1. "I...... Is my wish to be fulfilled really right?"

This is a question that Tsukahara is still struggling with.

His desire, like that twisted Henry, was to change the world with his own short-sightedness.

No matter whether this change is good or bad, no matter how good and correct the original intention is, human beings, that is, human beings, should not have one human being interfering with other human beings or even the operation of the whole world.

This is something that Tsukahara has understood.

But then there was another problem.

So, can you really be allowed to obtain such a desire?

What he said was the last wish of Assassin X.

That person's desire is the most incomprehensible to him.

If it is said that a wish is a person's selfish desires that should be used for one's own sake, why would he allow Lohia to gain a body and live in this world again?

He should have a lot of wishes, right?

For example, he said that he could not understand the emotion of pleasure, and what if he used the power of the Holy Grail to make himself feel happy?

For example, he doesn't want to meet with him, who he can't forget, Minomiya Kiritsugu?

For example, he once had a fierce conflict with Aya Makiri, doesn't he want to try to mend this relationship?

Even, such as conquering the world, or dominating one side, or obtaining the wealth of a rich country, these are all wishes, why, in the end, he chose this wish?

Yes, Tsukahara is afraid.

He couldn't believe that he was the last winner to survive.

His power does not belong to him.

That's the power of Lohia, that's the power of Leonardo da Vinci. Even if the results of the servant are part of the master, the branch that summoned Lohia is a holy relic that Karl originally prepared, and it was for his own use.

Moreover, while the others were fighting to the death, he was the only one who hid in a safe place, just providing magic power.

On top of that, he contributed little to victory.

It was the lancer Leonidas who left a rift in Surut's impregnable defenses.

It was Saber Artoria who intercepted Surut's indestructible Noble Phantasm attack.

Aiming at Surut's only weak point, it was Archer Lohiya who killed him.

It was Caster da Vinci who allowed Lohia's attack to hurt Surut.

It has nothing to do with yourself.

He now has a kind of situation where someone else buys a lottery ticket, wins the jackpot, and then gives him all the money.

I was excited at first, but the more I thought about it, the more I felt guilty.

The more I thought about it, the more I felt: Are I really qualified?

Obviously, I didn't give anything, but in the end, can I really accept this wish? As the only beneficiary, is it really possible?

"Well, how can I know about this kind of thing? don't really think of immortals as omniscient!"

He smiled calmly, as if his ignorance was a matter of course.

"I can tell you a story, though. Stories from Buddhist scriptures. It is a story about a certain Venerable with a prominent status, pretending to be down-and-out and turning into a fate along the street. At this time, an old beggar gave him a bowl of spoiled porridge that she had begged for. What do you think is the end of this story?"

Tsukahara Mingshi saw that he was serious, but unfortunately, the story of Buddhism is really not something that a Japanese high school student will dabble in when he has nothing to do. In addition, the immortal had already erased some of the details in it, leaving only what he wanted to know the most, so the whole story became very simple.

"According to Buddhism's stance of leading people to goodness, it should be rewarded, right?"

"Yes. That's for sure, but here's a question, why did this old beggar get a blessing just by giving a bowl of spoiled porridge?"

“……”

Tsukahara Mingshi faintly sensed what he meant, but he was a little hesitant to say it.

Next to him, Lohia, who had been quietly listening to the conversation between the two, interjected and added: "Because, value, right? Although for us, it is just a bowl of porridge, but for an old beggar, it is the food for her to sustain her life, although it does not matter to outsiders, but for herself, it is very important, something to sustain life." ”

"Uh-huh. That's right. That's it. Tsukahara-kun, you seem to be a little too drilly, in the words of those monks, it's [looking]. It's true that comparing your work to that of others is not worth mentioning, but the comparison was meaningless in the first place. What you really need to compare is not others, but yourself. In this Holy Grail War, you have been burned all over your body and fallen into a coma several times because of the supply of mana. Why didn't you turn off the magic circuit back then?"

"Because...... Don't want to drag Archer back. ”

"In the Holy Grail War, you obviously have the opportunity to leave Shallow Creek and escape back to Japan, or England, to be reasonable, it has nothing to do with you here, whether you participate in the Holy Grail War or not, it is something that has nothing to do with you. Why have you worked so hard until now?"

"I ......"

He seemed to understand a little, and Tsukahara Mingshi gritted his teeth...... Sure enough, I was still too immature. This kind of superficial truth needs to be explained by others.

Although it is not worth mentioning to outsiders, he still gambles everything in this Holy Grail War. In the end, the victory was won.

Even if there is an element of luck, he is still the winner.

"And...... Whether it's Buddhism or Taoism, everyone pays attention to a fateful word. The heart is not born, but it is born. This good reward of yours has been laid down long ago, when you reached out to a nameless assassin. For you, you are just out of kindness, saving a dying person. But for him, you did save his whole being. You saved him, and therefore, he did everything he could to save you. Therefore, the fate is wonderful. That's why I can't hate humans. Even if the world is always so boring, at least there are always some people who will shine in the boring, which makes me feel very interesting. It's good, it's good. ”

Tsukahara Mingshi didn't know how to answer the words of the immortal surnamed Li, he stroked the non-existent beard out of thin air, and with his movements, everything around him that had lost its color began to reply again.

The noise and noise of people began to fill the space again, returning to the [human world].

Dongfang's Dao method is really unfathomable, and the content of the chat just now has not been leaked to anyone else at all, and then looking at the immortal, he made a shushing gesture, signaling him not to continue to discuss those things. I called a waiter and placed an additional order. The three of them waited for the food to be served.

Tsukahara has been thinking about why Assassin X made this choice in the end.

If there's a reason, it's probably that's the only one.

He...... I'm afraid I'm already disappointed in the world.

A person who has never felt happiness will naturally not take everything else seriously.

So, he said this self-statement.

The world doesn't need him.

Yes, not needed. His existence is distorted, ugly, and should not exist.

When a man is about to die, his words are good.

He has already made the consciousness of mortality, and then he will choose such a kind way when he is dying.

Because he is destined not to be happy.

He used to have partners.

It's a pity that they were killed by their own hands.

He used to have a lover.

Unfortunately, she betrayed his expectations.

He used to have close friends.

It's a pity that his only best friend is Elena, who is the woman who is his rival.

The only link between the two is Emiya Kiritsugu.

And even then, Elena died.

Everything he had gotten was ruined.

So, what else can be done about this?

I'm afraid he's already starting to hate his own life.

After all, for him, it was a boring and heavy life. He used to think that revenge was his everything.

However, when he got his revenge, he finally realized that it was just his excuse.

Once, he used training as an excuse to avoid thinking about who he was, why he was being trained here, why he didn't feel happy, and what he liked.

Once, he used Aya Maki as a disguise, blindly believing that Aya Maki would give him the answer, so he gave up thinking.

Later, he used the banner of revenge to blinden his heart.

And at the moment when the real revenge was avenged, he realized that what was written in his bones was still empty.

Before he died, he persuaded Tsukahara Mingshi: "Look at me and remember my ugly posture." Don't be like me. ”

Perhaps, for him, Tsukahara Mingshi is different.

This man is more like a person than he is.

This man, more like a living being, than he is.

For Assassin X, Tsukahara Mingshi's lifestyle is too dazzling.

If the Holy Grail War really needs a winner, then it should be him.

As he himself said. If even a good person like Tsukahara can't get a good reward, the world will be too cruel.

Ultimately...... This is just wishful thinking on his part.

The deceased is gone, and there is no point in discussing his thoughts too much.

Tsukahara Mingshi can only carry everything he has and continue to live.

If you are not a person who can bear the title of the winner of the Holy Grail War, then work hard from now on and make yourself a magician who stands up to the sky.

Only in this way can Assassin X feel at ease, right?

He used to be a proud friend of Tsukahara Mingshi.

There was a time when Tsukahara thought that he had betrayed him fiercely, but in the end, it was he who woke him up.

What a man who can't be comforted! What should I do with him? Do I see him as an enemy? Or as a target?

Tangled.

Tsukahara thought so.

However, there was one thing he was relieved of.

Assassin X must have made this decision of his own volition.

He pinned his hopes on himself.

Then, I can only carry this hope and continue to work hard. Be a person who lives up to your trust.

He gave himself all his wishes for life. Then, you must live happily and happily.

It seems that his face has improved. The immortal surnamed Li also showed a calm look on his face.

No more talking, the two of them were originally here to eat. I ordered something and ate quietly. Then, quiet separation. As the immortal surnamed Li said, this is also a kind of fate, the fate of participating in the Holy Grail War, and the fate of meeting. And also...... The fate that attracts your own attention.

Facing the empty table, the immortal surnamed Li sighed and sighed: "It seems that I have also been infected." ”

Yes. He was also infected.

Although, immortals should not interfere in human affairs.

However, he still did something like a reproduction of the Holy Grail War.

If this can also be interpreted as a rather demonstrative statement that Westerners understand that there are still cultivators in the East, then now that he has appeared and enlightened Tsukahara Mingshi, this is a real interference with mankind.

Although he didn't do it like a certain immortal and directly taught the Heavenly Book classics, it was not much different.

"Will it be damned, but if you don't reveal the secret of heaven, you should ...... Yes...... Should...... No problem, right?"

He muttered to himself in embarrassment.

Actually, I was just emotional.

Although he can't tell Tsukahara Mingshi, as a bystander of the Holy Grail War, he is really full of emotion.

As if there was nothing more boring than watching others play games, in order to make himself feel entertained and a little more interesting to his long monastic life, he himself went to the shallow stream and watched everyone fight from a close distance.

That's really, a great thing.

Whether it is the will of human beings, the firm beliefs, the cunning tricks, or the various forms of human beings, he is extremely emotional.

Whether it was Abner's absolute trust or Leonida's miraculous resurrection. Hattori Hanzo Nakun's loyalty to the death of his ministers, Tosaka Shirou had to ignore his own suffering granddaughter in order to save more people.

Elena and Fenrir, the master and servant are the most embarrassing for the immortals, the two regard each other as dependent, each other as spiritual sustenance, and in the end, they die of madness and magic consumption.

And the assassin X, the moment he got his revenge, he did get great wisdom. That is the spirit that many monks find difficult to comprehend even if they become immortals.

In this Holy Grail War, if there is one beneficiary, it is the immortal surnamed Li himself.

Even the unknown Henry showed the courage to sacrifice himself for the sake of human justice.

Although this person has gone a little too far, he is genuine and wants to make human life better from the bottom of his heart. The immortal surnamed Li can read this from his heart, he has no selfishness from beginning to end.

In this Holy Grail War, the person who learned the most was the organizer of it.

In his long life, all kinds of intense human feelings that he had long begun to forget. Ah, it turns out that human beings can inspire such wonderful feelings?

The communication between people and people, the collision of wills and wills, these are all feelings that he has long forgotten as an immortal.

's overly rational thinking, even if he pretends to do whatever he wants, deep down, he is just unfazed.

He has long forgotten about it. Ah, I see, I see, human beings are such an enthusiastic species? He couldn't help but sigh.

At this point, it's worth it.

It seems that it is not only the modern people who he thinks are mediocre that need to be reflected, but also their group of oriental immortals who are too calm and too peaceful.

Isn't it time to put aside everything about your immortals, to try to communicate with ordinary people, to try to understand their joys, sorrows, mournings, and hurts?

Isn't it better for the immortals to have more contact with humans?

Indeed, there was once a certain immortal who made a big mistake, causing chaos in the world, and the people were struggling to make a living, and there were hundreds of years of war. However, if it is only because of a single injury, everyone of the immortals is in danger and dare not have anything to do with humans, is this attitude too useless?

Things are mutually reinforcing, and all laws are natural, so deliberately avoiding contact with human beings is no longer ten thousand laws of nature, but a kind of deliberateness, right?

"I'm ...... I should thank you. If it weren't for this whim to hold a Holy Grail War for Rausch, I'm afraid I wouldn't have woken up to this. ”

It doesn't matter whether it's right or wrong, everyone in the Holy Grail War has a strong desire. Even Mina Tosaka and Tsukahara Mingshi, who have no obsession with the Holy Grail, one is determined to make his grandmother admit himself, and the other is determined to let Carl win, and their beliefs are extremely firm.

Not to mention the standard magician like Abner, who is bent on seeking the Tao and eager to reach the outer part of the world, and Aya Makiri, who does everything to live forever, and Elena's obsession with Emiya Kiritsugu, and the monstrous hatred of Assassin X.

Feelings don't matter whether they're good or bad, they don't matter if they're right or wrong, they're just an emotion that human beings should have.

Immortals, too, are people. However, the current immortals seem to be more and more oblivious to the seven emotions and six desires, ignoring these desires, but still calling themselves [humans], which is inevitably ridiculous and generous, right?

"Tsukahara Mingshi...... I will, remember the name. ”

In this way, with such a sigh, the immortal surnamed Li left, this time, there was really no one at the table, and the waiter silently came to clean up and erase all traces.

It's as if no one has ever been here in the first place.

On the other hand, Tsukahara is much more relaxed.

It's not so much that it's easy, but that he's letting go of a lot.

The biggest shady curtain of the Holy Grail War was actually the Holy Grail War organized by the Chinese immortals, and it is no wonder that the Chinese monks looked tacitly approving it.

There are differences between Eastern and Western cultures, but he never imagined that there would be such a big difference.

Myself...... Already a winner.

It's a fluke, it's good to be supported. But, no matter what, he won. If you are still so confused, it will be too disrespectful to those who lose to yourself.

Must win. Overcome yourself.

He gambled everything in the Holy Grail War, but alas, that power was not worth mentioning.

Then, let yourself work hard and become an excellent existence in the eyes of others!

"Lohia. ”

"Huh?"

Suddenly, he called her name.

"It's great to be able to summon you. Although, as you can see, I am an unreliable person, and it is easy to fall into confusion, and it is easy to be influenced by others, and it is easy to mess with myself, but I hope you can continue to support me. I want to be a magician. This time......"

He paused, turned his head sideways, although only a year had passed, the young man's cheeks had become many more angular, and he looked very square and manly. And in those eyes, there was a glitter called firmness.

He...... I finally began to understand that it is useless to just be blindly confused. Human beings, have to make a choice.

Albert chose to continue to revive the Winifred family, and he succeeded.

Mina Tosaka has chosen to become the heir of the Tosaka family and is working hard to further her education.

Assassin X wants the world to become gentle, and for this reason, he won a Holy Grail War without the support of the Servant.

Now, it's your turn to make your choice.

Make a choice that is worthy of the choice of Assassin X.

Want to become, a good person.

"Well, if you don't say it, I will. You and I are beyond the fetters of blood, a deeper fetter. I am the embodiment of your wishes, and you are the person I respect. ”

Lohia also quietly expressed her feelings.

This is the end of this trip to China.