Kong Sisi and Cheng Donghao left Jintai Restaurant, went to purchase, and went home at noon, Kong Sisi made it according to Cheng Donghao's recipe, secretly put purified Chinese medicine, and added it to Kong Liangyi's recommended dose. After the two of them had eaten, Cheng Donghao cleaned up the dishes, and Kong Sisi squeezed the hawthorn juice. Cheng Donghao finished brushing the bowl and sat on the sofa in the living room. Kong Sisi served the juice, Cheng Donghao took a sip, and lowered his head to flip through the fashion magazine. Kong Sisi sat next to him, while he looked down to read the magazine, observed for a long time, neat short hair, clear forehead, two black eyebrows, shapely facial features, pale ruddy red lips, broad and powerful arms, black long-sleeved T-shirt rolled up the sleeves, he was more stylish and calm. Kong Sisi looked at his crotch and seemed to .......

Cheng Donghao finished flipping through the magazine and stood up, Kong Sisi hurriedly picked up the juice and took a sip. Cheng Donghao said: "I'll go sleep for a while." Kong Sisi said, "I'll go too." As soon as he jumped over, hugged Cheng Donghao, and crawled on top of him, Cheng Donghao tore down Kong Sisi and said, "Don't do this." Kong Sisi said angrily: "Don't do anything, you are my husband, my man, mine, I can do whatever I want." Cheng Donghao didn't speak, and walked upstairs with his eyelids drooping. Kong Sisi shouted behind his back: "Donghao, your illness has been cured, right?"

Cheng Donghao didn't stop and went upstairs. Kong Sisi ran over, hugged him from behind, and said, "I'm sorry, we've been married for almost two years, I want a child, I'm so lonely like this, can you give me a child?" Cheng Donghao said: "No, I can't." Kong Sisi said, "I know you can." Cheng Donghao broke away her grip and said, "I'm tired and want to sleep for a while." Kong Sisi said: "Is it good to do IVF?" Cheng Donghao said: "In a few years." ”

Cheng Donghao went upstairs, Kong Sisi stared at his ass and stared at him upstairs. After many years of healthy life, his body shape is flawless, lean meat, and there is no excess fat at all. If there is not even the slightest sign of impotence, how can it be impotent? Or will it not be cured for six years? After taking medicine for almost a year, the elixir in his brother Kong Liangyi's mouth has no effect on him at all? Is it really a small amount of medicine?

At dinner, Kong Sisi made up his mind and put one and a half times the standard dose into the porridge. Cheng Donghao drank calmly, after dinner, the two of them drank juice, Kong Sisi said, "Let's go to the city that never sleeps." Cheng Donghao said: "It's too noisy." Kong Sisi said, "Go to the movies." Cheng Donghao said: "There are no good movies now. Kong Sisi said: "What about taking a walk?" Cheng Donghao said: "I've been playing ball for a day, what are the steps?" Kong Sisi said: "It's not interesting to stay like this." Cheng Donghao said: "I'll go and see if there is any email from me." Kong Sisi said: "The company's mechanism, you just take a vacation for half a year, and it still runs properly." Cheng Donghao said: "Then I am dispensable?" Kong Sisi said: "You are just a spiritual leader." Cheng Donghao said: "Then I'm going to play." "Stand up and go. Kong Sisi hurriedly ran over and hugged him and said, "Don't go, talk to me." ”

Cheng Donghao sat down and said, "What are you talking about? You are so smart, I think I don't say anything, you know everything." Kong Sisi said: "How is it possible?" Cheng Donghao said: "For example?" Kong Sisi said: "What do you think of me?" Cheng Donghao said: "Smart and capable, a leader at home and abroad, can enter the kitchen, go down to the hall, and do charity, is also beautiful, also has taste, can do things, is sensible, temperamental, empathetic, in short, has many advantages, it can be said that she is a standard celebrity, impeccable." Kong Sisi said: "It's still very rich. ”

Cheng Donghao said: "Yes, this is actually your biggest advantage. Kong Sisi said: "Is this an advantage or a capital?" Cheng Donghao said: "It is both an advantage and a capital." For example, Buddhism says that only those who are blessed will have money, so why should they be blessed? Since it is cultivated, it is because all good qualities and good deeds are piled up. There are four kinds of capital that tends to Bodhi: the first merit is the merit of cultivating all merits from the past life. and abundant treasures in this life. Encounter good knowledge. Away from obstacles. Able to practice diligently. It's a blessing for the people. 2. The wisdom of the food refers to the practice of wisdom from the past life. And in this life he is wise and sensitive. Explained the meaning of the law. It is a treasure of wisdom. The three ancestors are said to accumulate good roots from the old world. And in this life all the roots are complete. The family is wealthy. It is the food of the ancestors. Fourth, the present Dharma is said to have a good Dharma in this world. Good roots are ripe. Precepts. It is a modern legal resource. So. ”

Kong Sisi said: "Are you like this too?" Cheng Donghao said: "I don't have that blessing." Kong Sisi said, "You are also very rich." Cheng Donghao said: "I am a poor ghost in my bones, because I have an infinite desire for money, and I will not enjoy its convenience, let alone use, nor can I get the happiness it brings, I am a slave of money." And there is a strong pathological insecurity in my psyche, which is probably the root cause of my physical failure. I only feel the pressure of life, the coldness of the environment, the battle of life and death, and the dark and sinister conspiracy, how can such a life be said to be blessed?" Kong Sisi walked to Cheng Donghao's side emotionally, sat down, held his hand, and said: "You have me, I will always support you, everything I have is everything to you." Cheng Donghao said: "No one can support the happiness of others, everyone is self-sufficient, even if you love me, you can't save me, just like you can't eat for me, you eat and eat for yourself." ”

Kong Sisi looked at Cheng Donghao's sad and dark eyes, Cheng Donghao avoided it, pulled away his hand, picked up the cup, took a sip of juice, and said, "I thought you knew that I was such a person." Kong Sisi said: "I don't know, in my eyes, you have always been a real aristocratic son." The most noble palace in the world is not worthy of your splendour, you are the star lord who lives in the temple. Cheng Donghao said: "You love me too much, I can't bear it." I'm just a human being, and I'm a psychologically fragile coward, as evidenced by my illness. It makes me ashamed to face reality, to face the world, to face women. Kong Sisi looked at Cheng Donghao, and suddenly had a strong uncertainty about Cheng Donghao in his heart, although he had never been sure, but at this moment, he added a new word.

Kong Sisi said: "People from families like ours are very beautiful in the eyes of others, but only we know how much pressure there is, but we must be strong, how much blessing we have, how much we must bear." Don't care too much, try to live your life, go with the flow, and do your best. Be happy no matter what. Cheng Donghao said gloomily: "Yes." Kong Sisi said: "I know that this can not be done by talking, but to have this positive attitude and goal, don't think too much, life is originally a process, only ask about hard work and not about the harvest, but there will be a harvest; Cheng Donghao said: "Yes." ”

Kong Sisi kissed Cheng Donghao and said, "Do you miss me?" Cheng Donghao said, "I can't." Kong Sisi said: "How do you know if you don't try?" Cheng Donghao said: "I know my illness." Kong Sisi said: "What about taking some medicine?" Cheng Donghao said: "Viagra?" Kong Sisi said: "That definitely won't work, it will work for a while, and it will hurt the body if you take it for a long time, I mean Chinese medicine." Cheng Donghao said: "It's a three-point poison, don't eat it." I don't think it's very important to do this now, if you want to have a child, just do IVF, and talk about it in a few years. Kong Sisi said, "Have you exterminated humanity?"

Cheng Donghao said: "If my body really needs it, I have taken all kinds of medicine a long time ago, but my physiology and psychology do not have this requirement, so I am slack, and I don't want to do superfluous things because of this." Kong Sisi said incredulously: "How can it be redundant? Won't it be uncomfortable?" Cheng Donghao said: "No, and I don't want to trouble others if I can solve the problem myself." Kong Sisi said: "Do you have me, don't you want to be embraced, loved, cared for, kissed, and lingering?" Cheng Donghao said: "I don't know if it's the cause of the disease, I gradually feel meaningless to these things, and I don't have the heart to pursue them." ”

Kong Sisi said: "You don't need to pursue it, I am by your side, and I can give you everything a woman can give you." Cheng Donghao said: "I sometimes feel that ** is very dirty and troublesome. Kong Sisi said: "The fundamental happiness of all species in the world is to have food and companionship, which is the fundamental characteristic, nature and needs of all living creatures. Man is the spirit of all things, and the range of choices is much larger, but it cannot be against the will of heaven. Don't be too willful, you're dangerous. I haven't heard anyone say: do things according to the will of heaven and be a man against personality. Don't be too willful, I love you, I love you very much, I won't hurt you, do anything detrimental to you, trust me, hold my hand, I will lead you to happiness. Kong Sisi pulled Cheng Donghao's hand, held it in his hand, and said, "Trust me, I am your happiness, your future, and your destination." Accompany you to old age, never give up. Cheng Donghao said: "I will not leave you, if you leave me one day, you should also leave." Kong Sisi said, "Remember what you said." Cheng Donghao nodded.

Kong Sisi said: "I suddenly wanted to see the starry sky. Cheng Donghao said, "Then go." The two men went out to the back garden, crossed the bridge over the canal, and went up to the dirt slope used to climb up, and in the evening, the earth slope was full of flowers and shrubs. Two people hand in hand, climbed to the top of the slope, the horizon is very broad, because it is a suburb, there are few artificial light sources, the starry sky above the head is very clear and dense, Yinhe Beidou can see very clearly. There is a stone table and a stone bench on the top of the slope, and two people sit down and silently look up at the starry sky.