I suppressed the throbbing in my heart, and turned my head to look at the books that had been recorded on the shelves on both sides, but at a glance, it was clear that there was no magic effect in them.

Fu Badai also seemed to hear me flipping through the book, and said, "What are you looking for?"

I looked back at him and said softly, "Teacher, do you remember when you brought a book of divine effects from Xichuan, and when I first came to Jixian Hall to order something, you asked me to record that book." ”

He was silent for a moment, as if in recollection, and after a while, said, "It seems that there is such a book." ”

At this moment, my heart was already half sinking.

Even the storage of this book, he has to think about it to be sure, then the content of that book, he is only afraid

But no matter what, even if there was only a glimmer of hope, I still couldn't give up, so I walked to the table and knelt down and sat down, looking at him with burning eyes: "Then, can the teacher remember the contents of it?"

He seemed to feel something: "Why, that book, you are useful"

I bit my lower lip: "Hmm." ”

Fu Badai frowned slightly, and didn't speak, but after a period of silence, he sighed lightly and said slowly: "Although I kept this book, I haven't read it, so when you come, I will give it to you to record." ”

“”

For a moment, the entire library fell silent.

I sat there quietly, but I didn't say sorry, let alone cry, just gritted my teeth and survived the sudden labor pain in my chest, the most painful moment.

In fact, I also know that there are many good things, that book is so old, it is not easy to find it, I once recorded it once, I don't remember, not to mention Fu Badai's age, and now I know that he hasn't even read it, in this case, this book, I will be completely hopeless.

Thinking of this, I gritted my teeth hard, but I still couldn't hold on, and the corners of my eyes were slightly red.

Fu Badai sat quietly opposite me, motionless, his bright eyes like a clear spring were also quiet, obviously I knew that he couldn't see anything, but at this moment, it seemed that everything had been known to him, he was silent for a while, and said: "You take it, is it useful?"

I nodded, and then I realized that he couldn't see, and let out a muffled "um".

"You don't remember"

"I can't remember."

"Have you looked for it?"

"The teacher here is already the only one."

“”

He sighed softly.

After a while, he raised his head, and his clear eyes looked at my side calmly, and as if determined, he said softly: "Your fortune should not be so thin. ”

I smiled wryly: "But I've never been comfortable." ”

"Probably, it's because I haven't practiced enough."

He said lightly: "Perhaps, when the fortune comes, someone will remember it for you." ”

“”

I was stunned for a moment, looked up at his expressionless, old face, and didn't know for a while whether he was comforting me or what he meant by this, but it seemed that he didn't plan to say more, but took the book of Zhu You Thirteen Ke, and carefully blew it twice, then closed it, stood up with friction, and put it on the bookshelf next to it.

Although he was careful in doing this, when he put down the book and came back to his senses, his knee hit the corner of the table, and he almost fell, so I hurriedly rushed over to support him: "Teacher, be careful"

He stumbled to his feet, thought for a moment, and smiled, "I'm old." ”

I looked up, looked at his snow-white hair, swallowed the sourness in my chest, and reluctantly smiled: "But the teacher is in good spirits, just like a teenager." ”

He also laughed: "Yes, a hundred years of life, fame and fortune, everything is empty in the blink of an eye, only the spirit is immortal." ”

"There are probably not many people in the world who can do this except teachers."

"There aren't many."

As I spoke, I helped him slowly around the table, and I heard him sigh and say, "None of these old students really understand. ”

I was stunned.

I immediately realized what he was going to say, hurriedly cut off his words, and forced a smile: "So, we are students, and you are teachers." ”

Fu Badai was helped by me and sat down slowly, and then said, "Are you particularly afraid of the old man mentioning him?"

I bowed my head: "He's suffered enough. ”

"The old man knows," he sighed lightly, "he went down to the south of the Yangtze River, went to Xichuan, and went out to the sea, probably, he also experienced some hardships. ”

"There are some, and it's not suffering anymore." It's more like torture from fate.

"But this is the way things are in this world, always repaying and retributing, planting causes and fruits."

I looked at him painfully: "So, when he burned down the Jixian Palace, in the future, will he have to go through that kind of suffering, as you said, he can't die a good death?"

He said lightly: "That's not what I said, it will be determined by heaven." As I said, what you sow, what you reap is what you reap. ”

I gritted my teeth: "If that's the case, he planted those causes for me, and I am willing to bear that kind of fruit for him, even if it is the same as this Jixian Palace, suffering from the flames of the heart, I will not hesitate to do so."

Fu Badai shook slightly, as if he wanted to raise his head to look at me, but he couldn't see anything, he shook his head: "You girl, you are exactly the same as your mother." ”

This time, it was a shock to my heart.

My mother

In front of me, since entering Beijing, Fu Badai almost never mentions her lightly, and even if I asked around in Xichuan and found all the people at the beginning, the information I got was not enough to piece together a real appearance of my mother, that person was obviously my mother, the person who gave me body and life, but suddenly became so illusory and blurry in front of my eyes, so that I was more and more uncertain about the qiē in front of me, and now, Fu Badai took the initiative to mention her.

I suppressed my sudden heartbeat: "Teacher, remember her"

He immediately smiled.

"What do you say?"

"Then, what does the teacher remember about her?"

"I can't remember exactly what she did, she's a person," he muttered, and then laughed, "Just like you." ”

I couldn't help frowning.

I finally heard him take the initiative to mention my mother, but as soon as I turned my head, he started to do Tai Chi again, and this feeling made me more and more weak.

However, I don't want to miss the opportunity again, after all, fewer and fewer people know about the mother, and even if some people do, they will gradually forget about it as the years go by, and it is more likely that these people who know about the mother, who know what she has done, will slowly pass away with the years.

I asked, "When the teacher met my mother, it was when she married my father."

He nodded calmly.

"At that time, where was the teacher at Xishan Academy?"

"Yes."

"I'm teaching."

"At that time, Chabi Xingdu had not yet entered the academy, but there were many middle school students in the academy, more than now, but fortunately, Zhenyi has been helping me take care of it."

"Oh"

What he said, that is, the two students who are now ranked first and third in Xishan Academy, I don't know why he suddenly mentioned this, in fact, I was too young when I first traveled to Xishan, and I don't have any memory of the students in the academy, only a few days ago, I had a little deal with Xiao Yusheng and Xiao Wusheng, and he said, I don't understand.

So, I returned to my topic: "My father sent a post to invite the teacher to watch the ceremony."

He nodded: "Naturally." ”

"Then, when did the teacher become acquainted with his mother?"

Hearing me ask, he was slightly shocked, and I smiled calmly: "The teacher and my father are old friends, but it is my mother who often goes to Xishan Academy after that, and it is my mother who helps the teacher hold erudite conferences. ”

When I said this, he seemed to suddenly come to his senses: "Really." ”

“”

Saying this, he laughed: "Indeed, your mother likes to come to the academy very much, because she knows that I have a lot of ancient books. ”

I was stunned: "These books"

"Yes," he nodded: "She seems to care about these things very much, the Central Plains has experienced a series of wars, many cultures have disappeared, many people have fled to Xichuan to avoid disaster, these ancient books they brought, some of them are in the people, and some of them will be specially collected by the academy." Madame allocated tens of thousands of silver dollars to the academy before and after, just for this matter. ”

I asked, "Why would my mother care about this?"

Fu Badai smiled faintly: "Cang Liao knows etiquette very well. If ordinary people are well-fed, they may care about their own book collection, but they will definitely not care about the decline of culture.

My heart skipped a beat.

I said, "What the teacher means is that mother, not ordinary people."

He smiled: "She is Mrs. Xichuan Yan, how can she be an ordinary person"

No, no, this matter has nothing to do with the identity of Mrs. Xichuan Yan.

Even Xue Qian, who is now Mrs. Yan of Xichuan, is also a figure who leans towards the powerful side, and even before she got married, she was not the daughter of ordinary people, but she didn't think about it.

Thinking of this, I simply knelt beside him and said calmly and solemnly: "Teacher, I went back to Xichuan a few years ago and met many old people in the past. ”

He nodded, not surprised, apparently already aware.

I continued, "I also got some of the things my mother left me. ”

"Oh, what did she leave for you?"

I thought about it, hid the "map" and said, "She left a jade plaque." ”

“”

"Exonerated Jade Plaque."

“”

"It's almost exactly the same as the gold medal for exoneration when Nangong Lizhu was almost slaughtered by the Shen family in the Juma River Valley. It's just that the piece that my mother left me was a jade plate. ”

The light in the library was very dim, at this moment, the outside was more like a wind and snow, the whining north wind was blowing on the door with snow foam, and the door could be heard knocking one by one, as if someone was constantly beating, the sound was actually not big in the wind, but in this quiet library, even the breathing and heartbeat of two people could be heard clearly, it was particularly amazing.

It's as if someone is constantly asking.

I sat beside him, looking at the old man's familiar face, his old silhouette, and his mirror-like eyes, and at this moment, when the storm was raging outside, it was completely calm.

After being silent for an unknown amount of time, he said slowly: "The Blameless Jade Plate"

"Yes."

"She, left for you"

"Yes, I've already got it in Tiejia Qianzhuang."

He was silent for a moment, then seemed to smile and said, "Okay." What she left you, you got, and that's a good thing. ”

I frowned slightly: "But, the teacher doesn't have any opinions?"

"What do you think?"

"Exonerated Jade Plaque."

Hearing me repeat these four words heavily, Fu Badai turned around slowly, crossed one leg, one hand still on his knee, and looked at me with a somewhat leisurely smile: "What do you hope for?"

"Me"

He laughed: "Actually, you want to know what kind of person your mother is, right?"

“”

Sure enough, although he was blind, he could see much more clearly than many people in the world.

I had nowhere to seek answers to these questions but to come to him.

Fu Badai smiled, and then said calmly: "Silly girl, you have already returned to Xichuan and gone to the Tie family to get something, but I am afraid that you have also met your second uncle, and even met all the people who had a relationship with your wife back then, but you have not asked a truth from their mouths." Even they don't know, how can the old man know?"

"Why doesn't the teacher know," I asked, "I think the teacher will be a better person to see than them." ”

He was slightly startled, turned his head to me, and his invisible eyes flashed a little: "You think so." ”

"Yes."

He heard my answer, was silent for a moment, and then smiled faintly.

Then, I saw him reach out and rub it, hold on to the edge of the table in front of him, and slowly stand up.

I also hurriedly stood up: "Teacher"

He straightened up, dusted his sleeves slightly, then shook his head and smiled: "People, it is easiest to abandon the basics, and some things are clearly in front of you, but you often have to ask for them from afar. ”

When I heard this, I suddenly sighed in my heart: "What do you mean by this, teacher?"

He looked at me calmly: "You said that what Madame left you is a jade plaque of abonement. ”

"Yes."

"It's the same as the gold medal of exoneration that the concubine took out before."

"Yes."

"In other words, your mother has a relationship with the royal family"

This sentence shocked my whole body.

Actually, it's not that I haven't thought about it, it's just that I can't believe it, so no matter how I think about it, I don't dare to think about it here, but Fu Badai's words are like a thousand pounds, and this fact is heavily placed in front of me.

He said calmly: "Since your mother has dealings with the royal family, then the royal family will definitely have clues left by her." ”

“”

"You, why don't you look for it?"

After speaking, he raised his head and looked around slowly, this quiet library pavilion, the shelves around him were like obedient attendants, quietly waiting for the call, and after he finished speaking, he waved his sleeves and walked out slowly