"I won't let Lin Ke and Tang Xiayi be together, just like, I won't allow you to be with Zhang Xingchen, you all don't think about it. Lin Yue lowered his eyelids, unable to see what he was thinking.

He parked his car under the hotel apartment where Zhang Xingchen lived.

"What are you doing here?" I said, reaching for my seatbelt.

Lin Yue held my hand, took the mobile phone in the other hand and dialed a call, and after a while, I heard him call Zhang Xingchen's name.

"What are you doing!" I shook him off, but he ignored it, holding my wrist all the time, not moving.

"Yes, Lu Xiaochao and I are downstairs with you now, you can come down. Lin Yue said into the phone.

I looked at him incredulously, only to hear him say to the other end of the phone, "Come down, we'll be waiting for you downstairs, there's something important." ”

Lin Yue hung up the phone, he glanced at me, then opened the door and got out of the car.

I unbuckled my seat belt and was about to get out of the car to leave, but Lin Yue opened the door on my side, and when he saw that I was about to get out of the car, he dragged me out of the car.

"What are you going to do!" I cried out.

Lin Yue ignored my struggles, and just grabbed my hand expressionlessly.

"You let go of me, let go—"

Seeing Zhang Xingchen appear at the door of the hotel apartment, I almost screamed.

"Lin Yue, what the hell are you going to do? You let me go, I beg you, you let me go!" I begged in a low voice.

Lin Yue just looked at me expressionlessly, and waited until Zhang Xingchen approached before he spoke: "You're here!"

Zhang Xingchen's face was very bad, he looked haggard, he still had some cyan beard on his chin, and the temperature was so low. He came out wearing only a thin gray-white knit sweater, and a pair of slippers that he usually wore at home, and he came out without even changing his shoes......

"What's the matter?" Zhang Xingchen's voice was hoarse, and he asked Lin Yue in a flat tone.

"Do you remember what you promised me last time?" Lin Yue said.

Zhang Xingchen frowned, and then asked, "What's the matter?"

"You promised me, as long as I help you find Lu Xiaochao. From now on, you will let go of her and never be with her. Lin Yue said in a cold voice.

Is there still such an agreement between them?

When Zhang Xingchen heard this, his eyes were like water, and he glanced at me lightly, but at that glance, I had a contradictory mind, as if I had been waiting for thousands of years.

I want to go to him, I think.

"What the hell do you want to say?" he asked Lin Yue patiently.

"Since you agreed, then please give me and Lu Xiaochao a witness. Lin Yue said.

I haven't reacted yet. Lin Yue grabbed my hand, turned to face me, he looked me in the eye and said, "Lu Xiaochao, let's get married." ”

Heartbeat, still missing a beat.

It feels like a loud slap in the face, and my face is hot, and I really want to find a hole in the ground. Get in and never come out.

In Lin Yue's heart. What was I like when I said those words to him?

Poor, shameless, humble, incorrigible?

I hated him at that moment, I hated to let him taste every pain in my heart, who made him say he liked me, who let him put the blade in my hand after hurting me so much?

I just wanted to get revenge on him, and even if he was in pain, I was cutting my own bloody wounds with a sharp blade.

I thought. He'll at least feel guilty, at least he'll back off from me, or at least give me back a piece of peace.

But he said in front of Zhang Xingchen that I should marry him!

"Are you crazy?" I said.

Lin Yue was still expressionless, there was no affection, and there was no coercion and temptation. He just said lightly: "Don't you want to fulfill Lin Ke and Tang Xiayi? As long as you promise to marry me, I will consider it and promise to let them meet." ”

I looked at him stunned, not believing what I was hearing.

"Not only that, but I will also help you avenge the people who killed your mother, and I will not let go of any of the people who hurt you. Lin Yue continued: "You have to believe me, I can definitely do it, I said it, don't underestimate me." ”

"You're crazy. I said dumbly.

He was a little unimpressed, not taking my reaction seriously, he said, "Marry me, Lu Xiaochao." ”

I tried to pull my hand out of his palm, but he grabbed me unmoved.

"Lin Ke's love is her own, you have no right to stop her, and you can't use me to fulfill her ......"

"You see it. Lin Yue interrupted me, spread out one hand, pointed at Zhang Xingchen and said, "I'm proposing to you, and he doesn't object to this person you have in mind." ”

I glanced at Zhang Xingchen, Zhang Xingchen watched from the side, didn't say anything, didn't do anything, just watched indifferently.

He has no reason to object, and the relationship between me and him is no longer something that can interfere with each other's emotional lives.

"Lu Xiaochao, aren't you tired? I'm tired. Lin Yue said: "I want to hug you, but I always push you away, I obviously want to like you, but I choose to hurt you with all my strength,...... Aren't you tired? I'm really tired. ”

"I want to let go of my pride, I want to please you without deliberately playing tricks on you to get your attention, I want to be able to get you at any time, I want to give myself a reason to make you a unique being in my life. ”

Lin Yue said.

In just a few hours, he could be reborn as a different person, saying these things that he had never said before. What kind of person Lin Yue is, I really have a vague idea.

"This is the second time I've proposed to you, right? Although the first time was fake, I promise you that this time it's true!" Lin Yue's expression was still very heavy, as if he was not proposing, but confessing.

Zhang Xingchen silently turned around and walked back.

"Zhang Xingchen. Lin Yue shouted to stop him.

Zhang Xingchen turned around to look at us, and then spread his hands and said, "You propose, why is it necessary for me to be there?"

"Of course. Lin Yue said: "I hope Lu Xiaochao can promise me, in order to fulfill my second sister, or to be angry with you, I hope she will agree to me." ”

"You let go of me. I pleaded again.

"Promise me. Lin Yue said.

I shook my head, "No way. ”

"I said it, promise me. Lin Yue suddenly raised his voice and yelled at me loudly.

I was stunned, terrified by his unusual reaction.

We're like that, three of us, standing opposite each other.

"Why?" I finally asked.

Why, I think I have the answer in my heart, it must be because of his guilt.

Lin Yue didn't speak, just stared straight at me.

"Why did you promise me?" he asked.

I shook my head stunned: "I won't say yes,...... I sniffed, then lowered my head and said, "I won't marry anyone." ”

Lin Yue finally let go of me, he let go of me, but his fist hung on the car window, the window glass shattered in response, and the back of his hand was also bloody.

His bloody hand covered his heart, his eyebrows were furrowed, and then he turned his head to look at me and said, "Lu Xiaochao, I regret it, I regret it, okay?"

My eyes were wide open, I didn't dare to shed tears, Lin Yue in my eyes returned to Long Shuyi's down-and-out appearance when he first came back, he looked so pitiful.

He stood there, looking so pitiful.

"I was wrong,...... he pounded his heart, closed his eyes, tears sliding down his eyes, "I confessed, confessed." ”

When a person's faith collapses and the belief he holds on to is annihilated, his world is overturned.

At this moment, I don't know what the words in Lin Yue's mouth mean, but I know that it must be related to me, or because it is related to me, the world that Lin Yue used to be is slowly overturning and shattering.

But that's not what I want.

What I hope is that those who have hurt me will never bow their posture before me, never repent to me, I want them to stand their ground, always hold their chin high and despise me.

In this way, I will have enough strength to pick up the sharp blades that have been left in the corners, and I will have the strength to point the sharp blades at them, and only in this way can my heart, which has tasted humiliation and is full of resentment, be broken and reborn.

I turned around and strode away.

I think that at this moment, I can still be so persevering, breathing like a tenacious flower, and I can still breathe from those nightmares brought back from the cabin, it is Zhang Xingchen who helped me.

The most painful thing, the saddest thing, the most terrible thing, the most wronged thing;

It was like this to walk away from him again and again.

But even then, I can get through, because those long years have not presented its face to me at once, because there is wind in the air, and I may be breathing his breath.

At this moment, I can still live on this, as if I never got hurt.

When I returned to my residence, the lights were on in the house, and Xinghai was sitting on the sofa with a solemn face, as if he had been waiting for me.

"Is Grandma okay?" I entered the house, took off my coat, sat down on the couch, and offered to talk.

"Sue me, what do you mean by what you said to Lin Yan on the phone?" he didn't answer my question, still struggling with Lin Yan's incident.

"It's been days, why are you still thinking about it?" I said with a smile.

"How much have you hidden from me?" Xinghai's face became more and more solemn, and he stared at me motionlessly, as if he had made up his mind to get to the bottom of it.

"No, I'm not hiding anything from you. I didn't look at him: "You know everything you should know, the rest is Lin Yan's private affairs, don't ask me, I won't say anything." (To be continued......)