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"Grandma" Chen Yanling walked over quickly and grabbed her grandmother's hand, "Why are you waiting again? I'll go in by myself when I come back, you don't have to wait for me."

"I didn't wait, I just couldn't stay at home, come out and take a turn" Grandma patted Chen Yanling's hand with a smile, not caring about Chen Yanling's words.

"Okay, then let's go home" Chen Yanling knew that it was useless to say anything, so she didn't say much, and walked into the wooden door with her grandmother in tow.

"Sister, you're back" As soon as he walked into the door, his younger brother Chen Yanjun rushed out of the inner room, looked at Chen Yanling and said happily.

"Well, what's so happy?" Chen Yanling looked at Chen Yanjun funny, not knowing what he had encountered to be happy about.

"It's nothing, it's just that you're back" Chen Yanjun touched his head and smiled silly.

When Chen Yanling was talking, her mother Yang Meili entered the door with a basket on her back, and Chen Yanling glanced at her and didn't say anything.

It's just "Yanjun, Yanjun, bring me hand washing water, don't you know if I've been busy in the field for a day?"

Just a few seconds later, Yang Meili's high-pitched voice came out of the room.

"Hey, go ahead, bring your mom hand washing water" Grandma frowned and sighed deeply, full of helplessness.

"I don't want to go," Chen Yanjun said with a pout, his eyes red.

"If you don't want to go, you won't go, I'll go" Chen Yanling touched Chen Yanjun's head with pity, and said helplessly.

"It's better for me to go, you went and scolded even more" Chen Yanjun held back the tears in his eyes and looked at Chen Yanling and shook his head.

"It's okay, sister, just don't hear it, you go in and do your homework, don't come out" Chen Yanling pushed Chen Yanling and turned around and went to the kitchen.

"There's hot water in the pot," said the grandmother, who was busy in the kitchen, when she saw Chen Yanling come in, and pointed to the kettle on the ground.

"Okay" Chen Yanling mixed the warm water and took it to her parents' house and put it in front of Yang Meili.

"I don't have that young lady's life, I still want to live the life of a young lady every day, I see that you haven't woken up yet, I am desperately planting this acre and three points of land, supporting such a large family, why doesn't anyone feel sorry for me?"

"Why is my life so miserable? I can't live this life when I meet such a lazy family, why did I marry into such a family in the first place?"

Chen Yanling hadn't gone in yet, but just passed by the window, and Yang Meili began to cry again when she saw it.

"Mom, the water is ready, come and wash your hands" Chen Yanling said as if she hadn't heard Yang Meili's words, lowered her eyes and looked at the water surface in the basin.

It's just that the hand that tightly holds the edge of the basin still betrays her emotions, she doesn't look so indifferent, her heart still hurts.

"What kind of washing? One or two people know that they are angry with me, why am I so bitter, why did I give birth to such a thing as you who doesn't know filial piety?"

Chen Yanling's low eyebrows and forbearance did not make Yang Meili restrain her, but intensified even more, pointing at Chen Yanling's nose and scolding

"A stinky girl, what kind of school do you go to, you can still work at home, earn some money, and when you grow up, you can still collect some bride price money when you marry someone"

"I just can't figure it out, why did you say that your dad made you study, the girls read all other people's books, why did he do such a thankless job?"

Yang Meili was sad when she thought of all these years, she had paid so much for this family, but no one remembered her good, and no one cared about her.

Thinking of this, Yang Meili burst into tears, crawling all over her face, crying uncontrollably.

Chen Yanling just looked at it coldly, without any movement or wanting to comfort Yang Meili.

In fact, it wasn't like this at the beginning, every time the little Chen Yanling saw her parents arguing, she would stand aside silently, crying and saying stop arguing.

When there is no more noise, Chen Yanling will accompany Yang Meili, Yang Meili falls asleep on the kang, and Chen Yanling stands quietly on the kang.

But later, Yang Meili would beat Chen Yanling every time she finished arguing, beating hard, little Chen Yanling was very painful, but she felt that her mother was in a bad mood, so she didn't dare to cry loudly, so she could only endure it.

After many times, Chen Yanling stopped going to the kang, watched from afar, and paid attention from afar, because she was afraid that she would lose her mother.

It's just that no matter how good patience is, there will be a day when it will run out, and no matter how much love it has, Chen Yanling will be desperate and disheartened in the quarrels, abuses and beatings day after day.

So Chen Yanling learned not to care, not to care about these, thinking that as long as her father, grandmother and younger brother loved her.

Chen Yanling has been wondering, what is a mother, is it a person who brings pain to her children, or is she a person who brings happiness?

For so many years, Chen Yanling has not found an answer, but Chen Yanling knows that not all mothers are loving mothers, and there are mothers like Yang Meili who have added countless scars to their children's hearts.

Chen Yanling has also fantasized countless times that if she had a child, she would definitely not treat her child like this, and she would give her child the love of the whole world.

Chen Yanling doesn't want everything she has experienced to let her children go through it, so she would rather lack than abuse, if it weren't for the fact that the man was really a person who could be entrusted for life, Chen Yanling would not have taken that step.

Tian Bo was chosen because Tian Bo had always loved Chen Yanling in his previous life, and Tian Bo was a good husband and a good father.

The more she thought about this, the colder Chen Yanling's heart became, she was afraid that if she continued to think about it, her heart would freeze, she would never melt anymore, and she would never feel warm anymore.

Throwing down the basin in her hand and leaving Yang Meili's sharp words behind, Chen Yanling rushed out of the house and ran towards the farmland behind.

"Why, why do you want to be like this, isn't it good to live a good life, why do you want our two siblings to bear this? Why?"

Chen Yanling looked at the wide farmland, but in the end, she still didn't hold back the complaint in her heart, and shouted at the uninhabited field.

"I don't have so many extravagant hopes, I just want to have a home full of warmth, but why is it so difficult, why?"

"Why is it that other people's homes are warm, but ours is cold and ruthless, without warmth, why?

After years of depression, even if Chen Yanling did it again, she still couldn't bear it, and at this moment, tears gushed out, like a volcanic eruption, out of control.

It's just that no one answered Chen Yanling's question, and Chen Yanling's question was like throwing a grain of sand into the deep sea, without causing any ripples.