After crying, I slowly straightened up and said to the people around me, "Carry Madame down and set up a mourning hall!"

Aunt Hong was also in tears next to her, and at this time she choked up and said, "Yes." ”

After speaking, she waved her hand, and the people behind her immediately followed, carrying Xue Qian's body away, and I continued to order: "This matter, don't disturb the head of the family for the time being." When he woke up, his body was stable, he would tell him, and if he wanted to blame, he would say that I ordered him. ”

"Yes. ”

"Also, send someone to find it, block everything around, and look carefully!"

Old Man Ma said with a slight hesitation: "Can he escape, will he stay around?"

I gritted my teeth and said: "If he can escape, he should have thought of this retreat in advance, but he is alone, it is impossible to leave like this, Xichuan is our place, he does not dare to take this risk, he should have arranged someone to pick him up, so he can leave Xichuan." ”

“……”

"Now the surrounding area has been cleared by us, so those people should not have entered the area around Gantang Village. ”

“……”

"He must still be somewhere, waiting for his own people to pick him up. ”

“……”

"Go find, go find!"

When he heard me say the last two words, he almost roared, Old Man Ma nodded and didn't dare to slack off anymore, and hurriedly turned around to direct his people, blocking all the passages near Gantang Village, looking carefully, you must find Pei Yuanxiu!

After those people were ordered to disperse, I turned around and said to Old Man Ma, "Old man." ”

He hurriedly looked at me: "What else does the eldest lady command?"

“……”

I gritted my teeth and silently stretched out a hand to him: "Give me a knife." ”

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I never thought that I would have to face death again so soon, and it would be my own elders.

Moreover, it is Xue Qian.

It's the mother.

When I walked back to her room and saw Xue Qian's body lying on a wooden plank, and several maids scrubbing her, I waved my hand to tell them to step away, then I picked up the handkerchief in the basin and wrung it out, and gently wiped the soot marks on her cheeks.

Tears came out of my eyes again.

I have cried many times because of her, when I was a child, I was frightened by her appearance, I was intimidated by her, and when I left the Yan family with my mother, I shed a lot of tears, in my young heart, she was like a hideous witch, tearing all my good memories to pieces, and leaving me with a cruel reality.

This realization lasted for so many years, until I returned to Xichuan again.

I just understood the meaning of my mother's words "New lady, she also has her own Shura field", and I saw the wounds in her heart that had not healed for more than ten years, and also saw her irritable and irritable feelings, the fragility and helplessness that could not be concealed.

And now, I understand better that in fact, there is love in her heart.

She failed to get her father's love, but her heart has never dried up, whether it is to Yan Qingchen, to me, or even to Miaoyan, under the mask of simplicity and irritability, there is a feeling that she tries her best to hide.

But why?

Why didn't God give us a little more time?

I haven't sued her, in fact, I am very happy to reconcile with her, not for the sake of the overall situation at that time, I have not sued her, in fact, I respect her as I respect my mother, I have not sued her, in fact, I ......

Tears fell on her face drop by drop, I wanted to wipe her clean, but I couldn't resist my tears at all, at this moment I didn't hate in my heart, some just regretted, I watched my loved one fall into a desperate situation again, and even this time, she didn't even have a chance to call for help, so she left me forever!

How many more?

How many other people I love, people I care about, will leave me like this?

How many more times will I have to endure this pain?

Hearing that I couldn't cry anymore, only a tearing low roar came out of my throat, and the people around me were frightened, Su Su came forward to carry my shoulder with tears: "Miss, Miss, don't do this! The old lady will die when she sees you like this!"

Aunt Hong also choked up and said: "Miss, madam, she just can't bear to see you embarrassed, she doesn't want to see you in pain, so she will help you kill Pei Yuanxiu, if you are like this, how can you let her go on the road with peace of mind?"

“……”

"You let her, a mother, go with peace of mind!"

“……”

I almost gritted my teeth, and finally stopped crying in the midst of their reassurances, and slowly raised my head, endured the tearing pain in my chest, wiped her cheeks and body clean, and then the maids hurriedly brought her the shroud they had made and changed it for her.

I stepped aside, only to feel that my eyes were black for a while, and I almost collapsed, but fortunately, Aunt Hong quickly helped me, looked at my pale face, and said worriedly: "Miss, you have to go back and rest for a while." ”

"No!"

"This can't be done, Miss!" Aunt Hong said anxiously: "There are many things here that still need to be decided by Miss, and you can't fall." ”

"yes, your face is beautiful. ”

They persuaded me for a long time, and I really felt that if I didn't rest for a while, I might really collapse, so they could only send me back to my room, and reluctantly lie back on the bed.

However, I couldn't sleep at all.

In my heart, there seemed to be a fire burning, tormenting my internal organs, and the blood in my whole body seemed to be dried up by Ao, until my whole body withered into ashes.

The noise outside never subsided, and I stayed so quietly until the evening, when I slowly stood up with my numb body, changed into another plain white dress, and was about to turn around and go out, when I heard a loud bang, and something fell to the ground.

When I looked back, it was the short knife that Mr. Ma gave me.

……

I was silent for a moment, crouched down and picked up the short knife, and pulled it out a little, the sharp blade immediately flashed a blinding cold light, I squinted my eyes slightly, returned the blade to its scabbard, and then put the short knife into my sleeve.

When I opened the door and walked out, there was a gust of wind blowing, even though the silk clothes on my body were constantly thin, I still felt a chill, I closed the door with my backhand and walked to the mourning hall.

As soon as they saw me coming, they all stopped what they were doing.

I walked straight forward, knelt down and kowtowed to Xue Qian's spiritual position, then stood up and looked at them, and they hurriedly went about their own things again.

At this time, Old Man Ma stepped forward and said softly: "The person who went out to look for him came back to report the news, but he was not found. ”

“……”

"Isn't he going to—"

"No, it won't. I frowned slightly and interrupted him directly: "He is a person who must be fully prepared to do things, and he will not let himself fall into real danger." From here, the road to the river is still very long, and he can't do it alone. ”

“……”

"He must still be around here. ”

“……”

"Look for it again, don't miss a place!"

"Good. ”

Old Man Ma nodded, and then went down to order those people again.

Yan Feibai and the others saw me appear in the mourning hall, and they all came over to comfort me, and I also said a few words to them, letting them know that I had not completely collapsed, and then I turned to Tang Ting and said, "Don't stay here, hurry back to Chengdu." The news here may soon be transmitted back to Chengdu, so that Old Man Tang and Old Man An are all prepared. ”

She nodded, "Yes." ”

"Also," I said, "Chengdu's defense must not be slackened. ”

"Yes. ”

She nodded, and turned to leave.

I explained to a few people one after another, and asked them to go down and do what they had to do, and when they finished explaining the last thing, everyone went down, and I saw Yan Ruoyu standing there on the other side, with a haggard face: "Cousin." ”

"Hmm. ”

"Cousin, you-"

"I'm fine. ”

Now she and I don't know who is more haggard than the other, but I still cheered myself up, and then asked her, "What about my aunt's spiritual position?"

"I put it inside. You didn't come back, and no one dared to enter the ancestral hall. ”

"Hmm. ”

I nodded, then walked inside and picked up Yan Yi's spiritual seat, and then said to them, "Let's go." ”

Originally, last night, all the rituals had been completed, but when I sent the spiritual seat into the ancestral hall, I was blocked by that accident, and now I took them to the outside of the ancestral hall, and after bowing again, the door was opened.

I walked forward step by step with the spiritual seat, and just as I walked into the door, I heard footsteps behind me, and when I looked back, Yan Ruoyu also followed.

I frowned slightly: "Ruoyu?"

She said, "Cousin, don't worry, I won't follow up." ”

“……”

"I just stood in the doorway. ”

I was silent for a moment and said, "Okay." ”

She didn't really move, just stood there, and I walked in step by step with the token in my hand.

The ancestral hall of the Yan clan is built large and deep, a few in and out of the courtyard makes this place seem extraordinarily quiet, but also extraordinarily deep, I passed through a few courtyards, only to see the ancestral hall in front, built on a high platform, plus its own height, even in the night also shows a sense of majesty, in front of the open gate, there are two stout red columns straight to the top of the beam, when I walked up slowly, I saw the tablet of the ancestors enshrined inside, as well as the portrait.

I held Yan Yi's spiritual seat and placed it on the incense table, bowed again, and when I looked up, I saw my father's spiritual seat on the other side of the table.

I stepped forward and kowtowed three times to his spiritual position.

It's been more than ten years, and I finally have such an opportunity to bow to him, but I didn't expect that it would be at such a time and such a scene.

When I looked at the words "Therefore Xian Kao Yan Gongmuzhi", my heart was sour and stinging. Xichuan's qiē was beaten down by him, his grandfather, and his grandfather, but I don't know what I have to do to keep this qiē.

I stretched out my hand, gently stroked the spirit card, and said softly, "If you're still there, it's fine." ”

“……”

"Father, I can't do it. ”

“……”

"It's too hard for me......"

How nice it would be if you were always there for me? If you and Mother, you weren't separated, how nice would it be if you could protect me all the time?

"Father, I'm so tired......"