cpa300_4(); "Do you still want to settle with me?"

As if sensing this, the carriage bumped into a stone, and suddenly the whole carriage shook violently, and my heart jumped violently.

He gritted his teeth and closed his eyes without moving.

But a hand slowly stretched out, and before it touched the skin, I already felt the hot body temperature, and gently touched the wound on my face, which was ground out by those people who hit the ground, and it had not yet scabbed.

I shuddered slightly.

The injuries on my body seemed to be implicated, and they all hurt, and the pain became more and more painful, so painful that I couldn't even clench my teeth.

I heard his voice ringing in my ears, low and hoarse: "You and me, can you count it?" ”

His eyes burned a little uncontrollably.

He knows that I can't let go, even if I say I want to forget with him, even if I risk a big disapproval and say that I won't love him anymore, but my heart can't go, he is my first man, the first man in a woman's life is special, as if he was branded.

After leaving the capital, every time I think of him, I will hurt myself fiercely, people are seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, as long as I think of him pain, you can no longer think about him, but I don't fight for anger, even if it hurts, I will also think.

Maybe it's because what he gave me was pain all the time.

Thinking of this, I slowly opened my eyes.

I was lying on my side on the couch, he sat behind me, one hand in front of me, and when he leaned down to look at me, it was as if he had imprisoned me under him, and only his bright eyes looked at me in the dark carriage, as if he wanted to capture my soul.

I looked at him like this, and after a long time, I said softly, "If I said yes, what would you do to me?" ”

His breath choked.

The fingers caressing my wound seemed to tremble a little, and then became lighter, as light as a gust of wind, and said, "Would you say yes?" ”

“……”

Actually, I want to say yes.

My child died in my womb, and my blood was almost drained for him, and I became a woman whom I despised even myself, and was beaten by such a woman to the point that I was almost worse than death; And between me and him, what happened, what hasn't happened; There are too many things that have been explained, and there are so many that no one knows what tomorrow will bring.

Me and him, in fact, don't go on, maybe it's good for two people, it's good for everyone.

What's more, I won't forget Jì, who else did he go south for......

I should say yes.

Looking at the light in my eyes, he seemed to understand something, and the hand that caressed my face slowly wrapped his way around my waist, lowered his head gently, and put it in my ear and said, "I won't let you say 'yes'." ”

“……”

"I, I won't let you get hurt again, I'll treat you well."

“……”

He paused for a moment and said in an emphatic tone, "Let's start from the beginning." ”

“……”

Tears poured out of my heart, like a raging frenzy, and blocked my throat, and I couldn't say the word, only hot tears poured out and soaked my cheeks.

He leaned down and hugged me in his arms, his hot lips gently fell on his wet cheeks, and soon my tears were also stained, he seemed to feel the saltiness, sighed softly, lay down behind me, and hugged me harder in his arms......

I don't know when the carriage returned to the state capital, but I felt in a daze that I was being held by the arms in both hands, and the chest was extraordinarily warm, almost hot.

I slept quietly at that temperature, and when I opened my eyes again, it was already a bright room.

Above my head was a simple tent, and the white expanse made people look a little dazed for a while, and I looked at it with wide eyes, and it seemed that I had not yet woken up from the dream, and I heard the familiar voice ringing in my ears again and again as if it had passed through a dream.

"Is it better?"

I was startled, turned my head, and saw Pei Yuanhao sitting on the edge of the bed, looking down at me.

This is my room, but he is sitting on the edge of the bed.

Not a dream......

I couldn't tell whether I was sad or happy in my heart, and I looked at him stupidly, as if I had met in a different world, but his eyes were very quiet, as if the past between us had never happened.

Then he reached out and gently stroked my cheek.

I opened my mouth, but my throat was so dry that I couldn't speak for too long, and I could only barely say a few words: "What's wrong with me?" ”

"You have a fever again, and the imperial doctor said that your body is very weak, and you need to recuperate."

“…… Oh. ”

"I've already ordered you to go down, you can recuperate well in the mansion, and don't go anywhere."

After saying that, he patted my face and got up to leave, I subconsciously asked, "Where are you going?" ”

He looked back at me, "I'm out on business." ”

"Are you going to track them down?" Or do you want to go - find someone?

"It's not." He frowned, but still said patiently: "I just let them go, and I can't track them down immediately, otherwise what I did before will be in vain." I'm going to take people around to investigate the people's feelings. ”

"Oh......"

I forgot, he still has this purpose when he goes south this time, although the original plan was disrupted by Liu Yi's death before, but there are still things that have to be done. It's just--he was really so relieved to let Mo Tieyi and them go?

Although I was uneasy in my heart, I couldn't just ask like that, so I thought about it and said softly, "You have to be careful." "The south is still unstable in the end, even if Mo Tieyi will admit it, it is difficult to guarantee that there will be some unreasonable inside, and no one can be sure how the situation will go.

I'm afraid that something will happen to him, and I'm afraid that those people will act rashly, if something happens to the emperor here, it won't be a matter of simply catching a few assassins and killing them, and the Celestial Empire will really be in chaos.

A small smile flashed across his face when he heard my words, and he turned and walked back, looked at me for a moment, leaned down and kissed the corner of my mouth.

I froze and looked at him with wide eyes.

It's not that I haven't had such intimacy, after all, he and I used to be husband and wife, no matter how intimate things were, but such a faint kiss seemed to be the first time, his lips were very hot, and the gentle snort blew on his face and there was a tingling feeling. My face turned red all at once.

The smile in his eyes was even more evident when I blushed, and he stood up to leave when I turned my head away from his gaze.

As soon as he turned around, he stopped.

I only saw his back, I didn't know what was happening, I felt like he was seeing something, but he was blocking my view, I sat up slowly with all my strength, and I saw a familiar figure standing stiffly in front of him, in the doorway where the sun was shining.

Pei Yuanfeng.

His face was still a little red, and he was also out of breath, as if he had just run from a long distance, but his face quickly turned white and miserable at this moment.

There was an indescribable silence in the room.

After a long time, Pei Yuanhao took a step first and slowly walked to the door: "Are you back?" ”

“…… Well. ”

This simple "um" word, as if he had exhausted all his strength, so powerless, I sat weakly on the head of the bed, watching Pei Yuanfeng slowly lower his eyelids, there seemed to be water flowing in his eyes, almost about to gush out.

"In the past two days, a lot has happened." Pei Yuanhao glanced at him and said, "You can take a look at her first, and when you are done, you will come to Qingshui Canal to talk to me, and I will take them over to see the preparations for the spring flood." ”

"Yes."

After speaking, Pei Yuanhao glanced back at me again, then turned around and walked out.

I sat at the head of the bed, Pei Yuanfeng stood at the door, and the two of them looked at each other wordlessly.

Only I know how weak my heartbeat is, almost as bad as he breathes now.

After a long time, he walked slowly, the childishness of the young man seemed to disappear from his face in an instant, and the tall figure stood by the bed, covering all the sunlight, and when I looked up, I could only see his eyes in the shadows, as if they were also swallowed up by the shadows, and there was no light at all.

"You...... Hurt again? ”

"Hmm."

"Does it hurt?"

"Hmm."

"Is it for him?"

"......" This time, I couldn't speak anymore, only buried my head deeply.

I didn't dare to look at him, as if I didn't dare to look at my hard work in the past, all because of that man's defeat, and even his efforts were defeated by me.

He still looked at me, and after a while, he slowly squatted down, raised his head, and said, "You've already decided that you're going back to him, aren't you?" ”

No matter how much I buried my head, I had to meet his gaze, and I realized that I had nowhere to escape.

I could only look at him like this, looking at him through the streamer in my eyes, and there was something flowing in his eyes, but he was frozen because he gritted his teeth and spoke.

"Qingying," he looked at me and said softly, "Will he treat you well?" ”

“……”

I do not know.

I was raped by him, tortured by him to the point that life was worse than death, and even, after I had a miscarriage, he could throw me into the cold palace without looking at me; And every time I compromised and agreed to stay with him, he would become gentle, too gentle to be true.

His love and hate are both the most extreme, which can make people live and can also make people die.

Even so, am I going to stay with him?

Feeling that I was also trembling, Pei Yuanfeng gently stretched out his hand and gently held my hand, there was still a wound on the back of his white hand, which looked a little shocking, he held my hand and looked at it for a long time, and finally sighed and raised his head to look at me: "Qingying, you know, I never wanted to force you to do anything." ”

“……”

"Even so, I really want you to leave and come to me."

“……”

"But, I hope you're doing well."

“……”

"The way you look in the cold palace, I don't want to see it a second time."