Banxia thought about it, and always felt that it was such a roundabout thing, and he didn't know when he would be able to get to the point, so he got straight to the point and said: "Actually, I have something I want to ask you." ”

"It's about my feelings. Tao Ru was determined, and almost instantly saw through Banxia's thoughts.

"How do you know?" Banxia's eyes widened in surprise as she looked back at Momo.

She felt relieved and a little embarrassed when she heard Tao Ru explain what she said, Tao Ru guessed her mind at once, and Banxia still felt a little incredible.

"Actually, I have long seen that you are not right yesterday and today. Taoru shook her legs easily and happily, sitting on the mountainside, she thought that it would be difficult for her to have such an opportunity in the future, she could enjoy the scenery leisurely, and especially enjoy this time, "I know what you have to say, but I don't plan to confess to him." ”

"Why?" Banxia felt hope one second ago, but the next second she was directly shattered by Taoru's hope, she couldn't believe that Taoru could say the words of refusal so surely.

No matter how you say it, that's also her feelings, Banxia can see that Tao Ru is also very serious about Gongsun Jin and her own feelings, but such a cherished feeling, why can she easily say no.

Doesn't she know that what she rejects is not the joys and sorrows of one person, but the happy time of two people, how can she be so decisive and arbitrary?

Tao said: "I know your heart is very soft, it may be that parting is imminent, you will inevitably think too much, and there will be contradictions in your heart." ”

Tao Ru was questioned by Banxia, but she didn't get angry, but explained to Banxia very kindly, "You know that we are about to separate, and we must feel uncomfortable, and some things will come out of the depressed place, I understand your mood very well, because I am like this." ”

Banxia looked at Tao Ruyi, to be honest, she really didn't see that Tao Ru was also being tortured.

Could it be that Tao Ru is so well hidden that no one else has found out?

Tao Ru smiled bitterly, probably knowing what Banxia was thinking, she said a little embarrassed: "Do you know how my father and mother died?"

The style of painting is changing too fast, and Banxia can't keep up.

Tao Ru didn't care whether Banxia could keep up with her thinking, and said to herself: "My father was overworked and was only forty-five years old when he died. ”

In Banxia's widening eyes, Tao continued: "My mother died earlier, not for long, at the age of thirty-nine. ”

When the emperor and queen died, couldn't they just say the word death? How could Tao Ru say the word death so calmly?

Banxia looked at Tao Ruyi's eyes, and suddenly found that there was a trace of panic and fear in her eyes, which was fleeting, but Banxia still saw it.

Banxia suddenly understood a little, is Tao Ru also worried that she will die young and will not die well, so she is so afraid to confess her identity to Gongsun Jin?

Although Banxia doesn't know how the first emperor and succession died, maybe Qinghe Village is far away, most of the people talk about the royal affairs, Banxia has been here for almost a year, and he doesn't even know Tao Ruyi's life experience.

Banxia also thought that even if the palace was cruel, it should have died in conspiracy, and even if it was a death of calculation, it should not be dead at the age of thirty or forty, this kind of overworked death, and natural death, is simply something impossible to happen in the palace, if it weren't for hearing Tao Ru say this with his own ears, Banxia would probably not believe that this is the truth.

"That's just the way it is. Tao Ru smiled desolately: "I don't know if I can live longer, maybe I can use my life to do more good things for the world, that is the meaning of my existence, other things, I may not be so lucky, I can't have it." ”

Banxia heard Taoru's indifference to life and death, and thought that even her father and queen mother could directly say the word death before, and she said that she said the same thing, and every word revealed a kind of desolation that was downlooked.

Banxia was suddenly a little scared, held Tao Ruye's hand tightly, and said: "No, you won't be like that, don't think nonsense, you will definitely be able to live well, longer than anyone else." ”

She didn't know what she was supposed to say, it was a mess.

Tao Ru patted Banxia's hand lightly, and chuckled: "I scared you, right?"

Banxia hates peach Ru the most in this kind of light and breezy smile, just like looking at flowers in the fog, which makes people can't see it really.

She doesn't want the peach to be like this, she likes the peach who is always strategizing, and the peach who is always looking at the world.

Tao Ru looked at Banxia pursing her lips, stubbornly not speaking, but said with a very good smile: "Actually, you can sit in a position like ours, and the length of time you get is not so important." ”

Banxia wants to ask, it doesn't matter how long you live, what matters.

"If you live a long life, there is a way to live a long life, and if you don't live long, there is also a way to live a long time. Tao Ru said lightly, as if she had already arranged her own funeral, "I don't feel very sad like this, I just don't want to implicate others, so as not to die as a couple." ”

The death of the first emperor and the first queen seems to have had a great impact on Tao Ru.

She is afraid that she has not enjoyed the love of her parents, and she may also have some complaints about her parents, after all, the first emperor is dead, and the first queen can still hold on strongly, and live well with her children, but the first queen followed the first emperor and left behind two and a half old children, which is probably a thorn in Taoru's heart.

"If I have children in the future, I can't promise them the best life, but I must be able to grow up with them and try my best to give them all my love. Tao said longingly, as if she really saw the scene of the birth of her own child, "And if I can only leave them behind, it is better not to have them in the morning, so as not only to hurt the people next to the pillow, but also the most innocent children." ”

Banxia looked at Tao Ruye's eyes moist, and thought that Tao Ru was in the huge palace after the death of the first emperor and the first queen, and she didn't know how much she had suffered, and her nose was also pantothenic.

In such a cruel and cold palace, the two children have to stumble to grow up, and maintain the stability of the country, although most of them also have the support and support of the ministers, but the hardships must be countless.

Banxia was very distressed, and suddenly felt that she didn't know Tao Ru yes so well, and she didn't even know Tao Ru yes' past and life experience, and her friend was too incompetent.