Chapter 259: Each Has His Own Mind (4)
Sun Suhe held on to the railing, and slowly walked down the stairs step by step. Successfully rescued Cai Xunru and successfully resolved the incident, which should have been a gratifying thing, but Sun Suhe was not happy at all. The bear's injury made him feel so distressed that he felt his heart tremble and sour just thinking about it, and the annoying boredom was pressed against his chest, which was simply breathless.
In addition to this, there was a fury in his heart, burning gloomily like a flame in the ashes. Sun Suhe was not angry with Cai Xunru, or even Che Baiyuan, he was angry with himself and Alice.
He thought to himself in his heart: Although Cai Xunru and Che Baiyuan objectively caused Xiao Xiong to forcibly urge the nature of the natural disaster to be injured to this point, this was not their intention. If it weren't for my stupidity and conceit, this outcome could have been avoided entirely. The biggest culprit is my Sun Suhe.
I have been too smooth these days, although there are many waves, but I can always get the results I want, even if I fight with a master, I can have some upper hand in the open and secret, and I unconsciously have a trace of conceit and arrogance in my heart.
Like today, as long as you are cautious and ask Alice to go out with you, where would it be like this? But at that time, I stupidly thought: Anyway, it is nearby, and there are many crowded places, do they dare to blatantly act on the street? Even if he takes 10,000 steps back and says, if there is really a case, Brother Mao will not sit back and watch it so ruthlessly.
But the real result was that he was powerless to watch the bear get involved in this matter, and almost made a big mistake. Sun Suhe clearly realized again that when facing a master, he was still vulnerable, and even a burden that dragged his feet.
Also, there's Alice, the bastard, she did it on purpose.
Sun Suhe thought about these things with annoyance, and before he knew it, he had already gone down the stairs, his eyes wandering blankly, and he didn't even notice Alice who had been waiting near the stairs.
Smack, Alice snapped her fingers in Sun Suhe's ear to stop him. "Sad, you have something to say to me. ”
Sun Suhe turned his head angrily, not wanting to pay attention to Alice. He was very conflicted, he actually knew that Alice had done everything in this matter with good intentions, but he really couldn't agree with this kindness.
Alice took Sun Suhe's hand and dragged him to the study, "Come on, I know what you're thinking, maybe we really need to have a good talk." ”
The two sat down in the study, Sun Suhe bit his lip and didn't speak, he didn't want to say it, and he didn't know how to say it.
Alice shook her head with a smile, reached out and pressed her hand on Sun Suhe's cheek, forcibly pushing out a smile on his tense face that was more ugly than crying.
"What the hell. Sun Suhe angrily reached out and brushed Alice's hands away.
"Don't make a fuss, just like a girl. Still angry that I didn't stop the bear, the bear is much smarter than you think, even if I stopped her from opening the door and saw the stalemate between you, she would have already noticed it. ”
"I know. I thought about it, it's true that you can't stop the bear, and the result is the same. Sun Suhe looked at Alice and said with a complicated expression, "I'm angry that you actually expected this scene a long time ago, right? When was it? When was I going to go to the supermarket, or was it earlier?"
Alice spread her hands, "Please, it's you who want to go, how can you blame me?"
Sun Suhe looked into her eyes and said, "You only need one sentence to wake me up, stop me, or go with me, but you chose to push the boat with the water." Don't say these meaningless words, I'm Sun Suhe, you're Sun Suhe, can't I guess what you're thinking?"
Alice sighed, "I knew you wouldn't like me doing this. I'll admit that I did have a vague vision of this for a long time. I also admit that I want to use this to temper you, to polish away some of the too soft places in your heart, to grind away some of the too idealistic innocence. ”
"Then you can just tell me, why do you have to do this method. ”
"Will you listen to me if I say?"
Sun Suhe was silent for a moment, and had to admit calmly, "No." ”
"I told you a long time ago, consider the gains and losses, distinguish the trade-offs, just this time, you want to save Cai Xunru, and you don't want the bear to be injured, this is impossible to do, it's cruel, but you have to learn to choose from it. ”
Alice pressed her hands on Sun Suhe's shoulders, pressed her forehead against her forehead and whispered, "You blame yourself too much for your mistakes, and keep blaming yourself, just to escape this reality that you don't want to accept." Even if I go out with you at that time, what can I do? After we met Che Baiyuan and Cai Xunru, having me can certainly ensure the safety of both of us. But can Cai Xunru be saved? If you don't do it, you can't save him, but if you do it, he will definitely die. If you want to save him without injury, this result can be said to be the only solution. ”
Alice said and sighed, "Hey, you're too soft-hearted, no one wants to hurt anyone, and you can only hurt yourself in the end." Actually, I'm quite happy that you're angry with me. But this is also because you subconsciously feel that I am also Sun Suhe. If I weren't Sun Suhe, I'm afraid you wouldn't be angry with me, and you would only blame yourself more painfully. ”
"If you want to set foot outside the world, if you want to see more of the truth of this world, you will definitely encounter a moment of choice that is a thousand times more cruel than this. So I have to give you a vaccination beforehand, so that when the time comes, you don't really hurt yourself to the point of flesh and blood. ”
Sun Suhe said with a lot of confusion: "I understand, I understand, I understand the meaning of choice." As long as you throw away the burden, you can travel lightly and protect yourself, but if your body is not hurt, won't your heart regret it? I would rather try hard to get the best of both worlds than make a choice that I will regret easily. I know it's willful, greedy, and unreasonable, but I still want to give it a try. Didn't you say that in the calculation of gains and losses, as long as you become strong enough, you don't need to make such painful trade-offs. ”
Alice suddenly laughed, "I knew that whatever I said was nothing." ”
"Don't do this kind of thing in the future, your kindness is not what I want, I don't like this arrangement. Sun Suhe said categorically.
This is the first time that Alice and Sun Suhe have such a huge disagreement about a matter. Even "I" and "I" cannot understand each other. They all vaguely felt in their hearts that maybe the relationship between the two had changed from this moment.