cpa300_4();“ What I say to you is true, and if you don't believe it—if you don't believe it, I'll keep telling you until the day you believe it. ”

After saying that, he turned and walked away.

I stood at the door, feeling that when he turned to leave, there was a gust of wind, and there was a smell of blood on his body in the wind, which was obviously a very light gust of wind, but it was like a hurricane that swept the earth, so that I tried my best to resist, and when the gust of wind blew, I suddenly collapsed, slipped down with my back against the door frame, and sat on my knees.

"Mother!"

Miao Yan was frightened, jumped out of bed all of a sudden, ran to me and hugged me: "Mother, what's wrong with you? Are you sick? Mother, don't scare Miao Yan!"

I looked down at her, and she was still a little panicked, but she comforted her first: "Don't be afraid, my mother is fine." ”

Although I said this, but the pale face and the cold sweat on my head could not even deceive myself, Miao Yan held my face, carefully wiped my sweat with his sleeve, and said: "Is my mother uncomfortable? Is my mother also sick? Mother must not be like that mother, sick!"

At this time, I couldn't help but laugh a little.

No matter how bleak the future is, or how many bumpy obstacles the road faces, but my daughter is in her arms, she comforts me, which makes me feel more powerful than anything else, and my smile gradually becomes clearer: "Don't be afraid, my mother will not be like that mother." ”

“……”

"My mother knows very well what she is doing, and she knows what she is in her heart. ”

“……”

"My mother was wrong once, she was wrong for the second time, how could she be wrong for the third time?"

“……”

Miao Yan didn't understand my words, but, maybe I was "sick" This may have frightened her, she kept holding my waist, feeling her hands trembling, I slowly lowered my head, only to find that this girl didn't even wear shoes, ran down barefoot, and hurriedly took her back to the bed, Miao Yan was still frightened, holding my neck with both hands and refusing to let go: "Is my mother really not sick?"

"Don't worry, my mother doesn't. Mother is very good. ”

"So, Daddy? He's just bleeding. ”

"Well, he's a little injured. ”

"Why did Dad get hurt?"

"He, he's not careful. ”

“……”

Miao Yan quieted down, I thought she was comforted by me, and sat on the edge of the bed a little out of strength, but she raised her head to look at me again, and whispered: "Mother, did you and your father quarrel?"

I shook my head, "No." ”

"Then," she looked at me more cautiously, "why did Daddy break that cup?"

“……”

My heart sank suddenly, and I suddenly realized what was enough, and looked down at Miaoyan: "You, you just now, are you awake?"

Her face was full of confusion, and after a long while, she nodded slightly.

For a while, I was a little at a loss.

I didn't expect that Miao Yan had woken up, but he had been pretending to be asleep in bed, Pei Yuanhao and I, no matter how much discord there was openly and secretly, but in front of the child, I always showed a harmonious appearance, but I didn't expect that it would be noticed by the child at such an inadvertent time.

I grabbed her little arm a little nervously: "You, what else do you see?"

Miao Yan looked at me in horror: "I only saw my father hugging my mother and talking to my mother." He said, he said, he always thought he couldn't be wrong, but, it turned out that he was also wrong, in fact, he had long been in his heart-"

"Alright. ”

I said a little coldly: "Don't talk about this." ”

“……”

Miao Yan has never seen me like this, her expression became more and more panicked, and after a long time, she said softly: "Mother, mother used to say that my father left my mother and Miao Yan because he wanted to give happiness to others, but--I just heard that my father said that he wanted to give his mother happiness." ”

“……”

"Mother......" She carefully held my sleeve, tugged at it, and then raised her eyes to look at me: "You and Dad, is there any misunderstanding?"

“……”

I didn't have the heart, I didn't even have the strength to speak, I was silent for a long time, I looked down at her: "Miaoyan, since you have woken up, why don't you sue your father, but pretend to be asleep? Later, you still pretended to be like you just woke up and lied to us, why did you do this?"

She was a little timid, her neck was retracted, and she said, "I, I'm afraid to disturb you." ”

“……”

"I hope my father and mother can be together. ”

“……”

I sat there a little stiffly, looked at her for a long time, for some reason, even my breathing was a little cold, and finally slowly moved, moved again, and then stood up.

Miaoyan immediately took a step in front of me in a panic, holding my sleeve: "Mother, is my mother angry with Miaoyan?"

“……”

I looked at her black and white, spotlessly clear eyes, speechless.

I know that my daughter is gentle and kind, I know that she is smart and clever, but I know so much, and I don't know that she will pretend to be asleep, and she will pretend to wake up when she finds out that I have an argument with Pei Yuanhao, and face us with a face that is not innocent.

It turns out that I don't know all this about my daughter.

Yet, even so, she looked at me with her big clear eyes wide open, like a frightened, overwhelmed little animal.

At this moment, I don't know what kind of mood I have, I just feel very dazed, and even my child, who is ten months pregnant, and the little life condensed from my blood and bones, has suddenly become so strange - she is so innocent and lovely, but what is the beginning, and she will actually wear a mask?

Watching me slowly leave the bed, Miao Yan hugged my waist in a hurry: "Mother, mother, don't be angry with Miao Yan, Miao Yan will never dare again!"

I couldn't move, I lowered my head, looked at her helpless appearance, and my heart was sour.

What's wrong with her?

Actually, I have never asked her, she has been wandering like this all these years, either there is no mother by her side, or there is no father by her side, and it is always difficult to get the satisfaction of a family reunion, and now, finally Pei Yuanhao and I are by her side, but it is not suitable for God and separated, she has long known that her biological father is going to give others happiness, how uneasy her heart is, and how much unspeakable pain she has, I really never asked.

Now, when she heard her father say that to her mother, perhaps no one would want to end up in vain.

I was silent for a long time, stretched out my hand and gently stroked her hair: "Wonderful words, it's okay, my mother is not angry." ”

She looked up and looked at me with a pair of big eyes that looked at me a little helplessly.

"Mother is really not angry. ”

“……”

"Mother is just...... I don't have the strength anymore. ”

Saying this, I held her tightly in my arms, and several times I tried to struggle to raise my head to look at my face, but I didn't let me move.

Still, she didn't see her mother's helpless appearance, and I could only save it in a place where others couldn't see it.

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After that day, the palace was really lively for a while.

Hearing Chang Qing say that a few imperial doctors came out of Yuhua Palace, he didn't even take a breath, and he was summoned to Pei Yuanhao's bedroom to show him the injury on his hand, and I knew that he was really injured not lightly.

"It's all bone-on-the-brow. ”

Chang Qing said.

I sat next to me, took the tea that Kou'er served, and before I could send it to my mouth, Chang Qing looked at me: "Do you know, who hurt the emperor?"

I looked up and saw that she was also holding a cup of hot tea in her hand, and in the smoke, her eyes were gentle, and there was a little indescribable deep meaning.

This is naturally a vain question.

Pei Yuanhao went out of my house with blood dripping that day, how could this matter be hidden.

I was silent for a moment and said, "It's himself." ”

Chang Qing looked at me, didn't speak, lowered his head and took a sip of tea, and after a while, he said slowly: "In this harem, there are many people who make bitter meat schemes, but who does the emperor want to make him feel distressed?"

This sentence was like a needle, and it made me shudder.

I looked up at her, and she was also looking at me, but she sighed softly, and then said: "You don't have to be suspicious of the old tunes of this palace, what you think in your heart, of course this palace understands - after this time, it will be even more clear." ”

“……”

"It's just, you've been through so much, don't you still understand a word?"

“……”

"Stronger than people. ”

My eyebrows furrowed, I looked at her silently, and she said softly: "The emperor has planned to give you the position of this palace, you should know very well what it means, even now, this matter can't be done, but how he treats you, isn't it a matter that everyone knows?"

Because everyone knows it, do I have to respond?

It seemed that I heard that sentence from my cold eyes, and Chang Qing's voice was softer, as if to comfort me: "This palace doesn't want you to do anything, this palace just hopes that you can be smart and don't let yourself be hurt anymore." ”

“……”

"The emperor is now hurting himself for you, and he is quiet, no matter what his purpose is in doing this, whether it is true or not, he has done it after all, you must give him a step down!"

I was silent for a moment: "Give him the stairs down?"

Chang Qing said: "In the past two days, the people in the palace have gone to the emperor one by one to see it, and a lot of soup and water have been sent, but you are the only one, the emperor came out of your house injured, you didn't say a word, and you didn't go to see it." Even now, everyone in the palace knows how the emperor treats you, and there is no movement on the side of the concubine, but after all, he is the emperor, he wants someone to hold him, and you always trample his face under your feet - one day, I am afraid that he will not be able to bear it. ”

“……”

"Don't you understand?"

“……”

I just felt a bitter chill and shivered violently.

Of course I understand, I couldn't understand it better.

Back then, before I left the palace, he was also so kind and pleasant, promising me that I would make my dream come true, and I really believed his words.

However, on the day I left the palace, he tore his mask.

All the tenderness, the pleasant face, are fake, he used that mask to make me believe in him, believe that he will give me a fairness, believe that he will make my good dreams come true, but at the last moment, he rudely broke that fairness, also tore my good dreams apart, and then, threw me into the cold palace.

It was the heaviest pain in my life, and even now, it can't be completely healed, Chang Qing just mentioned it lightly, and the dusty days in the past have become vivid, and the pain of being torn in my heart has also swarmed in.

All of a sudden, my face turned pale as paper.

I gritted my teeth, "But, I—"

"This palace knows," Chang Qing interrupted me and said: "You are different now than before, you are the eldest lady of the Yan family, the emperor has many things, and he also needs to rely on you, relying on the Yan family, he can't treat you like he did back then." ”

“……”

"But, this palace is still the same sentence, he is the emperor after all. ”

“……”

"Light, if you don't want to be his woman, then let go of this identity and think about it, an emperor whispers to you, and you ignore it, are you really not worried, in the future, do you want to return it to him tenfold and hundredfold?"

This last sentence made me wake up suddenly.

Yes, no matter what happens now, I can get through it, but what about the future?

In my future, I definitely don't want to entangle with him anymore, but if I really let him fall into such a situation now, with his temperament that will be reciprocated, Chang Qing's words may not come true.

A cold sweat broke out from my forehead.

Seeing me like this, Chang Qing sighed lightly, and then said, "I have already asked someone to pass the word, saying that you will send a decoction to the emperor in the afternoon." ”

I was stunned, and looked up at her: "Niangniang......"

"Obedient. ”

She coaxed me like a child: "If you think it's not good to be alone, take the princess, and if you have a child, the emperor's mood will definitely be good." ”

“……”

"Obedient. ”

I struggled in my heart, but no matter how I struggled, Kou'er had already sent the freshly fried decoction and held it in front of me, I looked at the steaming bowl of potion, and saw that Chang Qing was already very tired, but he was still fighting hard to do a qiē for me, after all, he couldn't refuse, so he could only get up: "Yes." ”

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Leaving Jingren Palace with wonderful words, Chang Qing had already asked people to inquire, Pei Yuanhao was still in the imperial study, so we went straight over.

The road is also unimpeded, but as soon as I walked outside the imperial study, I heard a sound of dispute in front of me, I subconsciously stopped, and listened carefully, it turned out to be Ruizhu and Xiaofuzi.

"Father-in-law Fu, did you say that Niang Niang asked me to come over!"

"Miss Ruizhu, when has our family ever coaxed a girl?"

"Then why doesn't the emperor want to see me?"

"It's all said, the emperor is busy. ”

"But our...... Our mother woke up when she was seriously ill and wanted to see the emperor!"

"Miss Ruizhu, why are you so ignorant, how many people in the harem want to see the emperor, but when the emperor is in the imperial study, can everyone come to see him?"

“……”

"The emperor has already said that he will go to see the concubine Niangniang later, but now, the emperor is still approving the folds, you, don't bother. Let's go back. ”

I frowned slightly, and stood outside for a while with a little convulsion, and after a while, I heard Rui Zhu stomp her foot hard, and walked outside, and as soon as she went out, she just bumped into me.

Immediately, her originally anxious and unwilling eyes became frivolous.

"Miss Yan. ”

"Miss Ruizhu. ”

I just called out as usual, but I didn't plan to say anything more to her, but I held the button of the medicine bowl behind me, and immediately said in a sharp voice: "Do you have long eyes? Her Royal Highness the princess is here, you can't see it?!"

Rui Zhu was stunned for a moment, and looked down at the wonderful words beside me.

If I say that my identity in the palace is indeed more special, all the people who see me can meet each other with courtesy, or they can turn a blind eye, and they are all determined by their own identities, but the wonderful words are different, she is the daughter of Pei Yuanhao who has recognized her ancestors and returned to her ancestors, and everyone in the palace wants to see the princess.

Sure enough, her face froze for a moment, but she still reluctantly knelt down to bow to the wonderful words.

"Meet Her Highness the Princess. ”

Miao Yan held my sleeve, a little ignorant, but after seeing so many people returning to the palace saluting her father, she was also a little impressed, and waved her hand: "You get up." ”

Only then did Rui Zhu stand up.

She looked at us again, and then saw the medicine bowl on the tray held by Kou'er in her hand, with a little sneer: "Miss Yan really cares about the emperor, and she has sent all the medicines to the imperial study." ”

“……”

"It's just that the emperor may not be willing to drink your medicine. ”

“……”

As she spoke, she didn't wait for us to react, and reluctantly saluted Miao Yan again, and walked away from us.

Kou'er gritted her teeth in anger, and stared back at her back: "What's the anger!"

I smiled, "You didn't say that about her just now, and she may not be so angry." ”

Kou'er was still a little unconvinced, she was different from Su Su, she had been in the palace for too long, and she followed the queen, and her friendship with me was still behind, so she said: "I'm just not convinced of her appearance, besides, it's a matter of course to salute Her Royal Highness the princess, don't think she can escape." ”

I smiled.

But-

"Just now, Father-in-law Fu also said that the emperor refuses to see people, this medicine-"

I was a little hesitant, and was about to say that if I wanted to, I would like not to ask for this shame, and I would just go back, but before the words could be spoken, I heard Xiao Fuzi muttering to himself, and walked this way: "Didn't you say that you were going to send medicine? Why haven't you yet?"

Before he could finish speaking, he saw us.

Immediately, a smile bloomed on that face: "Your Royal Highness Princess, the slave maid meets Her Royal Highness Princess." Miss Yan, you're finally here. ”

I'm still a little hesitant: "Your Majesty, are you still busy?"

"What are you busy with!? ”

“……”

"If you don't come back, the tea won't come in. ”

“……”

The more I listened, the tighter my brows tightened, and I always felt as if I had gotten into a good set, and I subconsciously wanted to retreat, but before I could open my mouth and retreat, Xiaofuzi had already said loudly inside: "Miss Yan has arrived!"

The sound was heard far away at once.