When I first entered the university, I remember that I was not close to anyone except Xiao Sa, even with the girls in the same dormitory, I hardly talked much, and for a long, long time, everyone thought I was a mute.

Not necessarily everything I do is related to Zhang Xingchen, at that time, I was just tired of making any new relationships, I didn't want to smile at the unexpected encounter that came my face, I counted my steps alone, and I didn't want to be disrupted by anyone, I liked to be alone in the crowd as if no one saw me.

I don't want to give affection, and I don't want to get.

Xiao Sa's score line for entering that university was not enough, so he chose a major that was very unpopular in that university, so he reluctantly entered that university. Every time I felt sorry for him, Xiao Sa said that he had no dreams, it didn't matter where he went, and it didn't matter if he was in the same university as me.

At that time, in my mobile phone, except for my mother and grandmother, there was only Xiao Sa's name.

One cold night, on my way back to my dormitory from my study room, it suddenly rained heavily, and I was stranded under the eaves of a small supermarket on the way.

I called Xiao Sa and asked him to help me deliver an umbrella.

But Xiao Sa refused, he said that he was drinking in a bar and had no time, so he asked me to figure it out by myself.

I stood under the eaves of the hut for a long time, and when it was time for the evening service to end, many people passed by, but I did not know anyone.

I can still vaguely hear people whispering to me, and someone said, "She's mute, you leave her alone." ”

I looked up at the rain falling overhead, and I was so depressed that I imagined countless images in my mind of someone handing me an umbrella. Then he smiled at me, then turned around and walked into the rain like he had never seen me before.

As I thought this, a pair of toes suddenly appeared under my eyes, and a familiar voice sounded in my ears. "Shall I take you back to the dorm?"

I looked up in amazement, only to see an unfamiliar face.

"Shall I take you back to the dorm?" he repeated, his voice so familiar that I couldn't help but have sour eyes.

That person, his voice was very similar to Zhang Xingchen's.

I shook my head and said no.

There were several men and women behind the man, carrying school bags, some holding books, reading textbooks, and they were not from the same department as me. Behind the man, they advised him: "People don't appreciate it." Let's go!"

The man insisted without giving up, and he smiled brightly at me and said, "I'm not a bad person, really." ”

There was another laugh behind him, and when he saw that I was still standing still, the man grabbed my hand, handed me his umbrella and held it, and then called me his name, saying that he would occasionally attend the same professor's class with me. If we meet him next time, let me remember to return the umbrella to him.

And then. He left with his companions and disappeared into the night.

Once upon a time, every time I went to class, I was like a lone ranger, coming and leaving silently by myself, except for the professor. Don't look at anyone's face.

But since that rainy night, every time I go to class, I look around for that face, or take off my headphones and prick up my ears to listen to the sounds around me.

Finally one day. I was in the spacious classroom and heard Zhang Xingchen's voice again.

Following the voice, I saw him coming in through the back door of the classroom, surrounded by a group of friends, talking and laughing, with a youthful exuberance that was unique to his age.

I am like an eighty-year-old widow, and the inferiority complex that spreads in my heart is just like when I faced Zhang Xingchen, in front of those beautiful things that I never had, my posture looks so humble and gloomy.

He sat down a short distance behind me, and when I saw that the professor had not yet arrived, I took out the umbrella I had been carrying with me from my backpack and walked over to him.

"Hello, the umbrella is back to you, thank you. I handed the umbrella to the desk in front of him.

Hearing this, he looked up at me, and then showed me the same bright smile, he took the umbrella in his hand, and asked me, "Have you always carried it?"

"Well, I'm thinking I'll give it back to you. "I was standing, and the rest of the people who were already seated were twisting their necks to look at us, and it was about the first time I had spoken in front of everyone in such a long time.

The man nodded, and then said, "In this way, we can be considered friends, right?" Lu Xiaochao!"

He called my name, just like Zhang Xingchen called my name.

At that moment, tears almost burst out of my eyes.

Later, that person became the first friend I made in college.

Every time I took another class with that professor, I would leave a seat next to him, and then I got more seats, as well as his friends.

In this way, I made more and more friends.

We took self-study classes and ate together, and he was on the school basketball team, so I spent all my spare time playing basketball with him.

I also introduced Xiao Sa to him, and Xiao Sa said that he was also startled when he heard that person's voice.

Xiao Sa also asked me if I thought he was Zhang Xingchen.

Originally, I thought that I would be like in the movie, because of an action, a sound, re-acquainted with the forgotten heartbeat, and when I looked at the figure of that person running on the basketball court, I was also confused.

But one day, a girl came up to me and told me that she was that person's girlfriend.

She asked me to leave the person, and also mentioned Xiao Sa's name, mentioned the person's voice, and the girl said to me: "My boyfriend's voice is very similar to your ex-boyfriend's voice, isn't it? You are self-hypnosis, he is not your boyfriend, he only made friends with you at the request of your friend Xiao Sa." ”

I fully believed, and I had no doubt, and her words did not allow me to doubt.

I asked the girl, "Why did he say yes to such a ridiculous request?"

"Because the way you are alone in the crowd is pathetic. ”

Only then did I realize that the way I imagined myself was so different from what everyone saw me.

I thought I was cold and unsociable, unpleasant, but in their eyes, I was just a cripple who needed to be sympathized and pitied.

The girl said to me, "You don't want to be alone again, it looks really lonely and pitiful, originally I also wanted to cooperate with them, but I was afraid that you would fall into it." ”

"Good. I said.

It is unwise for a disabled person to want to be independent after leaving the world, the picture is so pitiful that they can't stand it.

That's when I started to talk to people slowly, just to have someone around me so that they wouldn't be so unbearable.

I think that the most wolf and the most unbearable appearance in my life, Xiao Sa has seen it all.

But at this moment, he showed me his heart and asked me why he couldn't.

This question has never been a problem for me.

Xiao Sa looked really angry and angry: , he said loudly: "Lin Yue can't, he can't!"

"Why not?"

Xiao Sa stared at me angrily, and then said, "Just because I don't like it, can't I?"

"In your heart, is it only Zhang Xingchen, or people related to Zhang Xingchen, and people who are similar to Zhang Xingchen, that I can like and love, right?" I asked calmly.

"Like, love, how Lin Yue hurt you, have you forgotten it? He was on a whim, and when his love was over, what are you going to do? How many more years are you going to spend forgetting him?"

"Xiao Sa, now for me, forgetting a person is not the hardest, for me, it is even harder to fall in love with someone. I gasped, I felt sorry for Xiao Salai for no reason, when did he start to change? If he was sincere, in those days, watching me close myself for Zhang Xingchen, how uncomfortable his heart would be.

"Xiao Sa, I'm sorry, really. I said.

"What I want to hear is not sorry, not thank you, not these words that you are repeating to anyone, don't you understand?" Xiao Sa's eyebrows were sad, he looked very bad.

"Xiao Sa, if I fall in love with someone again, that person must have nothing to do with Zhang Xingchen. "I think, there is nothing more cruel than this sentence, Xiao Sa and Zhang Xingchen are related.

There was a sudden series of applause in his ears, and in the middle of those green plants, Zhang Xingchen suddenly walked out.

"I'm sitting here smoking a cigarette and still bumping into such a wonderful scene!" he clapped his palms and walked over to us.

Xiao Sa stood with a cold face and did not move. Zhang Xingchen walked up to him and stretched out his hand to wrap his shoulder, Zhang Xingchen smiled, but his eyes were cold.

"Lu Xiaochao, in your eyes, Xiao Sa is my Zhang Xingchen's attachment, right? He has been with you all these years, do you take it for granted? Lu Xiaochao, do you have a heart? Is your blood cold? Looking at Xiao Sa's face, can you still say these words?"

Zhang Xingchen's face did not have a trace of waves, nor was he surprised, Xiao Sa's thoughts, he seemed to have known for a long time.

"So, you want me to date Xiao Sa?" I asked with a smile.

At this time, if Zhang Xingchen didn't appear, I would never be like this, I planned to do well, after saying that sentence, how would I confess to Xiao Sa, how would I tell him about my feelings for him, and how would I try to redeem my friendship with him.

But this qiē was messed up because of Zhang Xingchen's appearance.

As soon as he appeared, all the thorns in my body appeared.

"Lu Xiaochao, I don't allow you to hurt Xiao Sa!" Zhang Xingchen approached me and roared with a cold face.

I pulled the corners of my lips and smiled meaninglessly: "I said, I will never fall in love with anyone, any, related to you." ”

"Xiao Sa is Xiao Sa, if you have a trace of respect for him, you shouldn't say that about him!" It's the first time I've seen Zhang Xingchen get angry like this in front of me, and it's the first time I've seen him defend a person like this.

"I like Lin Yue, I'm very happy and happy with him, and being with him won't give me any chance to think of you, just let me go, don't force me, okay?" I said indifferently. (To be continued......)