This sleep seems to have passed for a long time, and it seems to be very far away, I clenched my arms uneasily, and my intuition was empty, I opened my eyes and looked around blankly, surrounded by lush tea plantations, distant mountains like daisies, flocks of sparrows fluttered out of the forest, falling into the distant wires in twos and threes, chattering non-stop. Pen | fun | pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

I sat down on a small raised dirt slope and rubbed my numb hands. There is a small basket next to me, which is a newly picked wild bayberry, I hesitated to raise a hand in front of my eyes, and I am holding an August yellow in my hand, which is similar in appearance to a banana, it explodes when it is ripe, it is very sweet, and there are many seeds in it, which is also one of the reasons why rural children always like to run up the mountain. I looked at the August Yellow in my hand with vacant eyes, and the ants on it were looking for their way along its edge, stretching out their tentacles.

Looking at them, I couldn't help but think, this dream is very long, very real, and very happy, so I can't tell whether it is reality or a dream. There was still a thick paste in my head, and I remembered all the things in my dreams as if I was in a different world, and when I turned my head to look at the surroundings, I got up and carried the basket in a daze, and when I went around the hillside, I found that I was leaning against a grave.

Stunned to look closer, the handwriting on the tombstone has long been blurred, since I can remember, it has been here, this is the only way up the mountain, behind it is densely packed with graves, occupying the entire mountain, some are in disrepair, do not look carefully can not distinguish, is the slope or the grave.

Looking up at the sky, the sun was setting in the west, it was almost dusk, I didn't linger, I left here quickly, I really didn't like this cemetery. I remember when I was a child, the friends who went up the mountain to pick tea in March every year liked to compare each other's bravery, and they were proud to take a nap and sleep here.

I went down the hill, went around to the back of the house, did not meet anyone on the road, every household was busy chopping pigweed to feed the livestock, some dinner was early, the chimney had begun to cook smoke, I opened the back door of the void, it was my small kitchen, next to the kitchen stove less than 3 meters, it was the pigsty, I put the basket in the aisle between the kitchen and the building, added some pig food to the howling pig trough, and grabbed the rice bran in the kitchen and mixed it with the remaining rice, opened the door of the chicken coop and put the food bucket in, and the half-sized chicks came to forage for food under the leadership of the cooing hen。

There were still a few dumplings left in the cupboard, thinking that it was still early for dinner, so I grabbed two random pads to cushion my stomach, I turned from the kitchen to the front hall, glanced outside the door, and the aunt who was chatting with two fat and thin aunts sitting on a bamboo chair had no intention of stabbing them a few words now. Turned to the staircase to change out of the dirty sneakers, kicked a pair of slippers and went upstairs, the aunt outside the door turned around, looked at my back with disdain, rolled her eyes, and then turned her head back with a smile on her face, and continued to talk and laugh with her aunts in a loud voice, "Yaya just came back from the mountain, and she didn't have time to change her clothes, so she ran upstairs, which is even more diligent than the sister in my family." ”

"You have such a ready-made good girl, just wait to enjoy more happiness!"

Aunt Wang, who was close to my aunt, raised her head and pointed in the direction of my room with her chin, and said, "Qiu Ling, you have been upstairs in the morning, but you are busy in vain." ”

"But no, no matter how filial you are, it's not as intimate as your own sister, alas? Aunt Yang pressed her throat and added in a strange way.

I thought the sound outside was too dry, so I simply closed the door and window, went to the bathroom to take a warm shower, and when I applied soap to my body, I touched the rough and hard wrist, and looked down to see that it was a string of Buddhist beads.

This is when I was in college, I participated in a class organization, the topic of ancient architecture drawing, once after measuring the size and wandering with classmates, I accidentally passed by a stall at the entrance of the attraction, it just fell on my upper, the master on the side said that this is my fate with it, but the price is really cheap, I bought it without any burden. Now it seems that only when I see it, I can be sure that I have indeed been reborn, not back to the childhood when I first met him, but back to the summer when I ended the college entrance examination, which should be my regret.

In the corner of the room was the suitcase that my uncle bought for me, which he specially asked my aunt to buy with me to celebrate my admission to university, and it was also what I needed the most, and I had not removed the tag on it. I looked at the calendar on my desk, and in two days, I would be going alone to a completely unfamiliar environment, and I remembered that I was nervous and afraid of the unknown at the beginning, and now I am much calmer.

I put back in the closet the mattresses, quilts, winter clothes and other large luggage that my aunt and cheap sister strongly persuaded me to bring with me. I only packed up some of the things I was used to wearing, as well as a few sets of summer clothes given by my aunt, a simple half of a suitcase, and a few pairs of shoes, clapped my hands and got everything done, and turned back to myself in the mirror to sort out the broken hair that fell from my ears. The corner of my eyes couldn't help but stay in the corner of the window, and the corners of my mouth naturally pulled up a smile to the bottom of my eyes, even I didn't notice it, this smile was slightly different from the past, and there was more confidence in it.

I walked to the desk and opened the window, lit a circle of mosquito coils and put them on the windowsill, and looked at the opposite teaching building by the moonlight, which was a five-story reinforced concrete building, which was a well-deserved building among the bungalows and small western-style buildings with no more than three floors in our countryside.

At this time of the day, no matter what mood I felt at the time, I would sit in front of the window and quietly gaze at the building. Tonight's night sky is starry and the moonlight is bright and clear, and tomorrow will be a clear sky, but the building is pitch black, and the window sill lights on the second floor have not been lit for many years.

Since I was a child, I have been curious about why there is always a little brother who likes to stand in front of the window, looking at the distant mountains, and standing for hours at a time, with a look of loneliness and loneliness on his immature face. Later, when I asked people who knew him, they all commented on him: arrogant, strange-tempered, ignorant of people, and without a father.

A few years later, my mother and father parted ways, and the beautiful junior successfully took the position, bringing a cheap sister and giving birth to a mischievous younger brother. I realized that one day I could be like him, doing the same thing every day, which is incomprehensible to others, but he was completely distracted to appreciate his scenery, but I was secretly observing him, figuring out his psychology, how to face these unsatisfactory lives with his mother, until I watched him become better and better, while I became more and more silent, withdrawn, and had no friends around.

In the evening, my father came back from work, leaned on the sofa to watch the news broadcast, my aunt and sister were busy in the kitchen for a while, my younger brother went to my grandmother's house and did not come back, as we all know, I don't know how to cook, even if I go to the kitchen, I can't intervene, whenever this happens, I always feel that I am a guest, the hostess is warm and virtuous, the girls are sensible and well-behaved, the boys are lively and lovely, the male host is majestic and loving, this is a warm family.

In the living room, the family sat around the dining table to eat, and my aunt moved the dishes I liked to eat in front of me, and her round and fair face under the light, willow eyebrows, and her eyes looked at me with gentle eyes, and said, "Look at you, after the college entrance examination, you have lost weight." “

Dad's eyes swept over, and before he was displeased, I said lightly: "Thank you, Auntie, don't always take care of my side, doesn't my sister also like to eat fish balls?" “

"Don't look at your father, he can still care about me and feel sorry for my daughter!" The aunt glared at her father with a smile, turned her head to her sister and said, "Your sister wants to eat, let her burn it herself." “

"Mom has liked my sister since I saw it, I've been out of favor for many years, Dad, you love me more. My sister pouted and said coquettishly to her father.

"Okay, you're your father's baby, your sister is hurt by your mother, and your father will love you, it's okay. "My father, who has been smiling at me since I was a child, is very happy to smile at my sister.

Auntie smiled and punched Dad, Dad rarely grabbed his sister's shoulder, the father and daughter demonstrated as if they had to smile at Auntie, Auntie was stunned for a moment, and then feigned anger and said: "Look at you proud, Junjun was brought up by his grandmother since he was a child, this time my mother sent him back, do you want to take it?"

My sister's eyes for help looked at me, I lowered my eyes, hid the gloom in my eyes, raised my eyes and smiled accordingly: "My brother's grandmother is rare to come once, and I can't pick it up if I don't pick it up." “

"But, tomorrow my sister will start school, and I have to go to such a far place alone, what if no one is going to send it? Grandma can't send my brother back a few days later?" the sister asked the aunt with a look of embarrassment.

In my heart: I can go wherever I want, and there are various reasons not to go if I don't want to go. It was not because my father was going on a business trip, my brother had a cold and fever at my grandmother's house, and the aunt who received the call rushed over on the same day, and my sister said that I didn't worry about accompanying me, who knew that when I arrived at the station, she suddenly had diarrhea, looking at her pale face, her beautiful facial features looked so haggard, and finally I dragged my bulky luggage to school alone, and only after I found that I didn't have to prepare a lot of luggage at all.

Since I knew the result, I didn't want to play Tai Chi with them, so I glanced at my aunt, my eyes fell on my father's face, and said, "No, I've grown up, and many of my classmates don't need to be sent by their parents, so you can pick up your younger brother tomorrow." “

Dad smiled, looked at me seriously and said, "My daughter has grown up and knows that she is thinking about her brother, so okay, I'll send you to the car tomorrow, and call me when it's time, otherwise I won't worry." “

"Okay, got it. "I readily agreed, my father's words were more concerned than back then, and even my aunt and sister looked at me less, maybe my mood changed, this dinner tasted better than back then, is this my luck?