I lay on the sofa to catch up on sleep, Xinghai was busy in the kitchen, and tomorrow was another rare rest day.

"Can't you just stand next to me and learn from me, and you plan to be so idle when you get married? "He kept nagging in the kitchen, that cool rebellious boy in the past, now he has grown into a caring and warm man, and he is still a warm man who loves to nag people.

"If you don't marry, you won't be able to harm others. In this way, Zhang Xingchen was very lucky.

"Don't get married, you want to be beautiful, my mother is still asking me about you in the past two days, saying that if you are not in love, she plans to introduce you to a few people. ”

I glanced at Xinghai's back, he was cutting vegetables neatly, and the knife made a rhythmic sound against the cutting board, much more durable than his nagging.

"You let my aunt worry about your life's affairs, you are not too young, and you are not qualified to say cool things about me. "I looked at the sunlight outside the house, and I really liked the warm winter sun lately, and the weather is getting colder, and I can be touched by a little bit of warm sun.

Long Xinghai was quiet for a while, and suddenly said, "It's really not good, I'll marry Lin Yan back and pay for it." ”

"Lin Yan!" I sat up from the sofa in shock, and then yelled at him in the kitchen, "You like Lin Yan!"

Xinghai turned his head and gave me a cold look, and then said coldly, "How did you come to a conclusion?"

"The conclusion drawn from your words!" I lay on the sofa and looked at Long Xinghai's tall back, and suddenly felt that it would be good if he developed a relationship with Lin Yan, so that Lin Yan would not have to suffer in Wang Yifan's world.

"I didn't say it, I just made an analogy. Xinghai flatly denied it.

"Hmph, that's not how it works. I snorted twice and fell back on the couch again.

I'm in a calm mood now, and I have Xinghai with me like this. It really seemed to ease my longing for my mom.

The doorbell rang suddenly.

Xinghai ignored the doorbell, so I had to open the door myself.

But the people standing behind the door were something I didn't expect.

I didn't know, Zhang Xingchen would come to me again.

"Who!" Long Xinghai asked loudly in the kitchen.

I didn't speak, Zhang Xingchen was a little surprised when he heard Long Xinghai's voice, and asked me softly, "Your cousin is still with you?"

I nodded. "Well, I won't be going back for a while. ”

"Is it convenient to talk?" he grinned as he pulled the corners of his lips and gestured outside.

"I'm going to put on a coat. With that, I turned around and went to the bedroom, and then I heard Xinghai's footsteps coming out of the kitchen, he probably saw Zhang Xingchen, only to hear him call Zhang Xingchen's name and invite him to dinner together.

Zhang Xingchen politely refused, he said, "I have something to do with Lu Xiaochao. I'll send her back in a moment. ”

I paused as I got dressed, and suddenly I felt like crying again.

It would be nice to go back in time.

Back before Mom's accident, back before he got married.

I sighed heavily, and then shook my head vigorously, if I was always entangled in such feelings, maybe I really wouldn't be able to live.

I put on my coat and walked out of the bedroom, Xinghai still holding a kitchen knife in his hand. He looked at me and nagged again, "Why don't you wear more?" It's cold outside!"

"It's not cold, enough is dressed. I smiled, then waved my hand and said, "I'll be right back." ”

Zhang Xingchen came by car, and I couldn't help but feel sad again, if it was in the past, he would definitely walk over. Or maybe he was close for fear of being bumped into by Qin Jiami, so he actually drove the car.

I sat in the passenger seat and didn't speak, just looked out the window.

The car drove a short distance and stopped on the bank of a nearby river.

There was silence all the time. After a while, he spoke: "I will go back to the United States the day after tomorrow." ”

I nodded, not knowing what to say, my mouth opened, but I didn't say a word.

"Later, take care of yourself. He said.

My nose was sore, my lips pursed, and I couldn't hold back my tears.

"Originally, I wanted to do something for you before leaving, but it seems that there is really nothing that can help you, Danqi has some friendship with me, if you have anything, you can also go to him, he will not stand idly by. His tone was flat, but I listened more and more unpleasantly.

"I'm very good, you can go back with confidence, I heard that you have to take medicine for life after transplant surgery, you pay more attention to your body, go for more re-examinations, and take care of yourself." I said, biting my lip desperately, afraid that I would cry.

In this way, it can be regarded as a complete farewell, right?

"By the way, my mom agreed to come back to the U.S. with me. After being silent for a long time, Zhang Xingchen mentioned his mother in a relaxed tone, "She is not in very good health, and I don't worry about leaving her alone in the country." ”

"That's good, the family is finally reunited. I laughed and agreed.

"Is your grandmother well? Is your mother still in the countryside with her grandmother?"

The tears I had been holding back could no longer stop flowing, my tears caught Zhang Xingchen a little off guard, he panicked, and hurriedly asked me: "What's wrong?

I wiped away my tears, pursed my lips and shook my head, "No." ”

"Is something wrong? What are you crying about?" he reached out and pulled my body over to face him.

I couldn't hold back my tears anymore when I met his concerned gaze.

"Lu Xiaochao, what's wrong, don't scare me!" He looked like a mess, I suddenly couldn't tell whether I was heartbroken by my mother's death, or because the person I had loved for many years was about to leave me, he was obviously in front of me, obviously he hadn't left yet, but I felt like I was about to be suffocated by thoughts.

"Lu Xiaochao, don't cry, don't cry in the future, and don't cry in front of me, really. Then, Zhang Xingchen said.

I really stopped my tears, I looked at Zhang Xingchen, and suddenly realized that I was so shameless.

Am I trying to keep him with tears, am I trying to win his sympathy with my mother's death? I'm so shameful.

"Lu Xiaochao, why didn't you be obedient when you asked you to marry me? If you don't cry, you really won't cry. Zhang Xingchen showed a wry smile, his hand on my shoulder gently forced, hugged me into his arms, he sighed softly, I heard him say: "Lu Xiaochao, even if I am cruel, I still want to proudly tell you, in this life, you still miss me, don't expect to meet me in the next life, even in the next life, I don't want to see you again." ”

"I said I wouldn't protect you anymore, but that's all I can do for your revenge. ”

I don't cry, absolutely not.

No matter how warm his hug was, no matter how cruel his goodbye was, I wouldn't cry.

I don't cry, I don't cry.

But my heart hurts so much,...... If God knows that there is a Lu Xiaochao, if God hears these words of Zhang Xingchen, please God, don't let Zhang Xingchen meet Lu Xiaochao again in the next life, it's okay, never again.

Zhang Xingchen drove away alone, and I walked back along the road I came, step by step, with tears in my eyes.

I don't know how long I've walked, where I've gone, and when I can't walk, I squat down on the side of the road, and it doesn't matter where I am, whether I have a strange gaze or not, whether I'm embarrassed or not.

It turns out that the real nothingness is in this world, with nothing to look forward to and nothing to hope for.

"You can still cry like this, it seems that you are doing well. The sudden voice sounded, I raised my face and saw Lin Yue standing against the car, looking at me for a long time, he said: "Since I have been betrayed three or four times, I have learned that it is lucky to be able to cry, there are still people in this world who can stimulate your nerves and make you sad, at least prove that you are still alive and flesh and blood." ”

"But I didn't have a single tear. Lin Yue's voice was so cold that it seemed to come from hell, which made people shudder.

I stood up, intending to walk away from the man, not wanting to provoke him any more.

"Can you escape? This devil in front of you, but you have created it with your own hands, and you don't appreciate it much, and then you leave?" he said jokingly behind me.

I looked back at him and tried to explain, but I felt like I couldn't say anything.

"What do you want. Finally I asked him in a cold voice.

Lin Yue showed a sinister smile, he walked towards me, stood still in front of me, he reached out and wiped the tears on my face, his movements were so gentle that I suspected that the cruelty in his eyes was my own illusion, and then I heard him say: "Only Zhang Xingchen can make you cry, right?

"Lin Yue!" I exclaimed.

He laughed wantonly: "Sure enough, he is the only one who is your weakness, why, haven't you heard that he and Qin Jiami are already married?

"Lin Yue, don't be joking, I ask you not to make this kind of joke!" I almost cried again, I had never felt so cowardly, I was so helpless against the fragility of life.

"I've planned it all, you wait to see the show!" Lin Yue was indifferent to my plea, he turned around and walked towards his car.

I caught up with him and grabbed him: "Lin Yue, are you joking, right? You will ruin everyone!"

"Isn't that just the right thing to tie out?" he said.

"If you hate me, if you hate me so much, well, I can die now, how do you want to see me die?" I pointed to the ant-nest traffic on the street and asked him, "Is it enough for you to be crushed by the car?

I said, rushing to the main road.

But Lin Yue grabbed me in an instant, he hugged me from his body, and clamped me tightly, I could almost hear the sound of him gritting his teeth in my ears, he sneered wantonly, and said in my ear: "Lu Xiaochao, you really underestimate me Lin Yue, do you think I will let you go so lightly?"

It was as if I had been cursed by the devil of hell, but at that moment, I suddenly felt an indescribable sense of joy.

In this way, someone can take revenge on Lu Xiaochao for Zhang Xingchen. (To be continued......)