Song Xiuyan looked at the sad expression on Shen Rong's face, and said comfortingly: "Mom, I'm fine, you don't have to think about it so much, I wasn't bad when I was a child, don't you think I'm fine now?"

Shen Rong snorted and said, "Xiuyan, I won't ask you who the girl you like is, and I won't force you to go on a blind date, can we talk like friends?"

Song Xiuyan was taken aback, lowered his head and did not speak. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Shen Rong put the fruit knife and apples in her hand on the plate on the bedside table, held Song Xiuyan and said, "Xiuyan, mom will tell you about foreign children." In those years, I met a lot of orphans, and disabled children, they lived with low self-esteem, but in order to survive, or to be adopted by a better family, some smart children would suppress their inferiority complex, pretending to be very cheerful and lively, such children are too scheming, I don't like it. ”

"My favorite girl is a little girl named Chriles, who lost her legs in an accident when she was a child, but she is really brave and strong. Every day she was filled with a sweet smile, and every time I asked her, "Little beauty, what is your wish?" she would smile and say that I want to have a pair of sound legs, even if it is for a day, I just want to know what it is like to run like the wind. At that time, I was shocked in my heart, we normal people have sound hands and legs, but we always complain about all kinds of unsatisfactory life, she can have no legs but never complained, the only desire is to try to run freely. ”

"Later, every time I went to the orphanage, I would talk to the little girl, she was very talkative, and she never squirmed, and when I met an ignorant child who came to her and asked, "Oh my God, where did your legs go?" and she would laugh and say, "God borrowed my legs and forgot to give them back to me." The children would smile and say, "Oh, you're lucky, God will ask you to borrow something." ”

After Shen Rong finished speaking, she held Song Xiuyan's fingertips tightly and said, "So sometimes the questions that you mind very much in your heart are not worth mentioning in everyone's eyes. ”

Song Xiuyan looked down at his mother's hand for a long time before he spoke: "Mom, I understand what you say, I have always thought that I want to be an excellent person, but I always feel that no matter how hard I try, I am not good enough." ”

Shen Rong looked at Song Xiuyan's eyes with a smile: "That means that the girl you like is perfect, that's why you feel that no matter how hard you work, you can't deserve it." ”

Speaking of Rodin, Song Xiuyan smiled: "She is not perfect and has many shortcomings, but she has a sunny smile, which is enough to cover any shortcomings in her." ”

Shen Rong looked at Song Xiuyan's smiling eyes, and tears appeared in her eyes for no reason, Song Xiuyan must love that girl very much.

Song Xiuyan didn't speak again, his fingertips kept stroking the peach pit basket hard, for so many years, every time he performed a task, every time he brushed shoulders with death, it was this small peach pit basket that accompanied him.

When Luo Dan told him that she liked Cheng Qi's family, his heart was dripping with pain, but he still looked at Luo Dan warmly and listened to her.

Later, when I heard that Cheng Qi's family rejected Luo Dan's confession, I felt a little inexplicably bitter in my heart, but instead of being relaxed, how could the girl he cherished at the tip of his heart break her heart.

Shen Rong also talked heavily in her heart, freezing three feet is not a day's cold, like Song Xiuyan, she will never take a step forward in front of love, because of her inferiority complex and the weakness in her heart.

Luo Zhan and Qin Xiaoyu lived in the guest house for a week, and every day Qin Xiaoyu would follow Shen Rong to learn how to make soup and bake dim sum in a pan.

Luo Zhan would accompany Song Xiuyan to play chess and chat.

Regarding the fact that Luo Dan also liked Song Xiuyan, Luo Zhan didn't mention it again, he knew that talking too much made Song Xiuyan escape faster.

Song Xiuyan looked at the chessboard and didn't move a step for a long time.

Luo Zhan took a step and said, "Are you planning to let me go alone?"

Song Xiuyan suddenly raised his head and looked at Luo Zhan, and said in a firm tone, "I want to participate in the selection of the Desert Fox." ”

Luo Zhan was stunned for a moment, touched the concave gesture of the word "elephant" on the chess piece, and said for a long time: "You have no chance of winning, do you know what it means to lose?"

Song Xiuyan nodded: "I want to try." ”

"For the sake of Xiaosi?" Luo Zhan mentioned Luo Dan's name for the first time in a few days.

Song Xiuyan didn't speak, looked at the chess pieces on the chessboard, and said for a long time: "I want to overcome the last obstacle in my heart." ”

Luo Zhan's eyes sank, staring at Song Xiuyan's face: "Desert Fox selection, you will meet many strong opponents, especially Zhou Cangbei of the New Provincial Field Army. He is a deep city, and he ranks first in the new province every year in military competition, only a little worse than the land and military forces of the Northwest Military Region, but he is young, he is only twenty-six years old this year, and you have no chance of winning. ”

Song Xiuyan curled the corners of his lips and smiled: "How do you know if you can't do it if you don't try?"

Luo Zhan raised his eyebrows: "Actually, you don't have to use this method to prove yourself, Xiaosi is also interested in you, you two can open up and talk." ”

Song Xiuyan shook his head bitterly: "You don't understand, when I overcome this level, I will go to find Xiaosi." ”

Luo Zhan sighed, it was not easy for Song Xiuyan to be like this, and he barely passed many psychological tests.

Song Xiuyan smiled: "Don't worry, I'm sure there's no problem." ”

Luo Zhan patted him on the shoulder: "You have to take care of yourself, but I, as Xiaosi's brother, I want to remind you that no matter what, you can't make Xiaosi sad, otherwise I won't be able to let you be with Xiaosi in this life." ”

Song Xiuyan nodded reassuringly: "Boss, don't worry, I only need a year." ”

Luo Zhan chuckled and pointed to the scar on his face: "What, don't you care about this scar on your face?"

Song Xiuyan twisted his face out of the window, and said in a low voice: "You're right, how can you know the ending if you don't give it a try?"

Luo Zhan didn't speak again, he knew that Song Xiuyan understood the big truth, but he couldn't get over the hurdle in his heart.

Shen Rong also pulled Qin Xiaoyu to talk about common words, and said vigorously: "You said that Xiuyan's temperament, when can he change it, he didn't tell me when he was a child, I knew he was afraid that I would worry, but the more this is the case, the more anxious I am in my heart, if I know what kind of life he lived when he was a child, I now comfort him and enlighten him, and he also knows where to start, do you know?"

Qin Xiaoyu rolled the biscuit blank vigorously with a rolling pin, but hesitated to tell Shen Rong about Song Xiuyan, and finally looked at Shen Rong with an eager and anxious look, and still said what happened to Song Xiuyan in his childhood.

Shen Rong scolded the animals when she heard this, and it took a long time before she choked up and said: "I was too stupid at the beginning, plus Zhu Yuan's tricks, I thought that Xiuyan was really gone, but then I got sick and thought about it carefully, there were really too many loopholes, but I didn't find it." ”