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I look at him, and he looks at me.

The two of them didn't say anything, but it clearly became a tug-of-war, he was so busy that I was thinking a lot, and I watched the heat emitted by the bowl of medicine dissipate little by little.

I don't know how long later, I reached out and picked up the bowl, and almost immediately, a smile appeared on his face, reflecting the sun, and he almost had the illusion of spring blossoming, and even reached out and dragged the chair directly in front of me.

I frowned, then looked at him.

"This time, you won't bite the spoon again, will you?"

"Nope! That's a child's trick. ”

“……”

I pursed my lips, scooped up a spoonful of decoction and sent it to his mouth, he was suddenly frightened by my sudden blow, but did not open his mouth, but stepped back a little: "You don't blow it?" ”

"It's all cooled down a bit."

“……”

He looked at me, then looked down at the soup that was no longer steaming, didn't say anything, and opened his mouth.

He drank very slowly, obviously it was a potion that felt bitter and difficult to smell when he smelled it, but he was like tasting a fragrant tea, slowly reminiscing one by one, I knew what he meant, and I didn't urge him, he wanted to drink, so I fed him spoonful by spoonful.

Finally, even if the two of them have nothing to say, they have something to do.

However, after feeding spoonful by spoonful, the medicine will be drunk after a while, and the more he drinks, the slower it becomes, not like he is tasting tea, but more like an aftertaste. It's just that time passes little by little, and this silence becomes abrupt little by little.

I remembered Miao Yan's illness, so I scooped up the decoction, lowered my head, and said softly: "Your Majesty, there is something that the Minnu wants to say, which the Minnu mentioned before, about the Protector Mage. ”

He took a sip of medicine and looked at me, then swallowed it and said, "I also want to tell you that the Protector Mage came to me and talked to me about the illness of the wonderful words. ”

My heart moved, and I looked up at him: "What? ”

"The mage said that she still needs to perform the last conjuring method before she can recover."

"That's—"

My heart is beating a little harder than before.

"Then Your Majesty, please invite that protector mage to come and perform the method of conjuring spirits for her again."

Pei Yuanhao was silent again, and then looked at me: "Do you think that the current appearance of Miaoyan is still needed?" ”

“……”

This time, I was silent.

In fact, in my opinion, the current wonderful words, except for many of her past memories are a little vague, or even completely unrememberable, but other behavioral abilities are almost the same as ordinary peers, looking at her at this time, no one will think that she is a child with a lost soul.

From this point of view, whether this last method of conjuring spirits works or not, it doesn't seem to have much impact.

However, this is only from a superficial point of view, in the final analysis, as long as the disease has not been cured, it is like a bane has been buried, and no one knows what kind of impact it will have on her in the future. As for the wonderful words, I still hope that she will be smooth and smooth.

Therefore, Pei Yuanhao's words made me hesitate a little.

I scooped a spoonful of the decoction, carefully put it in his mouth, and said, "So, what does Your Majesty think?" ”

Pei Yuanhao took a sip, and then said: "Actually, I also know what you mean, looking at Miaoyan's current appearance, it is no different from an ordinary child, it seems that it doesn't matter if he works or not, it's just that I don't know what will happen in the future." This disease, leaving this root of the disease, is afraid of endless troubles. ”

"So, just invite the mage?"

"It's no problem to invite her here, but the mage also told me that it is dangerous for Miao Yan to perform the method of conjuring spirits for the last time."

"What?!"

My heart skipped a beat, and I almost couldn't hold the bowl in my hand, and looked at him in horror: "What's the danger?!" ”

As soon as he saw me like this, he hurriedly reached out and grabbed my hand holding the bowl, helped me stabilize it, and then said, "Don't be afraid, it's not a big deal, if you panic, I won't tell you." ”

“……”

I gritted my teeth, feeling my hand tightly wrapped around him, and it took a long time to finally stabilize it again, I pulled it out of his palm, put the bowl aside, stabilized my mind again, and then turned my head to look at him: "Please tell me." ”

He looked at me like this, his eyes were a little complicated, and he paused for a moment before saying: "The words that the mage said to me are too mysterious, and I also know that when they speak, nine out of ten sentences are false, but one thing is true, that is, what she did is to find her consciousness as a human being, the common sense of being a human being, and more importantly, to find her joys, sorrows, and sorrows. ”

“……”

That's what I thought.

Since he began to practice the method of conjuring spirits, every time Miao Yan comes back, he perceives more than before, and slowly begins to have joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and his feelings are becoming more and more complicated, and now, he is like a normal child.

Pei Yuanhao said: "But there is one thing, she has never found it, that is, the last time she performed the method of conjuring spirits, she wanted to find it back for her." ”

My voice was slightly harsh: "What is it?" ”

"That's what happened that night."

“……”

"Memories of that night."

“……”

My heart sank.

That night, on the red boat, in the cave room, she witnessed a qiē with her own eyes...... Blood, new house, blood-stained Pei Yuanzhen, and Pei Yuanzhen in his arms, who has been speechless.

She had forgotten all of this, and if you wanted to cure her, you had to make her think of them all.

Pei Yuanhao said: "What happened that night, although we can judge it, but no one is like her, seeing it with her own eyes, feeling it so clearly, that is the reason for her illness, and the last method of conjuring spirits is to remind her, which is equivalent to her need to experience that memory again." ”

“……”

"It was the night that made her lose her soul, if, she remembered ...... again"

“……”

"If, her mind is not strong enough......"

I rarely heard Pei Yuanhao's voice also appear sluggish and retreating, slowly raised my head, and also saw the hesitation in his eyes, that kind of emotion also immediately infected my heart - I understood what he meant, once again experienced the memory of causing Miao Yan to lose her soul and become ill, if she is not determined, it may be the same as before, especially now, she herself has not recovered from her own illness, and the final result may be worse than before.

Pei Yuanhao said: "She may, she will be unconscious...... Lifetime. ”

My breath was choking.

Put his hand on his knees, grasp the placket of his clothes, cold sweat slowly soaked, Pei Yuanhao looked at me silently, after a while, he reached over, broke my fingers little by little, spread my hand, and then held it into his palm: "Don't be afraid, I'm here." I'll figure it out. ”

"How do you figure it out?" I looked at him, breathing intermittently, "If that's the case, then don't-"

"But if you don't do this last time, if you don't uproot her disease, then this root of the disease will remain, and I don't know when it will happen again in the future. At that time—" He looked me in the eye, "Are we still with her?" Who's on her side? Who will be kind to her? Like you, like me? ”

This last sentence faintly made me feel a little wrong.

But at this moment, I couldn't care about these anymore, I just felt that my whole body was out of strength, and my internal organs were twisted together, and I trembled in pain: "Then what should I do?" Really let her go through it again? ”

He squeezed my hand: "I just said that her heart is not strong, it will cause illness, what if we make her heart strong?" ”

“……”

"Do you understand what I mean?"

My heart moved, and I looked up at him.

Thinking back to that night, it was probably the most helpless and sad night she had ever been a child. Regardless of whether she is sensible or not, but seeing that the third uncle who has always loved herself and has always liked her got married and married her aunt, I can completely empathize with how tormented her heart was that night, and after that, I witnessed Gu Ping, who had been like an elder brother since childhood, killed people and stained the new house with blood.

If I were her, I wouldn't be able to survive it.

Pei Yuanhao grabbed my hand: "Now, her reliance is on us, we want to make her feel that everything is very good, her life should be as peaceful and happy as now, as long as we have our support, then this level, she will definitely be able to pass!" ”

“……”

He looked at me deeply: "Only by eradicating her illness can I relax and do something." ”

“……”

My heart was beating like thunder.

I didn't ask him what to do with his heart, because I knew that he wouldn't answer if I asked, at this moment, I only felt that my hand was pinched by him in the palm of my hand, as if it was about to break, and I couldn't pull it out, and after a long time, I said: "So, the emperor wants a people's daughter-"

"I want you, let me be good to you."

I looked at him with some trepidation.

He grabbed my hand and said softly, "If I am good to you, you will bear it; I'm not good to you, so you're going to mess with me......"

“……”

"We are like an ordinary couple, giving her all the love and care we owe her for so many years, so that she can also be a real and happy little princess."

“……”

"Okay?"

My throat rolled, and I struggled for a long time, but I couldn't speak.

Let him be good to me?

He is good to me, and I am going to bear it?

Am I going to do this?

Maybe at this time, I should not think about myself first, but should think about my child, think of the way she pretended to be asleep, and think of the mask she wore in front of me - is it really because of us that she matured prematurely, precociously, and could not enjoy the pleasures of family like an ordinary child, but had to deceive for the affairs of her father?

But can't I think about myself?

I will bear the good he has given me...... What about my heart?

I looked up at him as if I was about to cry, but my eyes were so dry that my vision was blurred.

I can't see him, and I can't see the way.

I was silent for a long time, and finally took a deep breath, he thought I was going to say something, stared at my dry lips, but felt my force and pulled my hand out of his palm.

His eyes darkened: "Light." ”

The next moment, I picked up the bowl of cold decoction on the table, scooped a spoonful, and gently brought it to his lips.

Something seemed to explode in his eyes, and for a moment the joy and brightness almost lit up his entire face, and he looked at me happily: "Light! ”

I didn't look at him, just looked at the few decoctions left in the bowl, reflecting a somewhat blurry look in my eyes.

It also reflected his ecstatic eyes.

"Light."

"If you don't drink it, I'll take it."

"Hey, don't!"

He hurriedly reached out and grabbed my hand again, but it was the injured hand wrapped in bandages, and as soon as it touched me, the whole person shrank in pain, and his mouth hissed and inhaled cold air. I looked at him expressionlessly and brought the spoonful of the potion to his lips again.

He sweated all over his head in pain, but at this time he immediately smiled, opened his mouth, and took the spoon in his mouth.

The black liquid was drunk by him like honey.

This time, I didn't speak to anyone, the decoction was fed into his mouth little by little, and after a while, the bowl bottomed out, I poured the last bit of thick liquid left in the bowl into the spoon and continued to send it to his mouth, he probably couldn't swallow it anymore, and frowned: "At this point, forget it." ”

I glanced at him and tossed the spoon back into the bowl.

"Dang Chang" sounded, as if he had struck him, he slammed a spirit, and said: "That's it, let's give it to me, the medicine is bitter." ”

I didn't say anything, I didn't bother to pick up the bowl again, poured the last bit of soup into the spoon, scraped the wall of the bowl twice, and then fed it into his mouth.

His entire face was wrinkled together, and he looked almost vomited.

I didn't look at him, I took the bowl and spoon and was about to go out, but before I could turn around, he suddenly grabbed my wrist and looked at me with a bitter expression: "It's so bitter, but is there anything sweet to eat?" ”

“……”

I'm a little speechless, he himself said that he is not a child anymore, how can anyone still prepare sweet after giving him medicine?

I said, "They don't have it either." ”

He laughed and said, "Don't you have it with you?" ”

"Nope."

"Really?"

I only felt that my heart ached like a knife, seeing him smiling at me like this, there was an indescribable grievance, gritting his teeth, and his brows were furrowed: "No! ”

A smile tugged at the corner of his mouth: "But, I can find it." ”

I was stunned for a moment, suddenly understood what was coming, and subconsciously wanted to retreat, but his wrist was grabbed by him, and I couldn't break free at all, so I felt a gust of wind blowing, and he had come to me, and when I raised my eyes, he leaned over to me and immediately touched the corner of my lips.

As soon as my hand was released, the medicine bowl fell out of my hand, fell to the ground with a thud, and shattered.

But he didn't linger on my lips, but just pecked and left me again.

He stepped back a little, and at a close distance, I could clearly see the smile in his eyes, and licked the corner of his lips: "Well, it's so sweet." ”