In the past, I always thought that as long as I wanted and liked it, and worked hard to get it, I would definitely get what I wanted.

This almost naïve idea of mine, the first time I lost to reality, was because of Long Shuyi.

I wanted to get close to her with trepidation, but in the end I found that even a trace of my greed could not bring her even a trace of happiness after all.

Even though these are things that I realized many years later, the regret in my heart is beyond reach, but it is not at all faint because of the mottling of the years.

I think that if I do it again, I will definitely keep Long Shuyi well, and keep the thin fate between me and her.

But even so, I couldn't eat a trench and grow a wisdom and let go of Lu Xiaochao.

Perhaps, if anyone knew the story between me and Lu Xiaochao, they would definitely laugh loudly at this cheap and humble attachment in my head. That's right, they're not me, they don't know Lu Xiaochao, they haven't met Lu Xiaochao who uses a pencil as a hairpin in a sea of flowers, they haven't been moved by that strong and warm girl, they naturally can't know that in my blood, those attachments and desires for Lu Xiaochao.

At this moment, in the office without the lights on, I look through the glass wall and look at the neon city in the distance, and my eyes can't stop swelling.

Especially on such a night, the memories with Lu Xiaochao were replayed, and my heart was as uncomfortable as if I had weighed a thousand pounds of stone.

If, at that time, I didn't hurt her to fall into the water in the swimming pool, if I had chosen to believe in Lu Xiaochao, when she chose to hug me, I didn't push her away, if I hadn't caused her to fall into hell again and again, would I still have something to look forward to today, looking forward to the day when she turned around and smiled at me who was following her?

Perhaps, for the rest of my life, I will fall into these endless assumptions of myself. Repent for a lifetime.

"Why don't you turn on the lights?" With a sudden sound, the lights in the office come on.

Lu Xiaochao.

Adjusting to the light, I smiled at her, beckoned to her, and motioned for her to come to me.

Lu Xiaochao did not refuse, and walked to my side obediently.

However, she did not smile, nor did she have a wave in her eyes, and her obedience was more like silent protest and revenge.

She's just too smart, or she's just stupid, she knows, or she doesn't know, the reason why her so-called revenge can hurt me is just because I like her.

"Look at this city," I said to Lu Xiaochao, "there are as many lights in this city, there are as many families, not all of them are happy, and the men and women who form a family are not necessarily all in love, maybe they were at first, but most of them can't withstand the years of time, and there are not a few people who will be in the same bed and have different dreams." ”

Lu Xiaochao's gaze moved from the window to me, and then nodded as if in agreement, and said, "That's right." ”

I pursed my lips and smiled: "We will be like this, even if we don't love each other, we can go through a lifetime together." ”

Lu Xiaochao's gaze moved away from me and was silent thoughtfully.

"Lin Yue, even if they don't love each other anymore, but they were all united for happiness at the beginning, I think, there should be no one like us, for the sake of misfortune, walking together. Lu Xiaochao said indifferently.

Originally, in my eyes, she was a warm person, so warm that people were nostalgic, I hope that she can be like before, reach out and hug me, tell me that she will be by my side, she will hold my hand, and do everything to warm me.

But she said, me and her. For the sake of misfortune, walk together.

I didn't agree with a word, but I casually wrenched her shoulder, and said to her with a light smile: "Yes, we are different, but." Even if you are unlucky, you will go down with me. It's just unfortunate, it's better than you leaving me alone. Teach me that I can't live. ”

She finally reacted, her eyes soft, but only for a moment, and she lowered her eyelashes. And then broke free of me.

I ignored the guilt in my heart. Then he said: "So, no matter what, I won't give up on you, and you, no matter what, you can't leave me, I use my Lin Yue's life to gamble, the day you Lu Xiaochao leaves me, I won't die well." "Even so. I'm going to keep you by my side too, Lu Xiaochao. Isn't it worth the slightest wavering from me if I'm so attentive?

She took two steps back and simply said, "What I promised you, I'll keep my promise." ”

I couldn't let her go: "Even if Zhang Xingchen appeared on the day of our wedding, you must not go with him, since you keep your promise, you have to remember that your future has no if, you only have me, you can only be me." You said that you would use the rest of your life to express to me your devotion to our marriage with your right hand, and you would not forget a word. ”

I thought I could bluff Lu Xiaochao, but she shook her head and said, "I hope you don't forget that between us, everything is fake, and all promises are also to maintain that falsehood." ”

"So, if Zhang Xingchen appears, will you still leave me and go with him? Even if I curse, I won't die well?"

Lu Xiaochao shook his head, "He won't appear, even if he does, it's just to witness my marriage to you," After speaking, she looked up at me, "After the wedding, I will go to the United States as soon as possible, the company needs you, and your sister can't do without you, I think, there should be no need for us to meet often." ”

Seeing that she was leaving, I stepped forward and grabbed her, "So do you really believe that I only want to marry you because of the company......?"

"If that's the case, there's no need for us to have a wedding. Lu Xiaochao interrupted me and said, her eyes were cold and indifferent, as if she really didn't care if her words would hurt me.

Bad woman.

There is no second person in the world who is more ruthless than her.

"He wants to take away all the secrets, he wants to protect Qin Jiami, are you resentful of his selfishness? What are you dissatisfied with? Do you want him to come back? Come back and hold your hand. Ignoring the happiness of all the people in this world he values?" I shouted behind her, just this one that made me feel. I am so despicable.

Lu Xiaochao turned around, a shallow smile rose at the corner of her mouth, this smile was a little bitter, she said: "Not at all, I just feel sorry for him, alone." ”

As she spoke, her eyes wet. The voice choked slightly, "He must have wanted to come back, he must have wanted to come back to me." He must have been thinking about me every day, and then he could only force himself to stay farther away from me, he must have to go...... You have to go, you can... I had no choice but to leave me like this. She wiped away the tears that had slipped. Then he said with a sigh of relief. "It's not necessarily the person who was left behind who hurts the most, I think he must have been more sad than I knew when he turned to leave,...... In that case, if he knew that I was married, it wouldn't have been so difficult for him. “

Finally. She smiled at me and said, "So Lin Yue, maybe you don't know." Actually, I thank you very much, you are saving him, and you have also given me a way to live......"

She was saying thank you, but I didn't feel the slightest joy, I just felt cold all around me, as if at this moment, my curse had taken effect, and from that moment on, I had really died.

I didn't know she thought of him like that.

The whole world is saying that Zhang Xingchen abandoned Lu Xiaochao, and it seems that only Lu Xiaochao doesn't think so. Maybe in her heart, even if there are thousands of miles and tens of millions of years between them, it does not prevent them from loving each other at all.

Lu Xiaochao's thanks, to my ears, is so ironic, her Lu Xiaochao's heart, I tried my best to no avail, but he Zhang Xingchen can be at ease, easy to come.

I lost such a battle.

However, Lu Xiaochao, you are wrong, Zhang Xingchen did abandon you in order to protect Qin Jiami, who was in trouble.

I want to tell her the truth out loud like this, I want to see how much she hears the truth, can she Lu Xiaochao continue to believe in the love between her and Zhang Xingchen like this.

But in the end, I held back.

Unable to respond to her "kindness", I turned my back and said to Lu Xiaochao behind me: "You have to thank yourself for still having use value, so that I will not be angry...... Destroy you. Lu Xiaochao, after you walked out of this office, there was no love between me and you from now on. “

Lu Xiaochao didn't speak again, her figure was reflected on the glass wall, it was still as thin, I could vaguely see her expression, she was looking at me, her eyes were sad, or maybe I was wrong, but it didn't matter anymore.

"I'm sorry. Lu Xiaochao said.

I couldn't resist the eviction order anymore: "Get out." “

Lu Xiaochao, it's the first time I've been so desperate to hope that time will come back, if time goes backwards, I hope I don't fight to the death tonight, and throw the last bit of dignity at your feet for you to trample on, I'd rather never hear your words, just pretend that I don't know anything, just think that you resent the man who abandoned you in your heart, and then blindly and self-righteously wait for you to turn back, and wait for a lifetime;

Lu Xiaochao, if time comes back, if I can, I would rather never know you, never walk into the damn love between you and Zhang Xingchen.

I am Lin Yue, I was, I am, I am, I will still be in the future;

I am Lin Yue, Lin Yue who can't walk when I see a beautiful woman.

My time will start again from before I met Lu Xiaochao's stinky girl.

The pain in my body is because of Long Shuyi, I am still looking for the first girl to walk into my heart, the good girl who was bullied in the rain, but was bent on defending me.

I also have a fiancée, but it is not Ru Yu, the daughter of Fuli Group, but a little-known little designer, a disabled person with another man in his heart, Lu Xiaochao.

I accept such a ridiculous marriage only for the sake of my company, for business, for the sake of buying and selling, and I accept this marriage on the premise that I can continue to enjoy my single life and wander among many beautiful women.

I'm Lin Yue, I like tung flowers, but this has nothing to do with my fiancée, just because, every tung blossom is new, just like every woman around me in the future.

Before Lu Xiaochao left, he put the documents she brought on the desk.

It was a marriage petition signed in her name.

Lou Yan knocked on the door and walked in.

"Why haven't you gotten off work yet?" I asked casually, glancing at her.

"The guest list for the wedding banquet has come out, do you want to take a look?" Lou Yan said, handing over a document.

I waved my hand and asked her, "I asked you to check, did you find it?"

"I found it, and as you said, I'll have someone send you an invitation. (To be continued......)