something to eat. He smiled, but when he looked back and saw the pastry in his hand, he was a little depressed: "However, I just let the palace maid go around to the back of the rockery, but I fell and the golden silk cake fell to the ground, only this is still clean, you eat, don't be hungry." ”

With that, he tiptoed and handed me the pastry.

I looked at the pastry that was still a little muddy and sandy, and then at the dust sticking to his white face, and after a while, I trembled and reached out to take the pastry and put it in my mouth.

"How's it going, is it delicious?"

“……”

The sand didn't feel very good in my mouth, my eyes were slightly moist, and I nodded slightly: "Well, it's delicious." ”

"Haha. He grinned, showing a few white jade teeth, his eyes narrowed into slits.

Looking at his smile, I only felt that my heart was going to soften, and the icing sugar on the golden silk cake I tasted on the tip of my tongue was always sweet to my heart, but there was a faint sourness welling up in my heart, and I thought of my daughter again, if she grew up by my side, would she also care about me like this?

Seeing him fall into dust, I said softly, "Did you just fall, did it hurt?"

"Well, it hurts. ”

He pouted, covered his knee and nodded, I gently reached over and lifted his pants, and sure enough, I saw a small bruise on my knee, so I gently rubbed it for him, and said, "It's okay, it won't hurt if I rub it for you." ”

Maybe it was because my fingers were so soft and comfortable to rub him, the kid smiled and said, "Oh, it really doesn't hurt." ”

I also looked up at him with a smile.

He looked at me as if he was stunned, and after a long time he said stupidly, "Grandma, you--your eyes, smile so beautifully." ”

“……”

His words were a little ridiculous, and I smiled lightly: "How can it be? I'm old and ugly, how can I be good-looking? There are a lot of good-looking people in this palace, concubine...... Concubine Li...... , your queen mother is also a great beauty. ”

The child pouted and thought about it, shook his head and said, "Although the concubine and concubine Li are very beautiful, I don't like them at all, and those ladies in the palace don't like me, and I don't like them either." My Queen Mother...... The queen mother is a great beauty, but the queen mother rarely laughs, and for as long as I can remember, the queen mother has not laughed much. ”

"......" I was silent for a moment and said, "Is the emperor treating her badly?"

"Father to mother...... Anyway, my father rarely came to Jingren Palace to visit his mother, and the queen mother painted in the studio every day and ignored me. As he spoke, he lowered his head a little aggrieved, looking at the lost look on his immature little face, I reached out and gently stroked his heart.

But - he said that the emperor rarely went to Jingren Palace to visit the empress?

It seems that Chang Qing's death is still a considerable blow to the Chang family, without this powerful pillar in the court, Chang Qing's position in the harem is not so stable, and it is no wonder that in the past two years, I have only heard that the momentum of the concubine and the concubine has grown, but she has almost no news.

And the kid in front of him ......

I lowered my head and looked at his clear pupils, he was the same as his mother, he spoke with a hint of cowardice, thinking that he had a biological mother with no status and the queen's adoptive mother who slowly lost her favor, it seems that Pei Yuanhao does not have much expectation of him, after all, the selection of the prince is very important, and he loves Nangong Lizhu so much, so he naturally hopes to canonize the child of the woman he loves as the prince......

Since that day, the child has been coming to see me often, and I know his name, Nian Shen.

I don't know what the reason is, he and I are particularly close to each other, since he has seen me, he often takes advantage of the absence to visit me, take care of me, perhaps because of nature, this child is as kind and weak as his mother, and has an extraordinarily warm heart, early this morning, I saw him at the door, holding a handkerchief with a shortbread in his hand.

I smiled and walked to the door: "Thank you, Your Highness, for bringing me food again." ”

"Eat it, this potpourri cake is delicious. ”

I took the piece of potpourri cake, looked at him with an expectant look, took a bite, and said with a smile: "It's delicious." ”

He laughed.

I looked at him with some emotion, suddenly remembered something, and said: "Your Highness, didn't you say that day that the emperor was going to Jingren Palace to visit your queen mother today, and you wouldn't come? Why did you suddenly come again? What if the emperor couldn't see you and scolded you angrily?"

Nian Shen shook his head: "Father will not come today." ”

"Oh? Why?"

He said softly: "I just heard the little eunuch come over to spread the word, saying that my father went to Yuhua Hall to accompany Concubine Li. The queen mother said that Concubine Li's belly has a baby. ”