Zhang Douniang has been in the summer palace for more than ten years, and she teaches classes to the maids on weekdays, and she can play around in her spare time. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 infoToday, Ben also made an appointment with Ji Xi to make some tofu. It's just that for some reason after the agreed time, she is still in the future. She thought about it and realized that something was wrong. But she is just a teacher invited by the empress, and she has not yet entered the empress's tent, and if she speaks lightly, she may get into trouble.

Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. Bean Niang subconsciously picked up the rolling pin in his hand and hid it behind his back, and then walked to the door to ask. "Who's knocking?"

"Zhang Jiaoxi, it's me." Xu Suying's voice came from outside.

Zhang Douniang breathed a sigh of relief and opened the door. "Why are you here? Isn't it a day of rest? ”

"I, I'm ......" Xu Suying slurred for a while before she spoke. Yesterday I heard that Zhang Jiao Xi wants to make tofu, so I want to learn it too. I don't know if it's okay? If not, then I haven't been here. ”

"You're too daring. It's just tofu, and it's coming. "Zhang Douniang has also taught this delicate lady for a few days, and she has long regarded her as a student in her heart, and she doesn't plan to push her back at this moment." Have lunch with me today. ”

Xu Suying was so happy that she almost jumped into the house. This would have been unimaginable in the past. There are rules for walking and sitting, not to mention the daughter carefully raised by the family, and even the angle of the head is trained. Xu Suying has always lived in the framework prescribed by everyone. Until she was framed and completely lost her value. She has no fertility, and she is already an outcast for the family.

Those carefully cultivated shining points, and the rules that every movement and stillness must conform to the rules of etiquette, suddenly lost all meaning. She doesn't have to live for anyone else anymore. But I can't live anymore. If it weren't for the fact that she didn't want her mother to send a white-haired person to a black-haired person, she would have died a long time ago. No, I'm afraid she didn't even have the courage to die for herself. If it weren't for His Majesty, she would probably have to live a life of self-pity in the dark.

Your Majesty, what an amazing man. As long as I saw her smile, I was unconsciously relieved in my heart. It seems that no matter how great the difficulty is, it is only a trivial matter here for Your Majesty. In fact, she should have hatred for His Majesty, and no matter how she thought about the original disaster, it was related to His Majesty. The county lord of Yuzhen invited them to Xishan, and the most noble county lord in the world should be foolproof. But something happened. No matter how you look at it, Your Majesty has a serious suspicion.

Losing the possibility of conceiving and having children, Xu Suying lost the goal she had been taught earnestly since birth. The moment she woke up, she was already in complete darkness. The mother's crying continued day and night, and even the elder brother became completely silent. They must all be disappointed in her. She should hate the murderers who caused all this, including Your Majesty.

That's how it should be.

But she had no hatred for His Majesty. She couldn't dislike His Majesty. After seeing Your Majesty, even if Your Majesty is the real murderer who has harmed her so far, she may not be able to hate Your Majesty. What's more, after getting along with His Majesty, she firmly believes that it can't be His Majesty's doing. Because Your Majesty is so above board, such a person disdains such intrigues and tricks.

And the more she gets along with His Majesty, the more she feels the vastness of the universe and the insignificance of herself. Everything suddenly became clear. She lost the opportunity to raise children and marry a wife, but she found that it was not what she wanted. Rather, it was only after she had lost everything that she realized that she had never had anything, her hobbies, her life, or even her ego.

The person named Xu Suying probably never existed.

"Do you like tofu?" Zhang Douniang kept smirking when she saw her moving, and asked her with a smile. "Alright, this bean is soaked. Just filter the water. Be careful not to let the beans fall out. ”

"Oh, okay." Xu Suying carefully buckled the beans and poured water. This is the first time she has done such a labor, when she is at home, even if it is cooking, the maids have prepared the corresponding ingredients, and she only needs to do the simplest steps. But the feeling of her fingers touching the beans was so comfortable that she couldn't help but linger for a little longer.

A few beans rolled out of my fingers, and I saw that they were about to hit the ground. A pair of green jade hands reached over and held all the scattered beans in their palms. Xu Suying looked up and immediately smiled and said. "Your Majesty."

"What are you doing?" Ye Daiwan smiled at her.

"We're making tofu, Your Majesty, but at leisure. If you don't have fun with me. Zhang Douniang replied, she is still grinding the beans here. Bring the basket of drained beans, Sister. ”

"Okay." Xu Suying hurriedly poured the small pot of beans in her hand into the basket on the ground, and reached out to lift it. It's a pity that she overestimated herself a little, and instead of lifting the basket, she threw herself down. "Ahh

Ye Daiwan and Zhang Douniang couldn't help laughing. Xu Suying was very embarrassed, got up, patted the soil, and wanted to give it a try. Zhang Douniang hurriedly stopped her. "Forget it, forget it, I'll take it. I forgot, this basket weighs about twenty or thirty pounds of beans, and it is really difficult to ask a delicate little lady like you to carry it. I'll do it. If one hand is broken, it won't be good. After that, Zhang Douniang wanted to loosen the rope of the grinding plate, but because the rope was tied too tightly, she couldn't break free for a while.

Somehow, Xu Suying was aroused to be competitive and unwilling to try again. This time she used the strength of the milk, and the basket was so strong that it could not lift off the ground, and her strength was exhausted, and the basket lost its traction and was about to fall to the ground. At this moment, Ye Daiwan made a move, she held the basket with all her might, lifted it up, and moved it to the side of the grinding plate, looking at Xu Suying's eyes straight.

"Your Majesty, what a brave warrior." Xu Suying took out a handkerchief and diligently stepped forward to wipe the beads of sweat from the corner of Ye Daidu's forehead.

"It's nothing. Look at the bean lady, the shop she opened, this kind of beans has to carry dozens or hundreds of baskets a day, which is much more powerful than me. Ye Daiwan was embarrassed to be praised. She rested for several days, and was so moldy in the house that she had to read, and she was sick to her stomach when she read. Today, just in Lu Shushen's absence, she sneaked out. Thanks to the good steps of the horse in the past few months, she has no effort to climb the wall.

However, it was Xu Jingming, who was stationed, who opened one eye and closed one eye before letting her go, otherwise she would have been caught back with her clumsy movements. Ye Daiwan didn't know, she thought it was a good place she chose.

Shushen is also too careful, if she doesn't have a heat stroke, she has to press her to recuperate. Xie Xuan said that it was okay, she didn't have to say that she must cultivate well after vomiting blood. In other words, isn't the action of vomiting blood the standard for the poor heroine in romance novels? has a bleak background, encounters hardships, and then meets a male protagonist who can't understand people's words and is good at misunderstanding. Spitting blood can soothe the body and mind, uh, no, it should be to render the tragic atmosphere, and by the way, the male protagonist regrets it.

But she vomited blood...... I always feel that maybe I was sick to my stomach after eating too much iced watermelon yesterday, or maybe the fish bones in the three fresh dumplings in the morning are stuck in my throat? She is so healthy, except for the unlucky part that is prone to heat stroke, how can she have a serious illness. Besides, Chang Taiyi is not a vegetarian. If she is really terminally ill, people will not be on her side, and it is not a drama waiting for the bad guys to settle accounts after the autumn.

All in all, she didn't care so much, she just wanted to come out and play.

"You're going to make tofu, so you can't eat it just out of the oven today. I'm going to eat cold salad. To add coriander. Ye Daiwan ignored the advice of the maids and happily made a request.

"Your Majesty, coriander tastes good, I'm afraid it's not good." This kind of thing that will leave a strong smell is strictly forbidden for a family girl like Xu Suying.

"What? You haven't eaten coriander, ahhh Sprinkle a handful of coriander in the mutton soup, that's called a delicacy. If you dare to eat, next time I will take you to Beishanju, but it is not good at this time, wait for autumn. Ye Daiwan said indifferently.

Immediately afterwards, Ye Dai Anli picked up coriander. "It doesn't matter if it smells. I'm not going out to feast anyway. The tofu is soft, the sauce is rich, and the crispy raw chopped coriander is added in the middle, and you can eat it together in your mouth, and every bite will make you feel what Penglai Wonderland is. You should definitely give it a try. ”

Xu Suying was portrayed as a little greedy by Ye Daidu. And Ye Daiwan had already been drooling by herself, and wiped it with her sleeve. "Do you have coriander here? Damselfly. ”

"Not really, I think about it, I think I've seen it in the courtyard, why don't Your Majesty go and pluck some. It will definitely be more tender this way. Zhang Douniang was only halfway through her words, and Ye Daiwan rushed out with small scissors and a vegetable basket. Xu Suying hesitated, but still lifted the corner of her skirt and followed.

"Your Majesty, do you recognize you?" Xu Suying thought about it for a long time, and finally squeezed out a sentence. She really wanted to talk to His Majesty, even if it was just small talk.

"Well, it's very simple, I'll teach you. There are also a lot of delicious wild vegetables, I know them all. Ye Daiwan said to her with great interest. Hey, there's even a little Ma Lan here, take it back, it's delicious to make prison pills. The salad is also good. ”

"Your Majesty, how do you know so much?" Xu Suying asked in surprise. She didn't know her at all, even when she went to the spring on the last day, the maids were ready to pick it up, and she picked out some beautiful ones and put them in the basket to pretend. If she is asked to pick them, I am afraid that even the weeds next to her will be pulled down and brought back.

"Because ......" Ye Daiwan couldn't help but think: for survival. If she didn't remember this, she would starve to death, and would she dare to forget it? But at the beginning, she was not much better than Xu Suying, she picked back a lot of things that she couldn't eat, and some of them were poisonous. If it weren't for Meow Meow to distinguish one or two for her, the grass on the grave must have grown dense enough now. But when the words came to her mouth, Ye Daiwan still said. "Because it's delicious. You see, if this is fried with pork liver and added with some rice wine, it is called a fragrant fragrance, so you can swallow it with your tongue. ”

"It sounds delicious." Xu Suying followed Ye Daidu's words and said. What His Majesty didn't say, she knew. While she was waiting for His Majesty's answer, she realized her own stupidity and cruelty. But since His Majesty didn't say it, she wouldn't say it either.

Ye Daiwan saw that the basket was almost finished, so she got up and prepared to go back. Xu Suying was still stunned, she looked at His Majesty's back, that brisk pace and bright smile, His Majesty looked like bright daylight. But how can Your Majesty not be gloomy at all? If she were to be replaced, it would be impossible to come out of those dark years, and it would probably take her whole life.

Just like she is now. After losing everything, you find that you never had it. Whether it was past, present, or future, she was lost. What else is there to live for a woman like her who has lost her fertility? There was a voice in her heart, saying something non-stop, as if she was protesting and struggling, but she couldn't hear clearly, and she couldn't think of what the voice could say.

At this moment, she finally couldn't help but ask His Majesty. "Your Majesty, why are women alive?"

"What do you think?" Ye Daiwan turned her head and looked at her gently and encouragingly.

"Is it childbearing?" Her voice trembled as if she was about to cry.

"Of course not." Ye Daiwan replied categorically.

"Is it to manage her husband's property?" She was calmed down by Ye Daidu's answer, like taking a reassuring pill. This time, she didn't need to answer. "Of course not. Is it for the family? No. We were born as girls, why should we live for others, can't women have the world in their hearts, sacrifice their lives for righteousness, and live for the common people? ”

"Not really." Ye Daiwan calmly denied it.

Xu Suying was stunned and muttered. "Isn't it?"

"Of course not." Ye Daiwan stood there, looking at her quietly, seeing that the light in her eyes was getting stronger and stronger, like a spring flower blooming with that kind of vitality. Ye Daiwan knew she didn't need to say anything more. The drunk get drunk without alcohol, and the awake don't need to say much.

"Your Majesty, a woman can live for herself."

"Yes."

If you don't live for yourself, won't you live up to this life? If you can't treat yourself with all your heart, you don't care about the righteousness and truth.

"Then what about Your Majesty, what does Your Majesty live for?" Xu Suying leaned in with a smile and asked.

"What a stupid thing." Ye Daiwan said speechlessly. "Don't act like I'm not a woman, okay?"

Xu Suying stuck out her tongue and laughed.

Lies. Your Majesty, you said it so plainly. But Your Majesty, you still sacrifice so much for the common people in the world. Is the people of the world also a part of himself in the eyes of His Majesty? Such a majesty, how can people not yearn for it! The Lord of the world must be Your Majesty.

"Your Majesty, can someone like me follow you?" Involuntarily muttered.

Ye Daiwan flicked her forehead with her free fingers. "Are you stupid? Sober up. Let's go. ”