Chapter 32: Estrangement (2)
Kiyowa had imagined countless ways for Chiaki to react when she found out her secret, but she never thought that she would drag him like this and cry so madly.
"Why, do you think I'm scary now?" Kiyowa rested his hand on her head, his gaze still as gentle as before, but it felt cold.
"......" Chiaki shook her head, "You must have been scared at that time, if only I had met you earlier......"
"The son of a murderer, I've been burdened with that notoriety since a long time ago, and even though I've moved, those bedbugs are always unguardable, and no one has ever said such a thing except for my brother, Chiaki, you're just comforting me by saying that......" Kiyowa was silent for a while, didn't speak, and still looked at Chiaki with the same expression as before.
"When my mother died, my dad was like a nobody, he grabbed the negligence of the hospital to go to the hospital to make trouble, obviously at that time the doctor had reminded my mother, saying that she was a little old, her blood pressure was a little high, and she was not suitable for pregnancy, besides, she already had three children, and it would be a superbirth when she was born. But my dad completely ignored that, and lied to her with rhetoric, and after the child was born, he sold Wan Yu instead, and it all seemed to be premeditated. At that time, I felt as if I had been betrayed. I really wanted to cry, but I couldn't cry. When I think about it, I feel extremely resentful. If my mother hadn't died on the operating table at that time and survived like a normal person, when she knew that she was being used and the child was secretly taken away, I think she would have done something stupid like that......" Chiaki talked about herself, but to Qinghe's ears, it was more like comforting herself, "I think your mother must love your father too much, and there was a flaw in her love and she adopted an extreme approach." If you can't understand her, she's too pitiful......"
"You say my mother is pitiful?" Kiyowa finally spoke, but it sounded strange because he was choked up.
"It's not right to hurt others, but there must be a reason for it, she can't do something like that for no reason and then kill herself!" Qianqiu was still nestled in Qinghe's arms, and she had no intention of leaving, she was afraid that if she let go, she would probably not be able to catch Qinghe again.
"Everyone is accusing her of not, even her grandmother didn't forgive her, she even said cruelly that she didn't give birth to that daughter......" Qinghe hesitated for a moment, and told Chiaki what he had never said to anyone before. He grew up in that environment, except for Chen Yu and the others, no one wanted to stay with him, as if he would be infected with some deadly virus if he said a word. He understands the truth, but the truth can never comfort people. While learning to protect himself, he closed one door after another for himself.
"Get out of here, you son of a murderer!" he had been subjected to that kind of violence even in the orphanage. At that time, he was too young to even tell right from wrong, he wanted to deny something, but he couldn't say anything. Fortunately, he only stayed in the orphanage for a short time before Chen Yu found him and brought him back. If you really grow up in that environment, even if you are a normal child, you will probably be forced to become a murderer. Words are invisible swords, and sometimes they work much better than those sharp weapons, after all, the wounds in the body will heal one day, but the gap in the heart will remain forever.
"Ah, it's obviously not like this, Mom loves Dad deeply, Dad spoils Mom, he knows this matter best, when did love change its taste, before that happened, the two of them quarreled as soon as they met, although they didn't say they wanted to divorce or anything, but in the end it still caused a tragedy. Qinghe thought about what Qianqiu said before, and suddenly felt a little stunned, after all, for a while, he had been resentful of them, like others cursed himself, and felt that he would be good if he hadn't been born in the first place.
"It's happened, it's useless for us to say anything more, all that's left is to live well, at least for the sake of both of them. Chiaki seemed to see through Kiyowa's thoughts, and even if he didn't say anything, she could even guess what was going on in his heart and answer.
"En......" Qinghe nodded, "I see! It's a little too late now, I'll send you back......"
"Aren't you going back with us?" Qianqiu raised her head, glanced at Kiyowa, and hugged her tighter than before, "If you don't go back together, the three of us will be here all ......"
"Three people, did you bring Wanli Wanyu here?" Qinghe glanced out, but didn't see the two little guys, thinking that his brother was also outside, and he probably had been properly comforted by him.
"I'm worried that they won't be able to find anyone when they wake up, so I brought them all over, and now I'm sleeping in your brother's room, and I don't make any sound at all, so I guess I'm sleeping quite soundly." Chiaki finally let go of his hand and looked straight at Kiyowa to show his determination now.
"When did you learn to play tricks?" Kiyowa shook his head, "We only have three rooms here, and you can probably only sleep on the sofa if you stay......"
"I don't care, it's okay to sleep on the sofa, anyway, I'll go back when you go back......" Qianqiu was iron-hearted this time, just like she told her aunt before, even if she was dead-skinned, she would call Qinghe back. After all, in her brain, there is no one in this world who is better than Qinghe to herself.
"Don't go to class anymore?"
"No,......" Chiaki nodded, "I'll follow you wherever you go." ”
"Have you talked about it, if not, I'll go to sleep first, and I'll get up early tomorrow." Chen Yu came over and knocked on the door, his work had already been completed, he sat in the living room and waited for a long time, and now his eyelids were about to fight.
"Then you go to sleep first, we plan to stay at night......" Qianqiu glanced at Chen Yu, Chen Yu immediately showed an expression of I understood, and even closed the door of Qinghe's room when he left.
"Then you go to bed early......
"Good night big brother......"
"You're pretty good...... "Kiyowa knocked Chiaki's head, "Are you really going to stay?"
"Why? Isn't it?" Chiaki turned her head back and glanced at Kiyowa.
"Yes, you can live if you want...... Of course...... I won't object, after all, you're Chiaki......" Kiyowa nodded, and finally acquiesced to Chiaki's decision.
I thought it was a stormy sea, but I didn't expect it to be so calm. Kiyowa suddenly felt like a fool from before, and if he trusted Qianqiu a little more, he wouldn't have been careful for so long.