25. Self-deception game
The rain seemed to collapse the sky, pouring down from the dark night sky and smashing densely into the weeds and bushes beneath the depressed river.
The darkness soaked through the entire stone-paved river, and the weeds were swaying with the wind and rain, weak and desolate. At the mouth of the dark river dam, two figures could be vaguely seen confronting each other in the faint light.
The rushing rapids beneath the towering barbed wire roared like a python, deafening and pouring down.
Chen Chen stood beside the uninhabited bushes with his wounds covered, his eyes seemed to be cold blades quenched with ice, gloomy and cold. The blood seeped from the wound and washed away by the rain, and the dark red line of water meandered down the heavy and cold black pants soaked by the rain, and gradually disappeared into the dirty earth.
This broken world is actually very dark.
In the unseen corners, hidden monsters stealthily stick out their claws, their food being the hot blood of humans, the bodies that exude body heat, and the internal organs inside their chests.
They are powerful and full of murderous desires, and gradually, they will fade from human reason and be dictated by instinct.
"I'm hungry. 」
"Want to shred anything. 」
"Only that warm blood can fill the unsatisfying **. 」
That's why so many innocent people are dying.
Those people didn't even know what was happening, they had their heads torn off, their internal organs hollowed out, and their bodies were torn apart and eaten little by little with lifeless eyes open.
At the beginning, Chen Chen couldn't suppress that powerful desire, he had already died on that rainy night.
Turned into a monster.
The Zhang Xiaofalcon in front of him was him at that time.
"Truly, it turns out that you are also a monster. There was some kind of cruel malice in the laughter of the man opposite, self-loathing and hatred for this rotten and smelly world.
They are all monsters, man-eating monsters.
It's ridiculous that the boy on the other side chose to be an ordinary person?
"It's so deep hidden, if I hadn't been able to hold my breath tonight, I wouldn't have realized that you were also a predator. He stared at Chen Chen sickly, and the strange smile on his face seemed to be forcibly pulled out.
"Predator?"
Zhang Xiaofalcon stretched out his arms, raised his head and bathed in the heavy rain, the rain in the dark night fell on him, smashed into the soil, and the smell of damp plants emitted in the air, this smell was not heartwarming, with a certain erosive smell.
"Yes, hahahaha! We're predators! Don't you think it's a great thing to prey on weak humans, to ignore any restraint and do whatever they want?"
A sarcastic smile appeared on the corner of Chen Chen's mouth, and his eyes were lowered, which was really ridiculous.
Losing all the emotions that human beings should have, only a body supported by desire, living in a state of panic and anxiety, suffering a lot.
Such a monster calls itself a predator, and thinks very highly of itself, above all species.
"It's sad. Chen Chen shook his head and laughed self-deprecatingly, the sarcasm in his eyes was undisguised: "Becoming this kind of monster, hating the world, right? Shouldn't it be the injustice of hating this world? Why is he the only one who has become this ghost——"
"Enough!"
The boy on the other side suddenly turned on a hideous face and yelled at him with unconcealed anger, "You're not the same! You're a monster! Why do you say such things in that tone!"
Yes, everyone is a monster.
But what's different is—
"I'm not going to kill indiscriminately. Chen Chen looked at him coldly.
"Even in the early days of assimilation, I wouldn't be like you and that damn monster for fun. ”
What a coincidence.
It was also on such a rainy night, when heavy rain poured down, with an air of despair.
He still remembers the misfortune he encountered at that time, and he clutched in his hand what he wanted to be a birthday present for the girl he loved.
At that time, it was difficult for me to express the truest thoughts in my heart, and I liked her so much, but I could only look at her secretly from the sidelines, and secretly record my daily diary of getting along with her.
I also want to say that this gift must be delivered to her.
Then tell her what you want.
But he was attacked by the damned monster, like a hungry beast, its fangs tearing through his fragile skin, sucking his blood, and even devouring his fragile beating heart.
Until now, Chen Chen sometimes feels that this is like an unreal dream.
I think I'm the same as everyone else.
At that time, even if the mutilated heart was growing well again, it was not like others, it was as stiff and cold as a corpse.
Zhang Xiaoying stared at him resentfully, he didn't understand why Chen Chen was willing to hide among those ordinary people, trying to live like a normal person.
His smell was faint.
Only a person who has not eaten for a long time will slowly dissipate the smell, and the irresistible killing will make him tremble with excitement, and if he does not eat, he will feel that the internal organs in his body are constantly churning, and his brain will be replaced by the desire to devour, and he will not want to suck blood and eat flesh all the time.
Especially the delicious human flesh.
What a wonderful aroma, a greed with hatred.
Killing, addictive.
Cannibalism too.
Maybe Chen Chen is right, he resents the injustice brought by this world, and even hates everyone, including Jasmine.
Why was it that in the library that day, it was clear that she was also within the prey range of that monster, but in the end she could escape, leaving the innocent him and another victim into the abyss sadly.
To this day, in that dark library, everyone was gone, and he and the victim were tied up in a utility room that was not visible.
The monster let out a low, chilling smirk, its disgustingly ugly face like a strange mask, its neck stretched out almost against his face.
"I'm hungry, I'm really hungry. 」
"It smells delicious, but I still can't find it. 」
Looking for?
I watched as the poor creature was torn apart, his hands and feet ripped off, and the blood flowed on the ground like a broken sluice, with a strong stench, staining everything red.
How desperate it was.
Like a guinea pig that died in the research room, unable to do anything, he watched himself too be dominated by his life, and was killed alone in an empty corner.
"Do you know how cruel that monster was that day?" Zhang Xiaoying's expression was in a trance, his eyes rolled nervously, the rain flowed down with his strange expression, and his straight gaze looked closely at the grass somewhere, and there was lingering despair in the depths of his eyes.
It killed the man, saying it was still not satisfied. Why not be satisfied?" because I haven't found what I want the most.
"It feels lonely, and those toys always die too quickly. Thereupon...... It tore my hands off first and ate them in front of me with relish. ”
Do you know what that feels like?
The rushing tide of darkness drowned out all the light.
Obscuring all hopes.
Why?
Why.
Why?
Why.
Yes, why is it him?
Like the dead guy, soon the hands were eaten, followed by the legs, and they were eaten up, leaving only the mutilated pieces of flesh and the gnawed skull, and the pitch-black pupils lost their luster due to the evaporation of water, turning chaotic.
Silently watched this qiē.
"Do you know why I didn't die? Zhang Xiaofalcon suddenly arched his body and quickly slammed into the young man opposite, he clenched his fist enough to destroy a qiē, and swung it towards Chen Chen fiercely!
"Because before I die, I beg him, don't kill me, don't kill me, please, I just want to live, and I'm willing to do anything to survive—"
Under the heavy rain of the night, two figures were entangled, entangled in the darkness, and the speed was so strange that it was impossible to distinguish who from whom.
Chen Chen was deeply disgusted with the person in front of him, he was twisted and violent, like a madman on the verge of losing control and collapsing, and he was extremely dangerous.
Maybe today's incident is just an outlet, he just wants to transfer his anger to others, with the mentality that "it doesn't matter if you kill anyone".
Secretly kill and eat the girl who came home alone, and see the girl's parents standing sadly at the school gate holding a sign of the missing person's notice, and the broken heart will have pleasure.
He was secretly teasing.
Is it tasty?
Delicious.
So eat her.
"How can you monster pretend to be unrelated?" Zhang Xiaoying viciously grabbed Chen Chen's arm and shouted, "Obviously we are the same people! Why do you pretend that nothing happens! That guy said that there is a very interesting guy in the school, it notices you, and it secretly observes you! Even if I don't come today, sooner or later you will be killed!"
Kill this obnoxious guy and then kill Jasmine.
Good, that's all.
So that no one would notice anything strange about him.
"It's so stupid that there is no rule of law. The young man left this sentence lightly, and then vigorously bent his hand in the opposite direction with his backhand, only to hear a cry of pain, followed by a fierce kick to the ground.
The boy walked up to him, crouched down, and looked down at the stupid and pathetic fellow with a blank face.
"You know what? I killed the monster that turned me into this. ”
With his power?
No way.
How is it possible for the new generation to compete!
Chen Chen looked at the boy who was lying on the ground covering his stomach and was kicked through his intestines, his eyes were full of naked doubt.
But that's just the way it is.
Those monsters are not invincible, they are afraid of fire, afraid of anything enough to burn them to ashes.
In the beginning, he was also afraid of the sun, of everything that emitted heat.
But he did something disgusting.
Eclipse each other.
That's right.
They like to eat human flesh and drink human blood, and they don't know what their flesh tastes like.
When hunger clouded his sanity, he tracked down the monster, hated it to the core, and wanted nothing more than to kill it.
So the design led it into the ruins, and the disgusting thing actually showed a timid and frightened gaze in the midst of the fire.
Kill, eat.
Burned to ashes together.
"You don't think about revenge, you just look for innocent people? Resent the injustice of the world?" the boy suddenly showed an eerie sneer.
"It's really a rotten and smelly world, so kill the broken ones. ”
No one knew that the power obtained from mutual cannibalism was so powerful.
He killed it and waited in the fire to be burned to a pile of ashes, but he was lucky enough to survive the walking dead.
Eating its mutilated flesh and sucking its brains, the strength gained was enough to become stronger.
"People like you don't deserve to live in the world, you're too weak. The boy shook his head slightly.
They were soaked, rain dripping down their damp clothes onto the grass, and the air smelled of blood.
Strangely, a familiar aura wafted through the air.
Zhang Xiaofalcon's head was slightly raised, and he looked at the road above the stone steps behind him in an extremely strange posture.
Bang!
Lightning.
The white lightning roared, almost splitting the night sky in half, and with a loud bang, the river was illuminated clearly.
A figure stood at the barbed wire fence next to the stone steps, staring down like a ghost with a mesh.
Chen Chen turned his back to that place, only to see Zhang Xiaofalcon attacking him suddenly, he dodged wolfishly, but saw Zhang Xiaofalcon sweeping towards the rear with lightning speed!
Unexpectedly turned his head in pursuit, but he saw clearly the person standing behind the mottled and dilapidated barbed wire, his pupils couldn't help but shrink violently, revealing a look of fear-
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Jasmine's world is divided into countless fragments by the barbed wire fence with diamond-shaped square holes in front of her.
Wandering to this corner, where there was no one, she huddled in that narrow corner, quietly watching a battle on the edge of the river ahead on a rainy night.
It was no ordinary strife.
The rain was pouring down, and the dense rain was like a dam that had broken the gates, agitated and ferocious, and the scenery in front of him was full of hazy water vapor.
In the hazy vision, the two men entangled at an alarming speed, they taunted each other and showed no mercy.
"Aren't you a monster too, and who are you to talk about others?"
She heard the voice of the table in front of her.
Monster.
What is the screaming roar in the ears.
With resentment and unwillingness.
The almost roaring conversations came clearly into her ears, and she clenched her fists sluggishly and weakly, her body shivering in the rain.
"Hey. And so it was. 」
The voice in my heart sounded unusually brisk.
"It's a monster, sure enough. 」
"Chen Chen......"
Jasmine covered her face in despair, her brain was buzzing in severe pain, but she didn't seem to feel it, and she read the name numbly.
Chen Chen......
Chen Chen......
Why was it discovered by me.
Why should I see and hear.
If you don't chase after you, you may be able to deceive yourself and pretend that you don't know anything. He also kept saying that he wanted to protect her.
But he's a monster, too—
The lightning in the black sky seemed to hear her desperate self-muttering, and finally erupted, like a sharp sword, with a white light that flashed and roared through the sky.
Bang!
The shining arc cleaved from the dark rain all the way to the edge of the sky.
There was a restless sound in her ears, and the wind was suddenly blowing, and she looked up, and saw a shadow rushing towards her, as the distance grew closer, closer and closer—
Jasmine stood in place in horror, her hands even covering her cheeks, and she was so stunned at that moment that she forgot to run away.
The faded face with a hideous and crazy smile stretched out its hand to her.
It's Zhang Xiaofalcon.
In the trance black eyes occupied by fear, the black shadow continued to enlarge in the pupils.
"Jasmine—!"
In the flash of lightning, she was held tightly in a clammy embrace, and a huge wave of impact knocked her away, and Jasmine's eyes were dark, and there was no pain expected.
Her hands were squeezed into that embrace, and she suddenly felt a touch different from the cold rain.
It's like being soaked in a temperature, viscous liquid.
Warmly, sticky feeling.
Jasmine was as stiff and tense as a stone statue, and her eyes widened in horror, and there was a terrifying glint in her eyes.
Zhang Xiaofalcon stood in front of her, looking at Chen Chen, and smilingly pulled out his bloody hand with some unknown flesh from his body.
The flesh was crushed little by little in his hands, slowly flowing out of the gaps between his fingers like water foam, and then licked up again.
"Delicious...... It's really fragrant. ”
The fishy smell of blood was strong and lingered in the nose.
"Jasmine, don't be afraid. Who covered her cheek with a blood-stained hand, soothed her in her ear, and told her not to be afraid.
He was obviously so badly injured, but he was still comforting her.
"Ah Chen. Jasmine didn't even dare to cry, her voice trembled uncharacteristically, but she was hugged by the boy and ran all the way up the river, and the monster behind her was in hot pursuit.
She was placed on the open grass, and the boy turned to leave, choosing to face it head-on, Jasmine's eyes were so drenched in the rain that she could barely open them, and the blood on her hands was washed away.
Their figures were entangled, and it was almost impossible to tell who was who, but Jasmine forced herself to get up, and her mind was occupied by a thought-
Something had to be done for him.
But the haunting voice in my heart came out to stop it.
"Don't you go over! Let them kill each other, and kill me!"
Sharp and vicious.
"It's all monsters, it's all dead, it'
"No, don't. Jasmine clutched her head and screamed.
She's going to kill that monster!Ah Chen's injuries are very serious...... If she doesn't do something, it may be too late!
Jasmine was crawling through the muddy grass, her hands covered with dirt and grass roots, and she picked up a large rock, staggered to her feet, staggered to her feet, and rushed forward—
Zhang Xiaoying did not expect Jasmine to smash a stone into his head from the back, and when the hard stone hit the fragile and fragile skull, a click was clearly heard.
His head was violently smashed, and his neck was suddenly crooked into a strange arc, Zhang Xiaofalcon's eyes widened in shock, blood flowed down his wet hair all over his face, and his eyes were full of red flowers.
How so?
Chen Chen dodged to his side, grabbed his fragile head and twisted it fiercely-
The whole head was torn upside down and slumped on the shoulder.
He suddenly felt cold, and his chest was empty, but his twisted head, which was hanging on his shoulder, could not look down to see what was happening.
Until the bloodied young man grabbed his heart, which was thrown like garbage into the rushing river.
Zhang Xiaoying felt that he was a joke.
It seems that the life that I have been asked for is about to be ended again.
The world is really unfair.
Why?
Why.
The rain was terrible, and no one would answer him.
The crooked head on the cold body was lying on the grass with its cloudy and lifeless eyes open, and it looked very peaceful.
When did Chen Chen find out that Jasmine was missing?
When he killed Zhang Xiaofalcon, twisted his head off and prepared to destroy the corpse, he found that there was no Jasmine around.
He was so anxious and panicked that he didn't even have time to dispose of the corpse, so he hurriedly dragged the corpse of the head and body to a hidden tall bush to cover it, and then set fire to find Jasmine.
The young man was in pain, wandering around like an ant on a hot pot, his heart was also very chaotic, and countless thoughts quietly emerged.
Jasmine got it.
She knew—
I was a monster, so she was scared, and she hid.
"Jasmine, don't be afraid of me, please, come out, I'm so uncomfortable, please come out. ”
I muttered to myself in despair.
The slightest glimmer of hope was obscured, like exile in an abyss that would never see the light of day.
It was covered with moss and the bones of rotting corpses that had died in despair.
"Jasmine, don't hide it, okay?" I like you so much, why hide it.
In this broken world, everyone is sick.
Obsession is greed, the light and warmth that lonely souls yearn for.
It hurts others, and it hurts yourself.
Chen Chen thought that this day would come, but he didn't expect it so soon.
His Jasmine crouched under the street lamp not far from home, holding her head, curled up, like a desperate little beast, her eyes tightly closed, closed in her own world.
"Jasmine, let's go home. The young man picked her up softly, his eyes full of pain and apology.
"I'm sorry for letting you see this qiē. ”
I also saw me like this.
"You're afraid of me, aren't you?" asked the young man, his pale and delicate features cast a dark shadow, and the silence passed in the dwindling rain, and he was heard to say darkly.
"Even if Jasmine is afraid of me, I won't let Jasmine go. ”
I once struggled to endure the desire to occupy and devour her, restore my humanity, put on the mask of hypocrisy little by little, and try to act like a normal person.
"I'm a monster, but this monster is willing to do anything for you. ”
"Don't be disgusted with me, please. ”
There was no sound in the silent room, and when Jasmine opened her eyes, she revealed her instinctive timidity and fear, but she saw the deep sadness hidden in the eyes of the young man in front of her.
Tears slowly welled up in his dark eyes.
The boy's eyes were like stagnant water, and he couldn't see any light, and his face looked sad, but he stared at her deadly.
It looks like a beast on the verge of death, full of despair.
"Jasmine, I'm sorry. ”
I'd rather alter and erase her memories than see her show that chilling fear of him.
Jasmine's mind suddenly became very confused, and the strange feeling seemed familiar, and her body and soul seemed to get closer and closer, and she only felt very tired in a drowsy way.
She sat on the sofa with her eyes half-closed, her soaked clothes soaking the couch cushions, damp and cold.
In her ear, a voice told her.
"Jasmine, you've always liked someone. ”
Who is he?
"Chen Chen. ”
Chen Chen?
Jasmine blinked in a daze, looking at the person in front of her stupidly.
She knew that Chen Chen, that young man had always been strange, the truth was peeled away without warning, and the doubts of the past were revealed, that young man was a monster.
"You're going to like him all the time, you're going to forget that he's a monster, he's just an ordinary guy who's lived with you since childhood, he likes you, he pursues you, he says he doesn't want anything as long as you. ”
"I like Chen Chen......"
"Yes, you like him. ”
Jasmine seemed to think of something, trembling all over, her eyes wandering violently, she held her head, shaking her head in pain, why did her head hurt so much-
“…… Ah Chen, I'm so worried about you! I'm afraid—"
The boy was shocked and stared at her, only to find that she had recovered from her original sluggish state.
The game of self-deception begins, only to find that the despicable self has missed something.
Desperately thinking that instead of making her afraid of him, it would be better to deceive herself into blinding her thoughts, and to change her opinion of him as easily as usual, and to give an order herself.
wants her to live in the lie that they have always loved each other for the rest of their lives.
Unexpectedly, she was worried about him.
Chen Chen carried her to the bathroom like a walking corpse, and she underwent certain changes, such as hugging his neck tightly and snuggling into his arms.
Her head was filled with that voice, and she liked him, and she liked it very much.
That kind of liking is very abrupt and strange, feeling longing and emptiness, and can't help but want to get closer, absorb his breath, cling to him and relying on him.
"Ah Chen, I'm cold. The girl was coquettish softly, and suddenly found that his body was full of wounds, and her face changed greatly.
"Y-How are you hurt!"
"It's okay, I accidentally fell down just now, and there was just a little blood. The amazing healing ability had already healed the wound, and Chen Chen came back to her senses and gently withdrew her clothes, without the slightest distraction.
"Jasmine, I'm sorry. ”
"Why do you want to apologize to me?" her clothes were gently peeled off, revealing her green and attractive flesh.
"Well, it's gone. "I'll wash you clean, wash away the blood that scares you, as if nothing had happened.
The hot water from the shower drenched them, and the mist filled the small bathroom, but the boy's face flashed with pain.
He wasn't used to the heat, and he felt burned.
But because he did something wrong, he was punished.
Chen Chen closed his eyes, covered her cheeks, and before Jasmine could react, he suddenly lowered his head and quickly kissed her lips, and opened his eyes to meet her surprised eyes.
"It's me who was too stupid to find out...... "It turns out that you really have me in your heart."
Not a game for me to make a fool of myself.
The two pairs of eyes looked at each other through the white smoke steam, and Jasmine only felt that Chen Chen was extremely strange today.
It seems that since they fell in love, he has become more and more clingy.
Love, love?
The girl's cheeks were red, and she wanted to subconsciously dodge his eyes, but he forcibly dragged her chin to look at each other.
"Tomorrow Jasmine will forget the qiē and remember the qiē that happened. ”
I'm sorry Jasmine, how are you tonight?
I may be a little greedy, so let me be greedy for this taste again.
The feeling of being liked by you.