Extra-6 Old Things (6)
What pained me was that I was wearing a wide robe that day, covering my bulging belly, and the emperor did not notice anything unusual about my body, but he only hurriedly said a few words to me, and then took her away, without looking back at me from beginning to end.
The next day, Xing'er brought me the news I wanted to know, she told me that the woman had gone to the frontier for some reason in the past six months, and fought side by side with the emperor in the military camp. It is precisely because of this that the emperor was grateful to her, so he named her a concubine outside the palace and took her back to Beijing with him.
I feel a little lucky.
If this is the case, it is understandable for the emperor to make her a concubine. The emperor didn't like her, just to repay her.
But I was wrong, very wrong. The woman only entered the palace for a few days, and she took away the emperor's seven souls and six spirits. The emperor began to favor her alone, except for the last court, the rest of the time accompanied her.
I didn't want to believe it, until one day, when I saw the woman bending down to pick flowers in the imperial garden, and the emperor looked at her from a distance with an affectionate expression, I suddenly understood everything.
The emperor likes her, not because of gratitude, but because of the real love between men and women. I have never seen the emperor show such tender and sweet eyes to a person.
It was as if my heart was burning with a raging fire, burning and aching, and I fled from the wilderness.
When I returned to the palace, Xing'er kept comforting me, but my heart was like ashes. I could vaguely guess that all my expectations and happiness were completely disillusioned after the appearance of this woman.
But how can I be willing, in just one year, the emperor empathized with other women and fell in love with other women. And a few days after returning to the palace, he only came to see me once, and his tone was cold, like a stranger.
He already knew the news that Concubine Shu and I were pregnant, and he did have a happy look on his face, but my child and I were far inferior to that woman.
All this because of that woman.
I suddenly realized that I had changed as a different person, and I had an unprecedented hatred for that woman, and I had the idea of making her disappear without a trace.
I tried to calm myself, but I couldn't control myself.
I hate her! I hate her for appearing out of nowhere and taking away everything that should have belonged to me.
Half a month later, I was sick again, this time the illness was more serious than before, the most ridiculous thing is that I was really sick this time, the emperor just came to see me in the palace, and suddenly a palace goddess hurriedly ran in and told him that the woman was pregnant. The emperor didn't say a word, his face was surprised, and he ran out happily, and disappeared in the blink of an eye.
I fell into an ice cellar, tears slid down my face again, things outside seemed to have nothing to do with me, I was out of place with this place.
The woman was more than three months pregnant, and the emperor was by her side every day, and he seemed to have forgotten that I was pregnant and that my child was about to be born. My heart is like a knife, and I am more and more unwilling.
One night, I was in a depressed mood, and finally waited for the apricots to rest, and took advantage of the fact that no one was alone to go outside for a boring stroll, and unconsciously walked to the outside of the Heart Cultivation Palace.
The palace of nourishing the heart was still lit, I thought the emperor was inside, and I was about to say hello and walk in, but when I walked outside the door, I saw that the door was half open and half hidden, and the emperor was not inside.
I don't know why, but I pushed open the door and walked in.
I stood at the table where the emperor was reviewing the folds, looking at the place where he sat every day, and seemed to smell his breath. There were several rows of bookshelves standing beside me, I wanted to know what books the emperor was reading every day, walked back and forth in the house, and was about to leave, but I didn't expect to accidentally bump into a small vase on the table, just hold the vase, I heard a squeak behind me, I looked for a voice, and saw a row of bookshelves behind me suddenly moved to the side, revealing a stone door, which was open to me.
I shouldn't have gone in, but I couldn't hold back my curiosity, and walked in slowly, and as soon as I stepped inside, the stone door behind me automatically closed, and it was so dark that my scalp was numb and I couldn't find my way out, so I had to touch the wall to go inside.
As soon as I had walked a few steps, I saw a faint light, and suddenly I was not so frightened, and after walking for a while, I should have reached the very center position. The interior is spacious, with a raised stone staircase in the middle, a high wooden platform on top, and dozens of neat bookshelves lined up around it, as well as all kinds of vases and porcelain.
I was unwell and tired from standing for a while, so I just glanced at it and didn't plan to stay longer.
But I accidentally saw a willow character written on a book that stretched outward, and I involuntarily walked over.
At that time, I thought that these books should be a history record of some secret affairs of the DPRK and China, and the courtiers surnamed Liu are only our Liu family.
I thought that the book should be about the Liu family, so I walked over and pulled out the book and flipped through the contents at random. Unexpectedly, that book was really about my grandfather, and there were a few more books next to it, so I quickly flipped through it. When I turned to the bottom of the book, I accidentally saw a few lines inside, my hand suddenly paused, frowned, and then read it seriously.
After reading what the book said, I took a few steps back in disbelief, and the book fell from my hand to the ground.
It was pitch black in front of me, my mind was empty, there was nothing. I could never have imagined that my grandfather had such a relationship with the emperor, and the death of our family was also caused by the emperor.
I can't believe it, and I don't want to believe it, I want to go out and question the emperor in person. Bending down to pick up the book, before he could put it back in place, the familiar and cold voice of the emperor sounded in his ears.
He said, "What are you doing here?"
My body trembled, I raised my head in panic, the emperor's face appeared with unprecedented coldness, like ice on the mountain, his eyes were extremely deep, and there was no trace of warmth in his voice, I only felt cold.
He had already seen what I was holding in my hand, and his face changed slightly, and he quickly returned to his natural and calm atmosphere.
I thought I would pretend not to know about it, but it had already been discovered, and it was useless to say more. Thinking of the things recorded in the book, the words in my mouth blurted out: Your Majesty, is the throne of your Nanfeng family really taken away from our Liu family?
As soon as the words fell, I saw that the emperor's face changed instantly, and his eyes dodged slightly when he looked at me.
I went limp, and I fell slightly to the bookshelf behind me, and if it weren't for something supporting me, I think I would have fainted.
I shook my head, and then looked at him motionlessly, expecting to hear a negative answer from his mouth, telling me that none of this was true. But I'm still disappointed.