On that day, I met a small hair on the road.

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said that they were small and alive, but in fact, they hadn't seen each other for five or six years, and there was very little contact.

At that time, Fa Xiao was a recognized bastard around, he could lose his temper because his mother's cooking was not delicious, or he could pick up a stick and drive his relatives away from home because of his relatives' nonsense...... And so on, notoriety.

I went to school with him and played together, so I became a hair boy.

Later, I dropped out of school early, and I was forced by my family to continue studying. Years later, when I started a small business, I became a bastard.

How's it going?

This is the common opening sentence after not seeing each other again for many years, and it is also the most irritating sentence.

I spread my hands and laughed, saying that this is not alive.

Fa Xiao stretched out his hand and pointed at me, shook his head and said let's go, find a place to drink.

I don't talk much, but I've talked less and less over the years, because I don't feel the need to open my mouth to speak.

If you think about many things before you say them, you will find that there is nothing if you don't say them, and many things are thought about before you do them, and you don't have to do them, and you will eventually succeed in becoming a member of the otaku.

Fa Xiao has been working hard for many years, and his mouth is so slippery.

He said that I know you, others pretend to force you to pretend to be dead, live in your own world and don't want to see people, and leave all your problems behind.

Playing dead won't solve anything, the problem is still there and hasn't gone away, and it will eventually become a cage that shackles you and traps you. He said I wasn't quite a mess when I was a kid, well, I know it myself. Do you know how I got to be where I am now? After my dad died, it felt like I had grown up all of a sudden, and that's what it was, but that's what happened. Because I have to support myself and my mother, I have to flutter hard. Do you know what one of my favorite sentences is? Men should be cruel to themselves! In these years, if you are not ruthless enough to yourself, it is not uncommon for you to become a beggar for food......

Fa Xiao is like a philosopher, balabala, a whole bunch.

In the face of such a small hair, in addition to retaining the last reserve, I can only extend my thumbs up.

Fa Xiao pretended to be forced to smile indifferently, and said that I am qualified to pretend to force you to believe it or not in front of you? Don't shake your head, what I said is true.

Who doesn't live by pretending, some people pretend to be forced with alcohol, some people pretend to be forced with cars, some people pretend to be forced with their wives, and some people pretend to be forced with conversation and knowledge. Everyone is pretending, life is like a play, how can you perform on stage if you don't pretend? Do you feel that others are pretending to be forced, just because your forcing is not as good as others, and the realm is ...... Yes, it is the realm, and the realm of pretending to be forced is not as good as others.

Fa Xiao lit a cigarette, pointed at me and said, you haven't grown up yet, you haven't grown up, you know?

I scoffed, my heart pounding.

My stomach is full of bitter water, but I am like a mirror, knowing that this guy has pretended to succeed today and made me a fool.

Looking at the small face through the smoke, life is written on the left and philosophy is written on the right.

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I drank very little, so I quickly rode the clouds.

I just remember to ask at the end, how many things have you done over the years, and how many things have you done?

I said, does quitting smoking count?

Fa Xiao was very surprised, as if he didn't believe that there were smoking slaves who could successfully quit.

I said that I hadn't smoked for two months, and I waved my hand, saying that it didn't count if I hadn't smoked for two months, and if you didn't smoke for two years, you couldn't smoke it for two years.

Well, I put on a half-finished force.

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I'm not me.

After I woke up, this sentence suddenly popped into my head.

There are all ways to preach the Tao in life, and the way of pretending to be forced to be small has succeeded, and the way of pretending to be dead has failed.

Retreating in distress is playing dead, and giving up halfway is also playing dead.

I'm not me, and I'm not what I want to be. The ideal I am Sun Monkey, wise and martial, unruly, and smashing the sky. In reality, I am a bear who breaks corn, always throwing away the corn in my hand and going to a distant place to find better corn.

People are pretending to be dead, and death is not far away.

What have you done all these years, I asked Fa Xiao.

Hair, what else can be done, just do it. Don't say if you do it well, you can do it when it's done, and you will have a harvest when you finish it, isn't your family also farming?

I reached out and covered my face.

Fa Xiao didn't know, he pretended to be a force in front of me again.

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- Mid-Autumn Festival after drinking, night, light rain.