This winter, unlike the winter of previous years, the snow is particularly heavy, especially diligent, from the first snow to the last snow, there are more than 50 snowfalls, most of them are stopped at night and in the morning, every morning, Shasha is responsible for cleaning the snow in front of the nunnery, looking at the rising sun in the sky, Shasha's heart is constantly falling, the concept of hope has long been destroyed from her impression, only the daytime cleaning in front of the door is the business she relies on to survive. I don't know how many times I swept it, no matter how I cleaned it, everything in the past can't be cleaned up, although yesterday has passed, but she can't forget what happened yesterday, her heart is too heavy, she is in a nunnery, she just doesn't fit in, who let her once be a queen! The old nun was preaching the Dharma above, and her mind went back to the past, back to the past, back to happiness and loss, commoner and queen, arrogant and authoritative.

Infinite love is in the unforgettable moment when I fell in love with Yingge for the first time.

Yingge's death gave her a heavy blow, Shasha and him had just gotten married, the sweetness of life had not continued, and before all the unsatisfactory happened, he left her, leaving her with infinite nostalgia, infinite sadness, and infinite confusion.

A Sha Sha who originally had an infinite vision of a better life, her personality changed, at this time, her heart began to be suspicious, and the whole person changed after Yingge's death, but she was working as a waiter in the bookstore at the time, and her personality change was disguised, in the eyes of Nana and Zhang Jianqiang, she just became much more honest than before, and became silent, and no one paid much attention to it at that time.

Zhang Jianqiang's family is broken, and the death of Lie Hong and the little fairy all have a relationship with her.

She began to become the worst person, which is not unrelated to the serious blow to her life and the fission of her personality. The original heart was full of sunshine, and she loved life incomparably, so that the person she loved the most died, how many blows were given to her, her heart began to become gray, and she began to be disgusted with life, originally, the appearance of Nana's eldest brother gave her a little sunshine, but she was incompetent to her husband, she had a hard time, her personality began to become distorted, and she began to become crazy, until she entered the nun, she was still a rampant woman.

Cutting her hair as a nun, she has a hard time speaking, sweeping the door, her heart can't be calm, the two men in her mind are always flashing in her mind, one is Yingge, the other is Nana's big brother, in her sleep, she interacts with these two people every day, and she can't forget, until one day, in her sleep, she shouted, she woke up, and began to scold: "You go away, you go away, what are you always pestering me for......"

The nuns who slept in the same room with her were so frightened that they ran out, and she began to curse and cry, and throughout the night, she began to go crazy.

It wasn't until dawn that she came to her senses, she didn't cry or make trouble, and the nun who slept with her couldn't live with her at night, so she went to sleep in another nun's room, and she was left alone all night, and she began to cry again and start scolding...... The whole night was no longer peaceful, and when dawn came, she began to calm again, and for more than ten days, every night she did so.

The old nun in charge asked the doctor's opinion, and the doctor's diagnosis was schizophrenic psychosis, and the old nun was very surprised when she heard it, how could she get this disease! The old nun called her over, Shasha was normal during the day, and went crazy at night, she came to the old nun obediently, you ...... We are here to seek peace, and you have disturbed the silence here now, so you can go down and cure your illness. The old nun said to her, "I ...... I ...... "Sha Sha had nothing to say, it was useless to argue, so he had to pack his luggage, but a satchel was carried behind his back, and he looked helplessly at the sisters who came around, said goodbye, and reluctantly walked out of the nunnery. The nuns watched her leave here, and everyone sighed, this woman was too miserable.

The way home has been blocked by her, she is homeless, she is on an abandoned construction site, she finds a house, this house is uninhabited, this has become her home.

During the day she wandered around, there was no home to go back, she could only look at her home affectionately, then she left, ate outside, drank outside, and at night, returned to her own residence on the construction site, went crazy in the middle of the night, there was no one outside, in the night she shouted, she scolded, no one cared about her, no one bothered her, and at dawn, she lay on the bed and fell asleep tiredly.

When the sun was shining, she opened her unwilling eyes, got up, went out, and wandered around. This is the rustle of normal during the day, crazy at night, and helpless.

She's so miserable now, it's really hopeless.

Last night I dreamed again, the dead red, the little fairy, became hideous, stretched out the hands of the white bones, fiercely rushed towards her, she shouted, she shouted, at this time, a man appeared, he was the original king, his husband, he protected her, and the red and the little fairy who had become white bones were beaten away.

She wept, and she wept in the arms of the king.

When she woke up, it turned out to be a dream, and she felt that it was not a dream, but that they were murderously trying to get revenge on her.

She was scared, she ran to the church, he was teaching, she came to him, she cried, he was surprised, why did she come? The nun of the nunnery sent a message saying that she was mentally ill and had left the nunnery, and he was shocked at the time, would she come to him?

Nana's eldest brother, he has been the host himself, how many things and how many people in the world make him unable to forget, how can he not do his business today as calmly as he did in the previous years! Is it that you have ever been vulgar? His portrait was still nostalgic for the past, in short, he was very annoying.

Today, when he met his former lover, the woman who had been married to her in his life, and the woman who had been in love with each other, he felt ......

The believers who had listened to his teachings had dispersed, and he and she were standing across from each other, and the hall around them was empty, and only the two of them were left.

"Let's go, I'm already a member of the Buddhist family, our marriage is over, I hope you take care of yourself", he is now Guguru Khan, he speaks the Buddhist language.

"I still want to be with you", Sha Sha said loudly

"Never again, I hope you cherish it," he said

"I want, I want...... Sasha cried

The church congregants pushed her out the door, and she cried out to be with him

She didn't understand why there were so many rituals in the world that had to separate her from him.

The wind was blowing all the time, and the spring wind was cold, bitterly cold.

On the way down the mountain, she slowly calculated everything about herself.

What happened yesterday, forever remembered in her dysfunctional brain, will eventually become eternal.