“…… Everything has a way, like a dream bubble. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info such as dew and electricity, should be viewed as such. After Ye Daiwan finished reading this sentence, the Buddhist beads in her hand had been rubbed and glowed. For more than 300 days and nights, this string of hand beads never left her.

It was probably fear and sorrow that made the bead smooth and shiny, and so beautiful that it was terrifying. She stared there, but her mind had already flown out of the sky. How do you convince the reclusive mage to come forward? No, not the question. How can she not let her conscience be disturbed, just because she wants others to die.

And not herself. If she knew how to heal, she didn't know, she didn't know if she would have the courage to die. What kind of mood do doctors have in mind when dealing with cases that may kill themselves?

Death is absolute silence. Are there really so many people in this world who are not afraid of death? What a huge group that has to be. is not afraid of life and death, calm to cold, which reminds Ye Daiwan of those faces she has seen.

Wearing a spotless mask, all hair covered by a white hat, smooth disposable gloves on his hands, and a strong smell of disinfectant on his body, it was a little scary, but it was reassuring.

Hanging pot helps the world.

Probably the only word that came to her mind after feeling the pain.

Now all she wants to do is send a man who can save the people to die, or a savior to the people who are in despair. She didn't know if the former made her miserable or the latter made her happy. At the moment, her heart was on fire.

The form forced her not to be as innocent as before, thinking that she could save herself by curling up in a turtle shell and not hurting anyone. She had to choose to sacrifice the minority in favor of the majority. Whether it is for the sake of the world or for herself, she must learn to be scheming and ruthless.

But is that a reason why she can be indifferent? No. For the sake of the common people in the world, what a wonderful and righteous excuse. If she had been able to convince herself so simply and accept the justice that the world had given her Light, perhaps she would not have been so desperate at this moment.

She is the little boat, the oars without control, she can only follow the current until fate wants her to go.

"I don't think I can do it." Ye Daiwan hugged Chongying and sat on the windowsill, letting the night breeze tease her long hair. She looked into the distance in confusion, the dense greenery stained gray by the yellowish candle flame, but still green.

The vibrant greenery stretches under the night sky.

"Why do you think so?" Xie Xuan walked behind her with a lamp and hung it on the wall. The lamp illuminated her, but her heart was still occupied by darkness.

"Don't you ask me something?" Ye Dai didn't want to raise her head and looked into the distance.

"I know. You should understand. You have to do it. Xie Xuan's voice sounded colder than the night wind.

Ye Daiwan felt the warmth in it. Xie Xuan sat next to her.

"Even if what I do may kill your master, Master Yun Yao?" Ye Daiwan was a little hysterical. She couldn't calm down. She knew what she was supposed to do, and if she didn't, tens of thousands of people would die and the country would be in danger.

But she also couldn't accept herself taking this step. If she does, even if the country can be saved, she probably won't be able to live after that. She hated it all, she hated fate, and she hated herself.

If only you could stop breathing at this moment. There will be no such annoyance. However, such negative thoughts made her feel that she was too stupid. She couldn't choose to die, because she was a coward and she didn't dare to die.

To live desperately in order not to die is probably the bravest thing she has ever done in her life.

"You're not trying to kill him. Besides, if he is unwilling, will you send troops to escort him? "Xie Xuan is not comforting her, but he knows better what she and Master are." Believe me, if he doesn't want to go, even if you send all the troops, it will not be possible to lower the book in his hand by half a cent. ”

"Master Yun Yao is so powerful?" Ye Daiwan could probably imagine that he was very powerful, but she couldn't believe that he was so powerful. Even a Buddha body made of iron can be destroyed by a stupid and ignorant person, let alone a human being made of flesh and blood.

"Just as you can't imagine that the sun never rises from the sky, that the bright moonlight does not reflect the night, that there will be no spring after winter. Yes, he's amazing. Xie Xuan laughed. My mother used to cut at him with an axe, but he didn't move. At that time, my mother really had murderous intent. ”

"Why would she want to kill him?" Ye Daiwan didn't understand. Wait, maybe she can guess. "He took you from the bunker."

"Yes, he made me see the light. For the first time in life. Xie Xuan would never tell her how he knelt on the hard bluestone slab and wept bitterly. That's stupid.

"And then. How did the mage resolve this? Ye Daiwan likes stories like this, which makes her feel that there is still dawn and laughter in this world, and of course, legends.

"He just took her axe, don't ask me how he did it, I don't know. In an instant, I saw him exchange a string of beads for an axe in her hand. Then he looked at her quietly for a moment. That's the end of it. ”

"It's weird. Isn't your mother a Taoist? "Faith is so easily shaken, and if it were so, it would not have a soothing effect. You have to believe, you have to go into a frenzy, you have to see a ray of light in this fog.

"Of course not. It wasn't the beads that healed her, it was the tranquility. ”

Is it tranquil? Ye Daiwan can probably understand what she is going to face. A wise man, a believer, a good man.

She let go of the sword in her hand and grasped the beads on her wrist. What she needed wasn't weapons, probably salvation.

"Don't be afraid. Wei Zhen. Along the way, there may be countless people who fall, but you won't. Countless people will die for it, and you are their standard-bearer. Where you are, that's where they want to be all their lives. ”

"No, not the destination. I'm going to die, too. Ye Daiwan corrected him with a smile. It's a path that leads to where everyone wants to go, and I'm no exception. If one day, I give up halfway, or die of martyrdom. There will be the next person who will take my place and carry that flag. ”

Justice, kindness, fairness, there are no absolute boundaries, and even sometimes it seems stupid. But there must always be someone to insist and defend. Because in this difficult and difficult world, there must always be some hope.

No one has ever given Ye Daiwan this. She was discriminated against, helpless, and endured countless despairs, but she still had hope. Others won't come to her rescue, it doesn't matter, she can be considerate. Because someone else is someone else after all, her pain or death will only bring them temporary trouble, but not forever. Time will eventually make her forgotten.

There has never been a savior in this world, only you can save yourself.