"I faintly sensed that the inner house of Prince Cheng's mansion began to have cracks that were difficult for outsiders to detect, and the balance on the surface of the inner house was broken.

"Concubine Liu wants me to return to the sect, because none of the sisters-in-law and concubines and Qi Ziyu can accept marriage with the Tuoba people, and if they want to avoid sacrificing Qi Weifeng, they can only let me have the surname Qi.

"But this matter has little to do with Princess Cheng, the prince and Qi Ziyu are engaged, and no one dares to fight this idea.

In the absence of shaking her roots, she didn't want multiple people to get in her way.

"She also doesn't want me, a concubine who came out of the sky, to be able to share a piece of the royal property, to be able to sit on an equal footing with her children, and to have the qualifications to open another mansion in the future.

But the other concubine Hu is not an idle person, she also vaguely saw her own situation from the predicament faced by Concubine Liu, so she joined forces with Concubine Liu openly and secretly, and Princess Cheng was helpless against them for a while.

"Then my aunt died. ”

At this point he paused, and looked a little darkly ahead.

Shen Xi couldn't feel what he was thinking, a person who had gone through decades of ups and downs really had something outstanding in terms of joy and anger.

"Later, I was left to survive in the palace alone.

The cause of her aunt's death was not widely publicized, but Princess Cheng compromised because of this.

"Sometimes I see that the people of the palace often camp for a few dollars, and I envy them very much, because I am not short of money.

"My grandfather's family is honest, and my aunt is also a serious rich lady.

"It's just that having money doesn't mean having status.

"I think it's easy and happy to be able to buy with money.

"But I have money, but I can't buy what I want. ”

There was silence in the room.

Shen Xi glanced at Xiao Huai Huo Jiu, Xiao Huai motioned for her to continue, and Huo Jue secretly signaled to the guards for something.

She nodded slightly, and then said, "How did you live in the palace later? Why didn't I hear anything about you in the past few years? Where have you been?"

"How I'm doing in the palace, even if you haven't seen it with your own eyes, you should be able to guess it. Otherwise, there wouldn't be this picture of the three friends of the year, would it?"

After just a moment's work, Bi Shangyun already looked as usual.

"Do you know why I said I couldn't tell you how I was feeling?"

Shen Xi didn't say anything, but he vaguely noticed something.

"Because even I understood it after a long time," he said.

"The most disgusting thing about you so-called Helian nobles is that kind of ubiquitous domineering.

"Look at you, even if you are no longer Miss Zhang's family, this style, this posture, seems to have been engraved in your bones.

"Your Zhang family has had several ups and downs for hundreds of years, and when it comes to Zhang Jie, it has become a momentary limelight, so that the royal family has to tie up with you.

"At that time, Princess Cheng, who seemed majestic to me as the queen mother, and Qi Ziyu who was arrogant in the palace, they were all currying favor with you without a trace, and your appearance is hard for me not to be curious. ”

Shen Xi frowned.

In the past, the Zhang family was in power, and his grandfather was in the world, and the Zhang family did have a tendency to respond to every call.

Although Prince Cheng's Mansion is a clan relative, after all, he is only in charge of a Zongren Mansion, and he is already separated from Emperor Yongding, in front of the Zhang family, where can they really hold up the shelf of the princess and the county lord?

She didn't think about these truths at the time, but as she got older, the stakes gradually became clear.

The painting that Princess Cheng made when she was young, didn't it mean to curry favor with Xiao?

What he said is not an exaggeration.

"And after that?" she said.

"I see you often, but you may not see me. Bi Shangyun said, "At first, I just wanted to see who you were.

"Later, when I found out that you were so noble that I looked up to you, I began to have a psychology that even I couldn't explain.

"-I hate you very much, but I hate anyone who bleeds the pure blood of the Helian people like Concubine Liu.

"The world says you are beautiful, that you are a real noblewoman, but I want to tear apart your face that has never concealed its joy and anger and never revealed the dark side of your heart.

"How can there be any truly pure hearted people in the world, and how can anyone really want to help the weak?

"Everyone should be evil, it's just that some people pretend to be good, and some people pretend to be not at home.

"And what's funny is that you brought back a Wen Chan, obviously just to add light to your face, but you were praised like a holy ice jade.

"But I know that I hate you, and I know that your presence reminds me of my identity to a greater extent, and I pay more and more attention to you—

"It's not admiration, it's impossible to be a child, I'm just stimulating myself through you, I'm still far from being truly free and honorable.

"Your lofty sky, your moon holding the moon, your freewheeling and whatever you want, it seems to have become a benchmark for me to move forward, it always reminds me how hard I have to work, what I have to do to be able to live like you.

"There is no doubt that what you have has is more than the impact that those county lords, county kings and princes in the palace have brought me.

"Because all they have is wealth, and you have the dignity of a person with great ability.

"I vaguely know in you what I want, a desire for ultimate power above all others.

"I'm beginning to understand that the only thing that really governs the balance of this world is power!"

Speaking of this, his eyes gradually had a dazzling light, and even a little excited.

He looked at Shen Xi and them in a good mood: "Can you understand the feeling of dancing on the tip of this knife?"

"On the one hand, my heart was stabbed and bruised by reality, but on the other hand, I had a secret happiness, because I found the key point to change my fate. ”

Shen Xi and the others were all silent.

He stood up, said in front of Xiao Huai, looked at him and said, "No one will not succumb to power, not only me, but also Xiao Fang, your father, too."

"Even Li Ingot is nothing special. - Even if it's you, Zhang Ying, you are. If you hadn't had the power to possess you, you wouldn't be alive now, and you wouldn't have been able to come to me tonight. ”

Shen Xi was stunned and smiled: "You're right. Power matters. But power doesn't mean killing is right. ”

"No, no," he held out his finger and shook it, "with power, everything you do will be right."

"When you live to my age, you will know what is right and wrong, but it depends on how many people you can conquer. ”

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