Chapter 211: Letting Go Is Love (11)
"Jiani, woo...... Jiani, woo woo......" Shi Zhan was like a desperate beast, muttering Cen Jiani's name while lying on the steering wheel and whimpering. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info
After crying for about ten minutes, Shi Zhan calmed down, took out a few pieces of paper to wipe away his tears, and started to call, telling him that the people he had asked before didn't bother to find his heart, he didn't want it.
His Jiani didn't want him to go down the wrong path and exchange someone else's life for hers, so he wouldn't do it.
He couldn't let her worry about him at the end of her life, and she couldn't go at ease.
In fact, Dr. Feng had hinted to him before that even if he found the heart for Jiani, there was a ninety percent chance that she would not be able to use it. It's just that he doesn't want to give up.
Now that even Jiani has said so, he naturally has no need to insist.
For him, she also whispered to his mother, who had repeatedly humiliated her, and to Yu Linling, an outsider. He couldn't let her hard work go to waste.
She didn't want him to use illegal means to find her heart, so he wouldn't look for it, and she wanted him to be with Yu Linling, and he could agree.
As long as she's happy.
"Jiani, what I can do for you now is to fulfill all your wishes and let you go without regrets and worries. Shi Zhan stared blankly at the peace charm that Cen Jiani asked for him hanging on the endoscope, and said to himself: "I know that you can't let go of your uncle and aunt, I will take care of them like my own parents." ”
"I will also take care of myself, learn to love others, learn to be relieved, learn to be happy, learn to be happy. I don't know, can I do it, but I'll try. Don't give up easily, maybe a miracle will happen. ”
Thinking of Cen Jiani's hardships for him, the concessions and sacrifices made for him, and the stubborn and dead-eyed parents at home, Shi Zhan's eyes were full of hardship and struggle, and finally turned into a decisive decision: "Jiani, if you can be good, I will never pester you again." I'll let you go. ”
The Shi family and I are not worthy of you. You are a wonderful person who deserves better...... These are the true words that he hides in his heart and cannot say to others. Shi Zhan was moved by Cen Jiani's dedication to him, but he knew that he couldn't do what she did.
He is a selfish coward, and he can't reverse his parents' dislike for the Cen family and Cen Jiani, and he can't always accompany Cen Jiani, because he can't let go of his career.
He didn't have the confidence and courage to stay by Cen Jiani's side, watching her suffer from illness day by day, but he couldn't do anything and couldn't help at all, which made him feel very useless and couldn't help but want to escape.
The conversation between Cen Jiani and Yu Linling woke him up.
Although the process is painful. But at least he is very sober now, and he is soberly aware of how selfish, despicable and dark he and the Shi family are. He is not worthy of a person like Cen Jiani, who is more holy and immaculate in Shi Zhan's heart than the lotus flower under the Buddha's seat.
At this moment, Shi Zhan's heart was filled with endless remorse: Jiani, I knew that my love for you would bring you such bad luck, and I shouldn't have pursued you in the first place.
Shi Zhan turned off the audio, unplugged the headphones, started the car, and drove towards the hospital.
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It's been two and a half days since Nurse Xiao Gao leaked the secret to Shi Zhan.
Shi Zhan still went to the hospital every morning and evening to accompany Jing Lone, but he kept silent about the audio file, pretending as if nothing had happened.
If it weren't for Jing Lin logging into Nurse Kogao's mailbox and confirming that he had received the email, it would have been suspected that he would have been completely unaware.
What does Shi Zhan mean by this?
Jing Xiao pondered for two days, but he didn't come up with a reason, so he put this matter aside.
Since Shi Zhan pretended not to know, he had no intention of stopping her at all, proving that he acquiesced to her arrangement. She didn't have to replace Nurse Kodaka. The hospital was short of advanced care, and Dr. Feng couldn't find anyone to replace her for a while.
Jing Lin decides to go with the previous plan.
That afternoon, Yu Linling carried a basket of beautiful flowers and went to the hospital to visit Jing Lonely.
"Thank you for the flowers, it was beautiful. Jing Lin asked Nurse Xiao Gao to put the flowers on the coffee table and made a cup of tea for Yu Linling, "Xiao Gao, I want to talk to Miss Yu alone, you go out first." ”
"Okay. Xiao Gao still squatted under the windowsill and eavesdropped, but this time she didn't use her mobile phone to record, because Shi Zhan said she didn't need to.
"Lin Ling, how are you thinking about it?" Jing Silence went straight to the point and went straight to the point.
"......" Yu Linling remembered what Zhan said to her when she asked her to the coffee shop yesterday afternoon, and a charming smile bloomed on her face: "I thought about it for a long time and decided to promise you." "Not entirely for herself, but also for Shi Zhan.
Thinking of Shi Zhan putting down his figure and begging her to agree to Jing Lian's request and let her act with him with Jing Lian, the smile on Yu Linling's face stiffened, and she could hardly hang up.
"What's wrong with you? I don't think your face is very good. ”
"No, it's just that I haven't slept well in the past few days and I'm a little tired. Yu Linling cheered up, "Jiani, what about you, are you okay?"
"Not bad for the time being. ”
"Then we, when will we start?" Yu Linling wanted to start as soon as possible, to cut off the connection between Jing and Zhan as soon as possible.
Because yesterday she had already seen from Shi Zhan's face that he was almost dead set on Cen Jiani. A person as smart and arrogant as he would beg her for the ridiculous plan that Jing Lin proposed.
As long as Yu Linling thought of this, her heart seemed to be scorched by the fire, and she was anxious.
She doesn't want the person who is destined to become her own man to keep thinking about other women. She is not as open-minded as Cen Jiani. She just wants to hold on to the person she likes and let him see that she is the only one in his heart.
Yu Linling comforted herself in her heart: Shi Zhan was just too involved for a while, and regarded his sympathy and guilt for Cen Jiani as love, and his feelings for her were actually not as deep as he imagined. As long as she marries him and stays with him, it won't be long before he forgets Cen Jiani and loves her alone.
For so many years, he only loved her, isn't this a clear proof? I believe he will do the same in the future.
"If you don't mind, I'd like to start as soon as possible. Yu Linling was so anxious that her thoughts were written on her face. Jing Lin intimately cooperated: "I don't have much time, I want to arrange everything early." ”
"I'm fine. Yu Linling said: "How do you do it?"
"That's how we ......"
Jing Lin told Yu Linling that she had already agreed with Dr. Feng, and she asked Yu Linling to go to the hospital tomorrow morning and ask Dr. Feng to examine her, get a report, and bluff Shi Zhan and Cen's father and Cen's mother.
She also told Lin Ling that she only needed to let Shi Zhan and her parents know about the report, and she didn't need to tell others, so as not to cause more unnecessary trouble.
"Lin Ling, please talk to Ah Zhan and let him keep it secret. My parents are here, I'll talk to them. Dr. Fung risked having his doctor's license revoked to falsify the report for us, and if the news spread, he would be held accountable. We can't get him involved. (To be continued.) )