She remembered how Hua Hua lay in her arms and never woke up. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 ｉｎｆｏ

Jin Wei didn't know what Hua Hua was thinking at the moment of jumping, perhaps, dying for Chen Yufeng was what she wanted, it was her love.

Jin Wei has been asking herself a question all these years, if she had known earlier that Huahua liked Chen Yufeng, would she not have died?

However, after asking for so many years, she still has no answer in her heart.

Why a person commits suicide is something that another person can never understand.

She didn't know what Su Lingrui would do, maybe Su Lingrui knew that fools liked her, so Su Lingrui wouldn't have too much hope like Huahua. Besides, the fool is not Chen Zhenfeng, he will not do such an excessive thing!

But Jin Wei didn't dare to be so optimistic, after all, God would never be merciful. It likes to watch human suffering, and the more human beings suffer, the happier it becomes.

No matter how sensible you are, who would want to be with someone you like, right?

What she didn't handle eight years ago, this time, she couldn't find a way to do it either.

She didn't know how to persuade Su Lingrui, don't love the person who doesn't love you, there will be no result between you.

Maybe Su Lingrui will believe it, after all, she has loved Wu Chao for so many years, and in the end it ended miserably. With the lessons of the past in front of her, maybe she will be a little more sensible.

But how did she persuade herself to stop loving the person who would never fall in love with her?

Jin Wei returned to the room, took out his suitcase from the cabinet, took a few changes of clothes and put them in. Seeing the pink cotton suit that Wu Ran had once held, Jin Wei was stunned for a moment, and finally left it in the cabinet.

Finally she put the computer in the box and closed the zipper.

When he was about to leave, Jin Wei finally reluctantly glanced at the photos on the wall.

May he fall in love with someone who also loves him in this life.

In order not to let anyone enter this room during his absence, Jin Wei found the key to his room from the drawer of Wang Shi's room, and then locked the door.

At this time, the lights were still on in the living room, and there was a sound of running water in the bathroom, and Jin Wei guessed that it should be a fool taking a bath. So taking advantage of the sound of the water, he stood on tiptoe, tried not to let the box touch the ground, and successfully put the gift that Mai Miao gave him on the table in the living room, and then walked to the door.

She was afraid that Liu Sour would suddenly come out of the bathroom, so she didn't dare to leave the gift at his door.

Jin Wei changed into snow boots that were placed at the door, but she didn't notice that they were put together with the garbage bag at the door.

I waited until the sound of water sounded again, then I gently opened the door, and then tiptoed out and closed the door softly.

The moment he walked out of the door of the building, a gust of cold wind came to his face, Jin Wei subconsciously dodged back, and the next second he began to walk forward strongly.

The night had just begun, and she had to get used to the cold.

After walking a distance, Jin Wei didn't feel stunned, after all, no matter how cold it was in winter, it was not as cold as her heart was now.

As she walked, an electric car stopped next to her, the window rolled down, it was a middle-aged man wearing a community security uniform, Jin Wei had seen him, he was the security guard who was unwilling to disclose the information of the residents of this community to Jin Wei.

"Little girl, where are you going so late?"

"Go to the airport, go home. ”

Jin Wei said, looking at his suitcase.

"It's still some distance from the door, I'll send you to the door!"

Jin Wei glanced at her suitcase again, and saw that the security guard didn't look like he was lying to her, so he nodded.

The security guard helped her put the suitcase in the back of the car, while Jin Wei sat in the co-pilot's seat.

On the way, the security guard asked Jin Wei, "Why are you going home so late?" and I don't want to find someone to send you off, how dangerous it is at night." ”

The security guard's question made Jin Wei even more sad in his heart.

"No one cares if I'm dead or alive anyway. ”

"Yo, I'm still tired of the world!"

"It's not misanthropy, it's seeing the nature of the world, we all come to this world alone, and we will eventually die alone. ”

The security guard smiled, "But we can all bury ourselves with our other half after we die." ”

Jin Wei turned his head to stare at the security guard, he seemed to be much friendlier than the previous time.

"Why did you suddenly comfort me? Last time you were very ruthless and refused to tell me which celebrities live here!"

The security guard continued to look at the car, with a faint smile on the corner of his mouth.

"It's my job job not to reveal the owner's information, just like I would drop you off at the door of the complex. I don't care what the people who live here look like on the outside, but as long as they're in the neighborhood where I work, I'm going to do my duty to them. ”

"Just as we love someone, it is our duty to make him happy. ”

The security guard smiled and nodded, "Yes." ”

At this moment, Jin Wei felt that he understood the reason why Wu Chao did this, he just loved Tang Huan too much, so he would do something to hurt her.

Maybe he didn't think it was a hurt to her, because he only knew that he had to make Tang Huan happy, and for that, everything was right.

Jin Wei took out his mobile phone and sent a text message to Wu Chao: Do you know why I told you the story of the old monk and the little monk? Because that story can never be finished, so I can tell you for a lifetime, two lifetimes, and forever. But, how good, you didn't like me. Thank you also for telling me all this, thank you.

When he arrived at the gate of the community, Jin Wei said thank you to the security guard, and then pulled his suitcase and walked to the road.

At this time, it is already past ten o'clock at night, and the streets of the waterfront are still full of neon lights, and countless flashing lights seem to release some kind of magic, which can attract countless strangers to love the city.

That's how Jin Wei was attracted.

For so many years, Jin Wei has always felt that this city carries all her feelings and dreams, he came here for Wu Chao, stayed here for him, ran again and again, fell, got up again, and finally was bruised.

And now, she suddenly found that the dream she was making was nothing at all in front of Wu Chao, and he would never know, and even if he did, he would never care.

So she no longer dared to say to herself that the city carried her dreams, that her feelings were worthless to the city, that it had just made a gorgeous coat for herself with her feelings. It makes you feel that it is becoming more and more beautiful because of your feelings, and makes you feel that you are doing something amazing.

It does this just to give you more feelings to confide in, so that it becomes more and more attractive.

But you are just like countless people in this city, you are the sewing worker of this city, you are desperate, you squeeze your scalp, day and night, just so that you can sew and mend your feelings that you feel precious to this city, and then be full of pride, look, this city carries all my dreams.

And your feelings and dreams are the gimmicks that the city uses to attract more people who have feelings and more stories than you.

It advertises itself as a city that can hold everyone's feelings, and you are the witness. Then you'll see more people just like you, flocking to it. They are starting to continue to dedicate their youth to the city just like you, and at the same time, they are also waving their flags and shouting to attract more people to come.

Look, you're being used by the city like this, and you don't know it.

When one day you are no longer young, you will find that everything you have done is so small, and the feelings and dreams that you are proud of are covered by the feelings of those who are attracted to you.

You may see your tattered memories and feelings in the city's garbage factory. Because with more and more new feelings and new memories, yours is no longer of any use for the city.

Only then will you know that this city is changing its gorgeous coat every day, and the one that belongs to you has long been too lazy to even look at beggars, so it can only be thrown dirty in the garbage dump.

This is a disease that most people living in this city will get from, and Jin Wei is no exception.

And she is terminally ill, and she has become obsessed with thinking that all her feelings and dreams are more dazzling because of this city. She thought that if I left here, she would no longer have those feelings and dreams, and she would no longer be herself.

She lost the person she had loved for so many years.

But it was all just her self-righteousness, she had lost him a long time ago, or, she never had.

He was high above, far away in the clouds, and even if she kept flying up, she was always humbled in the dust.

She knew that the man was just like the city, but it was all a gimmick in fancy clothes.

Maybe he will belong to someone else in the future, but that person will definitely not be her.

Now, all of a sudden, the magic didn't work for her. She walked the brightly lit streets with her suitcase, and she had never wanted to escape from it more than she did now.

Those feelings she is proud of, and the people she can't live without.

At this moment, it was just the flickering lights behind her, which could no longer attract her attention. (To be continued.) )